Light of Day (10 page)

Whatever she’d expected him to look like without his shirt, she hadn’t imagined this sleek, well-conditioned body. The sight of it sent an odd swirling through her body.

It shamed her when she remembered why she’d come, and briskly she knelt at the side of the bed. His right shoulder was heavily bandaged, and even around the gauze, she could see bruises and the tails of stitches. “Samuel,” she said softly. “Samuel, wake up.”

The face that had seemed dangerous in other settings now looked only very, very handsome, even under the grizzling of beard on his chin. As she let her eyes wander over his face, she knew why she’d risked so much to be with him, to save him, and the answer was not simply in the roaring sexual awareness she felt in his company. Beyond the resonant voice and handsome face, beneath his elegance and wry smiles, there was a good man, one world-weary and in need of healing.

His voice, husky with sleep, startled her. “Lila.”

“Are you all right?” she asked, swallowing. “You’ve been sleeping so long, I thought I ought to check…” She trailed off as his hand cupped her face, a tender expression in his liquid eyes.

He said nothing, just looked at her for a long, long moment. His hand warmed her cheek, and she placed her own hand over his. “My angel of mercy,” he murmured at last. He let his thumb touch her lips.

A passionate glow lit his eyes, and Lila remembered the taste of his nearly violent lips and tongue, remembered the tingling of her nerves afterward. For an instant she was tempted to lean over and kiss him, but she understood on some intuitive level that Samuel needed to work things out for himself, in his own way. “I’ve made some coffee and muffins,” she said. Her voice was husky. “Come down when you’re ready.” She rose and left him alone.

Samuel willed his body into submission. How in the world would he spend hours and hours with her without betraying his resolve? She was as fresh as a newly plucked rose, as free of artifice as morning.

He rolled over restlessly, smelling the sweet aroma of toasted muffins mixed with the scent of brewed coffee. He’d had nothing to eat since the morning before, his stomach reminded him with a growl. Other things could wait.

What he had not anticipated was the disabling stiffness he would face with his shoulder. Although sleep had restored the strength he’d lost, he could barely move the injured right arm. Climbing into his pants proved a major undertaking, and he couldn’t manage the shirt at all. He carried it down the stairs with him.

Lila turned as she heard his foot on the stair, the tin of muffins in her gloved hand. She hadn’t expected him to appear half-dressed, looking so thoroughly male. As he descended, she stared at the smooth muscles of his torso, at his sexily tousled hair, his lean arms. The muffin pan grew too hot in her hand, and she hastily put it down on the table. “There’s warm water in a bucket just outside if you like,” she managed to say finally.

“Thank you,” he murmured. With an almost shy gesture, he lifted the shirt. “I wonder if you would help me with this.”

It pained him to ask, Lila saw. As she moved forward, taking the shirt from him, he kept his eyes averted. She remembered when one of her brothers had taken a nasty fall in a rodeo and had been unable to get his boots on for over a week. It had killed him to need the help, but he had been grateful to Lila for simply doing it without saying anything. She adopted the same matter-of-fact manner with Samuel.

Their breakfast was simple but filling, and afterward Lila told him she was going to walk to town. “I need to make some phone calls, and we’ll have to pick up some supplies.”

He nodded. “So do I.”

“It’s a long walk, Samuel. A little over two miles if we follow the beach.”

“The exercise will be good.”

She didn’t argue. After she had washed the dishes, they set out in the gentle fall morning. The sun, miraculously, was shining, sparkling on the undulating water. A fine, briny odor filled the air.

“How did you come to own a cabin so far from home?” Samuel asked. His arm beneath his jacket was in a sling Lila had made from a scarf, but he had not allowed her to change the bandage.

“I stumbled into it by accident,” she said. “After my senior year in college, I had to try to decide what to do with my life. They had offered me the manager’s position at The Shell and Fin, and I’d been accepted into graduate school, but—” She shrugged. “Nothing really suited me. I took a leave of absence from absolutely everything in my life and took a motorcycle trip down the coast, exploring. When I found this cabin, the folks in town said it had been deserted for years, so I tracked down the owners and bought it for a song.”

“I like it. It’s very peaceful here.” He lifted his eyes to the ridges of black rock above the beach. “Far away and quiet. I’d forgotten how much I enjoyed silence.”

She nodded and walked a little longer without speaking. Finally she asked, “What kind of trouble are you in, Samuel?”

He drew on his cigarette, exhaled heavily. “It is complicated. Jamal Hassid wants to kill me. That much is clear.”

“Who is Hassid?”

“Of less consequence than he would believe.” Samuel clicked his tongue in a gesture of irritation. “He is what you call here a soldier of fortune. He takes money for dangerous and unwanted jobs, mainly for a terrorist faction in the Middle East.”

“Why?” she asked. “Why does he want to kill you?”

His jaw tightened. “I don’t know, really. It may be—” He shook his head. “I don’t know, not yet.”

Lila absorbed that for a moment. “And you, Samuel? Who employs you?”

He stopped, facing her in the soft sand, his black eyes narrowed in speculation. A wind flipped a lock of dark hair over his forehead, and the grizzling of beard gave his expression a rakish edge. “I have only told you about Hassid because you would have put it together yourself. The rest—” He shook his head. “It will be better if you do not know.”

Lila’s chin lifted. “I think I have a right. I’ve trusted you this far and I don’t regret it, but I need to know if I’m harboring a criminal or spy. Who are you, Samuel?”

His expression showed no warming. “I can’t tell you, Lila. Forgive me, but I cannot.”

“Are you a good guy or a bad guy?”

“I wish it were so simple.” His smile was infinitely sad.

Behind him waves washed to shore. Lila watched them, thinking irrelevantly of the huge distance of miles one would have to travel over the sea to touch land again. She wondered if there were other people having grave conversations on the beach across that vast expanse of water, and if they were, in what language they carried out the conversation. “This scares me a little, now that I’ve had time to think,” she said quietly. “It scares me that people were shooting at us, that you almost died, that I’m crazy enough to have done what I’ve done.”

“You needn’t be frightened, not here,” he promised, hoping it was true. He laced his fingers through hers. “And I can tell you that I’m no traitor. I’ve done what I could to make the world work more efficiently, without wars. It’s never enough, and there are so many enemies.” He shrugged.

Lila lifted his hand to her lips, smiling softly with the sudden and certain knowledge that he was a good guy, on the side of right and might, like Superman. The absurd thought made her smile more broadly, and she moved her fingers over the fine sinews and smooth skin of his hand, the way she had imagined doing yesterday in the car. The long fingers were dusted with dark hair, and the nails were neatly, evenly trimmed. In spite of its elegance, she felt power and strength, as well.

For an instant she imagined his palm moving over her body. “Samuel—”

“Come,” he said, tugging her hand as he began to walk again. “I don’t relish the thought of only grapes for dinner. And I need to make my calls.”

Somewhat irritated, Lila followed, saying nothing. She knew that he was attracted to her, that he felt tenderness and desire toward her. Yet, discounting that single, overwhelmingly passionate kiss he’d given her at her door, he seemed determined to keep her at arm’s length.

As they walked, she puzzled over what he’d told her. She’d had friends at school from the Middle East, and some of them had held rather old-fashioned ideas about women and sex. But Lila would bet anything that Samuel was not party to that school of thought. He simply didn’t possess their attitude of reserve. To the contrary, his aura was sensual. He cared about the touch of things and the smell of them. His palate could separate the notes in wines, and he admired her beautiful cakes, and the shirts he wore next to his skin were cut from silk and finely woven cloth of all sorts.

No, this was not a man who would deny his passions. Why then was he avoiding her? With an internal shake of her head, Lila decided she would have to wait and see.

At the same small general store where they’d stopped the day before, Lila directed Samuel to the phone booth in the parking lot while she went inside for more food. Through a window above the magazine racks, she watched him covertly. He hunched against the booth, his shoulder braced, his face turned away. Bad news. She knew it without even seeing his expression.

But when he came into the store after her, his smile seemed genuine. “I’ll finish here. Go make your calls.”

She called Allen first to make arrangements for her car. “Where the hell have you been, Lila?”

“It’s a long story, and I didn’t have time to call you, or you know I would have. But I really need your help with a couple of things.”

“All right.”

His voice was reserved, but she knew he wouldn’t turn his back on their long friendship. She sketched the problem of her car and the address where it could be found. “If you would also get my sourdough starter, I’d be forever grateful. It needs to be freshened up today or it will spoil.”

“I’ll take care of it. I guess you need somebody to water your plants, too.”

“I won’t ask you to do that unless you just want to.”

“Oh, hell, Lila, you know I will.” He sighed impatiently. “But what about your business? You can’t just disappear and expect people to understand.”

“I’ll cover it,” Lila replied. “Lighten up, buddy. It’s not like this is the first time I’ve ever done something rash.”

“You’re nearly thirty years old. It’s time to wake up, my friend.” His voice was tired.

“That isn’t fair, Allen. Just because you’ve chosen to settle down doesn’t mean I’m obligated to do the same thing.”

“But it’s the right thing for you and you know it.” He shifted the conversation. “Did you hear the news about The Shell and Fin, by the way?”

“No.” She frowned, worried it might have something to do with Samuel.

“It was bombed last night, blown to pieces.”

“What?”

“Front-page headlines this morning.”

“I can’t believe it.”

“Yeah. Supposedly some obscure little group in the Middle East did it to draw attention to themselves. They’re looking for the new manager, but he’s disappeared.”

“Who is?” Lila sagged against the booth, just as she had seen Samuel do moments before. She had a hunch it was the same news that had knocked the air from both of them.

“Everybody. Police, FBI, maybe even the army, who knows. Paper said he had an argument with a visiting professor on Saturday night, and evidently this guy pointed the finger at Bashir. His brother is connected with the terrorists that claimed responsibility.”

“Was anyone hurt?”

“No. They did it after hours.”

“That’s a blessing, anyway.” She pursed her lips. “Look, Allen. I’ve got to make another call. I’ll get back to you in a day or two, okay?”

“Sure, kid.” His voice gentled. “Be careful, Lila.”

So he had guessed. She nodded. “Thanks.”

She hung up and quickly dialed a professional baker who had filled in for Lila on several occasions, a baker who would have liked to have taken over permanently on her accounts. As she’d expected, the woman was delighted to take over until further notice.

When turned away from the booth, she saw Samuel right outside the door, the cool morning sun dancing on his crown of thick black hair. His eyes were very still and dark and sad.

She crossed the gravel parking lot. “I heard the news,
bandido
,” she said lightly, picking up the nylon pack the grocer had filled for her. “Help me with this, and we’ll make our getaway.”

“No, Lila, your back…”

“Okay, you macho fellow, you carry it.” She dropped it at his feet.

“Are you always so difficult?” he asked, lifting the pack with his left hand to help her put it on her back.

“Sometimes I’m much, much worse.”

“Your poor father.”

She grinned, shifting the weight on her back easily. It sent a small stirring through her lower back, but she’d learned to carry the weight high, between her shoulder blades. “No, I was Daddy’s girl. He loved it. My mama was the one I about drove crazy.”

At his genuine smile, Lila headed out of the lot, relieved. “I think we should have lunch on the beach,” she called.

“Fine.” Samuel walked more slowly, admiring the firm strength of her legs in worn jeans that were tucked neatly into brilliant white high-tops. As she followed a sandy path down the side of a hill to the beach below, her curls danced around her shoulders. For the first time in many, many years, he found himself petitioning the heavens, and it was for her safety he begged.

The news from The Organization had been worse than he had expected. Beyond the bombing of The Shell and Fin, which Lila had made light of, there had been another incident in Europe, presumably instigated by Samuel’s brother Mustapha. Organization leaders, weary of asking, were on the verge of ordering Samuel to speak with his brother. And he could no longer refuse.

Lila’s voice broke his musings. “Quit lollygaggin’, old man!” she called from the bottom of the hill. “We’ve got work to do!”

At the sound of her laughter, his heart immediately lightened. Whatever work he would be called to do, for now his injury and the unexpected glitch in plans for Seattle gave him good reason to rest. He would be safe in this out-of-the-way spot, and his arm needed time to heal. In a week or ten days he would be forced to confront the turmoil of the world. Until then he would simply be with Lila.