I'm Nothing (The Family Book 2) (12 page)

Tonio’s cock left her pussy, and she heard the sound
of the gel being rubbed into his cock.

I can do this.

She wanted to do this, and had found herself turned on
so many times by watching it.

“Let me know if it gets too much for you, baby,” he
said.

Zara nodded, unable to voice her feelings. She was
nervous but aroused.

The tip of his cock pressed against her anus, and she
tensed up. One of his hands stroked up her back, and down.

“Push out, baby.”

She pressed out, and the tip of his cock began to ease
inside her. At first, it burned as the pressure was too much. She fisted her
hands, wincing as the pain seemed to surround her. Just as she was about to
tell him to stop, Tonio teased her clit, driving the pleasure higher than the
pain that had begun.

Tonio stayed still, teasing her clit as she got used
to the feel of his dick inside her ass.

Seconds passed, maybe even minutes, and she wanted him
to push more inside her.

“Please, Tonio, more.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yes, please, I’ll tell you to stop if it gets too
much.”

His hand left her pussy, and he guided his dick deeper
into her ass. Whenever it got too much, he paused and teased her clit. The
pleasure and pain combined together so she didn’t know which one was the
stronger sensation. She only knew she didn’t want it to end.

Finally, his cock was inside her, and the pain was
gone. The pleasure was the stronger of the two feelings.

“Your ass is so tight.”

She moaned, and he spread her ass.

“Are you ready for me to fuck you?”

“Yes.”

Tonio took his time, making love to her ass slowly.
He’d taken her virginity in the same way, and now he was taking her ass with
the same kind of tenderness that startled her. His length was large, and everything
he did only turned her on even more.

He pulled out of her ass with only the tip inside, and
then thrust in her, each thrust slow and steady, making her want him to go
faster. He reached between them and teased her clit.

“When we do this again, you’re going to be straddling
me, Zara. I want to see how much you love riding my cock.”

“It feels so good, Tonio.”

“I know. Your ass is a dream, exactly like your pussy.
I fucking love it, Zara.”

She’d take that. He sped up a little, and Zara felt
her own orgasm starting to build.

“I want us both to come together.”

“Yes,” she said, moaning. He pumped into her ass and
fingered her pussy at the same time. She gave everything to him, and he took
it, giving back with equal passion.

Her orgasm crashed through her, and at the same time,
Tonio tensed. His cock jerked, and she felt his cum fill her ass.

When it was over, they lay down with his hands around
her, holding her close.

“Fuck, baby, that was perfect.”

“Tonio, I love you,” she said. “I don’t expect you to
say the words, and what is funny is I told Paige and Charlene that I wouldn’t
tell you, but I love you.”

He kissed her shoulder. “I love you, too, and I’m not
just saying that. I’ve got some plans I want to talk to you about, but I’ve got
to deal with business first. Do you think you can wait another week before we
talk about the future?”

“We still have a future?”

“We have the rest of our lives. I just want to make
sure that I have everything in order so we can live it in peace.”

Chapter Eleven

“What happens if this all goes wrong, Tonio?” Zara
asked.

She leaned against the wall in the bedroom they
shared. He was touched by her concern even though it wasn’t necessary. “If you
haven’t heard from me by midnight, take my keys, and this,” he said, handing
her over a sheet of paper.

“What is this?”

“It’s instructions for getting into a safe. There’s
money, and a means for you to get away and live safely with no worries of
anyone coming after you.”

“I don’t want this, Tonio. I want you to stay.”

He cupped her cheek, which he seemed to do a lot just
lately when it came to her. “You’re so beautiful.”

She held onto his hand, shaking her head.

“You deserve so much better.”

“No, I don’t. Don’t keep putting yourself down, Tonio.
You’re a good man, and I love you.”

He held in the words that could turn her against him.
Zara didn’t know the whole truth, and if she did, she’d run the other way.
She’d run before he even came home tonight.

“You don’t know everything about me,” he said.

“I know enough to understand you. You do what you have
to in order to survive. There’s nothing wrong with that.”

“There’s something wrong with me.”

She shook her head. “No.”

The sound of the door being knocked on interrupted
them.

“That’s me.” He kissed her lips and made his way
toward the door.

“Tonio,” she said, stopping him in his tracks.

“What?”

“I love you. I know the man I love, and nothing will
send me away, nothing.”

Tonio nodded, wishing he could believe that. Once he
handled Lucien and their enemies tonight, he intended to come and tell her the
truth. The only reason he didn’t tell her before he left was the fact he didn’t
want to put her at risk. If she ran, he didn’t know if he could protect her
until he knew their enemies were in the ground.

“I love you, too, babe.”

He opened the door, and this time, he didn’t invite
his friends inside.

“Trouble in paradise?” Luiz asked.

“No, just, let’s get this over with.”

They were all there, the four of them.

“Are we packing, boys?” Donnie asked, opening up his
jacket.

“I’ve got my babies with me,” Luiz said, showing off
his matching guns. “Don’t go anywhere without them.”

Next he and Jake showed off their weapons.

“There will be more in the house.”

“I want Lucien,” Tonio said. “He came after my woman,
and I want to handle him.”

“It’s fine with me. The aim is to lure them into one
room, and handle it there. The careful planning will hopefully pay off,” Luiz
said.

“When did planning ever really go well?” Donnie asked.

They entered the parking lot, going straight for
Donnie’s car.

The trip to his old family home was a blur for Tonio.
He’d finally cracked his father’s password, and the truth of everything he’d
done was out in the open. Before he told Zara, he was going to tell his
friends. Tonio couldn’t live with himself, with this darkness anymore.

You’re nothing.

Tonio, I love you.

His father and Zara’s words crossed over his mind.

She thought he was a good man.

Was it possible for a good man to come from so much
evil and darkness? Pain and fear was all he’d ever known. For a short time he’d
thought Maria was his light, and now in the harshness of real love, he saw she
only used him for her own pleasure.

The trip was over, and they were the first ones parked
in Donnie’s home, well, apart from the loyal soldiers they employed.

“Showtime, boys,” Donnie said.

They entered the house, and the stench of food and
alcohol met Tonio’s senses.

“There’s something I need to tell you guys, and I’m
not sure how you’re going to feel but I need to tell you,” he said.

Luiz, Jake, and Donnie turned toward him.

“Are you having second thoughts?” Jake asked.

“About killing Lucien? No, the bastard needs to die.
He thought it was okay to try to rape my woman. If he can rape one, he can take
more women against their will, and I can’t allow that kind of monster out
there.”

“What’s going on, Tonio?” Donnie asked.

“When we were kids, old enough to train, to fight, my
father, he set up a basement in the house.” Tonio never thought it would be
this hard to talk about, but it was the most shameful part of his past. Taking
a deep breath, he stared at his best friends. They were his brothers, and they
were the reason he kept on fighting. “The basement was set up into two different
areas. He had chalk on the floor in a circle in one section, on the other,
there was a bed. Cameras were set up all around.” Tonio paused again, really
struggling. Tears were so close, but he couldn’t do it. He couldn’t let the
tears fall.

Years of pain had stopped him from crying, and he
wouldn’t do it now. He owed his friends and the people he hurt the truth.

“I had to perform for the cameras. If I didn’t, he
only hurt them worse, or he made me watch someone else do it. If I didn’t, I’d
get beaten, and he threatened to take you guys out, or hurt Maria. I had no
choice.” He stared into all of their eyes. “I’m a rapist, and I’m a murderer,
and there are movies out there that confirm who I am. After I kill Lucien, all
I ask is that you give me a chance to say goodbye to Zara.”

“Give you a chance? What the fuck do you think we’re
going to do?” Donnie asked.

“Get rid of me. Take me out. Do what you need to do to
protect this family. Our families. The things I’ve done, I’m not good.”

“We know what you’ve done, man. We know what your
father made you do,” Donnie said.

“What? How?”

“I found it,” Luiz said. “Your past has been dealt
with, and there is no trace of what you did. We’ve had people looking into it,
and the sources of the videos will also be being handled. You’re going to be
safe, Tonio. You’re not a monster. Our fathers are. My father knew what yours
was doing. He profited from other people’s deaths.”

“The girls that survived and were sold, I’ve got our
source in the force looking into finding the women. We’re going to save them,
Tonio. We’re going to save it all even if it kills us,” Donnie said.

“We’re a team, us four,” Jake said. “I’ve got your
backs, always.”

“There’s no way we’re letting anything happen to you,
Tonio,” Luiz said. “We failed you as friends back then, but we’re not going to
fail you now. We’re brothers. Who our parents are, it doesn’t matter. I don’t
give a shit. All three of you, you’re my true brothers.”

Luiz placed a hand on Tonio’s shoulder, followed by
Donnie and Jake.

“We’re all here,” Donnie said.

They shared a moment, and Tonio, he wanted to break
down and cry, but this wasn’t the place. His friends, his brothers, they needed
him in that moment to be strong. “So, before we turn into a bunch of pussies,
let’s get this set up for when they arrive.”

Slapping each other on the back, Tonio made his way
into the kitchen where he saw Juan, serving up some champagne.

“Hey, boss,” he said.

Juan was in his late twenties, and with them taking
over, he had more of a chance of making something of himself other than being a
mere foot soldier. This was why they had people who were loyal to them. They
offered a better way for many more people within The Family.

“What’s this?” he asked.

“Luiz wants to make sure they’re comfortable and they
don’t suspect anything. Champagne to keep them quiet.”

“What are you hoping to be if we’re successful in
turning around The Family?” Tonio asked.

Juan sighed. “I want my family to be safe. Being a soldier,
it puts them at risk. There are times late at night when my wife will hear a
sound, a bang, and it will panic her. I will check the house, but she was look
at me, and say, ‘Juan, I can’t live like this. Our family cannot live like
this. Is it worth it?’”

“Is it worth it?” Tonio asked.

“I love The Family. I love being part of something
big, and of course the money helps a great deal. My loyalty to you guys is
based on your promises. The biggest promise for me, when we’re out, we’re out.
We don’t have to pledge our sons or our daughters. We prove ourselves, and we
can live happily.”

“You have a son?”

“I have a son and three daughters, Tonio.”

“I didn’t even know you were married.” Tonio pointed
at his left hand. “There’s no ring.”

Juan put down the bottle, pulling out a necklace that
had a single gold band attached. “I will not put my woman in jeopardy. I love
her with all my heart, and after everything I’ve put her through, she picked
me. I keep her close to my heart so no one can harm her.”

Tonio nodded.

“You got to learn to love, man. This life, it will
chew you up, and spit you back out, and take all your money and fun while they
do it. Take life, Tonio, forget whatever past you have, whatever fear. You’re
doing something good.”

“I’m about to kill four people in a house full of
people.”

“How many other people are you saving? Lucien, he’s a
monster. I’ve heard about him, and he’s not good. What you’re doing, it’s bad,
but it’s also good.” Juan tapped his arm, offering him comfort.

Leaving the kitchen, Tonio made his way through the
house, checking to make sure everything was in place. He didn’t want to risk
any of them running. Talking with soldiers, he nodded as they spoke through
their task of keeping everyone up and running. After half an hour, guests
started arriving, and Tonio grabbed a glass of champagne to blend in. He
couldn’t wait until the real action started.

****

Zara had read through the paperwork that Tonio had
given her. She had no intention of leaving him. Tonio was her life, and she
wanted to prove to him that he was worth staying for.

The silence in the apartment was deafening. This was
unlike any other day that he went out to do work. The party he’d talked to her
about before, and right now, she just couldn’t sit still.

Pacing the apartment, she listened to music, hating
the sounds as it filled the space. Going to the window, she looked out, staring
across the city. So many people had no idea what was about to happen, and some
would never know. There would be others who heard about tonight who’d pledge
their loyalty to the family, granting Tonio, Donnie, Jake, and Luiz, to be
their gods.

What would her father think in this moment? Would he
be proud, or wish that she’d run as far as she could?

She’d never know.

He’d been killed for shoving his nose where it didn’t
belong. After her father was out of the way, her mother fell into a spiral pit
of debt, borrowing what she didn’t have.

“Why is this so hard?” she asked.

Still, no answer.

Zara made her way toward the door and paused. She
couldn’t go and see her. She’d vowed to never see her mother again, but right
now, she needed the distraction.

Leaving Tonio’s apartment, she made her way to the
apartment where her mother was staying. She’d told Tonio that he could throw
her mother out for all she cared. She was thankful he refused to listen to her.
There were times she spoke before she even acted.

Raising her fist, she knocked on the door, waiting.

This would be the first time that she had seen and
spoken to her mother since Lucien attacked her.

Her hands were shaking.

Finally, after what felt like a lifetime, her mother
opened the door.

“Zara, honey, I’m so glad,” her mother said, stepping
back to let him inside.

“I don’t know why I’m here,” she said.

“I don’t care why. I’m just glad that you are. I’ve
missed you, Zara.”

Her mother closed the door, and Zara took a seat on
the chair. “This is nice.”

“Yes, it is. Tonio, he allowed me to decorate the
apartment, and to bring some of my things from the old pizza shop.”

“Was it all a lie?” Zara asked.

“No. Nothing was a lie. Your father, bless his heart,
he did what he had to in order to survive. Businessmen everywhere were failing,
the markets, they had crashed, and the bank demanded our loan. We were
struggling, and he didn’t want to lose the shop and our home.” Her mother sat
down on the sofa beside her. “Neither of us wanted to fail you. I’ll just get
us a cocoa.”

She watched her mother go into the kitchen. “Have you
been happy?” Zara asked.

“I’ve been able to be happy knowing you’re safe.
That’s all I ever wanted for you. When your father died, I couldn’t do that. I
failed at everything. I couldn’t handle Lucien, or the pizza place, nothing. I
was a complete and total failure.”