Incineration (Heart of Stone) (34 page)

My hand snaked round to the back of his neck as I pulled his
mouth onto mine and kissed him tenderly and slowly, controlling the kiss and
pulling him tighter. I needed him to make me forget, I needed him to comfort me
and I needed him to cleanse me.

I turned round onto my knees as I cupped his face, sliding
my thumbs along his cheek bones as I loved him with my kiss “Oh Ava” he choked
as my fingers slid into his hair and grabbed a handful of his brown silkiness,
pulling him further into the kiss as though I wanted to devour him. He moaned
as I grasped the hem of his t-shirt and pulled it over his head and sat back to
study his magnificent body. I placed my palms on his chest and trailed my
fingers down his abdomen; the need to taste him was overwhelming so I leant forward
and placed a kiss over his heart, trailing my tongue over his skin and grazing
his nipple between my teeth.

He moaned loudly as I continued to worship his glorious body
with my mouth and I popped the buttons on his jeans working my way downwards.
He raised his hips so I could pull off his jeans and shorts and I groaned as I set
my eyes on his naked form “God you’re beautiful” I whispered and he tilted my
head back and kissed me passionately “I’m so sorry Ava” he rasped as his hands
rested on my heavy breasts, caressing them gently as his thumbs skated over my
stiff nipples. I moaned and tilted my head back, arcing my back to push my
breasts further into his hands. His mouth replaced his fingers as he sucked in
a nipple, pulling it roughly into his mouth and flicking his tongue across it “
Yes
”
I hissed as his teeth bit down, something he knew drove me wild and his fingers
slid down and cupped my mound and I wriggled against him, trying to get some
needed friction “Touch me Mason, feel me” I breathed and his finger slid the
length of my groove and when he slipped it inside me we both groaned together.

“You’re so wet Ava” he moaned into my breast and his mouth
crashed down on mine again as he started to pound into me with his fingers, and
I rocked wildly onto them “Mason” I croaked and his thumb flicked over my clit
“Yes! Fuck Yes” I cried as I exploded around his fingers. I grabbed his hair
“Fuck me Mason” I demanded and he exhaled heavily as he lifted me up and
carried me into the bedroom, laying me down gently and flanking me with his
body as he cupped my face and kissed me tenderly “I love you so much” he
whispered as he planted gentle little kisses down my neck and across my breasts
“I love you” he repeated as he licked down my stomach across my hips and onto
the inside of my thighs, driving me wild with desire “Mason” I wheezed “What do
you want Ava?” he asked as he bent my leg and lifted it high, now trailing
kisses over the back of my knees “Tell me Ava” he demanded “I need you inside
me, I need to feel you as close as possible” I said, my voice breaking with
desire “I can smell your arousal Ava. You smell fucking amazing” he whispered
as he tracked higher and swept his tongue over the full length of me.

My hips bucked and I hissed “Fuck! You’re so sexy Ava. The
way you moan sets me on fire” he groaned as his tongue swept over me again and
he sucked on my clit “Oh God” I cried and grabbed his hair as his tongue
laboured on me, working me into a wriggling and panting wreck beneath him and
as he slid his thumbs inside me. I cried out his name as I came into his mouth
and he growled loudly as I jerked and jolted wildly “Fuck yes!” I screamed and
he slid his body up the length of me and nudged at my opening “You ready Baby?”
he grated and I nodded, having long lost the ability of speech.

He slid into me slowly and gently and I arched my back as he
glided all the way in, filling me to an extreme with his thick hard length. “Oh
yeah” he moaned loudly and rolled his hips, rubbing his pelvis against my clit
“Jesus Mason” I could barely breathe as he slid unhurriedly and rhythmically in
and out while he kissed me, his tongue matching the rhythm of his thrusts.

I reached down between us and gripped his length as we both
looked down to watch him sinking in and out of me “Beautiful” he murmured
“Joined” he whispered and then kissed me feverishly and more demanding.

He pulled out and flipped me onto my stomach, re-entering me
from behind as his body pressed me into the mattress. “Faster Mason” I breathed
as he sped up, pounding into me “Yes like that. Harder. Fuck me harder” I cried
as his hand gripped my hair and pulled my head back so he could kiss me and
then he sunk his teeth into my shoulder as he really started to thrust
powerfully, his need to claim me as his again coursing through him. He pulled
all the way out and then slammed back in in a single forceful thrust, knocking
me further up the bed “Yes! Yes! Yes!” I screamed with every hard drive “fill
me Mason, I need your cum inside me” I shouted as he gripped my shoulders and
nudged my knees up so I was on all fours “Put that gorgeous ass in the air
baby” he panted.

Gripping the headboard tightly, he continued to pummel me
and I slammed back on him, meeting every thrust as he drove into me deeper and
deeper. He pulled out and then straddled over me from behind and the angle
changed so significantly that each stroke of his cock rubbed against my sweet-spot
and within three thrusts I was screaming my release “Mason!” I reared back into
him as I climaxed violently and I felt him swell and spew into me, his hot
spunk hitting my womb as he cried out my name and jerked fiercely as my
internal walls clenched every last drop from him, sucking him dry and he
grunted with every spurt.

“Oh my God” he panted as we both slid down onto the
mattress, Mason still buried deep inside me as his head rested on my back
whilst we both fought for breath “Jesus Ava. You’re amazing” he wheezed and I
just nodded. He chuckled “Are you fucked Ava?” he grinned into my back
“foroughly” I rasped, my face squashed into the pillow.

We both laughed and he rolled over and slid me up to him,
still on my stomach but I managed to turn my head to face him as he rolled on
to his belly and stared at me. He traced my nose and jaw with his finger “I’m
so proud of you Ava, my little warrior” he whispered and I closed my eyes as he
reached over, placing a gentle kiss on each eyelid “I love you Baby. I know
I’ve hurt you so much Ava and you can’t begin to imagine how sorry I am. I
fucking hate myself for what I’ve done to you” I opened my eyes and looked at
him. The pain and guilt in his eyes made me reach out to him and I ran my
fingers across his lips, feeling the softness of his mouth.

He kissed each finger, trapping me in his gaze as he begged
forgiveness with his eyes. I smiled tenderly and nodded “No more coke Mason. I
can’t do that, I won’t put up with that” I told him and he nodded “Of course. I
was just…I was struggling with everything. What the news would do to you, how
to tell you and the fact that our baby died because of me” he looked utterly
lost and broken as a tear slid out and he swiftly wiped it away “Hey” I sat up
pulling him up with me and I crossed my legs and faced him.

I nodded towards his legs and he rolled his eyes but crossed
them and sat facing me “One, it is not your fault that Dane was an evil, cruel
bastard. That was all his doing and whether the two of you fought or not, he
had his eye on me from the first day I arrived at yours, he would have had me
sooner or later” I said frankly and honestly “But…” he started but I pressed my
fingers to his lips “Shush” I scolded “Two, It wasn’t the drinking and the DVD
that hurt me, it was the fact that you had secrets and hid things from me that
I couldn’t cope with. Every day I watched you come home drunk and high, you
thought I was asleep but I couldn’t sleep until I knew you were home, in our
bed, safe. I was angry that you hid the DVD from me, it involves both of us
Mason and you should have told me, especially what I knew it would have done to
you to receive it and watch it, discovering somebody has been recording our
love-making…even though Courtney seemed to enjoy it” I mused and he chuckled
“And thirdly, yes I can’t say I’m not upset about Rebecca’s pregnancy but again
it was the fact that you hid it from me, something so big in your life that you
couldn’t share with me. I know you haven’t slept with her since, and it was
from before me that she got caught but…but...” I frowned and looked away.

He reached across and took my hand “What Ava?” he urged and
I sighed “The thing that has hurt me most is that you lied to me, you said you
had used a condom with every other woman and stupid as it sounds, it meant a
lot to me. I was happy knowing that your desire and passion for me made you
lose control but now that is tainted because know I feel like…like this is how
sex is for you with everyone and that…that…” I couldn’t finish the sentence and
I dropped my gaze.

Sliding his finger under my chin he tilted my head back
“Ava, I can promise you utterly and completely that sex isn’t like this for me
with anybody else, it us Ava, we’re intense and amazing together. You fit me
perfectly and the way you make me feel…Jesus, you rock my world Ava. I don’t
just come, I fucking explode and I know it’s the same for you” he argued and I
nodded “Yes, it is like that for me but…” he shook his head vehemently “It was
the coke Ava, it was because we were high that we didn’t use protection, that’s
all. I can’t even fucking remember half of it, so it can’t have been that
great” he scoffed and I smiled “I’m a fuck up Ava, I can’t seem to stop hurting
you and it’s tearing me apart to watch myself destroy you. I love you so much
and I don’t wanna lose you Ava. I can’t live without you, I’m a mess” he sighed
and held my hand between both of his, bringing it to his lips and placing it
against his mouth “Marry me Ava” he said suddenly and my eyes shot to his “What?”
I gasped “Marry me” he asked with determination “I promise Ava, I promise to
make you happy. I will make it my life to make you happy” he persisted
excitedly.

I couldn’t breathe and I stumbled off the bed “Mason I…” I
ran my fingers through my hair in agitation and turned away from him. What the
hell?

I scrambled for some clothes in the wardrobe “Ava?” he asked
softly and I was hurting him, I know I was but I couldn’t look at him “I can’t
do this now Mason. I’ve just shot a man in the head god damn it! And you’ve
just discovered you’re gonna be a father to Rebecca’s’ baby and some sick
bastard is trying to kill me and now you’re asking me to marry you. I mean what
the fuck?” I raged, pulling on some jeans and a t-shirt, not bothering with
underwear in my desperation to escape

“Ava” he breathed and I knew at that moment I had broken his
heart but I just couldn’t stop “No! Mason. You have fucked with my heart for weeks
on end, one thing after another, slowly and excruciatingly, draining every bit
of life out of me and you think you can just pop the question like it…like
you’re asking if I want soup for tea. God Damn it!”

He remained silent and broken still sat on the bed, looking
at me with hurt, agony and heartache pouring off him “I’m sorry Ava, I…” he
whispered despondently and looked down at his lap as he fidgeted with his
fingers “I have to go” I snapped and slipped into my flats and left him, still
sat on the bed, still twiddling with his bloody fingers as my words ripped him
in half.

I hurried from the house in a frantic need to escape,
suffocated from his constant need to possess me. He hadn’t exited from the
bedroom as I scurried round looking for my bag.
Where the hell was it?
Finding
my phone on the hallway table I shoved it in my pocket and ran from the house
before he decided to come in search of me. I ran for a long time, not sure or
caring what direction I was going in or where I ended up.

Leaning on a pub bench, my lungs bursting and screaming at
me to stop I took huge gulps and phoned Courtney. After trying three times and
getting her voicemail I realised I was in deep shit. No bag meant no purse
which meant no money for a taxi “Shit!” I sat on the bench racking my brain for
a solution when my phone rang “Hey Ava, its Kerrie.”

A drunken group exited the pub, laughing and joking loudly
“Hey Gorgeous, you waiting for me?” a teenage drunken dickhead asked, perusing
me up and down. I smiled sweetly but shook my head at him “Ava, where are you?”
Kerrie asked “Erm, I’m not sure. Outside a pub called the blue bull somewhere”

The leery dude was walking towards me now, his toothy grin
gave me the creeps “Back off pal” I warned and he hesitated, debating whether I
was worth it or not

“Erm me and Mason had a row…again!” I told Kerrie still
glaring at the bloke “Ava, you can’t be on your own after the stuff that’s gone
down today. I‘ll send Kade to fetch you”
Shit!
“No Kerrie, I’m fine,
honest” I urged

“Try it” I snapped at the lad who was now getting closer. I
gave him my evil glare but he didn’t see it as his gaze was locked onto my
chest

“Ava, Kades on his way for you, he said he’ll be 5 minutes”
Fuck!!!!
 “Kerrie, I said I was okay” I stood up and swapped my phone into my left
hand, ready to floor the guy if he got any closer.

I raised my eyebrows at him, challenging him but his mates
came forward “Craig, come on, leave her” a blonde haired guy said from behind
but dickhead here either didn’t hear him or didn’t care as he carried on
stalking towards me. I smiled to myself.
Just what I need!!
My fist was
preparing itself and the adrenalin was starting to flow through my veins,
excitement filling me at the prospect of getting out some of the anger still
coursing through me, motivating me to take a step closer to him.

 “Ava, what’s happening?” I could hear Kerries’ anxiousness
“Kade should be there soon Ava, keep calm” I laughed “Kerrie it’s not me who
needs to keep calm, it’s you that’s worried” I chuckled.

 “What you got for me honey?” the leery dickhead smirked and
I gave him my sweetest smile “Come and find out
Honey”
I mocked