John Lescroart (5 page)

“There wasn't anybody she could talk to here. The office was changing. She felt there were spies everywhere.” He shrugged, making light of it. “I was doing some neighborhood work in the African-American community, outreach stuff, you know, just like you were. Anyway, Elaine and I, we got to be close for a while. Platonically. Really.”

He squeezed her hand. “She'd lost her mother and her lover within a week. She wanted to talk ideas. What was the place of a strong, smart black woman in a white man's world? What was the price of her mother's fame? Was any of it worth it? Was it wise to have affairs with married men? Where was she going? What had she done? That kind of thing.”

He paused. “Eventually, she got it together. I put her in touch with Aaron Rand and you know the rest. But she was just very special somehow. And now . . .” A sigh. “I cared about her, and now I feel I owe her something.”

“What? You couldn't have prevented what happened with her. It wasn't anything to do with you.”

“No, I know that.” He considered his phrasing. “Let's just call it a payback. This bum who killed her, if somebody's going to take him down, I'd like it to be me.”

 

Two hours after he'd left Glitsky, after a visit to Frank Batiste, the chief of inspectors, Hardy was coming out of his shock but still wasn't sure how to proceed. He had, at least, gotten Cole Burgess booked into the jail, and now he wanted to talk to him, get some take of the damage. He took the outside corridor from the back door of the Hall. It was bitter with a wet wind, and when he got inside the door to the jail, he stood a minute getting the warmth.

The admitting sergeant at the counter was a short, skinny Caucasian with the name tag “Reilly” and a buzz cut of orange hair. Glitsky was six foot two, half black and all buffed. After his first three minutes with Reilly, Hardy thought it was amazing that they could look so much alike.

Because whether he knew it or not, the desk sergeant was giving Hardy his Glitsky imitation and doing a hell of a good job at it. Yeah, he was pretty sure Cole Burgess had been processed in. No, he hadn't heard about any heroin. Sorry, he hadn't made it into the computer yet. He couldn't say for sure where he was, even if he'd been taken to the sixth floor or to the hospital.

Hardy took that runaround until it became obvious, then demanded to speak to Reilly's superior. Reilly told Hardy that, well, darn, he really wasn't sure whether anybody was in this time of evening. Deliberately pitching his voice so low that Reilly had to lean closer to hear it at all, Hardy whispered, “All right, Sergeant, then get me the watch commander, and if he's not in, I'll call Dan Boles”—the sheriff—“at home. Oh, and I almost forgot, your inmate Mr. Burgess is the brother-in-law of Jeff Elliot, who writes the ‘CityTalk' column for the
Chronicle
.”

Within two minutes, Reilly had located somebody who might know something. Big, black and beefy, the man appeared from a door behind the reception desk, made a show of spotting the man in the lawyer suit, pointed at Hardy and closed the space between them. “I'm Lieutenant Wayne Davies, Mr. . . . ?”

Hardy said who he was, laid out the problem. Then: “This man needs detox. His medical evaluation hasn't moved forward, not as far as I can tell. Your admitting sergeant tells me he's not even in the computer yet.”

“Then he's probably not been processed. That's when they do the med eval.” Davies had his arms crossed, his brow furrowed. Hardy was to understand that he was thinking hard about all this, trying to remember one in what must have been dozens of people brought to the jail
today for processing. “And you're his attorney?” he asked.

The veneer of patience now transparently thin, Hardy nodded. “His sister retained me on his behalf. And he's been in custody now for almost a full day.”

“Hmm . . . and you say Lieutenant Glitsky brought him down?”

“Look, Lieutenant, I'm talking about Cole Burgess, the suspect in the Elaine Wager murder. He's here. He's in withdrawal and you're responsible for him. What are you going to do?”

Davies decided, although he dressed it up for Hardy's benefit, pretending it had all just come back to him. “Elaine Wager. That guy? Yeah, he's here, but I don't know how far he's gotten.”

“What do you mean?”

“I mean processing him in. It was busy today, thirty admits. There might still be some delay.” Another elaborate shrug. “I don't know.”

Hardy had heard more than enough. “Okay, Lieutenant, let's cut the bullshit. I demand to see my client now. If he's not in detox immediately, you personally can probably look forward to being named in about a billion-dollar lawsuit against the city . . .”

Davies held up an authoritative hand. “Keep your shorts on, Mr. Hardy. I'm sure he's here. We'll find him and get him checked out. He'll be upstairs in jail or on his way to County Hospital. You can see him either place when we're through, Mr. Hardy. But not before.”

 

Cole Burgess wanted to be dead.

There was nothing but the pain and no way he could make it stop. Not here. Not without the god.

When he was a boy—still active, still doing sports—he'd get cramps in his legs that woke him, screaming, from sound sleep in the middle of the night. The calf on his right leg, or a muscle somewhere under the tendons of one of his feet.

Knotted muscle curled on itself, squeezing every nerve around it in a concentrated orb of agony.

But localized, at least. One place. One muscle per spasm. His mom would come in and rub it, knead it out, talk to him. It would pass, though the memory—the ache—would linger for days.

But it wasn't like this, now, when it was everywhere all at once. Never ending. Unbearable.

Somebody, please, come and kill me.

Did he say it? He didn't know. It was his only thought, but there really wasn't any thought as such, any words. There wasn't even consciousness outside of the pain. It consumed his entire being. Only the pain. He hadn't had any god in three days.

His body was draped in the jail's orange jumpsuit. It twitched, making small noises, on the floor of the cell used for the psychologically impaired.

The guard opened the cell door and held it while two other guards lifted the body onto a gurney and began pushing it down the hallway to the elevator that led to the jail's rear entrance.

Cole Burgess was sure he was getting his wish now. Dying. Any second it would end. It would have to.

Lights were exploding in his brain, every flash accompanied by another blinding stab, more intolerable agony beyond where he would have said—if any communication were possible, which it wasn't—that no more could be borne. No one could take this much torture and survive.

Kill me! Kill me! god god god god god

 

Davies returned without any sign of Cole Burgess. “Mr. Hardy.”

“Where's my goddamned client?”

The lieutenant remained tolerant. “Your client is fine. We had a computer problem and lost him for a few minutes, that's all.”

“Where is he? I want to see him.”

The smile didn't change. “You can see him, but he's not here to see. He's at County. I can't guarantee he's conscious right now, but you're sure welcome as all hell to go and find out for yourself. You want, I could call over and tell them to expect you.”

F
rannie Hardy had pulled her long red hair back into a ponytail and it hung halfway down her back. Barefoot, she wore a pair of old jeans and an oversized green pullover sweater. She was standing in the front doorway, waving good-bye to her children as they ran out to their car pool. Hardy came up behind her, put a hand on her shoulder, called out. “Have a good day, guys. See you tonight.”

They turned together and walked through the family room back to the kitchen, where Hardy took his seat in front of his coffee. Frannie silently moved some dishes to the sink, wiped a surface or two with a dishcloth. Finally, some psychic energy shifted and Frannie came over and sat down with him. She smiled wearily, reached a hand over and put it on her husband's. “Hi.”

A reflexive sigh, Hardy's own weariness breaking through. “Wow.”

His wife nodded. “I know. She is trying, you know.”

“Yep.”

“It's not some scam to get our attention. She really does worry.”

He nodded, never doubting it for a moment. This morning, once again, his daughter had been afraid to go to school, and they'd done their parental tag team, trying to calm her myriad fears, for nearly an hour while their son Vincent grabbed his English muffin and disappeared into his bedroom so he wouldn't have to deal with it.

The Beck's fears.

The constant flow of news and information, even her
school curriculum, kept the Beck hyperkinetically aware of and sensitive to every disaster that happened on the planet—a plane crash in Calcutta, a hostage crisis in the Balkans, famine and genocide in Rwanda, church burnings in the South. All the world's problems brought home to her own little plate every day.

This was the backdrop of everyday life, the white noise of her daily existence.

Hardy had trouble believing that the nature of human beings had changed so completely in one generation. Surely there had always been criminals and perverts, ugliness and evil; it just hadn't felt as if it was everywhere. Perhaps life now for his children was not really much more precarious than when Hardy had been a boy. But now it seemed that nearly every detail of every crime everywhere got into the societal fabric via the front page, television, the Internet—a racial killing in Detroit happened
here
; an abusive father killing his wife and kids in Miami was
here
; a massacre at a school in North Dakota might happen
here
, today.

The Beck seemed to feel that if she let her guard down for an instant, she would
die
. Kidnappers lurked in every public bathroom, you got cancer if you caught a whiff of secondhand tobacco smoke, bombs and handguns proliferated in high schools everywhere, you caught AIDS if you even kissed your boyfriend. God forbid you got a sunburn, or forgot to fasten your seat belt.

Government warning: Everyone who breathes, dies! Watch out!

She was trying to sort it all out, one fear at a time. Three out of seven days a week for at least the past year. At bedtime. On school mornings. Whenever something struck her. It was wearing her parents down.

“She worries,” Frannie repeated.

“I worry, too,” Hardy replied. “But I'm old, that's my job. The Beck's a healthy kid whose parents love each other and have enough money. She ought to spend a couple of seconds thinking about that every week or two.
The good stuff in the world. There is some left, I hear—sunsets, food, the occasional tasteless joke.”

“She tries, Dismas. She's doing the best she can.”

“I know.” Hardy sipped at his cold coffee, let out another lungful of air. “I really do know. It just breaks my heart.”

The phrase hung in the room. After a long minute, Frannie squeezed his hand. “What else?” she asked.

Hardy paused, then feigned ignorance. “What else what?”

“Good try,” she said. “But not flying. Something else—not the Beck—has been bothering you since you got home last night.”

Hardy glanced across at his wife. She brushed a stray strand of gleaming red hair from her lovely forehead, offered him a sympathetic look.

“You're good,” he said.

She shrugged. “Part of the job description. So what is it?”

He sighed a last time and gave in. “Abe.”

 

“That doesn't sound like him at all,” Frannie said after she'd heard the story. “Do you think it's possible he had a crush on Elaine?”

The question was unexpected and Hardy considered it carefully, then shook his head no. “She was engaged. Besides, Abe isn't what I'd call the crush type.”

“He had a crush on Flo for almost twenty years.”

“That wasn't a crush, Frannie. They were married.”

She gave him a pretty pout. “And the two are mutually exclusive?”

He took her hand, kissed it, shook his head. “What I mean is I can't see him carrying some kind of torch. He'd come out with it . . .”

Frannie broke a half smile. “Abe? We're talking the effervescent and loquacious Lieutenant Glitsky? You want my opinion?”

“At every turn.”

“I think if he was attracted to somebody who was somehow off limits—like engaged—wild horses couldn't drag it out of him.”

Hardy sat up straight. “You don't think he would even mention it to the involved party?”

“No. Especially not her. Not unless she gave him some signal that she might be interested. Why do you think Abe hasn't had a date in three years?”

“Women hate and fear him?”

“Dismas.”

“He's a hideous gargoyle?”

It was no secret that Frannie considered Abe one of the more attractive men on the planet. “I don't think that's it either.”

“How about if he hasn't liked anybody enough?”

“Maybe, but not mostly, I don't think.” She came forward on the couch. “He hasn't asked anybody out—I'd bet you anything—because he doesn't want to reveal anything going on inside him. It's his protection since Flo.”

Hardy knew that his wife was mostly right on this. Since Flo had died, he'd spent hours with Glitsky, both socially and professionally, and knew that his friend wasn't exactly the poster boy for celebrating the inner child. The walls were high and thick. But Frannie hadn't gotten it all, and Hardy's expression grew serious. “I think he's scared, all right, but not about having somebody see who he is. I think he's afraid that if he starts with somebody he might get to care about her. That might turn into caring a lot. And then he might lose it all again.”

Frannie put her hand back over his. “That was your demon, Dismas,” she said softly, “maybe it's not Abe's.”

Hardy's first son, Michael, had died in infancy. The event had plunged him into divorce with his first wife, Jane, and then a decade of lethargy in a haze induced by Guinness stout, during which he eked out an empty existence on his bartender wages at the Little Shamrock.
His passion for his work and for justice—for sunsets and food and sexual love, too—had dried up. And then, somehow—the precise mechanism of it was still a mystery to him—Frannie had gotten through to him, and he'd begun to feel again, to be able to handle feeling.

Now he tightened down his mouth, looked over at her. “Maybe that's why I recognize it, though. With Abe. How did we get on this anyway?” he asked.

“Abe dating. His possible crush on Elaine.”

Hardy gave it another minute. “Whatever it was, it was serious. He wanted the kid to suffer. It was personal.”

“So what are you going to do now?”

“About Abe?”

“I don't suppose you'll have to do anything about Abe. He's got a way of taking care of himself. I was thinking about the boy. What's left for you to do? Are you in this?”

After a minute of consideration Hardy said, “Let's say I'm not comfortable with the idea of defending the person who killed Elaine. I liked her. If Cole did it, I'll turn Dorothy onto somebody else, tell her I've got a conflict of interest.”

“You just said ‘if Cole did it.' ”

“He did, Frannie. He's confessed. That's usually a tip-off.”

“But you're going to want to find out a little more, aren't you? Make sure.”

Hardy's reluctance showed like a fresh bruise. His expression changed two or three times until it rested on a grimace. “Probably, knowing me,” he admitted, “although there's no such thing as sure. It just feels a little pat up to now, that's all. I'd want to talk to him at least, get his side of it. But if it seems like he did do it—strung out and screwed up or not—I'll let David or somebody else take him. I wouldn't want to be involved in defending him.”

“But what if . . . ?”

Hardy held up a hand. “Let's not go there. Not yet, okay.”

“Abe would be pretty unhappy, though, wouldn't he, if you did?”

He nodded somberly. “You know, my love, sometimes you show a remarkable talent for understatement.”

 

It surprised Hardy, but neither Jeff nor Dorothy Elliot had any real problem with his decision not to represent Cole. They even said they thought it was a smart one. As they talked, it came out that the boy had done a pretty good job of alienating everybody in the family.

When he'd first begun having “problems,” Jeff and Dorothy had tried to be understanding and supportive in his struggle. Cole told them that he'd come out to San Francisco because there wasn't any real empathy regarding his situation in the Midwest. He
was
trying but people just didn't understand.

So the Elliots invited him to stay with them and their children until he got settled in. In the next month, Jeff “lost” a watch and they had a daytime break-in where the burglar got away with most of Dorothy's jewelry. Dinners became upsetting for the children when Uncle Cole's place would be set and he wouldn't show up. On top of that, Cole had two minor traffic accidents while he was driving Dorothy's car, both of them the other driver's fault—except that in both cases the other car had fled. Finally, when one of the girls' piggy banks that had held four hundred dollars turned up missing, they'd told Cole he had to go and not come back.

So they understood Hardy's decision. He was a friend to have gone to the jail in an emergency and make sure he got into the detox. They didn't expect him to do anything else.

But for his own peace of mind, Hardy did want to eyeball the man and get to the bottom of this confession. What had Cole said? Glitsky's behavior had stuck in his craw as well. It wasn't that he thought Cole might be innocent, but the fact that everyone was treating him as though it had already been proven bothered the lawyer in Hardy.

He didn't need certainty beyond a reasonable doubt. He was ready to cast Cole off in a heartbeat, but he couldn't let go completely until he'd at least totally satisfied himself that the man had actually killed Elaine.

Then let him be damned. Hardy wouldn't care.