Love, Rosie (30 page)

And
that’s
how
I
feel
with
Mum
and
Dad
helping
me.
I
don’t
know
how

love,
rosie

51

I’m
going
to
cope
on
my
own.
And
I’m
going
to
have
to
do
that—I
can’t
live

with
Mum
and
Dad
forever.
Although
I
really
want
to.

I
wouldn’t
want
Katie
depending
on
me
so
much
when
she’s
older.
Of

course
I
want
her
to
know
that
I’m
here
for
her
always
and
that
my
love
is

absolutely
unconditional,
but
she
needs
to
be
independent.

I
need
to
be
independent.
I
think
it’s
time
for
me
to
grow
up
now
Steph.

I’ve
been
putting
it
off,
running
away
from
it
for
so
long.
Katie
will
be
start-

ing
school
soon.
Imagine!
My
baby
starting
school.
It’s
all
happening
so

quickly.
Katie
will
be
meeting
new
people
and
beginning
her
life
and
I
have

left
mine
behind.
I
need
to
pick
myself
up
and
stop
feeling
so
sorry
for

myself.
Life
is
hard,
so
what?

It’s
hard
for
everyone
isn’t
it?
Anyone
who
says
it’s
easy
is
a
liar.
There’s

this
huge
divide
between
me
and
Alex
right
now
because
I
feel
like
we’re
liv-

ing
in
such
different
worlds,
I
don’t
know
what
to
talk
about
with
him
any-

more.
And
we
used
to
be
able
to
talk
all
night.
He
phones
once
a
week
and
I

listen
to
what
he’s
been
up
to
during
the
week
and
try
to
bite
my
tongue

every
time
I
go
into
another
Katie
story.
Truth
is
I
have
nothing
other
to
talk

about
but
her
and
I
know
it
bores
people.
I
think
I
used
to
be
interesting

once
upon
a
time.

Anyway
I’ve
decided
I’m
going
to
visit
Boston
finally.
I’m
going
to
finally

face
up
to
what
my
life
could
have
been
like
had
Alex
gotten
on
that
plane

and
made
it
to
the
debs
with
me
instead
of
.
.
.
well
you
know
who.
I
could

have
a
degree
now.
I
could
have
been
a
career
woman.
I
know
it
seems
silly

to
put
all
that’s
happened
down
to
the
fact
that
Alex
couldn’t
make
it
to
the

debs
but
if
he
had
come
then
I
wouldn’t
have
gone
with
Brian.
I
wouldn’t

have
slept
with
Brian
and
there
would
be
no
baby.
I
think
I
need
to
face

what
I
could
have
been
in
order
to
understand
and
accept
what
I
am.

All
my
love,

Rosie

chapter
7

k

Stephanie,

Honey
it’s
Mum
here.
I
was
wondering
if
you
would
be
able
to
get
in