Indulgence (84 page)

“What does it say?” Cam asks.

I look over to Chase who just nods. “Shit!” I scream
dropping the phone at my feet. Walking around the bed to the shelf I fling the
sticks to the floor then throw myself on the bed. My heart finally begins
cracking.

Chase picks up my phone from the floor, putting it to her
ear. “Cam? Babe, let us call you back. Text me with your flight info alright?”
Tossing the phone to the bed she sits beside me. “Daisy, it’s gonna be fine.
Talk to Gray. You two should’ve really done this together.” She gestures at the
tests scattered across the floor. “I’ll be right back. I’m gonna call Luke, get
him to move my shifts. I’m not leaving you like this.”

I nod as she leaves the room then I scream hysterically into
the pillow. I can’t believe this is happening. Landon was finally out of the
picture, Gray and I are in a great place right now planning our future, then
this happens! What if the baby is Landon’s? I sob into the pillow remembering
the night I told Gray I was on the pill. That he didn’t need to worry about me
getting pregnant. I have messed everything up for everyone. I have possibly
ruined all of our lives. If only I had stuck to my list. If only I had planned
all of this out instead of jumping in without looking first. It’s too late for
‘what ifs’ now. All I have left is the hope that maybe I won’t lose everything
I love, once the truth is all out on the table.

Sitting up I pull the old list from my bag. The motherfucker
is mocking me I am sure of it. I planned my life around this damn thing now
it’s shot to hell. The list Gray and I made weeks ago doesn’t include a fucking
baby that could belong to my submissive, bisexual ex-fiancé either. That little
zinger isn’t on either list but it’s a damn possibility none the less. “I can’t
believe I’m such an idiot!” I scream as I throw the tablet against the wall.

“Wildflower?”

I jump as my tear covered face meets the one person I didn’t
want to see me like this but the person I need most right now. Grayson. My shield,
my husband and the only person that can give me any sort of solace right now.
His eyes look at the little white sticks on the floor then move to me as he
stretches out his arms. Without a single word I run into them as he pulls us to
the bed where we don’t say a word. I just cry into his chest.

“It’s going to be fine,” Gray says after my tears finally
start to slow. Turning my chin up forcing me to meet his eyes he kisses my
lips. “You’re my wife. We’re havin’ a baby. It’s going to be fine,” he repeats.

“What if it’s Landon’s? I’ve only slept with him once in the
last six weeks or so; but Gray, it’s a possibility,” I choke out trying not to
cry again.

Gray’s hand flattens against my abdomen, his eyes not
leaving mine. His gray stare is dark and possessive. “It’s mine,” he says
without a single doubt. “No matter fuckin’ what, it’s mine because you’re
mine.” I nod, forcing a grin onto my face. “Now, get your sexy ass dressed, I
have a song to sing to my wife tonight.” Gray kisses me deeply before I go into
the bathroom to straighten out my face before the show.

I don’t see Chase again until Henry takes me to stage left.
She went after Gray for me then ran into Hunter, and well, things got heated,
people got naked. According to her, it was a small sacrifice for the greater
good. Shaft is killing it as usual. The fans are going completely insane as
Aiden bangs his kit, setting the bass line. Gray looks over at me, several
times, as he plays with a huge smile. I force a smile then blow him a kiss.

When the set is over, Gray walks up to the mic, as usual,
but without his guitar. “You rocked the shit outta tonight! We fuckin’ love you
for comin’ out! Now, some of you know that I got married around a month ago,”
he says making the crowd scream. His eyes meet mine as he smiles. “Daisy’s
quickly become my whole world. Usually, I sing her a cover at the end of every
show; but, tonight I got the best news since she said yes, so I’m changin’ my
plans,” Gray smiles giving me a wink. I know what he is going to do and I think
I’m going to be sick. I clap a hand over my mouth begging my empty stomach not
to revolt. “Tonight we found out we’re pregnant. Daisy is going to give me a
baby!” he shouts and the crowd goes crazy. They are screaming and cheering.
Hunter bumps his fist as Aiden jumps over his kit joining in Gray’s
celebration.

Gray looks over at me, “Come here, Wildflower,” he says
sweetly.

The feeling to run like hell is pretty damn strong. I want
to run down that ramp and get the hell away from all of this. I understand
exactly what Cam means by wanting to stay out of the limelight. I don’t get my
chance though because Hunter comes over and grabs my hand. “Oh Mommy, you’re
gonna love the new baby more than me,” he teases walking me out on stage.

“Isn’t she fuckin’ beautiful?” Gray asks the crowd.

Tossing the mic to Aiden he grabs my face crushing his mouth
to mine in a kiss that has my stomach in knots. Lifting me off the ground, he
spins us slowly. “I fuckin’ love you, Mrs. Cole,” he says letting me slide down
his arms until our lips meet again.

Gray pulls away so that I can look out to the crowd cheering
for us. I smile at them taking in the thousands watching our ‘private’
celebration. Then as my eyes look down into the fifth row my heart stops.
Staring up at me are two sets of familiar eyes. Tad has an arm wrapped around
Landon who looks like he is about to lose his shit. His face is blood red,
boiling with rage. I watch him shove his way around people making his way
toward the exit. My entire body tenses as my eyes follow him to the stage
access doors. Looking back to where Tad still stands I meet his eyes. He just
looks at me with a huge victorious grin on his smug face then winks.

“Thanks everyone. You’ve been amazing!” Aiden says into the
mic then we all walk off stage toward Chase, Henry and a now very pissed off
Landon.

Four Letter Words

“I want to talk to you both. Now,” Landon bites out.

Gray looks at him as the guys all walk up, flanking Grayson
in front of me. “You aren’t getting anywhere near her, Landon,” Gray says
angrily.

“We can do this here or somewhere else, I don’t care Gray.
The choice can be yours but I have shit to say. You really do owe me that much,
brother,” he snaps back.

“Daisy doesn’t owe you shit but we’ll humor you for now,”
Gray exhales. “You meet us at our hotel in an hour. We can talk then.” Landon
nods then walks away. Gray turns toward me, pulling me against him. “That
bastard isn’t allowed anywhere near her alone, got me?” he says; Henry nods in
agreement. “Let’s go. I want to get back to the hotel and get Daisy settled
before he shows up.”

An hour later, after Gray has made me change into pajamas
and nearly force fed me a bowl of soup, before there is a knock at the door.
Landon walks in with Henry and sits on the couch as far away from us as
possible. Protective badass mode places Henry between us. “Alright brother, you
said you had things to say. Get to it. Sooner you say it, sooner you’re gone,”
Gray says pulling me against him.

Landon looks horrible. His face is pale and haunted, like he
hasn’t slept in days. “Daisy, I never got to explain or even apologize.”

“I don’t want you to,” I say sadly, making his eyes flit to
mine in surprise. “You can’t apologize for this Landon. Even if you did, I
don’t think you’d mean it. It just wasn’t meant to be for us, Landon, and
that’s okay. I’m fine, I promise.” Why would he apologize if he loves Tad? If
you look at it honestly I was the other woman. I may not have known it at the
time, but I was. Which explains why Landon never asked me to move in with him,
or why I rarely stayed over at his place; it actually clears up a lot.

“I didn’t know about the videos until the first day on the
bus. Tad and I have been together over three years, Daisy. I never thought that
he could be so…”

“Sick?” Gray blurts.

Landon winces at the suggestion. “He was blackmailing me.
Tad said that if I slept with Daisy without him, while on the tour, and he
found out he would post all those videos to the band’s fan page. I couldn’t
take that chance. I was trying to protect you, baby. Protect what I have with
both of you. Believe it or not, I do love you, Daisy.”

I can’t speak; I just nod. “You don’t have anything with her
anymore, Landon. I still don’t understand, why didn’t you tell her, or any of
us, anything?” Gray’s voice is cold.

“I love him too, Gray. I can’t explain it, but I do. I need
what he gives me. I’m not gay but I’m not straight either. It’s so confusing
being me. I get to be one person with Tad. He lets me give all the control to
him. Then, with Daisy, I had the normal. I want both. With the baby…”

“The baby is mine, Landon. You don’t even get an opinion on
that issue,” Gray snaps, glaring at him.

“Right now you can’t say for sure, can you Daisy?” Landon
spits back. “Did you use anything with either of us other than your pills?”

I shake my head as the tears stream down my face. This is
what I wanted to avoid. I’m putting brother against brother. That’s something I
can’t do. I won’t. “Landon, I sent you texts in Vegas; then, after you agreed
to meet me, I walked in on that in the suite. If you love me how could you do
that? You didn’t use anything with me either. How do I know …”

Landon’s eyes widen in shock. “I’ve always been careful,
Daisy. As for my phone, I haven’t had it since the night Cam broke Tad’s nose.
I thought I left it at the ER or on the bus. I looked everywhere for it,” he
says, yanking a hand through his hair, then he sighs loudly. “Tad must have
stolen my phone. I can believe he would do that.”

“Wow, some guy you’ve got there, Landon,” I huff. Standing
to my feet, I take a breath. “Listen, Landon, I’m glad you got to explain all
of this. I feel a little better knowing you didn’t intentionally do all of this
to try and hurt me. I mean, you still took me on as the other woman and lied
astronomically, but it is what it is. You tell Tad that if he uses those
videos, I’ll have him locked up. Thanks for comin’ by.” I turn to the hallway
to leave but he calls out to me.

“You remember your list? How’s a baby on a tour bus with an
unstable rocker fittin’ in with all of that? I know what you want in life,
Daisy. I love you and I want you. I’ll give up Tad right fuckin’ now. I’ll do
anything to be with you and raise that baby. I’ll give you everything, Daisy, I
promise.”

“Get the fuck out!” Gray roars slamming Landon into the
wall. “You come in here and try to make a play for my fuckin’ wife, with me
standin’ right here? You gave her up!” Gray screams as Henry gets between them,
shoving Landon toward the door. “You really never had her in the first place if
that story is true.”

Both Landon and Gray shout my name when I run down the hall
into the bedroom as the door slams. “Daisy!” Gray calls again from the hallway.
He walks into the bedroom where I sit on the end of the bed. The thoughts swirling
in my head are making my stomach roll. I want to crawl into bed and never
leave. Just hide from it all. I can’t believe what Landon said. He would really
walk away from Tad right now for me? For a baby that may or may not even be
his? “Don’t go there, Wildflower.” Gray pleads kneeling before me. “Don’t think
about what he said. You can’t let your head try to escape what we have. You
can’t let yourself run back to your old life and that goddamn list just because
you’re scared, baby.” I shake my head, my tears falling onto his hands as they
rest on my still flat belly. “Have you, for one minute, doubted being with me?
Marrying me?”

I shake my head. “No. I love you, Grayson.”

“Do you know why I hate secrets? One of the very people who
kept the truth from me is the one I’ve had to watch hurt you over and over
again. I forgave him for what he did to me because we were just kids. But, fuck
baby, what he’s done to you? I can’t just let that go.”

I look at him in shock. “What do you mean, Landon? When did
Landon keep the truth from you? About what?”

“I spent the first ten years of my life thinking that
Landon’s father was mine. Our mother was married to him but had an affair with
my dad. They all lied and covered it up, even made Landon go along with it.
Landon’s father, Greg, treated me like shit as long as I can remember. He
always called me a bastard; then, finally, one night Greg got drunk and told me
everything. He was sick of me. Told me he couldn’t even look at me. The bastard
hated me that much. So he packed my shit, sending me away from everyone I’d
ever known, to my father, who I’d never met. Pops got a note along with a kid
he didn’t fuckin’ know existed. That’s also the reason why I don’t give a shit
about DNA. This kid is mine because I say so. I fuckin’ love you, Daisy. I love
this kid more than Landon ever would. Don’t let him fuck with your head. Forget
the lists and all the plans you made, it’s time to make our own.”

I nod then brush my lips over his. “I love you, too,” I
whisper.

Lying back on the bed I pull him to me. Gray angles his body
so that he isn’t pressing down on my stomach. Trailing kisses down my neck as
his hand pushes my shirt up. Gray presses his lips against my stomach, pulling
my pants down my legs, quickly followed by my panties. Slowly, he kisses every
inch of my body as he finishes undressing me. Standing, Gray quickly strips his
clothes off his body, and moves between my trembling legs. His hands gliding up
to my hips, those rough fingertips brushing my tattoo. “I’ve got you. I always
do,” he whispers as he enters me.

My arms wrap around his neck pulling him down to meet my
lips. Our mouths move together, his tongue mimicking his thrusts as he moves
inside me. I wrap my legs around his hips, arching my back to feel every
piercing on his ladder run against my inner walls. I can’t believe I even
thought, for one second, I could just walk away from this. I would make the
biggest mistake of my life leaving Gray for Landon. Gray was right. Landon
never really had me if he was keeping so much from me. I never doubted what I
had with Gray once, since I let go of my plan and let it happen. I didn’t over
think my feelings for him, it just felt right.