Knights of the Black and White (63 page)

The unexpectedness of this denunciation, and the ferocity with which it was delivered, rendered St. Clair speechless, for he had been witness, no matter how 610

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unwillingly or unwittingly, to a statement that would be deemed worthy of death had anyone in power overheard it. Moreover, it was a statement with which he agreed in every sense, and in his enthusiasm he came close to saying so. He opened his mouth to speak, but discovered in doing so that there was nothing he could dare to say, and so he closed it again, quickly, his mind reeling with the revelation that had just occurred to him.

He had spent months now believing that this woman was a spoiled, malevolent, self-centered child with no thought in her mind except debauchery and sensual pleasures, but in the space of moments she had shown him another, entirely unsuspected facet of her nature: a fiery passion allied with a withering contempt for the powerful men of her acquaintance. He was convinced, quite suddenly and unexpectedly, that he was out of his depths in this confrontation, if, in fact, it was a confrontation. He shook his head, as if trying to clear the clutter of his thoughts, then made a valiant attempt to redirect the conversation, which had become far too dangerous for comfort.

“I cannot find it in my heart to disagree with you, my lady, but the sin is not all one-sided. The men against whom my brethren and I fight are not devout Muslims.

They are godless and they are murderous, bandits and marauders and more than deserving of the justice meted out to them when we find them. Were they Christian Franks, guilty of the same transgressions, we would treat them no differently.

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sent for me, although I may be wrong. Was it this you wished to speak with me about? If so—”

Alice smiled again. “No, Brother Stephen, it was not, so you may set your mind at rest, even on this matter of my treasonous speech. I am a dutiful daughter and I love my father dearly, as a just and indulgent parent. It is only with his
kingship
that I struggle—his manhood, masculinity, male pride, call it what you will. I think of it as that element in his nature that prevents him from seeing the world through a woman’s eyes. And since you are a monk, self-sacrificingly severed from such worldly things, and devoted single-mindedly to the pleasure and the glory of doing God’s real will, I may not include you in my general condemnation of men.”

St. Clair blinked. “You condemn
all
men, my lady?”

“Most men, Brother Stephen, and most particularly the majority of those men with whom I have to spend much of my life. The more powerful a man becomes, I find, the less pleasurable is his company, and those men involved in acquiring power, like our admirable Bishop of Fontainebleau, are totally intolerable. I abhor men who are grasping for power, because all of them crush lesser men beneath their lusts.” She saw the expression on his face and continued. “Yet I know too, believe me, that lesser men, ordinary men, can be just as swinish and as evil as their so-called betters, so do not misconstrue what I am saying. All that I mean is that our system of feudal tenure exists solely for the benefit of those men who hold power. That means, Brother Stephen, that it exists to the detriment of everyone, for even those on the pinnacles of 612

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power are all too often destroyed by being atop the pinnacle. I would change that, if I could, but I cannot. I am a mere woman, and women are more powerless than serfs in this world of men. What is it? You look as though you have something you would like to add.”

“No, my lady. Nothing at all.”

“Very well, then, let us begin to
begin
, you and I.” She raised her hands and clapped sharply, and an old man entered through the doors at the far end of the room and came to her. “Ishtar,” she said, her eyes still on St. Clair,

“this is Brother Stephen, of the brotherhood from the stables on the Temple Mount, but he is here this day as Sir Stephen St. Clair, in order to assist me. Conduct him to the baths, if you will. Sir Stephen?”

Her right eyebrow had risen high on her forehead, whether in challenge or in curiosity St. Clair had no idea, but he permitted nothing to show on his face as he debated with himself. He had gone through all this in his mind before even entering these rooms, knowing that she would, in all probability, insist upon his bathing, and he was well aware of the dangers to his chastity—a chastity already compromised to the point of risibility—that were involved therein. She would not approach him while he was unwashed, rank and offensive to her nostrils, but once he had emerged from the hot water baths, all steamed and scrubbed and perfumed, he would face another reception altogether. She would not scruple to approach him then, and he had but little confidence in his own ability, or even in his willingness, to withstand the blandishments she might bestow upon him. And this Complicities

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time, if he succumbed to her, there would be no matter of
intent
to debate.

Having bathed within the previous month, and therefore being less rank than usual, he thought he might stand upon his vows and refuse her invitation, and he had earlier surmised that he would probably be able to win the confrontation that would undoubtedly follow, depending upon how badly she needed and wanted his cooperation and whatever information she thought she could obtain from him. Against that, he now had to weigh the astonishing attitude Alice le Bourcq had so newly revealed to him. If he refused now to bathe at her request, he would incur her hostility and forfeit the amiable, forthright, and unprecedented reception she had accorded him so far.

And there came the crux of the matter, because he could imagine nothing more important—to himself and to his brothers in the Order of Rebirth—than to discover as much as he could about what she knew and what she hoped to discover. It made sense, then, that he should accede to her wishes in this matter of bathing and use the goodwill generated by that to extract whatever information he could amiably, rather than hope to glean it in an adversarial encounter.

He stood up without speaking, and her head tilted backward, holding his gaze, that single eyebrow still raised—in what, he wondered, reflecting that if it were anticipation, he was incapable of guessing what prompted it.

“I remember, my lady.” He had not meant to say that.

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her eyes widen in surprise, mingled with something else—confusion, he thought, or perhaps consternation.

When she spoke, however, there was no sign of any such thing in her voice.

“
What
do you remember, Brother Stephen?”

He smiled slightly, amazed at the ease with which his response came to him, and dipped his head. “What I had heard. Not that you dislike men, but that you dislike the stink of
unwashed
men.”

She continued to stare at him for a moment, her eyes narrow, then nodded. “You heard correctly, Brother. Go you now with Ishtar. And Ishtar, send Esther to me, if you will.” She looked back at St. Clair. “I shall be here when you are ready.”

St. Clair followed the old eunuch through the maze of passageways and courtyards within the walls of what had been the great al-Aqsa Mosque, looking about him as he went for anything that he might recognize. He saw nothing that was even vaguely familiar, however, which confirmed his own belief that he must have been barely conscious—or perhaps more accurately, barely aware of his surroundings—when he was confined here previously.

The bathing rooms were completely unfamiliar, too, and that surprised him greatly, for among the most persistent memories he had were those of long, pleasant hours spent in the warmth and luxury of the baths.

“I do not remember this place.” He spoke the thought aloud, merely to express his confusion, if only to himself.

“And why should you? You have never been here.”

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St. Clair, barely aware of the eunuch’s presence, had not expected a response, and so it took him a moment to realize that Ishtar was unsurprised to hear him hint, even as vaguely as he had, that he was aware of having been here before. He looked keenly at the old man. “Are there, then, other baths here?”

“Hah!” It was more of a bark than a laugh, but St.

Clair could see that the old fellow was amused. “I imagine so. There are six more, all separate.”

“Then which one did I use?”

Ishtar gazed back at him, blank eyed. “Today,
ferenghi
, you use this one. Achmed, whom I will send to you, will be your masseur. I will wait for you outside and take you back when you are ready.” He bowed and moved away without another word.

Less than an hour later, bathed and pummeled, oiled and scented, and dressed in fresh clothing, St. Clair reentered the princess’s audience room and found her deeply involved with several of her women in some project that involved countless lengths of bright fabrics and materials, strewn over every available surface in a riotous explosion of vibrant colors. She saw him enter behind Ishtar and dismissed the women immediately, sending them scurrying away, burdened with armloads of fabrics, and she stood up to welcome him back. He nodded politely but made no attempt at conversation, knowing that she knew she had won in the matter of the bathing, and that the conducting of this interview was hers to dictate.

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her perfume filled his nostrils, tightened his chest, and set his blood stirring again.

“There, now I can approach you, at least.” She paused, awaiting a reaction that he successfully sup-pressed, and then she smiled. “Bravo! I expected you to move away when I said that, but you barely flinched. And yet I suspect you may be even more skittish and nervous around women nowadays than you were before, Brother Stephen, now that you are a monk in fact. Am I correct?”

He pursed his lips, wondering what was coming next, but nodded. “Aye, my lady, you are correct. I am.”

“And yet you were a knight for many years before you ever thought to turn monk. Surely you knew no lack of women in those years?”

That was a statement, he decided, not a question, and so he merely shrugged his shoulders.

“Well?”

It had been a question after all, and the princess wished him to answer it. He thought for a while, then said, “My mother died when I was but a babe, and I had no sisters or female relatives, my lady. I was brought up in an unusual household, in England, a country where the people still hate us as the Norman invaders who conquered them no more than fifty years ago. It was a household lacking in women, yet one in which antique values and standards were espoused and nurtured, even revered.

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continuing. “They taught me many things for which I have been grateful for many years, but none among them, alas, was an adept in the knowledge of women, so my learning there was severely limited.”

Again he stopped, a tiny frown on his face, deep in thought now and unaware that the princess was watching him closely.

“Fortunately for me, I had the natural aptitudes of a soldier, in addition to being scholarly, and so I was knighted early. And then, being very, very young, I rushed out into the world, eager to fight for all the things that I had been taught to believe in and to revere. And that, I fear, was the end of my youth. I quickly discovered that I had little in common with my fellow knights, and even less with the women who surrounded them.

“That first year of knighthood outside of my home was a time of revelations, none of them pleasant. I quickly learned the difference between the world of ideas and ideals in which I had been raised, and the real world of bestial brutality within which most men live.

“I discovered that my fellow knights were not as I had envisioned them. They were barely civilized and lacked even the rudiments of what I had been taught was Christian conduct. I saw the undeniable reality of godlessness everywhere: hypocrisy, cynicism, venality, simony, and unbridled carnality even among priests and clerics. I could not approve, but neither could I disapprove too loudly, for I would not have lasted a month once the word of my disapproval was out. And so I held my peace 618

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and sought to live my own life for myself. I lived in solitary misery, by choice. I made no friends, and I knew no women. My sole companions were my own servitors. I fought much and volunteered for every task at every opportunity until I was sorely wounded and sent home to die. But even there, I went my own way. And soon after that, I came here, and I met you for the first time.”

He saw the princess staring at him in amazement and he was unsurprised, because he was equally amazed at himself. He had had no thought, before he began speaking, to say any of what had come spouting from his mouth, but then had found himself matching her candor with his own.

Alice looked down at her hands. “Aye, Sir Stephen, I remember that first meeting. And now we may be meeting for the last time.”

“How so, my lady?” He felt a surge of alarm, his mind connecting what she had just said with the reason underlying his presence here—the information she had uncovered.

“I will soon be leaving Jerusalem,” she said. “I am to be wed to Prince Bohemond of Antioch, who is on his way here now from Italy to claim his throne and to succeed his father.”

His first thought was that this might be a reprieve from the threat of being seduced, but he realized the true significance of what she had said immediately after that.

He cleared his throat. “Then I am glad for you, my lady.

How soon is the prince expected?”