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Their period of engagement might have passed thusly, chaste but for fervent kisses exchanged in foyers and amongst secluded oaks, had Elizabeth not committed an indiscretion of considerable vehemence.

She was certain, however, the fault of her lapse was not entirely hers.

For had Darcy not kissed her with such exceeding warmth that evening, she would not have begun to ponder his lips as she had (in defence of pondering any other part of his person). And had she not pondered his lips so insistently, when he pressed her back against a convenient oak and kissed her that next day, she would not have taken his lower lip betwixt her own and so decidedly bitten it.

The particular etiquette of reducing one’s beloved to masticatory morsel had never once been addressed to her so far as Elizabeth could recollect. Hence, instinctively she covered her face, aghast with mortification. Certain that such an unbridled act would have, at the very least, affrighted him to flee, she was therefore astonished that he had not. Not only had he not taken flight, he drew her hands from her face and kissed her again. This kiss was neither chaste, nor warm. It was a long, deep, white-hot kiss of passion and howbeit Elizabeth had never been kissed thusly, she recognised it even without the attributing adjectives.

That kiss was replaced by another, then another until one was indistinguishable from the last. This pleasuring was accompanied by an embrace so firm their bodies were rendered quite indistinguishable from each other as well. (It was impressive how much writhing could be managed with so little room betwixt them, so secure was their clinch.) Her lungs were just beginning to tell her that she must take a gasp of air, when he quite abruptly quit the kiss. It took her a moment to realise that he had.

He turned away. His shoulders heaved, keeping the same deep rhythm as her own. She put her hand across her eyes and closed them. After a moment (perhaps when oxygen returning to her brain allowed conscious thought), she understood he was right. As much as she did not want him to rise from her, she knew he must. There could be no other generous end to their hunger for each other than compleat union.

Accepting the rightness of his decision (not an outright endorsement, more a concession), her single most pressing concern was not a matter of compunction, but that what had transpired was not evaded. She could wrestle with self-censure in private; she needed to talk with him about her…his…their…. Indeed, that was the problem. What was this? It felt uncommonly like naked lust.

Adjusting her bonnet, Elizabeth said to his back, “I had no idea such feelings could be so frightfully fierce.”

He dropped his chin to his chest momentarily, then turned about to her. He bore an expression quite unlike any she had ever seen upon him. If one described it as truly pitiful, Elizabeth would have argued. For it did not elicit pity from her, but surely sympathy. She wanted to embrace him, soothe him, cosset him like a child and assure him everything would be just fine. This pathos was quite unapparent to him.

“Yes, I am afraid my conduct is quite unforgivable.”

Quite unapparent to him as well was her complicity. Should she disabuse him of the notion that she was a victim of his appetency rather than a willing accomplice?

“Perhaps our conduct has been too unrestrained, but hardly unforgivable. You are too harsh upon us.”

Upon her use of the collective, he looked at her directly. In a determined little fit of coquetry, she turned her head slightly akilter and smiled fully. Which amused him, for it was clear her entreaty was a presumptuous tease. Yet, he stood his ground. His hands reached out for her, but they only cupped her face, his thumbs tracing the curve of her cheeks.

“Your father would have good reason to run me through.”

“And lock his daughter in the attic for good measure,” she countered, both knowing the unlikelihood of either occurrence.

But their remarks announced a return to better humour. Hence, they turned
toward the security of Longbourn House, a habitat that would quash any disinclination toward propriety. Her virtue was not compromised in deed, Elizabeth knew, but it was besmutted considerably by her own intentions.

It was difficult to concede any issue to Lydia, but Elizabeth knew she would have to reassess her heretofore unwavering stance against Lydia’s imprudent, unmarried cohabitation with Wickham in London. She yet believed it impossible of herself to expose her family to the same degradation and ruin as had Lydia. It was now, however, much easier for Elizabeth to understand the very violence of the compulsion to do it.

Elizabeth did not grant Darcy clemency that day. There was no culpability with which to hold him, for she was not affronted. They were promised. Lessers with such an understanding would have been hockling merrily in the hayloft as soon as the match was made. Those weddings often only occurred when a baby was too high in the belly to be denied. Granted, they were not lessers and merry bouts were out of the question. However, she would gladly have granted her intended full immunity would he kiss her just the way he had again, now that she no longer feared that she would abandon caution and indiscriminately bite his lip once more.

She knew she would not. This happenstance occurred not by virtue of her inciting indiscretion and his counter remaining out of topic for them. She would not because, when he drew her so firmly to him, however entertained her attention was by his lips, her thoughts had wandered from them. With absolutely no cognisant endorsement from her, they travelled thitherward to that unfathomable part of his body that she felt pressed so hard against her leg.

As surely and as certainly as the sunrise, Bingley rode to Longbourn the next day, but he rode alone. Only a letter accompanied him, tucked neatly into his vest. It bore Elizabeth’s name in Darcy’s unmistakably precise script.

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t the age of eight and twenty years, Fitzwilliam Darcy had neither professed love nor fallen victim to it. It was simply not in his nature to entertain frivolity. Stealing kisses or bandying for some damsel’s affection was insipid. As it happened, prior to his acquaintance with Elizabeth, he had never once pursued a courtship. Hence, neither sweet nothings nor the whispering of them were within even marginal propinquity of his sensibilities.

His affairs had been cursory and to the point. That point being carnal gratification, not romance.

A compliment may have been paid upon a woman’s beauty whilst in her embrace, but even those were more observational than adulatory. He simply had no tongue for flattery. Truth be known, he had not the wherewithal for expressing amorous feelings at all, so foreign were such inclinations to him. Whereas love had captured him quite decisively, reticence to revelation was not an easy transformation—not even when addressing the object of his new and exceedingly vigorous regard. Truly, he wanted to shower Elizabeth with every manner of tribute. Had he been able, he would have celebrated her every virtue, extolled her beauty, blessed her goodness, kissed her toes and the ground upon which they trod.

However sincere the aspiration, he simply had not the means to explain the shades of his love. To feel such fierce emotions and yet be unable to profess them adequately was ghastly. It occurred to him that he should plumb Netherfield’s library (the books were not Bingley’s, they came with the lease). His poetic inclinations favoured Pope, but he believed Blake might offer some inspiration.

That is, if he could keep his wits about him long enough to concentrate upon reading. For howbeit his voice was unable to pay her tribute, his body was announcing his desire for her in a most ungentlemanly manner.

When, in the throes of that increasingly amorous kiss, she bit his lip, it incited him to an exercise of his passion the extent of which he had not thought possible. Hitherto, such a loss of self-restraint would have been inconceivable. To have to turn away just to keep his arousal from being revealed was an outright mortification. He had stood, his back to her, desperately seeking to redirect his thoughts. The weather, scripture, anything but Elizabeth standing behind him lush and desirable (and undoubtedly mortally affronted).

It was miraculous that she had seemed neither angry nor insulted. As it happened, she bore no greater pique than a raised eyebrow and a rather peculiar expression. But the encounter had rendered him so out of sorts, he had taken his leave almost immediately. Upon thoughtful recollection, he understood that howbeit her bite heated his blood, it was her passionate response that fanned his flame. And that aroused no little compunctious self-examination.

For her demeanour and her circumstance claimed Elizabeth an innocent. She was chaste and it was his duty to protect her honour, not take privileges. But the volatile combination of their love, her innocence, and his lust was inciting his once sternly controlled mettle to unprecedented heights.

This would not do. It was insupportable to take such a liberty no matter how cussed the temptation. He was a gentleman, she a lady, their courtship could be affectionate but absolutely circumspect. His passion would be tethered, regardless of the provocation of her eyes, at least until their wedding. Certainly he could wait that long to kiss her throat. Smell her scent. Caress her body. His better judgement, clearly, was not only beclouded, it was very nearly trampled by desire.

It had not always been thus. There was a time, a very long time ago, when things were quite simple.

By the time he was nearly fifteen, little beleaguered Darcy. Already reaching a goodly portion of the height he would eventually realise, his bearing reflected that
advantage. He was a hand-span taller than Wickham, who was more than a year older, thus inspiriting considerable ill-will from that young knave. Wickham’s disposition fancied slight at every turn and took umbrage no less from God above than mortal man. Contrarily, Darcy’s cousin, Geoffrey Fitzwilliam, was older still but had not the height of either. Yet if his ego suffered it was unapparent.

Wickham’s, however, flailed about quite unreasonably. Though his own height would eventually almost equal Darcy’s, Wickham was then most displeased, their rivalries intense. Wickham was quick, even anticipatory, but Darcy’s height advantage was solicitously enhanced by superior strength, thus feats of agility were not a close contest. That the outcome was hardly a factor did not render the competitions any less wicked.

In time, Fitzwilliam accepted his limitations and (discretion being the better part of valour) abandoned both Darcy and Wickham to their races, clashes, and bouts for the arena that equalised all men: the back of a horse. In Fitzwilliam’s stead, Wickham and Darcy strove onward, the latter in the happy circumstance of a natural winner. In defence of his continually abused ego, Wickham eventually (if petulantly) announced he was too old for boyish games. Lacking Fitzwilliam’s good sense to stomach the inevitable, the height affront nettled Wickham’s conceit of himself considerably.

Wickham had considerable ego to fester. Upon the death of his father, Mr. Darcy’s steward, the elder Mr. Darcy became Wickham’s benefactor. The adolescent Wickham had come to live on the upper floors in Pemberley. Having all the benefit and none of the attendant responsibility of station, Wickham’s self-regard was distended beyond all proportion. Whilst engaging in bootlicking the elder Mr. Darcy, he deliberately fostered the impression that his position was entailed higher than it was to servants and villagers alike. Some were taken in by his swagger, others were not. Young Darcy was not, but neither did he understand that beneath Wickham’s unctuous bearing festered substantial treachery.