Land of Love and Drowning: A Novel (16 page)

Eeona was not there to reel Anette in by her hair when the man kissed the ground as he left the ship or at the party when she and the man spoke of Anegada and drowning. Eeona was not there. And what could she have said to Anette, anyway? That man is our father’s son. That man is your brother. Eeona would not have been able to bring herself to do it. And it was nothing anyway. Should have been nothing. How could Eeona have known that it would boil everything? By now Eeona would have convinced herself that such a sinful thing was hers alone.

Let us be fair to Eeona. The morning after Anette came back from that dance with Gertie, Eeona was on her way to refund her ticket to New York. She didn’t know that Anette had met Jacob Esau the night before at the dance. But she did know that Anette had clipped his picture out of the paper. Eeona was on her way to do the right thing, for heaven’s sake. She would delay her emigration. She would delay her freedom. She would stay in St. Thomas just a while longer and prevent Anette’s divorce. But then out of the air came McKenzie. Another McKenzie. Rebekah’s McKenzie. Eeona’s McKenzie. A damn McKenzie who was supposed to have disappeared in a rain forest years ago.

Now we old wives know that a woman’s beauty is not in her looks alone. Her power is in the way she lies in the sea. The way she fixes her footing on the earth. Eeona has always been a beautiful woman. But then this man sailed in on a seaplane. Consider how obvious it was, after all. A plane is a thing of transport. A plane has a captain. A plane is no different than a ship. And a seaplane, well, that’s a ship but more. He was the age Owen Arthur would have been. He already had a history of loving the same woman Owen Arthur loved. He had been Rebekah’s husband. Technically, he was still Rebekah’s husband.

The white cruise ship was sitting there in the harbor like a fat rich man, just waiting for Eeona. It would leave in a week. Eeona walked past the big saving ship and didn’t even give it a treacherous glance. She was heading to return her ticket, get her refund. But near the terminal, where the tickets were sold, there was a little gathering of people. They weren’t there for the boat, they were there for something better. A seaplane or airboat, or whatever it was called, was flying in from Puerto Rico. When it arrived, it would take off on St. Thomas water, fly in the air, and then land on St. Croix water. St. Croix! Where Anette was to go to the orphanage, but she had wasted Eeona’s money and fell ill instead. No known Bradshaw had ever seen St. Croix. Even Captain Bradshaw had never had the opportunity. But history was happening now and Eeona stood to witness.

At the dock, each seaplane passenger was made to step on a scale to be weighed. There was a stoic lady who held her hat on her head with one flat palm even though there was no wind. There was a scrawny young man who beamed out at the crowd as though he had invented air travel. When the count neared the maximum pounds, the others were turned away. Eeona, waiting for the ocean liner desk to open for her refund, watched the chosen six stare at the horizon and then she, too, watched the horizon as the seaplane became a dot, then a bird, then a machine skidding along the water, like a thing of Jesus. The seaplane roared as it slapped against the dock. The hatted lady released her hat for a second and it jumped off her head like an animal. She let it fly, her hair swelling into a cloud above her. The plane’s engine quieted. As the door opened, the young man backed away slowly, clutching his one leather bag to his chest.

When the boarding began, no amount of coaxing would get what had been a young man and was now a frightened boy onto the seaplane. They needed another body to balance the weight. Eeona was already at the front of the crowd because crowds have always had the effect, like water, of parting for her.

“Last call for Freedom City,” roared the ticket man. For Freedom is what the city in St. Croix was called. Freedom is what Eeona wanted. And so anyone could read what would happen.

Eeona raised her hand. Her hair was safely in a bun. Her pale blue dress was cinched only a little at her waist and bust. Her beauty seemed simply admirable instead of terrifying. The man in charge of the ticketing nodded at her. Eeona had no bags. Her bag for her trip to America was in the back of their apartment’s closet, fully packed for weeks. Now she passed the man her New York ticket. It cost five times what the seaplane cost. The man accepted it as payment for Freedom City. Just like that.

Eeona sat in the back of the plane, which suited her because she enjoyed seeing how the other passengers scrunched their bodies toward or away from the windows, depending on their bravery. Eeona wasn’t afraid, nor was she brave. She was in a reverie. It was so much like being on her father’s ship. Only she was flying over the ocean. Like one would in a dream. In the air, she strained her head towards Frenchtown and, without considering it, found herself searching for Villa by the Sea. And there it was, now owned by wealthy Americans. Never burnt down, of course. That had been what Eeona told little Anette, so the girl would not home back to it. Now it was being turned into an inn, so Eeona had heard. She stared at the villa, focusing on it as though it were a bull’s-eye and she an arrow that might dive toward it. But then the seaplane curved. Now Eeona saw Lindbergh Bay where the American, Charles Lindbergh, had landed and left his name. Then Eeona saw St. Thomas dip away.

She hadn’t left the island since she was a girl. Not since her father was alive. She hadn’t seen Villa by the Sea since she’d left it. Now when they saw St. Croix rise off the skin of the horizon, a Crucian passenger began to bawl above the scream of the engine: “Look my island! Look me, look me!”

To Eeona the island was the back of a man whose head was under the sea. She saw an eight-sided house at the shoulder of a little cliff, rising like
a keloid bruise. But then it was gone from view, a foam of water crashing against her window as the seaplane skidded across the water. Eeona touched her own face and found that she was weeping.

Her McKenzie was there as Eeona stepped off the plane. He had been on the seaplane but in the cockpit, and so she had not noticed him. He looked like a white man, but any island person would know he was not.

He would tell her he was from Anegada, because that is what he told everybody. That was a lie. But it was the perfect lie for Eeona. And he would tell her that he was the captain of the seaplane. That was the truth. It was the perfect truth for Eeona.

So Eeona freed herself of the island the morning after the dance. But that same morning Anette was still back in their flat. She was only now waking because baby Ronalda was stroking her face. Anette was so tired from all the dancing the night before. But also she awoke smiling, for she had met Jacob.

One more thing happened that morning after the dance. Over breakfast, Jacob Esau told his mother that he had met Anette Bradshaw. At this, his mother’s hair, cut just below the ears since her sons had all reached puberty, stood out straight as if it were a den of snakes she carried hidden in her scalp. She hissed at Jacob Esau. Her tongue flicked out long and she
stamped her foot like a steed. Though he was afraid, he had presence of mind enough to think to himself that she did this expertly.

And then Jacob remembered seeing the hoof. Remembered the man who had danced with him as his mother played the piano and remembered then that she had seemed to be the happiest she’d ever been and ever would be again. And he, now grown, stood up and turned his back to his mother and said, “This is not real,” a crooked version of the question he had asked Nettie. And when Jacob turned back around, his mother was just his mother and she said calmly with her hands out in offering: “Not that girl.”

And that evening he didn’t bring Anette to meet his mother—he never would—but he imagined that their love grew into something alive, something to be smelled and touched and tasted. And when he bit into this love, it was sweet, like the stewed cherries his mother sent to him during undergrad at Howard. In the bed that night Jacob reached out for this love and clenched his sleeping brother instead. But Saul, deep in his own dreams of flying buttresses and bookshelves that opened onto secret rooms, didn’t allow the groping fingers to spoil his sleep. So Jacob plunged into this love like a feast. The food of this kept coming until he bit hard on the candied seed and he had the dream again of his teeth loosening one by one. His teeth rattled around his mouth, clanking against one another like tiny shells—filling his mouth and making a chiming noise. He didn’t want to spit them out this time because the woman was not there to give them to. And so he woke up instead.

He dressed and then walked out of his house. Past his mother who sat on the settee in the dark and watched him go. Past the goat who always bleated at passersby. Past the big mango tree that didn’t bear anything but fungus. Up the small hill. And in the middle of the night he looked through her window. The shutters were open and he could gaze at her face sleeping beside her daughter’s. The elder sister was nowhere to be seen. He reached his hand through the window and brushed aside a bit of her hair from her
face. He noticed that the roots were red in this light and he told her out loud: “I love you, Nettie.” Because this was the woman who would save his soul, and being saved isn’t a bad reason to love. It’s a better reason than many others. He wanted to tell her about his dreams: the crumbling teeth, the cow foot, his fears in solitary, the gray-eyed papa who had danced with him.

His fingers brushed Anette’s forehead and she opened her eyes. And she thought that she saw the sand-colored man with the moon behind his back. “Don’t let me go,” she said, as if she were casting a spell. And then she smiled in her sleep because her spell now meant that she would always be had. And for a girl who had been orphaned, this was not a bad reason to fall in love. It’s better than many others.

As Jacob McKenzie walked home, he no longer thought on his real-real father, who was also Anette’s father and who had been a sea captain and who had known that magic was real. Jacob knew only that he wanted this woman and more, wanted her to want him, respect him, know him as a man.

And when Anette woke up the next morning, she knew that she would slide her dignity aside for that man.

Their knowing was not fully understood.

His mother was home waiting for him, but he did not go home that night. He knew she was angry enough to put a spell, make his charlie shrivel like an earthworm, make his heart run like water. Instead, he went to a fancy rum shop owned by two American ex-servicemen. He sat down at the empty piano and told the room, “I’m a veteran. Get me drunk.” He started playing something sad and then realized that his mother had taught him only sad songs. Still, he kept playing, and the bartender passed him firewater as long as the music poured on.

On Jacob Esau’s birth certificate, where the question was “father,” the answer “Benjamin McKenzie” was written in bold caps. But Benjamin McKenzie did not go by that name any longer. Now he called himself Kweku Prideux, and when Kweku first saw Eeona Bradshaw, he was sitting at a canteen by the dock in Freedom City, St. Croix. He was still in his Powsen Passenger Seaplane captain’s uniform. Eeona had stopped to buy some crackers in a tin. She did not know what she was doing or what she would do. But Eeona was calm and controlled, and she looked for all to see like a woman who had landed where she belonged. To all, that is, except Kweku. To Kweku she looked arid and severe. Her hair was pulled back, poking out defiantly at fierce angles like branches. She walked stiff and straight as though she had bark for spine. He did not see what other people saw. He didn’t see the beauty. The obeah that had been done on him had stripped him not of life but of love. Which is the same thing, really. All Kweku saw was Eeona’s skin muddy because life had been a steady rain on her body.

She was not walking toward him, but she was walking his way. As she walked, she unbuttoned the top button of her blouse. She felt hot. She had done something wild and intrepid by getting on that seaplane.

Kweku stood when she walked by. He stood so that he was in her way, not because he wanted to take advantage of her, not yet, but because he recognized her. Well, not her exactly. He recognized what she was. An escapee. Like himself. A woman who was running away from her family or herself or her island. Same thing.

She spoke to him quickly and easily. “Either I can hire a burro or you can point me in the direction of a boardinghouse appropriate for a lady.”

“Burro?” he said, and opened his mouth to laugh, but did not. “Are you such an old-fashioned lady that you still ride an ass? Welcome to Freedom
City, St. Croix, in the United States Virgin Islands. I’ll give you a ride in my automobile.” And because it was the late 1940s and because he was still in his captain’s uniform, Eeona trusted him. And because she seemed to him like a thing he’d been taught men should conquer, and because he had tried and failed to conquer Rebekah, he decided to take Eeona and never bring her back.

She introduced herself as Eeona Bradshaw, and though his people were actually from St. Thomas and though he knew what a Bradshaw was, he had been a sought-after McKenzie, so to him her surname did not impress at all. He introduced himself as Kweku Prideux. The first name was West African, but Eeona didn’t know that and didn’t know its reference. The last name was French and Eeona certainly knew what it meant: man of the sea, or something so.

Either way, it was all so easy.

Eeona had had her first plane ride and her first car ride on the same day. That was more than enough magic. On the St. Croix soil she felt as though the land had come rushing to her instead of her to it. Like a wall to lean on. Like a father to hold you up. This man beside her stared her down as he drove deeper into the veins of Freedom City.

She sat in the passenger’s seat as he commanded his very nice and on-loan silver Chevy. During the drive, Eeona decided St. Croix might be another kind of Anegada. Or perhaps Anegada another kind of St. Croix. Both islands of coral and openness. Both islands separated from their virgin sisters by the Anegada Passage. And so beautiful. And so unknown. A place to be beautiful where no one would have to truly know you.

From the sky she had seen the shape of the island and the dips of the ocean into all the bays. As the airboat left St. Thomas, Eeona had even seen her Villa by the Sea, but the first house she saw on St. Croix was the one with eight sides. It turned out to be Kweku’s house. And that would reel in anyone. It is funny, the way freedom works.

Because who was Benjamin McKenzie anyway? A man who could not
keep his wife in love with him. A man whose wife had cuckolded him and had a son with a ship captain. A man who could not beat his wife like a pestle to its mortar because she was a woman who could be the pestle and the mortar and even the salt and pepper within. So he left Rebekah his picture on the wall and left their sons unfathered. He had paved away Benjamin McKenzie of Solberg, St. Thomas. He was Kweku Prideux of Anegada, even though he had never been to Anegada. But to Crucians the atoll was remote and its people remoter and anyone on St. Croix could claim Anegada, and there were never enough true Anegadians on island who could securely say it wasn’t so. He was a man who had lied about his race and education to get his seaplane license. He was a liar, all over.

It had been decades since anyone had called him Benjamin. He barely resembled that man at all. Benjamin had died in St. Croix’s Rain Forest, though Rebekah had wanted Puerto Rico’s rain forest. But her spell hadn’t worked most ways you put it. Benjamin McKenzie might be gone, but here was Kweku Prideux in his place. And Kweku was the first man who saw all Eeona was and was not afraid. Well, the second. Owen Arthur had been the first.

Let us also be true in this history: This new man had become a myth.

His octagon house was neat—but only because it was so large and empty. There were chests in corners and rum bottles on the counter. Buckets and cans served as tables and clothing drawers. The house had appeared overnight like a spider’s web. One had the feeling that Kweku Prideux was a man who had not yet moved into his mound of a house at the edge of this beautiful earth.

It wasn’t an orphanage but it might as well have been. Eeona walked into Kweku’s house, the house her dignity would live and die in, but not really live in after all. She looked around and then she looked up.

“Dear me, there are spiders everywhere!”

“Spiders does eat mosquito. You scared?”

He was mixing her a warm rum and Coca-Cola, for he, too, had heard
the song. There was no ice in the box today because there was no electricity in the house today—it came and went. He did not pay for it and did not need it.

Eeona, who was thirty-something, was still a child in some ways. Today, magic was filling in her. How could she know that magic could fill you until it overflowed and left you dry? “It is just a ceiling of webs,” she remarked now. “No spiders at all, Monsieur Prideux.” Already she enjoyed saying his surname. Wouldn’t she enjoy hearing it after her own given name? She sipped her warm drink. She knew he wasn’t a pure European man. He was not speaking like a European man. But she easily let this prejudice go, for he looked so familiar. It felt so familiar. And besides, here was a large house, a villa one might call it, and the large piece of land it sat on and the expansive sea it overlooked.

The drink seemed all molasses on her tongue. Proper Eeona had never had a rum and cola in her life. She did not go to the dances and so did not know the song the Andrews Sisters would steal. But the drink was good and she was half finished with it by the time he poured his own.

“Those who know me call me Kweku.”

“For the time being, I shall call you Monsieur Prideux,” Eeona said, for she was aware of the naming power. “I prefer it.”

“Yes. Call me that.” He said it with such an authority that Eeona knew he had taken a bit of the power somehow. He stared at her, one of his eyes drifting so slightly that she could not be sure if he was staring at her or just beyond her or directly into her.

He brought her onto the balcony, through huge hushed glass doors. The ocean opened up. The breeze was like eight hands groping gently at her buttons. She looked out at the ocean and felt warm and overcome. Perhaps she was inebriated. Perhaps she was in love. What is the difference? She was free.

Kweku Prideux took off Eeona’s clothes easily.

This was dangerous for many reasons.

They were on a balcony on a hill overlooking the ocean. There were not many hills on St. Croix, yet there they were. And though he still had on his pants and shirt, and even held his glass of rum in one hand, she was suddenly and completely naked. There was also the silver that no living person but herself and sad Mr. Barry had ever seen.

She felt her silver grow moist. She felt, with a sudden tearing, that maybe it was not her beauty all along, but maybe it was this silver that was her magic. This petrifying silver thing that Prideux was now cupping with his whole hand as though it were something he could break off from her and treasure away.

There was another house on the hill, smaller, but not far away. Muffled chattering came through the bushes while Kweku eeled into Eeona on the balcony. Those people might spy them, an unwed man and woman nasty for all to see.

There was also the ocean far below. Steel in color but moving and waiting to accept wholly whatever should fall.

His mouth was now sucking her there where she shined like a jewel. It felt to her as though he were drawing blood. She held her breath and watched her diamond hair glinting around his mouth.

The first time she had been kissed on her silver was on a ship and that man had been her father. And now she felt the remembered magic first as a withdrawal of air, a skip in the pattern of her breathing that she could not control. Then her self burst out of her and her head leaned over the ledge, her hair stumbling behind her toward the sea as she screamed, the demons or angels inside her slipping like oil down her thigh. Now he seemed to be holding her with his arms and his legs, even as he buried himself into her and calmly sipped his drink. Now all of her body was taut. All of her mind was on self-preservation.

Her back was scraping again and again on the hard narrow railing. He turned her head to the side, so he could spill rum and cola onto her shoulder and then suck it off. She saw through the bushes, Jesus Lord, the
neighboring balcony. Another man and woman moving against each other like the slamming of the waves. That woman was looking at Eeona. That woman was looking like her. And that woman was grimacing, her naked back to that man’s shirted belly.

It was then that Eeona realized that she still had on her shoes. She scraped her heel into Kweku’s back and in response he released her. He did not watch her hit the sea. She did not even fall over the balcony. Instead, they crumpled onto the balcony floor. His glass shattering about her face and head.

“The bed,” she whispered, though she had not meant to whisper it. She had meant to demand it, to say it with strength. She coughed, but her voice still came out whispering something less than she knew she had been capable of. “Prideux, I want the master bedroom.” He picked her up as if she were a skeleton, revealing a thick rug of dark hair bursting from the collar of his shirt. The hair would have repelled her were it not already too late. Now he carried her to the mattress on the floor that would be theirs.