Machine Of Death (40 page)

“What you’re feeling is natural,” he’d said. “Your denial, your questioning. All very natural at this stage.”

He licked his thumb and flipped through our files. His voice oozed like motor oil. “You’re R-4s. Plane crashes, both of you. The longer we wait to schedule you, the more likely your fate will be expressed in, ah,
unexpected
ways. Last time that happened, an airliner hit Denali Microchip. $8.2 billion in damage.”

Damage, sure. But when I looked around at our apartment, a mildewing hole in a neighborhood full of garbage and rotting linoleum and blowflies and broken glass, all of us skeletons shuffling around down here in the ruins, I wondered what the difference was between this life and wreckage. When something blows up in the slumlands, you’re just moving rubble around.

Helene picked at the frayed edges of her bathrobe and tried to smile at the counselor, but it wound up looking cruel. The lack of sleep had turned us into marionettes.

I asked about the appeals process, and the counselor shoved a thick stack of paperwork at me.
FORM
1678-ATF:
REQUEST
FOR
EXTENSION
OF
FATE
APPLICATION
. It was crowded with dotted lines and small type, layers of sub-forms, bricks of legal jargon. Helene’s knee pressed against mine under the table.

The counselor explained that it’d take two weeks for the Ministry’s office to process our request. At that point, our case would be passed to a higher court in the Orthodoxy, where a panel of clerks and lay-priests would review it. If all went well, the counselor said, they’d contact us for interviews, background checks, and then they’d give us an application.

“I thought this was the application,” Helene said.

“No,” the counselor said. “It’s a request for the application.”

I felt hollow. Outside the window, searchlights swept the edge of the slums and a siren wailed. The Ministry, hunting for someone. I imagined beastly slack-jawed men with guns patrolling the ruins.

The counselor mumbled on about the beauty of sacrifice. He talked about the strength of our nation, how scheduling deaths prevented wars, famines, natural disasters. It was all so much bullshit. But we crossed ourselves, mechanically, as he led us in prayer.

“Providence,” the counselor recited, “help Kelvin and Helene to meet their fates with grace.”

“I’m pregnant,” Helene told the counselor. She’d twisted the sash of her robe around her hands and her breath came in quick, shallow gulps. “You’ll kill our baby.”

“I know,” the counselor told us. “And for that we are truly sorry.”

“Motherfucks,” Helene said. She swept her arm across the table and our paperwork cascaded to the floor. The counselor didn’t flinch.

“I prayed,” she said, her voice shaking. “We made tithes. I anointed myself and used the rosaries. Our baby’s not supposed to come with us.”

Helene had always had a stubborn sense of justice. Once, when we’d been in high school, a rainstorm had soaked the ruins for days and scads of earthworms had crawled from the dirt to drown on the sidewalks. Helene spent hours on hands and knees, rescuing the squirming things. Her jeans soaked through. Her hair plastered to her forehead.

The counselor shook his head and tapped a few notes into his palmtop. “Mrs. Hayashi,” he said, “I’m a little dismayed at your progress to date.”

“Piss off,” I told him.

The counselor raised his eyebrows. “The Ministry won’t be pleased with my report,” he said.

“The Ministry can go to hell,” I said.

The counselor glared, set his skullcap atop his damp hair, and got up to leave. He pointed at the paperwork scattered across our kitchen floor.

“Don’t even bother with the forms,” he said.

In the apartment on Figueroa, the sample’s come back with a readout of Pepper’s fate.

“Whoa,” Titus says. “‘Loss of Blood.’ Definite Class X. Ambiguity’s off the charts. Possible group-risk, possibly violent circumstances.”

Pepper flails her arms and arches her back and just about pulls my arms from their sockets. Titus plants his knee on Pepper’s chest, pinning her to the floor. His tagger starts beeping and its lights flash red.

“Her blood’s not in the system at all,” Titus says.

“What’s that mean?”

“An Untagged,” he says.

Holy shit.

I look at Pepper. An Untagged. A traitor, a terrorist, a ticking time-bomb.

The Ministry makes a big show of hunting down the Untagged, weeding them out. They haven’t been tested at birth like the rest of us, so they don’t have classes, don’t know how their lives end. I wonder what it’s like for them, not knowing.

Well, I thought. She sure as hell knows now.

“What’s the reward up to these days? Ten mil?” Titus asks. “Hold her for a second.”

I take both Pepper’s hands and she tries to twist them away from me. My gloves are wet now, sweat covering everything. Ten million credits for turning in an Untagged. Ten million credits for killing someone. Titus pulls the plastic zip-ties from his belt and wraps them around Pepper’s wrists.

“No police,” he says. “They’ll just want a cut of the money. We take her straight to the Ministry.”

“They’ll kill me,” Pepper says. “I haven’t done anything and they’ll kill me.”

They’ll kill me, too. On September thirteenth, the Ministry men will take Helene and I to the airfield in their black cars, they’ll pack us onto a plane with the other R-4s, and then the pilot will fly us out over the Pacific and kill us all.

“Can’t run from our fates, honey,” Titus says.

Last week, I’d tried a new tactic. I’d slipped my credstick into the counselor’s palm as he left our apartment, told him I’d do whatever it took to get this straightened out. I told him there should be enough in that account to keep him happy, keep him quiet. He’d just snarled at me and let the credstick clatter to the floor.

“Don’t think for a second that you’re the first person who tried to bribe me,” he’d said. His eyes narrowed.

I shuddered. A few choice words from the counselor, and they’d toss Helene and I into a holding cell. The Ministry excelled at torture: Once they knew how someone died, they knew how to inflict pain without killing him. They knew exactly what he’d be most afraid of.

“We’re in the business of reducing ambiguities,” the counselor hissed at me. “What do you think would happen if everyone sidestepped their fate?”

After the counselor left, Helene and I had lain in our sour sheets, listening to the sirens and clatter of our neighborhood. Trash fires crackled somewhere down the block, aerosol cans exploding in the flames. Kids shouted and tossed rocks at each other.

Helene pressed her toes against my leg and stretched her arm across my chest. She slept on her side these days—on her back, she felt like the baby was crushing her, and on her front she felt like she’d been draped over a bowling ball.

“We’re zombies,” I told her. I cupped my palm over her cheek.

“We’ve always been zombies,” she said. “Just now we’ve got a date for it.”

For years, I’d had the same nightmares. Sterile white plasticine and a seatbelt tight across my lap. Cold wind rushing past me. In the dream, I would look out the window of the plane to see the ocean at a sickening tilt. When we hit the whitecaps there’d always be a shriek of metal and then static. Death sounded like static. And the dream kept going after that. A black canvas stretched across my mind. No eyes to see or skin to feel, and the static kept churning like an engine in the dark, on and on.

“Feel this,” Helene said, and guided my hand across the taut skin of her stomach. “Feels like his spine.”

We wanted what every parent in the slumlands wanted. We wanted our baby to come out healthy, and we wanted the priests to tag him and smile and tell us our son was a class A, a Cancer or a Heart Disease and not a squib like we are. We wanted the priests to hustle our precious baby away, evac him out of Angel City on black Ministry helicopters, take him across the fifty miles of desert to the Garden.

The archbishop and the rest of the orthodoxy lived in the Garden. So did the financial district, the nation’s politico-corporate headquarters. Towers of glass and steel, beautiful people in clean houses. Only the upper-classes could live there: people with slow deaths, or predictable ones, or fates with low violence ratings. Low-classes weren’t allowed to come close. Too much risk to the government, to the economy.

All of us gunshot wounds, shrapnel deaths, stabbings, poisonings, industrial accidents, we’d been pinned down here in the slums with the factories and pollutants. Better for society that way.

Helene and I stared at the ceiling. The air smelled thick with gypsum dust.

“What if we’d never been tested?” I asked her.

She laughed. “We’d live in the desert with the Untagged. Starve to death out there.”

Helene and I both lay silent for a while, breathing across each others’ lips, thinking about the sun-blasted wastes, the yucca and brush in the open countryside. If we were Untagged, I thought, we’d disappear into the arroyos and the Ministry would never find us.

I tried to sleep, but I’d barely shut my eyes before sunlight trickled in through the holes in our curtains.

We strap Pepper onto the gurney and carry her outside.

The heat’s like an oven. In front of the apartment complex, a statue of an angel glowers, its wings casting scythes of shadow. The engraving on the statue’s pedestal reads: “Your sacrifice benefits humanity,” but someone’s crossed out “benefits,” and spraypainted “derails” in its place.

All around us, the slumlands spread out in a geometric sludge and aerials scrape the afternoon shit from the sky. Titus pops open the back of the ambulance.

“Ten million credits, Kelvin,” he says, and he shows me teeth. He opens the driver’s side door and climbs inside. “Load her in and let’s go.”

I look down at Pepper. She quivers, jerking against the leather straps, her skin goosebumped.

Our baby won’t ever have a name. They’ll fly Helene and I out over the ocean and put the plane into a spiral. The scream of the engines will swallow us and our baby will never have a name.

Before I can think about what I’m doing, my hands move over Pepper’s restraints, unfastening them. She sits up and blinks.

“Me and my wife,” I tell her. “We’re scheduled. Our baby.” I’m shaking. “You must know people. Someplace we can hide.”

Pepper nods and cranes her neck to look back at Titus. He’s fiddling with the radio in the cab, and isn’t paying attention to us. My breath rasps in my mouth, my tongue feels suddenly heavy.

“There are safehouses,” Pepper says. Her wrists and ankles are still zip-tied together, and she holds them up. “We have a whole network of them. Cut me loose.”

“We’ll need a blood swap,” I tell her. “We need someone to lead us into the desert.”

“We will,” she says.

I can already picture the lone highway stretching out through the cholla. Helene and I will raise our baby in the cacti, away from the smog, away from the Ministry. I pull out my knife and I slice through Pepper’s zip-ties. She rubs her wrists and scrambles to her feet.

Then she rears back and spits in my face. “Fucking pig,” she says.

She shoves past me and ducks into an alley filled with garbage bags and oil slicks. She sprints out into the maze of the sprawl.

Titus slams the door of the ambulance. “The hell’s wrong with you?” he asks.

I open my mouth, but no sound comes out.

Story by Jeff Stautz

Illustration by Kris Straub

VERY
EXPENSIVE
NANNY
.
VERY
EXPENSIVE
TUTOR
. Montessori nursery school priced competitively with Yale. Phonics, piano lessons from age four, one edifying vacation in a major European city per year, a diet of both organic
and
local produce cooked to order from a menu drawn up by a personal nutrition coach, and a white-noise machine. A portfolio of coloring-book samples. What was missing? Oh, yes… 

Mr. Slocombe peered over the thick sheaf of paperwork. “We’ll have to see his medical records, of course.” 

“His medical records?” said Mrs. Weathington-Beech, a little too innocently. 

“That’s confidential information,” said Mr. Weathington-Beech, with studied huffiness. 

“Nonetheless,” sighed Mr. Slocombe, “Saint Maxwell’s requires it, as you should be aware from our brochures, website, and application forms. We do ask that you come prepared,” he added coldly, hoping that a touch of Stern Headmaster would snap them to attention. 

It didn’t. “I don’t see why you’d need that kind of thing,” Mrs. Weathington-Beech lilted. “I mean, really, why would you, unless you’re planning to discriminate against—” 

“Against a five-year-old,” Mr. Weathington-Beech hrrumphed. “It’s just kindergarten,” he added. 

“Saint Maxwell’s, sir, is hardly ‘just’ a kindergarten. That’s why you’re trying to convince us to admit little Cotton, correct? His medical records, please.” 

After a long and wounded pause, Mr. Weathington-Beech produced another set of papers from his briefcase. Mr. Slocombe skimmed them. There was only one line that mattered. Not everyone had their children scanned, of course, but the parents who applied to Saint Maxwell’s wanted their offspring to win the great footrace of life, and they missed no opportunity to equip the towheaded sprites with life’s metaphorical jet packs and rocket shoes. A death machine readout cost money, and that meant it must be an advantage. Q.E.D.