If You Still Want Me (19 page)

Austin kisses my cheek. "Feel better?"

I smile. "Yes. You?"

"Very much so."

I tilt my head so I can look into his stormy
gray eyes, hooded by the shadow of his Stetson. "Are you alright
with what's about to happen?"

"I am," he replies with no sign of hesitation in
his voice. "I already told Saul - you're a beautiful woman, inside
and out, and I'm happy to share myself with both of you. I love
you, Victoria."

"I love you, too." How could I not love this
man? It's not the same kind of love I have for Saul, but it's no
less deep. "It may take us some time to figure it all out,
especially with Saul's kinks compounded by my own, but-"

"We'll figure it out." His arms squeeze me
gently, and I believe him.

Grabbing my suitcase, I motion
for him to follow. He picks up the remaining luggage and follows as
I seek out the master bedroom, hoping for at least a queen-size
mattress. I'm not disappointed as we step into a modestly furnished
bedroom with a
king
-size
bed.

I laugh at that as I set my suitcase down.
"That'll be Joey's doing," I motion towards the bed that dominates
the room. "That boy says queens are too small for tall people like
him."

Austin's mouth is quirked up into a sexy
half-grin. "Remind me to thank him tomorrow."

I know Austin isn't sexually
attracted to women, but that doesn't stop me from being sexually
attracted to him. The man oozes the term
stud
, from his boots to his hat and that
length of denim in between. My tongue betrays me, darting out to
moisten my bottom lip.

Deciding I need a distraction, I pull out my
phone and the charging dock. The dock has built-in speakers, which
gives me an idea. After setting it up, I turn on the phone's
Pandora, setting it to the same station I'd been listening to last
week when Saul imploded.

I turn to find Austin watching me, his hat now
on top of his suitcase and an understanding blazing in his eyes.
Without words, we begin to undress, me to my underwear and him to
just his jeans. As I step into his arms and we begin to dance, our
hearts both attempt to recreate the night where this whole journey
started.

My journey. His journey. Saul's journey.

The bathroom door opens down the hall. My breath
hitches. I hear Saul's footsteps on the hardwood, leading him to
the bedroom where Austin and I move in a slow circle to some old
country love song recorded long ago on a vinyl record, before the
world became so obsessed with doing everything in such a damn
hurry.

This time, instead of Saul losing his mind when
he catches us dancing so intimately, he smiles at us from the
doorway, watching for a moment before stepping up behind Austin.
Saul's naked as his birthday. The boy's always wearing as little as
required, especially around the house in privacy. Austin sucks in a
breath as Saul's body presses into him, then both my boys smile
down at me.

It's uplifting - this moment
where we get to try again what went so wrong last time. Or, maybe,
it went exactly right; the way it had to go in order to get from
that moment to this one. I don't want to dwell on it too much,
because what I know for sure is that in this moment, right now,
I'm
happy
.

One of Saul's hands reaches around to slide into
my hair, his thumb tracing my earlobe. At the same time, he angles
his head so he can kiss Austin. When their lips meet, I swear I can
feel the fireworks zinging all the way down Saul's arm and into my
scalp. Watching my boys kiss, seeing the lust and love between them
ignite, is one of the most sensual experiences I've ever had.

They're smiling as they pull away from one
another, then those smiles are turned back on me. In a coordinated
movement, I'm switched places so that I'm now between them, with
Austin at my back and Saul staring down into my eyes. His playful
grin lights up my soul while Austin's strong hands on my shoulders
gives me shelter. I feel safe and wanted; encased in love and
wrapped up in peace.

Standing between the two men who have become
part of my heart, I am content.

"Now, there's a smile I missed," Saul whispers,
his gaze locked onto my lips.

"Show me," I request, and he complies by
stooping his tall height down to find my lips with his.

This kiss reestablishes the relationship we've
built over two decades, forgiving all the transgressions we've both
made the past few months. It's also more passionate than we've been
with each other in a long time. With Austin pressing against my
back and Saul's mouth possessing mine, a fever rushes through my
blood.

Nipping Saul's tongue, I end the kiss, much to
his whimpering protest. Austin chuckles behind me, the dark, rich
tone vibrating between our bare skin. Both of those simultaneous
reactions from my boys lights my body up. I don't think I've been
this aroused in ages.

Tilting my head, I reach back to cup Austin's
cheek, wanting to know if this will work - if Austin will be truly
comfortable sharing himself with both of us. The motion is
understood, and Austin doesn't hesitate to nuzzle into my neck,
kissing the skin. Those kisses trail up my cheek then to my lips,
where he kisses me in a way I wasn't expecting.

It holds as much passion and love as Saul's kiss
did. Austin's tongue parts my lips then thrusts into my mouth. I
hear Saul moan and feel his hands trailing down to my breasts. The
two sensations compound to set me on fire.

This time, I'm the one
whimpering as Austin pulls away, leaving me wanting. I blink back
to awareness to see Saul's smart-ass grin and waggling eyebrows.
Austin's winks at Saul then kisses my cheek again. My smile blooms
as I look between them. It's in that single, incredible moment that
the three of us realize this
can
work.

"Dang, cowboy," Saul giggles. "I think you done
short-circuited her brain."

My eyebrow quirks up as I'm flushed with the
need to reestablish control. "You think so?"

Saul's giggle wanes as his eyes widen. He
recognizes my tone for what it is and his body shivers against
mine. Reaching between us, I take hold of his hard cock, the heavy
heat throbbing in my palm as my fingers curl around the shaft. With
a flick of my thumb against his tip's piercing, I'm back in the
lead as Saul melts into me with a groan.

His hips thrust against my grip, but a gentle
squeeze makes him stop. He knows our rules, our silent signals and
the methods we've spent over a decade perfecting. Now, we need to
figure out how Austin can fit into them, and we need to learn what
Austin desires from us.

With a glance behind, I see the hooded lust in
Austin's eyes as he watches my hand slowly tugging along Saul's
erection. Austin's hands twitch against my shoulder, but I know
it's Saul he really wants to be touching. With no hard feelings
about that understanding, I step to the side then lead Saul into
Austin's arms without letting go of his cock.

Both men groan as their bodies collide, and the
sound fills me with bliss. It also amps up my arousal to a degree I
haven't hit in years. Austin and Saul together is probably the
sexiest thing I've seen, and trust me, I've some some sexy shit at
Brandon's club.

This, though, is something completely different.
I don't know how to describe it, but it's like this energy flowing
between the three of us, turning us on more and more through a slow
burn. I can feel it sizzling across my skin, from my scalp to my
toes to my pierced clit. When I touch Austin's cheek as his hand
helps me tease Saul's cock, the connection completes, and I swear
fireworks are about the blow the Blue Bayou to the moon.

"Hot damn," Saul mumbles, his head leaning back
against mine.

Austin takes advantage of the exposed neck,
tracing his tongue up over Saul's Adam's apple and flicking the
underside of his chin. My hands leave Saul's cock in Austin's
capable grip then venture along the waistline of Austin's
bluejeans. He sucks in a sharp breath as I tuck two fingers behind
his button and push it open with my thumb. With slight trepidation,
I hold my breath and hope I'm not letting my lust push this too
far.

Austin stops breathing as my fingers brush
against the base of his cock, so I meet his gaze. In them I see
permission, so I sink my hands into his jeans without either of us
looking away. Instead of losing himself in Saul, he wants to know
it's me touching him, and I think he wants me to understand it's
okay.

We share a smile as Saul's floating on cloud
nine between us. I free Austin's cock from his bluejeans then watch
with relieved pleasure as Austin exhales a moan caused by my touch.
When I nudge his cock against Saul's, the three of us shudder in a
unified gasp.

"Fuckin' incredible," Saul mutters, leaning
forward to nuzzle into Austin's neck before turning around without
ever losing contact between our bodies.

Once he's facing me, his hands
are tugging at my panty straps. "
Please
," he whispers against my neck.

I feel Austin's hand along with Saul's blunt tip
nudging between my legs, rubbing the lace of my panties against my
hard, aroused clit. "On your knees, sweetie."

"Yes, ma'am," Saul complies, immediately falling
before me as his hands worship my skin.

Austin's hand moves from Saul's cock to his
blond hair with a gentle grip. The brewing storm in Austin's eyes
captivates me as his lips utter a hushed command. "Taste the lace,
Saul."

Oh my fucking...
My
heart flips. I knew Austin had dominance tendencies, but I hadn’t
expect it to be so damn sexy.

I'd been worried about a war between our
dominant natures, but we've already started finding our balance.
When our eyes meet again, I can see that Austin is reading me. He's
been watching Saul and I for two years. He knows our chemistry; our
kinks. Having Saul tongue the lace between my legs is exactly what
I want.

"Yes, sir," Saul replies, his voice awed and
heavy with desire.

This is what Saul wants - to be between Austin
and I, pleasing us both and complying with our demands. He trusts
us in a way that is to be cherished and honored. As Austin smiles
at Saul's reply, I know Austin will cherish and honor Saul just as
much as I do.

Wet heat throbs against my aching clit as Saul's
tongue flicks across my lace panties. Moisture from his lips
suckling the fabric soaks past the lace, weakening my knees.
Austin's strong arm is there, holding my elbow as his other hand
runs through Saul's hair. It's beautiful - this moment. Simply
beautiful.

"Ease them down slowly," Austin commands. "No
reason to rush."

"Yes, sir."

But I disagree, or at least my body does. I'm
twitching now with the ache to have myself fully exposed to them. I
want Saul between my legs while Austin holds onto me, keeping me
from floating away.

Trailed kisses follow Saul's removal of the
laced fabric from between my legs. Then, as if sensing the building
tension, Saul playfully tickles the underside of my knees. The
tension is released as I squirm in a laugh, Austin sharing a smile
with me.

"Behave," I order as the laughter recedes.

"Always do," Saul grins up at me as he brushes a
finger under my foot.

"Brat," I laugh again at the tickle, lifting my
foot out of my panties.

"Hmm," Austin looks down at Saul who wiggles his
eyebrows. "We may have to punish him for that if he keeps
misbehaving."

"Yes, please!" Saul nearly bounces, then lowers
his eyes as Austin and I both clear our throats at the same time in
response to his outburst. "I mean, if you think I deserve it," Saul
amends with a coy little blush.

"We'll see," I tease. "First, help Austin out of
his jeans."

Saul's blush blossoms as he quickly twists
around on his knees to face Austin. His hands reach up to where
Austin's engorged cock stands erect from his open fly, but Austin
grabs Saul's wrists to stop him. Saul freezes, his body visibly
shivering in Austin's strong, masculine grasp.

This is what Saul needed. I've known it for a
long time, and I'm proud and pleased to see that I'm right. I can
command Saul's attention with my words and my whip, but Austin
provides the male dominance Saul's always craved.

"Bad boy," Austin chides, and I think Saul's
about to shiver out of his skin as he gasps in obvious sexual
pleasure from Austin's voice. "You forgot your manners."

Saul inhales sharply then glances up at me over
his shoulder and through his long, blond eyelashes. "I'm sorry,
Vickie. I was too dang eager ta' get Austin's dick in my
mouth."

"That's okay, sweetie," I coo, smoothing a hand
through his hair. "But try to remember next time."

"Yes, ma'am," he speaks the reply he forgot to
say a second ago. "M-may I?"

"Yes," I agree before the anticipation kills us
both. I won't lie - I'm just as eager to see Saul's lips around
Austin's cock. It's something I've caught myself fantasizing about
ever since I figured out their true feelings for one another.

Saul eases Austin's jeans down to the ground
then props back up on his knees with hungry eyes and a lick of his
bottom lip. "I'd like to suck it," he mutters quietly but remains
still.

"Please,
mi
amor,
" Austin cups Saul's cheek lovingly,
making me smile. "I'd love for you to suck it."

As Saul's tongue flicks across the slit tipping
Austin's dick, I moan with Austin as his hand on my elbow tightens.
We're sharing everything - every sensation, every suck, every kiss.
Saul's taking Austin into his mouth, but I can feel it, too,
throbbing my clit. Each stroke and swallow has me gasping for air
as wetness gathers between my thighs.