I'm Nothing (The Family Book 2) (9 page)

“No, I don’t want to!”

He spoke clearly.

Climbing out of her bed, she padded into his room.
Opening the door, she saw that he was thrashing in his bed, screaming for help,
and for someone to stop.

“I don’t want to hurt them anymore.”

She couldn’t bear to hear him anymore, and so she went
close to him, giving his shoulder a shake. “Tonio, it’s a bad dream.”

He didn’t wake, so she shook him even more.

Zara screamed as he grabbed her, pulled her to the
bed, and pressed a gun to her head at the same time as gripping her around the
neck.

“It’s me,” she said, screaming. He wasn’t strangling
her so she was able to speak without a struggle. “Tonio! It’s Zara, you’re
hurting me.”

She started to hit him, and he stopped. “Zara?”

He pulled away, placing the gun on the bedside table.
“You sleep with a gun?”

“Always have.”

“Fuck, Tonio, you could have shot me.”

“What are you doing here?”

She huffed. “You were having a bad dream. I wanted to
help you. Isn’t that what friends do?”

He dropped down, covering her body. His head nestled
against her breasts. “Thank you.”

Okay, she was struggling with this. Tonio was a large
guy, muscular and sexy, and she was getting aroused.

Seconds ago he had a gun to my head!

She didn’t know what was wrong with her.

No sex.

No teasing.

Nothing, and she wanted to. When she was alone in the
apartment, she watched porn. That was how desperate she was becoming for touch.

“You smell nice.”

“Thanks. It’s soap.”

“No, it’s more than soap. It’s all you.”

“Weird, Tonio.”

He inhaled near her neck, and her nipples grew tight.
Biting her lip, she tried to keep in her moan.

“I saw what you watch when I’m not at home,” he said.

“What?”

“You’re a very horny girl, aren’t you?”

Her cheeks heated. There was no way she was ever going
to be able to look at him the same way again.

“Just kill me now.”

He thrust his pelvis against her, and she became aware
of his rock hard cock.

Tonio lifted up, and she stared into dark brown eyes.
“I’ve got a proposition for you.”

“You do?”

“Yes.”

“What is it?” she asked, licking her lips.

“I like you, Zara.”

“I like you as well.”

“You’re a virgin, and from what I’ve seen, you don’t
want to be a virgin anymore.”

“I don’t.”

He stroked her cheek, the backs of his fingers going
back and forth. “I’m protecting you, and you’re cooking for me. We’re boyfriend
and girlfriend, only without the title.”

“So, what do you suggest?” she asked.

“We make it permanent. I want to fuck you, Zara.” He
pressed his cock against her. “And with the way you’re wriggling beneath me, I
think you want to be fucked.”

“Yes, I do.” Why lie? She was only going to prolong
her own needs. Zara wanted sex.

No, she craved it, yearned for it, and she needed it.
She needed him.

Tonio was an amazing guy, and in the past week alone,
he’d given her so much more. Her life was contained to the apartment building,
and yet, it was everything to her.

“I’ll fuck you, and I’ll give you everything that
you’ve been craving. I’ve watched some of the videos you’ve been watching, and
you’ve surprised me. Anal?”

Her cheeks heated. “I was curious how an out hole
could be used like that. It’s an out hole.”

She was going to die of embarrassment.

“I don’t have a problem with what you watched. I’m
totally intrigued in how much you want to do with each other.”

“Have you done anal?” she asked.

“Yes, I have.”

“Did it hurt?”

“Not for me.” His hand moved from her cheek down, and
he stroked a finger over her nipple, making her gasp. “What do you say, Zara?
You want to live out those fantasies with me?”

She moaned. “Yes. I want it.”

He pulled her top down, exposing her breast, and she
screamed as he sucked her nipple into his mouth. She stared down, watching him
take her bud between his lips. He let her breast go, and his tongue lapped over
her nipple. Tonio pulled her shirt down completely, exposing both of her tits.
“I want you completely naked.”

“Do you want to talk about your dream?” she asked,
hoping he didn’t want to in that moment.

“I want to fuck you, and have you screaming my name. I
don’t need anything else.” He pulled away, grabbing her pajama shorts, and started
to pull them down her body. She lifted her ass up to assist him, moaning as his
fingers trailed down her body. “Fuck, baby,” he said, throwing her shorts away.

She tugged her shirt up over her body as he left the
bed.

“You’ve never seen a cock before, have you?”

Zara shook her head. “No sex, remember? Anything I’ve
seen has been on television.”

“You’re the only girl I know who has watched a
shitload of porn.”

Anything she was going to say stopped. He pushed down
his pants, and she got to see a dick for the first time ever, and he was …
impressive.

Tonio’s cock was long, thick, and the tip was wet with
his pre-cum. She may be a virgin, but she knew about sex and had craved it long
enough.

“Are you ready for this?” he asked, gripping his dick.

She couldn’t look away as he held his cock, and
started to work the length up and down.

“Where are you going?” she asked, when he moved away.

He flicked the light on, and she got to see him
clearly without anything getting in their way.

Tonio was amazing.

Biting her lip, she stared at him, and when her gaze
traveled up his body, she noticed the scars, most of which were faded.

She stared into his eyes. There was so much to Tonio
that she would never have guessed through high school. He was a good man in his
heart. He moved toward the bed, and she went to her knees, staring at him.

Tonio cupped her cheek, stroking her before sliding
his fingers into her hair, and pulling tight. “You can stop this at any time.
Just say the word, and I’ll stop.”

“I don’t want to stop. I want this, Tonio. I want
you.”

With the grip on her hair, he pulled her up tight and
slammed his lips down on hers, capturing a kiss. She cupped his face, kissing
him back, sucking his bottom lip into her mouth and nibbling on it.

“Fuck, baby.” He pushed her down to the bed, following
her down.

His large body pressed her against the mattress, and
she didn’t care. All she wanted was him, surrounding her and inside her. Her
pussy was on fire, and she didn’t care for it to be clean or nice. Zara wanted
to be fucked.

Tonio broke the kiss first, trailing his lips down to
her neck. He bit down on her pulse, making her gasp. Down he went until he came
to her breasts.

She was on fire, a burning mass of need, and only he
could put it out.

Suddenly, he pulled away. “Nah, I don’t think you want
it.”

“Fuck, Tonio. I’m here. I’m naked. I want you,
please.”

The wicked glint in his eye had her grabbing a pillow,
and throwing it at him. “You’re an ass.”

“I’m an ass you want to fuck, though.”

“Ugh!” It didn’t matter. She still wanted him.

Chapter Eight

Tonio couldn’t remember a single time that he’d been
comfortable with a woman. Zara, she eased the pain and the torment inside him.
He chuckled, dodging the pillow she threw at him. Gripping her thighs, he
spread them open, and she paused.

“This is what you want.” Skimming the tips of his
fingers up the inside of her thigh, he watched her nod. “Now, all virgins are
usually the same. They want you to go slow for their first time.”

“I just want sex, Tonio. Please, I trust you.”

He smiled. This was the first time a woman had ever
trusted him with something so precious. All of the other women had been forced
to be there, and he’d been terrified. With Maria, she’d been the one in charge,
and he’d done as he was ordered.

Resting both of his hands on the inside of her thighs,
he left her wanting more.

“It’s going to hurt.”

“At first it will hurt, and then it’s going to be
amazing,” she said.

Opening the lips of her pussy, he stared down at her
cunt, seeing how wet she was. There was a thin dusting of hair covering her
pussy, and when he opened her up, he saw the swollen nub of her clit. She was
soaking wet, and using his thumb, he circled her sweet spot, and she shuddered.

“God, that’s amazing.”

“That’s just my thumb, baby. I can make it better.”

“How?”

He smirked. Leaning down, he spread her legs wide by
using his arms to keep them open. Sliding his tongue across her clit, he heard
her cry out his name.

“Fuck, that is so good, Tonio,” she said.

Tonio loved hearing his name coming from her lips, and
he wanted to hear it again.

“Oh God, so good,” she said, whimpering.

“We’re only just getting started.” He sucked the whole
of her clit inside his mouth, and at the same time moved his arms up to cup her
breasts. He pinched her nipples and teased her in time with his sucks.

Changing from his mouth to his fingers, he moved up
her body, sucking on her tits before, taking her mouth.

“Taste how sweet you are,” he said.

She moaned. “Please, why did you stop?”

He chuckled against her skin, moving back down to
flick, suck, and tease her clit.

“Tonio, oh, Tonio.”

With his free hand, he gripped his dick, teasing up
and down the length. He wanted inside her. Never had he felt this burning need
to claim a woman for his own, and with Zara, he could make her his.

She called to him in ways that he never thought
possible.

“Come for me, Zara. Let me taste that sweet cum.”

“Yes, yes, I want to.”

“Give it to me, and then I’ll slam my cock inside you,
and show you everything that the porn movies couldn’t give you.”

“What’s that?” she asked.

“A real cock.”

Flicking his tongue across her clit, he held onto the
lips of her pussy, keeping her open for him. He didn’t want to penetrate her
pussy until he’d made her come. When he finally took her, she’d be soaking wet
and begging for more.

As he sucked her clit, she cried out once again, and
he knew without a doubt that he’d never get bored of hearing her come. She
sounded so fucking sexy when he was teasing her clit. Everything faded into the
background, the memories of the past, and the fear of what would happen when others
found out. All of it ceased to matter to him as he focused on making Zara come.

“That feels so good. Please, don’t stop.” She gasped,
moaning as he flicked his tongue from side to side, giving her everything she
needed. “Oh yes, Tonio, oh my, I’m going to come.”

Her body started to grew taut, and her cream spilled
from her pussy as her orgasm washed over her. Tonio didn’t let up. He drew her
orgasm out so that she’d never forget how good it was to have him between her
spread thighs.

Only when he was satisfied that she couldn’t take
anymore did he let up. Reaching into the top drawer beside his bed, he grabbed
a condom, tearing it open, and sliding the latex down his shaft.

He moved between her legs and stared into her eyes.
“Are you sure?”

“Yes.”

“It’s going to hurt. Do you want me to go slow?”

“Tonio, just do it. It’s going to hurt either way, so
please, let me feel you inside me.”

Gripping his cock, he pressed the tip to her entrance,
and keeping his gaze on her eyes, he tensed up, slamming every single inch of
his cock within her.

She screamed, sinking her sharp nails into the flesh
of his arms.

He gritted his teeth, fighting against that pain. What
he was doing would be worse.

“It hurts,” she said, whimpering.

“I know, baby. I know it hurts.” Leaning down, he took
possession of her lips, staying perfectly still within her as she grew
accustomed to the length of his dick. “I’m here.” He whispered the words
against her lips, moving his hands up to take hers, locking their fingers
together. “I didn’t want to hurt you.”

“I know.”

He stared into her blue eyes seeing the sheen of tears
glistening. “Don’t hate me.”

“I couldn’t hate you, Tonio. I wanted this, and I
wouldn’t have been able to stand the pain if you’d gone slow.”

Plunging his tongue into her mouth, he kissed her
until she stopped being tense beneath him. He loved her passionately, needing
her so damn much. This kind of need had never occurred to him with Maria. She’s
been an ache, a desire, but nothing more. He’d not missed her when she was
married. If anything, he’d been hurt more by Maria than anyone else. She hadn’t
wanted him.

Zara started to wiggle beneath him, moving on his
cock.

“I couldn’t hurt you, Zara.”

She smiled. “I couldn’t hate you.” Her fingers
tightened around him, squeezing. “Make love to me, Tonio.”

Never had he been asked to do something so precious.
Claiming her lips, he slowly eased out of her, watching her eyes as he began to
make love to her. He felt every single contraction of her pussy as she squeezed
to keep him inside.

With only the tip of his dick inside, he eased up, and
started to shallowly thrust into her pussy, watching her gasp.

“I’ll make love to you this first time, and I’ll give
you everything, Zara. I only ask one thing.”

“What?” she asked.

“No one else. You’ll be mine, and you’ll not look at
another man, not now, not ever.”

“There’s no one else I want, Tonio. Just you.”

He gave her every single inch of his cock, thrusting
to the hilt inside her. She pushed her pelvis against him, and he made love to
her, loving every single inch of her body.

“That feels so good,” she said.

“I can make it feel better.”

Releasing one of her hands, he reached between them,
sliding his fingers across her swollen clit. She gasped, arching up, and he
kissed the neck, licking across the flesh of her pulse, and moaning as he did.

She was amazing, and so responsive.

Glancing down at his dick, he watched the lips of her
pussy spread as he thrust inside. He loved watching her take his cock, and each
little flutter within her when he touched her clit, just made him even crazier
with need.

The sounds coming from her drove him closer to his
orgasm.

It had been a long time since he’d had sex, and he
wasn’t going to last. He wanted her to come before he found any kind of
release.

Teasing her clit, he gave a few shallow thrusts
watching her gasp, and try to take more of his cock by thrusting her pelvis up
to meet him.

“Please, Tonio, I can’t stand much more. I need you.
Please.”

“I’ve got you, Zara. Give me your cum. Come all over
my dick, baby. I want to feel you.”

Using two fingers he stroked her clit, watching the
pleasure wash over her. He found it fascinating to finally see a woman totally
into him, and into what they were doing. He’d never known it before.

“That’s it, give me your cum.”

He drove into her harder, and she cried out his name,
begging for more.

“Scream my name. Beg for it, come on.”

Her pussy started to squeeze him like a fucking fist,
and her body grew all tight.

“Yes, Tonio,” she said. Her orgasm took his breath
away to witness. She gave everything to him, and he took it, driving into her
pussy, and at the same time wishing there was no condom between them to enjoy
it.

“Fuck, baby, you’re so beautiful, and you’re so mine.
No man is going to have you.” He’d never had a woman be all of his before, and
he was going to cherish Zara.

Finally, he caved to his body’s demand, and pounded
inside her slamming to the hilt. It didn’t take long for him to groan, spilling
his seed inside the waiting condom. He held onto her throughout it.

Zara was his salvation, the love he truly believed
he’d never have, and he wasn’t going to fuck this one up.

****

She was no longer a virgin.

Tonio had claimed her, and even though there had been
some pain, it hadn’t been awful. Zara had enjoyed it, and she wanted to do it
again. No, what was having her hold back a little panic attack was the sudden
onset of her feelings for Tonio. They were two different kinds of people, and
yet she didn’t want to imagine her world without him. He was an amazing guy,
and yes, he was tortured and scared at times, but she liked him. Tonio was
kind, sweet, caring, and at times a bit of an ass. He liked to complain
sometimes about her cooking, like if she overcooked his steak, or if she’d not
made enough sauce.

It was silly stuff really.

He didn’t judge her because she didn’t want to go and
see her mother. Again, something silly, but when it came to her mother, she
felt betrayed.

Tonio wrapped his arms around her, and she forgot
about her mother. Stroking her fingers through his hair, she stared down at his
head, which was nestled between her breasts.

“Did I hurt you too much?” he asked.

“No. Yes, I mean, in the beginning it hurt, but you
more than made up for it in the end.”

“That’s just the start, baby. I didn’t want to hurt
you too much, but now we have that pesky cherry out of the way, I can show you
a real good time.”

She laughed.

For the longest time she’d been calling it her pesky
cherry. The words sounded wrong when she heard it coming from him.

“What do we do now?” she asked. “Post cherry popping,
and coitus.”

“Coitus?”
 
This
time, he laughed. “I need to pull out of you, and it could be sore.”

“Okay, shall we do it slow, sir?”

“It’s a good job you know your place.”

This was one of the things she loved about him.
Together, it was the most natural thing in the world, and even though it should
probably be awkward, it wasn’t. This was what she loved about being with him.

He eased out of her, and she couldn’t help but wince.

He’d been right. It was hurting a little. Not overly
much, but enough for her to notice.

“Shit, there’s a little blood. Stay here, and I’ll
grab a cloth.”

Going to her elbows, she glanced down her body to see
some red, which made her cheeks flame. She didn’t have time to do anything as
Tonio came back with a cloth in hand.

“This is horrible,” she said.

“Why?”

“It’s gross. Look at it, I’ve ruined the sheets.”

“So? We’ll change them. A little blood doesn’t bother
me, Zara. You gave me something precious, and don’t ever think this is going to
be a problem.” He pressed the cloth between her thighs, and she bit her lip,
touched by his tenderness.

The Family, the mafia way of life didn’t know what a
jewel they had with Tonio. There were moments exactly like this one where she
saw the tenderness within him. His father had tried to break him down and tear
that tenderness right out of him. He’d not broken though. Tonio was a strong
man, and she imagined that was why his father was such a brute. She only knew
so much, but she had a feeling that behind closed doors, his father had abused
him in awful ways.

Zara wanted to replace those nightmares he had with
good ones, kind ones. She wanted to give him the kind of happiness that he
deserved. He finished cleaning her up, and her cheeks heated at his intimate
touch.

“Your pussy is so pretty.”

“Tonio?”

“Don’t go all embarrassed on me. You gave me something
precious, and I’m going to cherish it for the rest of my life.”

She settled back on the pillows, staring at him.
“You’re a strange man, you know that, right?”

“Baby, I’ve been brought up to kill people for a
living. Of course I’m strange.”