Authors: Bruce Wagner
I'll Let You Go (38 page)
Such miracles happen, even at Mac.
A
nother reunion is at hand, though not as poignant.
He had what he neededâthe girl's statement about the ascot's ownership was incriminating enough for him to now seek charges of rape and murder against John Doe aka Topsy aka William. He would visit the district attorney in the morning.
When Samson returns to Rampart Detectives, he is pulled up short by the sight of a woman sitting at the end of a bolted row of hard plastic scoop-chairs. His body knows her before his mind can properly assess; one child's neuroperceptual difficulty is another man's cognitive dissonance. He takes everything inâflamboyant vintage dress and absurdly glamorous hat upon fiery, fierce-bunned hair; the business end of a stiletto tap-tap-tapping on the cigarette-burned linoleum floor.
She stands, and the air rushes out of him.
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After the vagrant's disturbing visit undid and upended all her missionary work, Lani Mott used the resources of the advocacy office at children's court to track down one Edith Stein aka Amaryllis Kornfeld, even traveling to El Monte to visitâbut to what end? What do you want with this child? asked her CASA supervisor. Because Lani hadn't said straight out that she wished to be the girl's advocate. That of course is what she
did
want, more than anything, yet couldn't voice because of a lurid, niggardly fear that shamed her no end. She had become a Court-Appointed Special Advocate in such selfless spirit of noblesse oblige; had cheerfully undergone the sometimes-depressing training and even put on a little “graduates' day dessert” at the house, thoughtfully catered by Gilles. Yet more than a year later, all she had to show for her altruism was one measly case: driving a sullen teenager back and forth from a fancy residential facility to Western Dental to get a retainer. She'd made grandiose excuses to her growingly contemptuous courthouse bossâa death in the family, trouble at workâturning down case after case simply because she didn't want to travel to certain neighborhoods, where she felt she would be at physical risk. She wouldn't even go to Leimert Park! Lani Mott had said no so many times that she'd been informed that her days as an advocate were coming to an end. A fired volunteerânow, that was pretty low. But the fact remained: Lani Mott was afraid.
Carved Fungi
A
n unexpected thing happened when Trinnie and Samson sat down for supper at Ivy at the Shore: she lost focus. The manic, aggrieved woman had used her brother's office to find himâsteeped in fervid self-righteousness, she had relished every step of the ambush. Yet after that first encounter, standing next to him under the fluorescent lights of Rampart, an uncanny light that made everything too real hence not real enough, after they had agreed to see each other that very night, Trinnie was all peace and love as she wended her way back to Saint-Cloud. Climbing from the bath, she felt acutely alive. She chose a simple black shift and left the house with a bounce in her step, the chill air a tonic. The top was down on the Cabriolet.
Sam Dowling was a childhood friend; well, more a friend of Dodd's. His family had been poor (they lived south of Olympic) but, like pioneers before them, were determined to give their son a Beverly Hills education. He was one of the few kids at BVâmaybe the
only
oneâto have gotten close to her brother, and for that Trinnie was ever grateful. He wasn't a user, either; she knew he didn't pal around with Dodd for the perks, and there were plenty. (Not that Trinnie would have cared.) Sam was a gawky, good-hearted boy, clueless in matters of money and social status, the latter of which her brother was sorely lacking. The future detective's democratic qualities and all-around innocent kindnesses were rewarded with lavish summer trips, three in a row to their Great Camp on Saranac Lake.
She knew a few things about himâthat he'd married young and become a cop; that he'd been shot twice in the chest during a “routine traffic
stop” and not been expected to live; that his marriage was the thing that didn't survive. When he recovered, he moved to Fiji to soul-search, with Dodd fronting him money to build a small resort for scubaholics. But law enforcement was in his blood, and Fiji was too damn peaceful. He sold the hotel, repaid his friend and returned to L.A. with an eye on a detective's shield.
He re-entered Trinnie's life when her brother called on him to mediate in the awkward business of the stolen book and then again when her husband, Marcus Weiner, the eccentric and beloved Hollywood agent, vanished into thin air.
Sam Dowling was always “interested.” When he appeared on that terrible morning, standing with Louis Trotter and his children in the lobby of La Colonneâground zeroâlooking so fresh and dapper, and the heiress so disheveled, anyone could see in his eyes how he was sorry-grateful the crazy man had left her at last. He tried to insinuate himself into her life, but it was not to be; soon after, she began the years of flight and exile.
“I've been reading about you,” he said.
“Where?” she asked, surprised. “The AA newsletter?”
“InternetâI've asked Jeeves all about you.”
“Oh shit. Google'd again.”
“And that piece in
House and Garden
, about the maze. At Saint-Cloud.”
“You're pretty well read for a cop.”
The detective was endearingly nervous around her. Physically, his blade-like profile and droll, homespun mouth were reminiscent of Joe DiMaggio's.
“Do you ever see my brother?”
“Not recently. We talk.”
“And Father?”
“Nominally.” He laughed, almost to himself. “I know it's incredible, but he still keeps me on retainer. I've told him I don't want the money, but he insists.”
“That's Dad.”
“A good man. His health?”
“Great.”
“Your mom?”
“Everyone's fine.”
They spoke with bemused affection of her father's monumental funerary quest, then Trinnie broached the subject of Samson being shot (one seemed to follow the other). He said it probably hadn't been the worst thing, because it got him to slow down and reassess priorities. Trinnie thought his response a bit clichéd, then busted herself for being so cynicalâ
she
wasn't the one who had taken a bullet. His humor and humility won out, and held her attention. She asked if he still spoke to his wife, and Samson said no, not in years.
Since she had sat down, a familiar-looking middle-aged man had been stealing glances. Trinnie finally met his gaze; he stood and walked over. He was John Burnham, one of the heads of William Morris. A friend of Marcus Weiner's from the mail room days, Mr. Burnham politely paid his respects without referring to the debacle, adding that he would love to talk to her about designing a maze for his Hancock Park home.
When he returned to his table, Samson said, “You know, I still have feelers out for Marcus.”
“I would have thought,” said Trinnie, backtracking, “that you'd have stayed more in touch with my brother.”
“That's not often easyâthe world he moves in is a little rarefied. I mean, it's fun to joyride in his jet to some abandoned mental asylum â¦Â
once
.” She laughed, and it made him cocky. “But twice? A bit epic for my taste. That's your world.”
“Was that a dig, Detective?”
“Sorryâthat didn't come out quite right. I just meant âto the manor born.'Â ”
“I'm afraid my world has shrunk.”
“I doubt a shrunken world could hold you, Trinnie.”
He touched her hand, then withdrew it, sipping his drink. He decided to confess what she already knew. He admitted to finding her husband in the Adirondacks, rehashing everything her father had said, ending with the hospitalization and escape. The only detail she hadn't heard was how, before his capture, Marcus had taken sanctuary on cold nights at St. John's in the Wilderness, the family parish.
“I'll tell you one thing, KatrinaâI think he wanted more than anything in the world not to hurt you.”
“Didn't do such a good job, did he?”
Samson started to say something, but she stopped him.
They sat awhile in silence. When she asked if he'd take her to his apartment, he actually got up to flag down the waiter for the bill.
T
rinnie had never been inside the El Royale. She always imagined the suites to be rococo in that thirties way, and maybe some were, but not Sam's. Like the detective himself, the rooms were simple, solid and unprepossessingâwith the occasional flair.
They made love without niceties and she felt herself pulled through the maze. He pulled her through. The surgical scar on his chest was like a shadowy imprint of barbed wire. She sobbed and keened as they fucked, but he never stopped advancing and she was glad he didn't bother with useless questions such as what was the matter and was she OK. She felt the withheld drug of his come, hating the condom and all its second-skin safeties. This was a man she had known as a girl and now he carried her on a litter, on a bier through the bower back to the lakeâhallelujah of painted summers at Twig House, Katrina and Dodd taking turns at the Chris-Craft, dizzying bounty of shimmering Saranac space, breaking the godly glass of water surrounding thirty thousand Trotter-owned acres, past great stands of maple and oak steeped in kettle ponds, bogs ringed with hemlockâpast Pulpit Rockâpast stone chalets and Orientalist sleeping cabins while loons and red-breasted mergansers called from their perches. Louis in black tie and Bluey in Halston sat on the boathouse porch sipping hot buttered rum from an army canteen. At nighttime, the children stormed the gates of heaven: campfires roared amid hullabaloo of square dancing, and the Dowling boy moved as if in a paradisal dream: lanterns led to the darkly dizzying mahogany-clapboard Great Camp with its diamond-fretted windows and white birch bark appliquéâmarking pathways past cedar Parthenon replicaâpast elaborate stickwork of old icehouse to brainstorm siding of breeze-way containing the funicular; they climbed in and ascendedâthat's where he first kissed her, smelling girl-breath of cinnamon, spruce and beer. Their destination was the pole-worked bowling alley on the hill where Sinatra and Bobo Rockefeller played. She was twelve, and Samson, fifteen.
One summer, a servant drove them to Tear of the Clouds lake. Dodd was sick, and Sam had her all to himself. She couldn't have known what that meant; she couldn't have known anything about it. The detective
never forgot the sights and sounds and smells of that day, and years later revisited those sacred waters in his mind while shrapneled body healed. When he flew back to see the jailed Marcus, he took a side trip thereâto
all
the old hauntsâbut they were lapsed and foreign, without even the familiar desuetude of rooms after party guests have gone.
Enfolded in his arms, she felt her husband near. After all, hadn't Sam Dowling been the last to see him? Now,
she
came off the lake and was high up La Colonne, high in the boudoir of the tower before it officially shearedâholding court while their vows still held. At the El Royale, she smelled her obsession again â¦Â and later, at home at Saint-Cloud, as she fell asleep she too hovered over Twig House before settling into its game-stuffed den where her father kept his whimsical collection of fungiâeveryone at the lake had their fungi. Mr. Trotter had commissioned a villager to inscribe one of the pieces in Latin:
Dive, be not fearful how dark the waves flow;
Sing through the surge, and bring pearls up to me;
Deeper, ay, deeper; the fairest lie low.
D
odd Trotter was excited, and slightly embarrassed. Marcie Millardâand this was something one of his own attorneys subsequently confirmedâMarcie Millard said the general
feeling
was that the Board was poised to react favorably to the proposal of naming a wholly revamped Beverly Vista School in the benefactor's honor. There was
some
opposition, she said, but that was to be expected. Things were looking up, yet the question of how to live it down as far as his sister went (should the new name come to pass) whimsically asserted itself.
It was easy to see why the Board might be seduced. The new facility would include underground parking, a world-class planetarium, a theater-in-the-round (like the high school's, only larger), pool and gymnasium, a two-acre rooftop park and the kind of library where streaming-video conferencing, “smart” books, virtual homework networks and PowerPoint presentations were de rigueur. Wolfgang Puck came aboard with three menus for the cafeteriaâorganic, ethnic and traditional American. Yoga, fencing and Wu Shu would be offered,
alongside more traditional sporting pursuits; a fund would be created to underwrite uniforms, playground equipment and musical instruments, in perpetuity. Even the backs of classroom chairs would be fitted with flat-panel screens.
