Lord of the White Hell Book One lotwh-1 (21 page)

"Odd that you'd mention it without knowing it took place," Javier said.

"Well, I know now." Kiram finished his beef and tossed the wooden skewer aside. "Nestor just told me."

"Of course he did." Javier gave Nestor a reproachful glance.

Nestor flushed guiltily. "Everybody at the academy knows. I didn't see any reason Kiram shouldn't."

"I suppose there isn't any." Javier ate the last of his beef and tossed his skewer on top of Kiram's. "So, Master Kir- Zaki, are you feeling up to a stroll through the fair or should I take you back to my townhouse?"

"I want to see the Irabiim and Nestor says there's a Mirogoth performer who comes every year and turns into a wolf."

"I wouldn't say he turns into a wolf so much as he steps behind a curtain and shoves a rangy dog out onto the stage," Javier replied.

"No," Nestor objected. "You have to have an open mind about it to really appreciate the transformation. You hear all these terrible noises coming from behind the curtain and then a wolf steps out. I swear it's a real wolf, Kiram. And it has the same color eyes as the Mirogoth man. It's shocking."

It didn't take them long to find the tent where a red- haired woman was selling tickets to witness her brother reveal his beast-soul. Signs painted with huge wolves stood outside the small tent and the woman's wild hair was tied up to resemble two long ears flopping down over her shoulders. Though the woman was clearly of Mirogoth descent, she spoke flawless Cadeleonian.

Most of the people buying tickets were parents, escorting their young children inside. From time to time the red-haired woman gave a wink and reassured a mother that her wolf-brother attended chapel every Sacreday.

Javier bought tickets for all three of them and they filed into the dark confines of the tent. Two lamps at the foot of the stage provided the only light. The three of them kept to the back of the tent, so as not to block the views of the many children assembled inside. As the space filled up Javier stepped slightly behind Kiram, allowing several children to squeeze in closer.

The performance itself was rather simple. A red-haired man walked onto stage, explained in an exaggerated Mirogoth accent, that among his people there were those who walked as men but could assume the forms of beasts.

Few could bear to witness the transformation directly, the Mirogoth man warned them gravely. The sight had driven horses mad and turned milk sour. For their own sakes, he told the children, they should not look too closely.

Then he picked up one of the lamps and stepped behind a curtain. His terrible change was all a matter of strange noises and silhouettes cast up on the curtain by the flickering lamp. Nestor watched with rapt attention.

Kiram hardly noticed the performance. All of his attention focused on the sensation of Javier's hand touching his own. His fingertips sent a thrill up Kiram's right arm. He traced the delicate skin of Kiram's palm and wrist. His touch was light and flirtatious. Kiram returned Javier's motions. He pushed his fingers between Javier's and Javier clenched his hand around Kiram's, gripping him tightly.

Javier leaned closer, his thigh brushing the back of Kiram's leg. As their hips brushed together an aching desire pulsed through Kiram's groin. He longed to press into Javier, but Nestor was standing only a breath from them. Dozens of children were gathered all around them.

Kiram pulled away but he didn't release Javier's hand. Not yet.

A theatrical howl rose up from behind the curtain. Then the lamp there suddenly went dark, leaving only the single flame illuminating the empty stage. A lanky, reddish dog padded out from behind the curtain. Gasps and squeals escaped the children. Nestor leaned forward.

"That's definitely a wolf." Nestor peered intently at the animal.

Kiram had never seen a wolf and had no idea if this animal was one, but it looked too thin to somehow encapsulate the entire mass of the man who had stood on the stage earlier.

The would-be wolf regarded its audience and then suddenly bucked up onto its hind legs and awkwardly tottered back behind the curtain. Children gaped in amazement. A moment later there was another howl and the man returned. He bowed and thanked them for their time and attention.

Then, on cue, the flaps of the tent were pulled open and blinding afternoon sunlight poured in. Javier dropped Kiram's hand instantly. The man on the stage bounded back behind his curtain and the show was over.

Nestor, Kiram, and Javier wandered out onto the fairgrounds along with several dozen dazed and excited children and their laughing parents.

"It's genius!" Nestor said. He seemed nearly as delighted as the children. "He's hiding in plain sight! That performance was so obviously false that it had to be real."

"What?" Javier asked. He sounded more annoyed than Nestor's proclamation merited. Kiram himself was feeling a little frustrated, but it had nothing to do with the performance. Nestor didn't seem to notice.

"Exactly!" Nestor said. "It looked like a shoddy performance to disguise a genuine transformation."

"Or," Javier replied, "maybe it looked like a shoddy performance because it was. You can't honestly believe that a real Mirogoth shapechanger would march out to the middle of Cadeleon, advertise himself, and sell tickets."

"Probably not. But on the other hand, what's the harm in believing it?" Nestor shrugged. "It makes the whole fair more interesting. And I think it could be true. You have to admit that it would be a clever way to hide himself."

"There's a point when something clever just becomes stupid. I'd say that hiding in plain sight is that point." Javier sighed as if he was releasing some deep frustration. He glanced to Kiram. "What do you think?"

"Well, if we're going to assume the Mirogoth really is a shapechanger-"

"Let's assume he is," Nestor said and Javier just shook his head but appeared resigned to the idea.

"Then, I guess that it would depend on how well he could disguise his true nature," Kiram said. He didn't look at Javier as he responded, but he was thinking of the way Javier teased men and made lascivious insinuations. "If there were aspects of himself that he couldn't suppress then maybe it would make sense for him to flaunt them and make them a kind of joke. People would laugh and never suspect that he was showing them the truth all along."

"Exactly," Nestor said.

"But it would be a very dangerous way to live his life." Kiram glanced to Javier.

"You're sounding more lucid than before," Javier commented. "How does your arm feel?"

"It aches, but it's not bad. I'd like to see the Irabiim before it gets too late. Then I need to find the Laughing Dog -" Kiram cut himself off as a figure in the surrounding crowd caught his attention.

A group of five well-dressed girls walked primly between the stalls of flower sellers and cloth merchants. All but one of them wore their braids up in maiden's combs. Most were decorated with floral designs but one was painted with butterfly wings.

"Yellow butterflies." Kiram nudged Nestor. "Yellow butterflies! She's coming this way."

Kiram pointed as discreetly as he could.

Javier's lip curled as he caught sight of the girl. "What do you care about her?"

"She threw a favor to Nestor."

"Oh, I see." The edge of anger disappeared from Javier's expression immediately. "Do you still have the kerchief, Nestor?"

"Of course!" Nestor responded.

"Well then, take it to her," Javier said. "Tell her that you noticed that she had dropped it and you've been looking for her all this time to return it."

"But, what if it's a mistake? I mean, what if she didn't mean it for me? What if-"

"Just do it. It always works for Atreau. You can't go wrong acting the part of a gallant gentleman. Now, go get her." Javier shoved Nestor forward.

Nestor seemed dazed. He stumbled ahead, digging the kerchief out of his pocket. As Nestor drew closer to the girl, she caught sight of him. Her expression was so excited and nervous that it made Kiram smile. Then Kiram noticed the tiny pair of spectacles perched on the bridge of her nose. She reached up, removed them, and secreted them in her small yellow silk purse.

She was staring wide-eyed when Nestor reached her, and they both blushed deep red as Nestor offered her the kerchief. She pressed it back into his hand.

In a matter of moments the rest of the girls crowded around. Nestor said something that made them all laugh and then they started after him back towards the transforming Mirogoth's tent. The girl with yellow butterfly combs clung to Nestor's arm.

Javier touched Kiram's shoulder.

"Let's go before Nestor feels he has to introduce us. He'll make a better impression without a hell-branded duke flustering his little flock of hens."

"Are you sure?" Kiram didn't want to abandon Nestor.

"Positive," Javier replied. "I'm poor company for giggling girls like those ones. They put me off and I put them off. And you're hardly likely to win Nestor any compliments either."

"What's wrong with me?"

"You're a Haldiim for one thing." Javier pulled Kiram back slowly as he spoke. "And you're not available to them for another."

Kiram didn't bother to argue. He'd been caressing Javier's hand and pressing against Javier's thigh only a few minutes ago. He gave a quick wave, turned, and followed Javier through the fair.

They passed tanners' stalls where beautifully tooled saddles and bridles were displayed along with deerskins and bull hides. Despite the strong smell of leather Kiram picked out a familiar scent. The aroma of the sharp spices, which perfumed adhil bread, briefly floated over Kiram but when he looked around him all he saw were stocky Cadeleonian men, testing the stirrups or bartering over the cost of calfskins.

"Is something wrong?" Javier asked.

"I was just thinking that we must be close to the Irabiim."

"Oh?" Javier cocked his head slightly, studying Kiram. "How did you know?"

"I can smell them," Kiram said. "Not in a bad way, but their food. Someone must be frying adhil bread. Our cook used to make it for us on cold mornings."

"I haven't ever heard of it."

"It's delicious, though it's not really bread at all. It's more of a thin pancake. The batter is fried in a pan, flipped out and eaten right away."

"It sounds good," Javier commented but he seemed distracted by other thoughts. "Here, let's go up around this way. There are fewer people."

Kiram followed him through a narrow lane of rickety stalls and drab tents. They walked past a stall offering spurs and twisted bits. Kiram glanced away from the jagged edges of metal. He was glad that Firaj was already trained and didn't require such brutal tools to be controlled.

Just behind the stalls Kiram could see a poorly-repaired stone wall and beyond that stood thirty or more brightly- painted traveling wagons circled in the shadows of a stand of large, twisting trees. Black crows perched among the branches on the wagon roofs. Blue-tinged smoke rose up from at least four cooking fires.

As Kiram gazed at the red and gold designs on the walls of the wagons and at the shabby figures crouched around the fires, the sense of familiarity that the aroma of adhil bread had nurtured in him withered.

The Irabiim really weren't Haldiim.

They were filthy and their horses were rangy-looking creatures with rough, spotted hides. The women standing watch over the cook pots wore dark circles of kohl around their eyes and their blonde hair was tied up in what looked like strips of rag. The men carried fighting knives tucked into their belts, wore no shirts, and jangled gaudy bangles from their wrists.

Kiram's uncle Rafie had told him that each of the bracelets identified an Irabiim man as the son or husband of a particular matriarch and that because Irabiim mothers exchanged their sons like they were trading dice, only those bracelets prevented daughters from wedding their own brothers.

The wagons were decorated with morbid warnings to trespassers. Gilded human skulls hung from the roofs like wind chimes. Kiram felt his stomach clenching as he stared at them. No Haldiim would have treated his ancestors' remains that way, much less allowed crows to grow fat picking away the strips of flesh.

Kiram retreated into the shadow of the stone wall.

Javier asked, "What is it?"

"I always thought my uncle was exaggerating about them." Kiram didn't want to tell Javier that he was frightened, so he said, "They're filthy."

"Well, cleanliness doesn't seem to be a ruling tenet among them." Javier appeared unfazed by the skulls and obscenities on the wagon walls. "They breed some of the fastest colts you can buy and of course there's also the matter of having your fortune read."

"I don't believe in fortune telling."

"If you don't want to meet them, that's fine with me." Javier leaned against the wall beside Kiram so that their shoulders just brushed together. His hand hung down, almost touching Kiram's. "But I don't feel like wandering around in a crowd right now."

"Neither do I." If Kiram had been thinking more clearly he knew he would never have moved. As it was, he shifted slightly, leaning into Javier's shoulder. The weight of their bodies balanced. Kiram closed his eyes, letting the familiar scents of sweat and leather encompass him. He imagined that he could feel Javier's heart beating through his own body.

Kiram twined his fingers between Javier's and held his hand tight.

Javier said, "You don't make it easy for me to stay away from you."

Kiram kept his eyes closed, fearing his resolve would collapse if he looked into Javier's eyes. Then he'd kiss his mouth. He'd run his hands over his chest and down to his thighs. His body ached just thinking of the mistakes that he longed to make. Kiram started to pull his hand back but Javier tightened his grip. Kiram relented too easily.

"I want to be with you. But then you know that. Does it please you to know how much I want you?" Blatant hunger edged Javier's voice. "That I lie awake, staring at your sleeping body, thinking of how close you are and how easily I could reach you? How easily I could tear off those flimsy white clothes you wear and have you? Some nights I hardly sleep at all."