Human Croquet (33 page)

Mr Baxter meanwhile walks calmly over to the fireplace, takes his pipe off the mantelpiece and knocks the ash out of it on the hearth as if nothing has happened. I watch as if in a trance as he re-lights his pipe, sucking hard on the stem so that the tiny volcanic glow in the bowl heats and cools, over and over again, until Mr Baxter’s encircled in a faint blue haze. How can he be so calm in the face of so much domestic mayhem? But then I expect that Bluebeard probably locked up his secret butchery and went and made himself a cup of tea afterwards.

I grow suddenly aware of Mrs Baxter in the doorway, standing perfectly still, like a statue. She must have left the room and come back in again because in her hand she’s holding a carving-knife.

I have actually managed to find a scenario worse than yesterday’s! Christmas in Sithean is like being trapped in a nightmarish game of Cluedo – is it Mrs Baxter in the hallway with the carving-knife, or Mr Baxter in the living-room with a gun? Next it’ll be Audrey in the kitchen with the candlestick.

Then Mrs Baxter starts to lumber towards Mr Baxter, in a kind of slow motion, a charging rhinoceros chugging resolutely towards its target. As she charges Mr Baxter, Mrs Baxter makes a dreadful noise, like the moaning wail of an animal in pain. ‘What the hell are you doing, Moira?’ Mr Baxter says irritably, but as Mrs Baxter continues to charge his expression changes to one of disbelief. He looks round, perhaps for his gun, but it’s too late – Mrs Baxter has met her target, slamming into Mr Baxter (who makes a kind of
whumph
noise), sending him slumped to his knees on the hearthrug, so that for all the world he looks as if he’s suddenly decided to worship Mrs Baxter.

His hands, clutching his stomach, are bright red. Not the red of holly berries. Not the red of poinsettias. Not the red of robins’ breasts nor the red of tomato ketchup. The red of blood. The blood is oozing through Mr Baxter’s fingers, the stain spreading across the front of his Fair Isle pullover, knitted by Mrs Baxter for his last birthday. Last in all senses of the word.

Mrs Baxter, standing over him, bloody knife in hand, is like some terrible figure from Greek tragedy, her face smeared with blood from her first kill. Mr Baxter looks up at Mrs Baxter in astonishment, then looks down at his stomach with equal astonishment. Experimentally, he takes one of his hands away and blood spurts in a thin red fountain, a little gusher so powerful that it sprays the wall.

I snatch a cushion from the sofa and push it up against the source of the blood fountain but almost as soon as I touch him he falls forward on to his face. I try to push him the right way up but he’s too heavy. His eyes are nearly closed and his breathing harsh and shallow. And then suddenly there’s no breathing at all. His eyes stare lifelessly at the carpet. Mrs Baxter has turned back into a statue. Audrey is sitting on the sofa smiling at the baby as if nothing has happened. Who is the maddest person in this room? Mr Baxter is certainly the deadest.

‘But how can that possibly be?’ Eunice puzzles, looking at Audrey and the baby. ‘He’s her father, he can’t be the father of her baby
as well.’
There are some things it seems that Eunice doesn’t know. Carmen explains incest and abuse to her in a way that’s remarkably lucid for a girl whose head is full of cheese.

I suppose it must cross all our minds at some point that we could call the police but if it does we never voice the idea. Not even Eunice.

‘Perhaps we should all stick the knife in,’ I suggest miserably, ‘then we’d all be guilty.’

‘Then we’d all go down for murder,’ Eunice points out sensibly.

The three of us sit for quite some time discussing what to do (Audrey and Mrs Baxter are good for nothing). Carmen proposes that we take Mr Baxter to the casualty department of Glebelands General and say that he fell on the knife.

‘While carving the turkey?’ Eunice snorts with derision. If he’d been smaller we could have dragged him over to the hearth and immolated him on the fire. ‘And say what?’ Eunice says sarcastically. ‘That he fell down the chimney when he was delivering the presents?’

I get up and switch the Christmas tree lights off, their winking and blinking is driving me crazy. Carmen shares cigarettes and in the extremity of the situation smokes two at once. ‘I think we should bury him,’ she suggests.

‘Bury him?’ I repeat in horror. Part of me is still waiting for Mr Baxter to get up off the floor and burial seems a bit of a final option.

Carmen passes round a packet of fruit gums. ‘For God’s sake, Carmen,’ Eunice says crossly. ‘But bury him where?’

Carmen continues, warming to the subject now. ‘We could get Mr Baxter’s car, and we could take him somewhere, tip him in the river or bury him in a wood or somewhere.’

‘But none of us can drive,’ I point out.

‘We could have a go,’ Carmen says, always game for anything, ‘or we could just bury him in the garden, that would be easier.’

‘Easier?’ I query doubtfully. ‘And what would we tell people? I mean, how would we explain where he’d gone? People don’t just disappear.’ (What am I saying?) Carmen eats her way through a mince pie with an appetite that does her credit.

By now the rain is lashing against the curtained windows of the living-room (now more of a dead-room really). ‘Right then,’ Eunice says suddenly and proceeds to come over all Girl Guidish, ‘we’re going to need gloves, a torch, some rope and –’ She pauses, her clicking brain momentarily overcome by the circumstances it finds itself in.

‘A spade?’ I offer.

‘A spade, exactly!’

Without replying, we set about dragging Mr Baxter out through the French windows. Carmen, who at some point in her life must have witnessed undertakers in action, smiles sympathetically at the newly created widow and says, ‘It’s time to take Mr Baxter away now, Mrs Baxter.’ Eunice and I exchange uneasy glances, worried that Mrs Baxter might spring up from the sofa and suddenly understand what’s going on, but all she does is smile and say, ‘On you go then.’ A real Mrs Eerie-Cheerie.

We drag Mr Baxter’s lifeless shape out into the rain and along the garden path. Finally, with a lot of grunting and shoving and swearing, we tip him into his grave.

Eunice shines the torch on him. He looks less dead than he did two hours ago. ‘We have to cover his face,’ I say hastily as Carmen picks up her spade again. I run back into the house and snatch a handful of the festive paper napkins from the kitchen and then run back down the path with them and kneel at the side of the hole and put them on his face. ‘Careful,’ Carmen says, worried that I’m about to fall on top of Mr Baxter.

Covering him with soil is easy but disposing of the soil displaced by Mr Baxter is a grim job, trundling awkward wheelbarrows of the heavy wet stuff down to the bottom of the garden where we make a pile of it, like a dark sandcastle.

By the time we straggle back inside we look like we’ve just mined our way down under and back, filthy and soaked to the bone and speechless with shock. We take our shoes off outside the back door and stand under the porch light staring in horror at each other.

Meanwhile, in the kitchen, Mrs Baxter’s making a pot of tea and laying out more Christmas cake and mince pies on plates with festive doilies and the paper napkins which are now doubling as grave-clothes.

Mrs Baxter shoos us into the living-room with the tea-tray, then, putting it down on the coffee table, she beams at us. ‘Come on, come on, help yourselves.’ My heart sinks. ‘And you, Isobel, come on, eat up!’ she urges, handing me a paper napkin, the sight of whose red and green makes me blench. The pain in my face where Mr Baxter hit me is growing more acute by the minute.

There’s blood everywhere in the living-room, streaked on the walls, on the sofa, and the huge bloodstain that has become a macabre figure in the carpet. ‘We’ll have to do something about that,’ Carmen says to me.

‘Dearie me,’ Mrs Baxter says, overhearing this conversation, ‘we’ll need to hire a Bex Bissell for that.’ I’m sure the smell of blood – salt and rust – has seeped into the very air itself. ‘Have a piece of shortie,’ Mrs Baxter urges, ‘I made it myself.’

Audrey stirs, opening her eyes sleepily and spying the baby in her arms smiles her lovely smile. It would take a crowbar to separate them now.

Eunice sighs and leaves the room, coming back with a bucket of hot water and a bottle of Stardrops and mutters, ‘Come on,’ rather viciously at me but I’ve reached a stage of weariness that’s beyond anything. All my bones are sore and if there wasn’t so much blood in the living-room I would curl up on the sofa with Mrs Baxter and fall asleep. ‘It’s nice to have so many young people in the house,’ Mrs Baxter says gaily. ‘Daddy will be so pleased when he gets back – he’s a great one for the young people.’

A statement wrong on so many counts that I forget about the mud and the blood and the horror and sit heavily down on the sofa with my head in my hands.

‘Don’t be bothering yourself with that just now,’ Mrs Baxter says to Eunice, who’s on her knees scrubbing the carpet with an expression on her face that defies description. ‘How about a game of something?’ Mrs Baxter says brightly. ‘How about Rhubarb Charades or Hot Potato? Get Home Safe, Mother – that’s a nice quiet game. Human Croquet, that’s a wonderful game – of course we need more people for that,’ she adds wistfully. (How many people
do
you need for Human Croquet, for heaven’s sake?)

I stand up suddenly and run to the kitchen and am sick in the sink. The kitchen door’s still wide open, letting the rain in. Our muddy shoes are lined up neatly on the doorstep, like reminders of our lost innocence. I can’t go back into that hellish living-room. I step over the shoes, into the dark unquiet garden and go home.

‘It’s Christmas Day, of course.’

‘How long have I been asleep for?’

‘What on earth are you talking about?’ She moves a sauce-boat a fraction of an inch.

‘Have I eaten Christmas dinner, for example?’

‘For example?’ Debbie frowns. ‘Well, you’ve certainly eaten Christmas dinner. It wasn’t much of an example.’

‘Wish?’ Gordon asks, coming into the kitchen and picking up the arc of wishbone and proffering it to me. I decline.

I have to go round to the Baxters’, I have to find out if Mr Baxter’s alive like Hilary and Richard (presumably) or whether he’s at this moment turning into a vegetable. I run out of the back door and down the drive, the wind whipping through my hair and the rain soaking through my nightdress.

I’m running so fast that I can’t stop at the end of the driveway and run straight into the normally deserted road. The oncoming car’s on top of me before I even register that the dazzling light is coming from its headlights. Our paths are destined to cross exactly in the middle of the road, the driver must have a good view of my terrified face as I bounce on the bonnet before he swerves violently and goes crashing through the hawthorn hedge on the opposite side of the road and drives his car smack into a gnarled old hawthorn tree.

I have certainly seen
his
face, seen the horror on the features of Malcolm Lovat as he tries to avoid my unavoidable body.

I’ve landed half in the hedge and its thorns have torn at my face and hands. I crawl over to the car. The driver’s door is hanging open and Malcolm is slumped in the seat. I kneel on the ground next to him and put my hand up to hold his. I know there’s no escaping the dreadful words he’s going to say to me. I wait patiently, almost peacefully, for them.

He half-opens his eyes. His hair’s matted with blood, his face almost unrecognizable. ‘Help me,’ he whispers, ‘help me,’ and closes his eyes. I crawl away, back to my hedge, I really can’t bear this.