It was then that I noticed the neat red caste-mark in the centre of Grete's forehead, from which a hair's breadth trickle of blood was now bisecting her lifeless features.
18
Listening to the systematic destruction of another human spirit has a predictably lowering effect on one's own fibre. I imagine that that was how it was intended to be. The Gestapo is nothing if not thoughtful. They let you eavesdrop on another's agony to soften you up on the inside; and only then do they get to work on the outside. There is nothing worse than a state of suspense about what is going to happen, whether it's waiting for the results of some tests at a hospital, or the headsman's axe. You just want to get it over with. In my own small way it was a technique I had used myself at the Alex when I'd let men, suspects, sweat themselves into a state where they were ready to tell you everything. Waiting for something lets your imagination step in to create your own private hell.
But I wondered what it was that they wanted from me. Did they want to know about Six? Did they hope that I knew where the Von Greis papers were? And what if they tortured me and I didn't know what they wanted me to tell them?
By the third or fourth day alone in my filthy cell, I was beginning to wonder if my own suffering was to be an end in itself. At other times I puzzled as to what had become of Six and Red Helfferich, who were arrested with me, and of Inge Lorenz.
Most of the time I just stared at the walls, which were a kind of palimpsest for those previous unfortunates who had been its occupants. Oddly enough there was little or no abuse for the Nazis. More common were recriminations between the Communists and the Social Democrats as to which of these two âfallen women' was responsible for allowing Hitler to get elected in the first place: the Sozis blamed the Pukers, and the Pukers blamed the Sozis.
Sleep did not come easily. There was an evil-smelling pallet, which I avoided on my first night of incarceration, but as the days passed and the slop-bucket became more malodorous, I ceased to be so fastidious. It was only on the fifth day, when two S S guards came and hauled me out of my cell, that I realized just how badly I smelled: but it was nothing compared to their stink, which is of death.
They frog-marched me through a long urinous passage to a lift, and this took us up five floors to a quiet and well-carpeted corridor which, with its oak-panelled walls and gloomy portraits of the Führer, Himmler, Canaris, Hindenburg and Bismarck, had the air of an exclusive gentleman's club. We went through a double wooden door the height of a tram and into a large bright office where several stenographers were working. They paid my filthy person no attention at all. A young S S Hauptsturmführer came round an ornate sort of desk to look disinterestedly at me.
âWho's this?' With a click of his heels, one of the guards stood to attention and told the officer who I was.
âWait there,' said the Hauptsturmführer and walked over to a polished mahogany door on the other side of the room, where he knocked and waited. Hearing a reply he poked his head round the door and said something. Then he turned and jerked his head at my guards who shoved me forwards.
It was a big, plush office with a high ceiling and some expensive leather furniture, and I saw that I wasn't going to get the routine Gestapo chat over the kind of script that would have to involve the twin prompts of blackjack and brass knuckles. Not yet anyway. They wouldn't risk spilling anything on the carpet. At the far end of the office was a French window, a set of bookshelves and a desk behind which, sitting in comfortable armchairs, were two S S officers. These were tall, sleek, well-groomed men with supercilious smiles, hair the colour of Tilsiter cheese and well-behaved Adam's apples. The taller of the pair spoke first, to order the guards and their adjutant out of the room.
âHerr Gunther. Please sit down.' He pointed to a chair in front of the desk. I looked behind as the door shut, and then shuffled forwards, my hands in my pockets. Since they had taken away my shoelaces and braces at my arrest, it was the only way I had of keeping my trousers up.
I hadn't met senior SS officers before and so I was not certain as to the rank of the two who faced me; but I guessed that one was probably a colonel, and the other, the one who continued speaking, was possibly a general. Neither one of them seemed to be any older than about thirty-five.
âSmoke?' said the general. He held out a box and then tossed me some matches. I lit my cigarette and smoked it gratefully. âPlease help yourself if you want another.'
âThanks.'
âPerhaps you would also like a drink?'
âI wouldn't say no to some champagne.' They both smiled simultaneously. The second officer, the colonel, produced a bottle of schnapps and poured a glassful.
âI'm afraid we don't run to anything so grand round here,' he said.
âWhatever you've got, then.' The colonel stood up and brought me the drink. I didn't waste any time with it. I jerked it back, cleaned my teeth and swallowed with every muscle in my neck and throat. I felt the schnapps flush right the way down to my corns.
âYou'd better give him another,' said the general. âHe looks as though his nerves are a bit shaky.' I held out my glass for the refill.
âMy nerves are just fine,' I said, nursing my glass. âI just like to drink.'
âPart of the image, eh?'
âAnd what image would that be?'
âWhy, the private detective of course. The shoddy little man in the barely furnished office, who drinks like a suicide who's lost his nerve, and who comes to the assistance of the beautiful but mysterious woman in black.'
âSomeone in the S S perhaps,' I suggested.
He smiled. âYou might not believe it,' he said, âbut I have a passion for detective stories. It must be interesting.' His face was of an unusual construction. Its central feature was its protruding, hawk-like nose, which had the effect of making the chin seem weak; above the thin nose were glassy blue eyes set rather too close together, and slightly slanting, which lent him an apparently world-weary, cynical air.
âI'm sure that fairy-stories are a lot more interesting.'
âBut not in your case, surely. In particular, the case you have been working on for the Germania Life Assurance Company.'
âFor which,' the colonel chipped in, âwe may now substitute the name of Hermann Six.' The same type as his superior, he was better-looking if apparently less intelligent. The general glanced over a file that was open on the desk in front of him, if only to indicate that they knew everything there was to know about me and my business.
âPrecisely so,' he murmured. After a short while he looked up at me and said: âWhy ever did you leave Kripo?'
âCoal,' I said.
He stared blankly at me. âCoal?'
âYeah, you know, mouse, gravel . . . money. Speaking of which, I had 40,000 marks in my pockets when I checked into this hotel. I'd like to know what's happened to it. And to a girl who was working with me. Name of Inge Lorenz. She's disappeared.'
The general looked at his junior officer, who shook his head. âI'm afraid we know nothing about any girl, Herr Gunther,' said the colonel. âPeople are always disappearing in Berlin. You of all people should know that. As to your money, however, that is quite safe with us for the moment.'
âThanks, and I don't mean to sound ungrateful, but I'd sooner leave it in a sock underneath my mattress.'
The general put his long, thin, violinist's hands together, as if he was about to lead us in prayer, and pressed their fingertips against his lips meditatively. âTell me, did you ever consider joining the Gestapo?' he said.
I figured it was my turn to try a little smile.
âYou know, this wasn't a bad suit before I was obliged to sleep in it for a week. I may smell a bit, but not that badly.'
He gave an amused sort of sniff. âThe ability to talk as toughly as your fictional counterpart is one thing, Herr Gunther,' he said. âBeing it is quite another. Your remarks demonstrate either an astonishing lack of appreciation as to the gravity of your situation, or real courage.' He raised his thin, gold-leaf eyebrows and started to toy with the German Horseman's Badge on his left breast-pocket. âBy nature I am a cynical man. I think that all policemen are, don't you? So normally I would be inclined to favour the first assessment of your bravado. However, in this particular case it suits me to believe in the strength of your character. Please do not disappoint me by saying something really stupid.' He paused for a moment. âI'm sending you to a KZ.'
My flesh turned as cold as a butcher's shop-window. I finished what was left of my schnapps, and then heard myself say: âListen, if it's about that lousy milk bill . . .'
They both started grinning a lot, enjoying my obvious discomfort.
âDachau,' said the colonel. I stubbed out my cigarette and lit another. They saw my hand shake as I held the match up.
âDon't worry,' said the general. âYou'll be working for me.' He came round the desk and sat on its edge in front of me.
âAnd who are you?'
âI am Obergruppenführer Heydrich.' He waved his arm at the colonel and folded his arms. âAnd this is Standartenführer Sohst of Alarm Command.'
âPleased to meet you, I'm sure.' I wasn't. Alarm Command were the special Gestapo killers that Marlene Sahm had talked about.
âI've had my eye on you for some time,' he said. âAnd after that unfortunate little incident at the beach house in Wannsee I have had you under constant observation, in the hope that you might lead us to certain papers. I'm sure you know the ones I mean. Instead you gave us the next best thing - the man who planned their theft. Over the past few days, while you've been our guest, we've been checking your story. It was the autobahn worker, Bock, who told us where to look for this Kurt Mutschmann fellow - the safecracker who now has the papers.'
âBock?' I shook my head. âI don't believe it. He wasn't the sort to turn informer about a friend.'
âIt's quite true, I can assure you. Oh, I don't mean he told us exactly where to find him, but he put us on the right track, before he died.'
âYou tortured him?'
âYes. He told us that Mutschmann had once told him that if he were ever really wanted so that he was desperate, then he should probably think of hiding in a prison, or a KZ. Well, of course, with a gang of criminals looking for him, not to mention ourselves, then desperate is exactly what he must have been.'
âIt's an old trick,' explained Sohst. âYou avoid arrest for one thing by having yourself arrested for another.'
âWe believe that Mustchmann was arrested and sent to Dachau three nights after the death of Paul Pfarr,' said Heydrich. With a thin, smug smile he added: âIndeed, he was almost begging to be arrested. It seems that he was caught red-handed, painting KPD slogans on the wall of a Kripo Stelle in Neukölln.'
âA KZ isn't so bad if you're a Kozi,' chuckled Sohst. âIn comparison with the Jews and the queers. He'll probably be out in a couple of years.'
I shook my head. âI don't understand,' I told them. âWhy don't you simply have the commandant at Dachau question Mutschmann? What the hell do you need me for?'
Heydrich folded his arms and swung his jackbooted leg so that his toe was almost kicking my kneecap. âInvolving the commandant at Dachau would also mean having to inform Himmler, which I don't want to do. You see, the Reichsfuhrer is an idealist. He would undoubtedly see it as his duty to use these papers to punish those he perceived to be guilty of crimes against the Reich.'
I recalled Himmler's letter to Paul Pfarr which Marlene Sahm had shown me at the Olympic Stadium and nodded.
âI, on the other hand, am a pragmatist, and would prefer to use the papers in a rather more tactical way, as and where I require.'
âIn other words, you're not above a bit of blackmail yourself. Am I right?'
Heydrich smiled thinly. âYou see through me so easily, Herr Gunther. But you must understand that this is to be an undercover operation. Strictly a matter for Security. On no account should you mention this conversation to anyone.'
âBut there must be somebody among the S S at Dachau that you can trust?'
âOf course there is,' said Heydrich. âBut what do you expect him to do, march up to Mustchmann and ask him where he has hidden the papers? Come now, Herr Gunther, be sensible.'
âSo you want me to find Mustchmann, and get to know him.'
âPrecisely so. Build his trust. Find out where he's hidden the papers. And having done so, you will identify yourself to my man.'
âBut how will I recognize Mutschmann?'
âThe only photograph is the one on his prison record,' said Sohst, handing me a picture. I looked at it carefully. âIt's three years old, and his head will have been shaved of course, so it doesn't help you much. Not only that, but he's likely to be a great deal thinner. A KZ does tend to change a man. There is, however, one thing that should help you to identify him: he has a noticeable ganglion on his right wrist, which he could hardly obliterate.'
I handed back the photograph. âIt's not much to go on,' I said. âSuppose I refuse?'
âYou won't,' said Heydrich brightly. âYou see, either way you're going to Dachau. The difference is that working for me, you'll be sure to get out again. Not to mention getting your money back.'
âI don't seem to have much choice.'
Heydrich grinned. âThat's precisely the point,' he said. âYou don't. If you had a choice, you'd refuse. Anyone would. Which is why I can't send one of my own men. That and the need for secrecy. No, Herr Gunther, as an ex-policeman, I'm afraid you fit the bill perfectly. You have everything to gain, or to lose. It's really up to you.'