Lament: The Faerie Queen's Deception (11 page)

eight

M
om drove me to the gig. Since she was a caterer, every wedding planner in a two-hour radius knew us, and it hadn’t taken long for them to find out that she had given birth to wedding music, as well. It actually wasn’t a bad deal. Usually I would arrive on the scene thirty minutes early, spend half that time barfing, and then emerge to play gracefully for a couple hundred bucks. It was worth the barfing; two hundred bucks would support my CD-buying habit for several more months, until the next gig.

But I didn’t want to do it today, and it wasn’t because of the puking. I wasn’t even thinking about the gig. I was thinking about Luke’s laugh. Analyzing every angle of it … deciding I was overthinking it … and then deciding I hadn’t been thinking about it enough.

Mom was silent for most of the trip, probably thinking I was nauseated. But I could tell she was cooking something, and I was right. She turned down the radio.

“Last night—” Here it came. Frustration welled inside me like a red, ugly blister and exploded.

“I don’t want to talk about Luke,” I snapped.

I might as well have slapped her. She even put her fingers to her lips, as if I really had. I was violating another rule, of course. I was supposed to sit and just let her ream me out, and then nod mutely and do whatever she said. Screw that.

Bad choice of words.

Just screw her
.
I can’t wait.
Finish it.
I angrily tugged down the edge of the fitted blue dress Mom had bought for me. I hated the dress. Made it look like I’d raided an old woman’s closet. All I needed was a big gaudy string of pearls and I’d be ready to hit the Moose Lodge.

So what? Luke was in league with the friggin’ rabbit? Why even bother to tell me about faeries then? To gain my confidence so he could get in my pants?

Mom jerked the car to a halt and I looked up with surprise, thinking she was preparing for a huge confrontation. But no, that wasn’t Mom’s way. We were already at the church.

“What are you wearing around your neck, anyway?” Her voice was cold enough for polar bears.

My hand went to the chain that held Luke’s key.

“It looks like crap with the dress,” Mom said. Wow. Minor swearing. I’d really pissed her off.

“Whatever.” Like I felt like wearing it right now anyway. I unclasped it and curled the chain and the key in my palm.

“Put it in your harp case so you don’t lose it.” Mom pressed the button to open the trunk. “Take your phone.”

I took the phone. “You aren’t staying?”

Her voice dropped a few more degrees. “Granna can pick you up. I’m going home, I have work to do. Call her when you’re done.”

“Fine. Okay. See you later.” I could be just as icy. I pulled my harp from the trunk, dropping Luke’s secret into the pouch of the case, and headed into the church. Mom was already pulling out of the lot by the time I let the massive oak door close behind me.

Inside, the church lobby was dim and spacious, lushly covered in red carpet. It had that smell that only old churches get, something about lots of people and lots of candles and lots of years. There were already knots of people gathered, all discussing details of flowers and timing and music, and in a rush, my stomach remembered how it was supposed to be feeling.

“You must be the harpist.” A woman with blond hair glued into place popped up by my side like an overwhelmingly perfumed jack-in-the-box, complete with permanent smile. “I’m Maryann, the wedding planner.”

I nodded dumbly. If I opened my mouth, I’d toss chunks all over her stiff hair, melting it.

“Your mother explained all about you,” Maryann said through her rack of teeth. “The bathroom’s right through those doors.”

With equal parts gratitude and humiliation, I tore through the doors and found the tiny, antique bathroom. I shoved aside the fake flower arrangement that was one thousand times too large for the room and promptly puked. Afterward, my stomach immediately felt better, and all that was left was the faintly sick feeling that I’d had since I’d heard the conversation between Luke and the damn rabbit.

I scrubbed my hands with the potent lavender soap and rinsed them under a blast of water. Something firm and heavy rolled between my fingers, and before I realized what it was, I saw Granna’s ring quickly circle the drain and disappear.

I swore and stuck my finger into the drain, but it was an old sink with one of those gaping drains that was just waiting for personal effects to fall in. My ring was unreachable, somewhere in the plumbing. And of
course
Granna was the one picking me up today. She’d go through the roof.

Friggin’ ace.

I returned to the lobby, where I found Maryann and worked out the details of when to play during the wedding. And of course, like always, since I’d already puked, I did fine and I found myself a half hour later with a bright shiny check for $175.

Making small talk with people I don’t know and will never meet again is not my forte, so I escaped outside and dialed Granna’s number. “Granna? Mom said you’d pick me up.”

“You’re done already?”

“Yes.”

“You have a better hourly rate than my doctor.” I heard some kind of thump from Granna’s end of the phone.

“I guess I do. What are you doing?”

“I’m, uh—” another thump, “painting a piece of furniture that doesn’t want to be painted. But it’ll wait. It’ll be a half hour before I get there, though.”

I squinted at the church. It was hot here on the sidewalk, but it probably wouldn’t be too bad if I waited under the birch trees nearby. Of course, I could’ve waited inside in the air-conditioning, but that would’ve meant small talk. I told Granna that was fine, and headed over to the trees.

Sure enough, it wasn’t terrible. It was hot, but I could stand it. I rested my harp case against one of the trees and walked a little further into them. They had been planted in straight lines, about fifty of them, all beautiful and straight, with canopies so lush that I couldn’t tell where one tree ended and another one began. The grass underneath was beautiful and green as well; it looked like something out of a dream.

I couldn’t sit, or I’d get grass stains on my old-woman sheath. So I stood next to one of the birches, looking at the way the bark peeled off and left smooth tree-skin beneath it. Beautiful, but smelly.

I sniffed. What
was
that smell, anyway? It was sweet, fruity—rotten. Like clover cut and left to molder. And it wasn’t the trees.

Ten feet away from me, I saw movement blink in and out of focus, like a frame skipped in a movie reel. The rotten smell clipped in and out with it. Black. Big.

I stepped backward, putting a tree between me and whatever it was. I wasn’t dumb enough to think it was my imagination. Not anymore. Blink. The movement flickered again. This time it was barely five feet away from me—flashing a negative image on my eyes, as if I had looked into the sun and then closed my eyes. The after-image was of a great, dark animal, taller than my waist, neck pulled back and long, long body crouched. Getting ready to—

The attack came from behind, and the force of it took my breath away. My shoulder hit the ground, but I didn’t feel any pain. All I could think about was the crushing weight on my chest, and I wondered if I would ever find my breath again. And that stench. That rotten smell, as if I were already dead and decomposing. A massive feline head, too long and narrow to be a proper wildcat, surged toward my neck.

I threw an arm up; anything to keep those teeth from my neck. The cat’s teeth sank into my forearm with no resistance at all. It tossed me up in front of it. I gasped, but there was no one to hear. It was as if this wood were a thousand miles away from the church and the wedding goers.

My arm burned in the cat’s grip. I used my other hand to jab my fingers into its eye, and with a snarl, it released me. Blink. Flash. It was behind me, paws and claws throwing me to the ground again. Blink. On the other side of me, worrying me like a mouse. Blink. Seizing my arm again.

Fire burned under the massive teeth. I scraped, pummeled, clawed at the cat, but I had no effect on the rock-hard muscles beneath its skin. I was being toyed with, and it was going to kill me. Because I’d washed Granna’s ring down the drain. I was going to die because I was a
frigging idiot.

The cat snarled suddenly, spinning, dragging me with it by my arm. I saw a flash of someone else, a person. The person seized my arm as well, gripping the cat’s head with his other arm.

“Don’t,” I gasped. “Not a normal cat—watch out—”

“I
am
watching out,” snapped Luke.

Oh God. What was he doing here?

The cat was tearing my arm one way, Luke was tearing it another way, and I saw claws and red. With another raspy snarl, the cat dropped me and sprang toward Luke, probably twice his weight and taller when on its back legs. This was going to be awful.

But in the time it took me to stumble to my feet, Luke had seized the cat by the side of its face and the skin of its neck. As the cat raked a massive paw toward his face, Luke pulled a dagger out of nowhere and slid the blade into the bottom of the cat’s jaw. Just like that. His expression was the same vague one he’d wore when he spoke to Eleanor—just as calm—and the motion he used was effortless, practiced, efficient.

The cat fell to the ground by his feet, somehow even larger when dead. I stared at it, the limp angle of its neck, the dagger stuck into the bottom of its head. I watched Luke pull the dagger free, wipe it carefully on the grass, and replace it in a sheath under his pants leg. I was frozen in place by the memory of his face as he killed it.

Luke looked at me, questioning. It was the look you’d give a stray dog, holding your hand out, finding out if it would let you approach. I suddenly remembered the question he’d asked earlier: “Do I scare you?”

I swallowed and found out I had a voice after all. “I washed Granna’s ring down the drain.”

It was all the permission Luke needed. He was by my side in a second, taking my trembling arm in his hands, wiping the blood away with his own T-shirt, examining the four puncture wounds. His fingers touched the bruises blossoming on my shoulder and the scrapes on my neck, and then he crushed me to him. He held me so tightly it hurt, and I felt his breath ragged on my skin.

Then he released me. “Where’s the key? Where’s the ring?”

I was breathless, though probably for the wrong reasons. “I told you, I accidentally washed the ring down the drain.”

“And the key?”

I looked down. “Mom told me to take it off.”

“Your mother’s an idiot!” Luke circled me, looking for more damage. I noticed the claw marks in his jeans, the red that stained his calf.

“You’re bleeding.”

Luke stopped in front of me. “So are you. You could’ve—it could’ve been a lot worse.”

I remembered abruptly. “Granna’s supposed to pick me up. What am I going to tell her?”

“The truth.”

That was almost laughable. “She’ll never believe me. She’s pretty out there, but not homicidal-wild-cat out there.”

“She’ll believe you.” Luke pointed to the harp case. “Is the key in there?”

I nodded and watched him retrieve it. I stood quietly as he clasped it around my neck once more, the scrape on my neck stinging slightly as the chain moved over it. He kissed the skin next to where the key hung, sending a chill through my body, and then hugged me again. He spoke into my ear, for me alone. “Please be careful.”

That sounded like a goodbye, but I didn’t want to be left alone to wait for Granna. “Are you leaving?”

“I’ll watch you. But she wouldn’t like to see me with you.”

I let him get a few steps away, and then I asked the burning question. “Why were you here?”

Luke shrugged. “You wanted saving, didn’t you?”

nine

O
ne of Granna’s more positive traits is also one of the most annoying: it’s damn near impossible to get her panicked or flustered. Like Mom, she has her extreme emotions packed away in a little box, only to be taken out for special occasions. Seeing me with minor signs of supernatural mauling didn’t qualify as a special occasion.

Instead, she just helped me get my harp in the car, got a paint-spattered towel from the back seat, and spread it on the passenger seat so I wouldn’t get blood on her fuzzy gray seats that smelled of orange solvents. She put the car in gear without a word.

I poked at my wounds; I was a bit proud of them. They were the best sort of injury—they looked awful but really didn’t hurt too much. Their gore was being wasted on Granna, whose pity was in the same box as the rest of her emotions. “Do you have some paper towels or something?”

As she pulled out of the lot, I glanced discreetly in the rearview mirror, hoping for a glimpse of Luke, but there was only an audience of birches visible. I wondered what would happen to the giant cat’s body.

“Alcohol wipes in the glove box,” Granna said. “We’ll clean it up better at my house.”

“Your house?” I paused, hand in glove box.

Granna really looked at me for the first time, and I blinked, seeing so much of Mom’s eyes in hers, hidden with crow’s feet. “Do you really want to explain that dress to your mother? I have some of your clothes at my house still.”

So maybe Luke was right. She would believe the truth.

“What was it?” Her voice was calm and even; she might as well have been asking, “How did it go?” or “Did you have a nice day today?”

I sighed, a little amazed that I was just going to tell the truth, and then I described the entire attack—from the loss of the ring to Luke’s rescue. I took great pleasure in telling that last bit, actually, after the way she’d treated him in the driveway. I waited for her to distill it into some tidy tale devoid of passion and danger, but she said nothing for a moment. The car was silent, except for its tires whirring on a road dappled with the shapes of summer leaves.

Finally her mouth quirked, and she said, “We should talk about this once you’ve gotten cleaned up.”

I wasn’t sure why the discussion would be any different once I was wearing different clothing, but Granna was as dangerous to poke as Mom. We didn’t speak again until we’d gotten to her old, L-shaped farmhouse in the middle of a cornfield.

“The clothes are upstairs in the guest room. In the closet on the shelf. I’ll get you some tea.” She headed for the kitchen and I headed up the stairs.

The farmhouse was always drafty, no matter how hot it was outside, and the guest room was the worst. Granna had covered the creaking, splintery wood floor with a colorful woven rag rug and hung bright abstract paintings on the pale-as-ice walls, but it always felt cold to me. Cold like nasty chill-in-your-head cold, not grab-me-a-sweater cold. Dad had told me that this had been Delia’s old room, and that as a child she’d nearly died here. Even without the dying part, just knowing that this room had helped form Delia’s charming personality made me hate it.

I grabbed my clothing from the closet—so that’s where my favorite baggy cords had gone—and changed in the bathroom. As I rinsed the dried blood from my skin, I remembered the feeling of Luke crushing me to him and the smell of him pressed against my nostrils. A fist squeezed my stomach at the memory … like nerves, but better.

Where is he now?

I joined Granna down in the kitchen, blinking in the bright sunshine pouring through the windows. She put a glass of iced tea in my hand and gestured for me to sit at the round table.

She studied my arm to see if I’d gotten it clean. “You know what’s happening here, don’t you?”

I felt a little stupid. “Faeries?”

She looked up at me abruptly. “Don’t say it. Say the word, and They’ll listen. There’s a reason why They’re called ‘The Good Neighbors’ and ‘The Fair Folk.’ The other word, it’s like an insult. It’s coarse.”

I drank some tea. Granna never made it sweet enough —something about refined sugars being bad for you, blah blah blah. “So, if you knew about Them all along, why didn’t you say anything? Just ‘oh here, wear this ugly ring,’ with no explanation?”

Granna pursed her lips, but I could tell she was trying not to smile. “So that’s why you washed it down the drain?”

“That really was an accident.”

“Mmm. They’ve always been a bit of bother to the female side of the family.”

Bit of bother.
I’d just been chewed on by a cat that made Jaws look like an irritable guppy. If that was only a bit of bother, I’d hate to see the whole thing.

Granna drummed her fingers on the table. “You’re about the right age for Them to start making trouble. Shallow things. I don’t think They have much use for anything old or not beautiful. They’re only interested in brand new toys.” She shrugged, as if she were talking about an ant problem or something equally mundane. “So I gave you the ring.”

“You act like They’re nothing to be afraid of.”

She shrugged again. “If you’re wearing iron, They really can’t do anything. Why do you think there aren’t stories on the news about changelings and stolen children all the time? We have iron everywhere now. They bothered Delia and your mother when they were younger, and then They gave up.”

That was a weird thought. My straight-up mother being bothered by faeries? Delia was even weirder. I could picture the scene. Faerie:
Come away, human.
Delia:
Why?
Faerie:
Untold delights and youth forever.
Delia:
I’m holding out for a better offer. Ta.

“Why didn’t you give me the ring sooner? You know, at birth or something.”

“I really thought that They had given up on us. But then I saw him, and I knew They were back.”

I didn’t have to ask who “him” was. My stomach lurched again, only this time it
was
nerves, and not the good kind. I didn’t know what to say. Anything I said would betray my increasing infatuation with him, and I didn’t think Granna would respond well to that. And even if I could get a question out with an innocent voice, I didn’t want to hear the answer.

I held on fast to the image of him saving me, and clinging to me after the cat was dead; I tied myself to it like a sailor to a mast, with a storm on the horizon.

And the storm came. “He’s one of Them, Deirdre.”

I shook my head.

“I know he is. I saw him twenty years ago, and he looked just the same as he did the other day.”

She had mistaken him for someone else.

“Right before the rest of Them show up, he does. He was there for Delia.”

I managed to get a few words out. “He saved me, Granna. Did you forget that part?”

She shrugged, irritatingly nonchalant. I wanted to smack her for casually trampling over my heart. “It’s all games, Deirdre. They love games. Cruel sports. Don’t you remember the old bedtime stories? Riddles and names and trickery. And why would They want you dead, anyway? They want to steal you away.” She mistook the look on my face, and unusual sympathy crept into her voice. “Oh, don’t worry! I’ll find you another piece of iron jewelry.”

I grasped the key at my neck and thrust it toward her. “He can touch iron, Granna. You said They couldn’t touch it. Well, he can. He could touch the ring, and he gave me this. He warned me about Them.” I pushed my chair back angrily. “I don’t think he’s one of Them.”

Granna pulled the lid off her box of emotions just long enough to let a frown escape. “Are you sure he can touch iron?”

In my head, his fingers touched the skin next to the key, held my fingers, glanced against the ring.

“I’m sure.”

She actually let another frown, a deeper one, out of the box. “He must—he must be some sort of half-breed. Something—did he have eyedrops?”

My heart, which had begun to beat faster at the word ‘half-breed,’ stopped when she mentioned the drops. I didn’t have to answer; my face told her everything she wanted to know.

“He has to use the drops to see Them.” She stood up and pushed her chair in. “I’m going to have to see if I can make something that will work on him.”

I couldn’t help myself. “Do you have to?”

She looked at me again, hard. “Deirdre, everything he’s told you is a lie. They don’t have souls. They don’t have friends. They don’t love. They play. They’re big, cruel children and They want shiny new toys. You’re shiny and new. He’s playing you.”

I thought I ought to feel like crying, then, but my eyes weren’t even a little wet. Or I should be angry, or something, but I was just nothing. I was so full of nothing that it was
something
.

“Go and relax on the sofa. I’ll be in the workshop, and I’ll take you home when I’m done.”

I didn’t answer, because nothing had no voice. I just did what she said and retreated to the living room, reaching for the image of Luke holding me, and finding nothing.

I watched
Cops
reruns until the shadows shifted and lengthened over the edge of the white wicker couch. The eight-hundredth cop was slamming the eight-hundredth criminal over the back of their car when my phone rang. I looked at the number and picked it up. “Hi.”

“Capital D!” James’ voice exclaimed, distantly.

I couldn’t work up the same enthusiasm. “Sorry I didn’t call you today. I’m at—”

“Granna’s. Your mom told me. She sounds pissier than an incontinent water buffalo. Can I come over and hang out?”

I considered. I didn’t know what I wanted, but being alone wasn’t it. “That would be great.”

“I was hoping you’d say that,” James said, and I heard a car door shut outside the window. “Because I’m already here and it would suck to drive back home now.”

The phone went dead in my hand, and then I heard the screen door slam. James found me in the living room, and I stood up to move a stack of holistic healing books from the other end of the sofa.

He set a large, fast-food cup on the end table. “I know Granna doesn’t make it sweet enough, so I brought you some of the real stuff from Sticky Pig.” He eyed my arm, which was clean but obviously chewed on. “Are you okay?”

He looked so normal and
safe
, standing there with his summer-brown arms and his
Sarcasm: Just Another Service I Offer
T-shirt. He looked like every summer I’d ever known and reminded me of everything I couldn’t seem to have right now. I fought valiantly with a strange rush of emotions for about one-third of a second, and then I burst into tears.

“Hey, hey!” James sat down with me on the couch and let me cry onto his sarcasm T-shirt. He didn’t ask any questions or try to get me to talk, because that’s how awesome a friend he is. Realizing that just made me cry more. And then I thought of how pathetic this whole crying jag was, which made me cry even more.

James bundled me closer as I started to shiver, his arms wrapped tightly around me like a living sweater. My teeth chattered. I finally stuttered, “I think I’m in shock.”

He reached up and wiped tears from my cheeks with the side of his writing-scrawled hand. “Does this have anything to do with the chomp marks on your arm? If you had them before, I don’t remember them. And I’ve got, like, a
crazy
eye for detail.”