KNIGHT OF SHADOWS (8 page)

The silence was profound, and when I opened my eyes, the light had vanished and the shape of the cave mouth was unaltered.
 
I rose slowly to my feet, advanced even more slowly.
 
The Sign of the Logrus had departed, and for reasons I did not understand I was loath to call it back.
 
When I looked within the cave, there were no signs that anything at all had occurred, save for the fact that my wards were blown.

I stepped inside.
 
The blanket still lay where it had fallen.
 
I put out a hand and touched the wall.
 
Cold stone.
 
That blast must have taken place at some other level than the immediate.
 
My small fire was still flickering feebly.
 
I recalled it yet again to life.
 
But the only thing I saw in its glow which I had not seen previously was my coffee cup, broken where it had fallen.

I let my hand remain upon the wall.
 
I leaned.
 
After a time, there came an uncontrollable tightening of my diaphragm.
 
I began laughing.
 
I am not sure why.
 
The weight of everything which had transpired since April 30 was upon me.
 
It just happened that laughter had edged out the alternative of beating my breast and howling.

I thought I knew who all the players were in this complex game.
 
Luke and Jasra seemed to be on my side now, along with my brother Mandor, who’d always looked out for me.
 
My mad brother Jurt wanted me dead, and he was now allied with my old lover Julia, who didn t seem too kindly disposed toward me either.
 
There was the ty’iga-an overprotective demon inhabiting the body of Coral’s sister, Nayda, whom I’d left sleeping in the midst of a spell back in Amber.
 
There was the mercenary Dalt - who, now I thought of it, was also my uncle-who’d made off with Luke for points and purposes unknown after kicking Luke’s ass in Arden with two armies watching.
 
He had nasty designs on Amber but lacked the military muscle to provide more than occasional guerrilla-style annoyance.
 
And then there was Ghostwheel, my cybernetic Trump dealer and minor-league mechanical demigod, who seemed to have evolved from rash and manic to rational and paranoid-and I wasn’t at all sure where he was headed from here, but at least he was showing some filial respect mixed in with the current cowardice.

And that had been pretty much it.

But these latest manifestations seemed evidence that there was something else at play here also, something that wanted to drag me off in yet another direction.
 
I had Ghost’s testimony that it was strong.
 
I had no idea what it really represented.
 
And I had no desire to trust it.
 
This made for an awkward relationship.

“Hey, kid!” came a familiar voice from down the slope.
 
“You’re a hard man to find.
 
You don’t stay put.”

I turned quickly, moved forward, stared downward.

A lone figure was toiling up the slope.
 
A big man.
 
Something flashed in the vicinity of his throat.
 
It was too dark to make out his features.

I retreated several paces, commencing the spell which would restore my blasted wards.

“Hey! Don’t run off!” he called.
 
“I’ve got to talk to you.

The wards fell into place, and I drew my blade and held it, point lowered, at my tight, entirely out of sight from the cave mouth when I turned my body.
 
I ordered Frakir to hang invisible from my left hand also.
 
The second figure had been stronger than the first, to make it past my wards.
 
If this third one should prove stronger than the second, I was going to need everything I could muster.

“Yeah?” I called out.
 
“Who are you and what do you want?”

“Hell!” I heard it say “I’m no one in particular.
 
Just your old man.
 
I need some help, and I like to keep things in the family.”

I had to admit, when it reached the area of firelight, that it was a very good imitation of Prince Corwin of Amber, my father, complete with black cloak, boots, and trousers, gray shirt, silver studs, and buckle-and even a silver rose-and he was smiling that same quirky sort of smile the real Corwin had sometimes worn on telling me his story, long ago. ...I felt a kind of wrenching in my guts at the sight.
 
I’d wanted to get to know him better, but he’d disappeared, and I’d never been able to find him again.
 
Now, for this thing-whatever it was-to pull this impersonation...I was more than a little irritated at such a patent attempt to manipulate my feelings.

“The first fake was Dworkin,” I said, “and the second was Oberon.
 
You’re climbing right down the family tree, aren’t you?”

He squinted and cocked his head in puzzlement as he advanced, another realistic mannerism.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about, Merlin,” he responded.
 
“I-“ Then it entered the warded area and jerked as if touching a hot wire.
 
“Holy shit!” it said.
 
“You don’t trust anybody, do you?”

“Family tradition,” I replied, “backed up by recent experience.”

I was puzzled, though, that the encounter had not involved more pyrotechnics.
 
Also, I wondered why the thing’s transformation into scrollwork had not yet commenced.

With another oath, it swirled its cloak to the left, wrapping it about its arm; its right hand crossed toward an excellent facsimile of my father’s scabbard.
 
A silver-chased blade sighed as it arced upward, then fell toward the eye of the ward.
 
When they met, the sparks rose in a foot-high splash and the blade hissed as if it had been heated and were now being quenched in water.
 
The design on the blade flared, and the sparks leaped again this time as high as a man-and in that instant I felt the ward break.

Then it entered, and I fumed my body, swinging my blade.
 
But the blade that looked like Grayswandir fell and rose again, in a tightening circle, drawing my own weapon’s point to the right and sliding straight in toward my breast.
 
I did a simple parry in quarte, but he slipped under it and was still coming in from the outside.
 
I parried sixte, but he wasn’t there.
 
His movement had been only a feint.
 
He was back inside and coming in low now.
 
I reversed myself and parried again as he slid his entire body in to my right, dropping his blade’s point, reversing his grip, fanning my face with his left hand.

Too late I saw the right hand rising as the left slid behind my head.

Grayswandir’s pommel was headed straight for my jaw.

“You’re really…” I began, and then it connected.
 
The last thing I remember seeing was the silver rose.

That’s life: Trust and you’re betrayed; don’t trust and you betray yourself.
 
Like most moral paradoxes, it places you in an untenable position.
 
And it was too late for my normal solution.
 
I couldn’t walk away from the game.

I woke in a place of darkness.
 
I woke wondering and wary.
 
As usual when wondering and wary, I lay perfectly still and let my breathing continue its natural rhythm.
 
And I listened.

Not a sound.

I opened my eyes slightly.

Disconcerting patterns.
 
I closed them again.

I felt with my body for vibrations within the rocky surface upon which I was sprawled.

No vibes.

I opened my eyes entirely, fought back an impulse to close them.
 
I raised myself onto my elbows, then gathered my knees beneath me, straightened my back, turned my head.
 
Fascinating.
 
I hadn’t been this disoriented since I’d gone drinking with Luke and the Cheshire Cat.

There was no color anywhere about me.
 
Everything was black, white, or some shade of gray.
 
It was as if I had entered a photographic negative.
 
What I presumed to be a sun hung like a black hole several diameters above the horizon to my right.
 
The sky was a very dark gray, and ebon clouds moved slowly within it.
 
My skin was the color of ink.
 
The rocky ground beneath me and about me shone an almost translucent bone-white, however.
 
I rose slowly to my feet, taming.
 
Yes.
 
The ground seemed to glow, the sky was dark, and I was a shadow between them.
 
I did not like the feeling at all.

The air was dry, cool.
 
I stood in the foothills to an albino mountain range, so stark in appearance as to rouse comparison with the Antarctic.
 
These stretched off and up to my left.
 
To the right-low and rolling-toward what I guessed to be a morning sun, lay a black plain.
 
Desert? I had to raise my hand and “shade’ against its .
 
.
 
what? Antiglow?

“Shit!” I tried saying, and I noticed two things immediately.

The first was that my word remained unvoiced.
 
The second was that my jaw hurt where my father or his simulacrum had slugged me.

I repeated my silent observation and withdrew my Trumps.
 
All bets were off when it came to messing with sendings.
 
I shuffled out the Trump for the Ghostwheel and focused my attention upon it.

Nothing.
 
It was completely dead to me.
 
But, then, it was Ghost who’d told me to lie low, and maybe he was simply refusing to entertain my calf.
 
I thumbed through the others.
 
I paused at Flora’s.
 
She was usually willing to help me out of a tight spot.
 
I studied that lovely face, sent out my call to it....

Not a golden curl stirred.
 
Not a degree’s drop in temperature.
 
The card remained a card.
 
I tried harder, even muttering an enhancement spell.
 
But there was nobody home.

Mandor, then.
 
I spent several minutes on his card with the same result.
 
I tried Random’s.
 
Ditto.
 
Benedict’s, Julian’s.
 
No and no.
 
I tried for Fiona, Luke, and Bill Roth.
 
Three more negatives.
 
I even pulled a couple of the Trumps of Doom, but I couldn’t reach the Sphinx either, or a building of bones atop a green glass mountain.

I squared them, cased them, and put them away. It was the first time I had encountered a phenomenon of this sort since the Crystal Cave.
 
Trumps can be blocked in any of a number of ways, however, and so far as I was concerned, the matter was, at the moment, academic.
 
I was more concerned about removing myself to a more congenial environment.
 
I could save the research for some future bit of leisure.

I began walking.
 
My footsteps were soundless.
 
When I kicked a pebble and it bounced along before me, I could detect nothing of sound to its passage.

White to the left of me, black to the right.
 
Mountains or desert.
 
I turned left, walking.
 
Nothing else in motion that I could see except for the black, black clouds.
 
To the lee side of every outcrop a near-blinding area of enhanced brightness: crazy shadows across a crazy land.

Turn left again.
 
Three pacer, then round the boulder: Upward.
 
Over the ridge, Turn downhill.
 
Turn right, Soon a streak of red amid rocks to the left...

Nope.
 
Next time then...

Brief twinge in the frontal sinus.
 
No red.
 
Move on.

Crevice to the right, next turn...

I massaged my temples when they began to ache as no crevice was delivered.
 
My breath came heavy, and I felt moisture upon my brow.
 

Textures of gray to green and brittle flowers, slate-blue, low on the next talus slope...

A small pain in my neck.
 
No flowers.
 
No gray.
 
No green.

Then let the clouds part and the darkness pour down from the sun .
 
.

.Nothing

...and a sound of running water from a small stream, next gully.

I had to halt.
 
My head was throbbing; my hands were shaking.
 
I reached out and touched the rock wall to my left.
 
It felt solid enough.
 
Rampant reality.
 
Why was it treading all over me?