No Place for Heroes (16 page)

“Yes, she’s still looking for him,” the oncologist told her. “With less conviction than before, but she still lives in her mother-in-law’s house—the señora passed away. And as far as
I know, she’s never had another romantic relationship. Deep down in her soul, she goes on waiting for him.”

Then Lorenza said something about how happy their marriage had been, and the doctor gave her a surprised look. “You mean you don’t know?” he asked.

“What?”

“Lucia and Piper were separated when he was kidnapped,” he explained. “They had been separated for at least a year and a half. He was already with someone else and so was she. By the time he was kidnapped, their relationship was a thing of the past.”

A
WEEK AFTER
their first meeting in Las Violetas, Aurelia met with Forcás again, picking up things just as they had left them. The same café, the same minute, but the situation was a little more tense the second time, perhaps charged with premeditated expectations on each of their parts. It was also nighttime and the nocturnal mise-en-scène made for an awkward setup. Let’s just say that Aurelia was too dressed up, let’s say she had chosen her outfit very purposefully, and that she had blow-dried her hair, and that he for his part was recently bathed and emitted an odor of cologne, one of those virile dark ones that go for the kill, Drakkar Noir or something just as withering, in all truth, to Aurelia’s disappointment, who all week had yearned for the stable smell of his wool sweater. Now on the same note, Aurelia was no better off; in those
days when she went out at night, she put on a double dose of Anaïs Anaïs, a frenziedly floral perfume. She must have strolled into Las Violetas like Botticelli’s spring, trailing a wake of lilac and jasmine. So the reason for the tension was simply that unlike the first time, this time there was a motive. The whole thing had been reduced to its common denominator, a bold flirting where conversation could not flourish. If they had met in Bogotá or Madrid, they would have broken the ice talking about Trotskyite matters, like the antagonism in Angola among the MPLA, UNITA, and FNLA, or the denunciation of the Spanish Socialist Party by the Popular Front for the Liberation of Saguia el-Hamra, or the foreseeable split of the Sandinistas in Nicaragua. But in Buenos Aires, they could not talk of such things. In public places they had to avoid those topics—their topics, their passions—and the nervousness was leading them into a series of phony questions and cutting replies. But the seduction was already having an effect on Aurelia, the pretty hair and the broad shoulders, so much so that she didn’t seem to mind the smoke from the Particulares 30. And just when his Drakkar Noir and her Anaïs Anaïs stopped repelling each other and began to mingle, a group of men in dark outfits and buzzed skulls burst through the door, five or six in all.

“It’s like I’m reliving that entrance into Las Violetas, which was like elephants stomping into a fine glass shop,” Lorenza told Mateo. “Another Argentinean saying: Elephant in a glass shop.”

Everybody froze right where they were, even the waiters, as if it were the palace of Sleeping Beauty and the only thing awake was Aurelia’s own heart, which began to beat like mad.

“Just keep to our story and nothing will happen,” Forcás said, trying to soothe her nerves.

They could see in the mirror in the back that the men forced two señores who shared a table to get up from their seats. They shoved the taller one to a corner of the room and the other one to an opposite corner. A few minutes later, three of the
cana
approached Aurelia and Forcás, who had attracted them like iron shavings to magnets. They asked for their identification papers. Around them, everybody else camouflaged themselves in a stillness that they hoped made them invisible, guiltless. If I’ve seen you, I don’t remember, and if I remember, I’ll forget. No one dared to turn and look, but they did look, if not with their eyes. Two of the men took Forcás to the door leading out to Medrano and the other one took Aurelia by the arm and pushed her toward the back, to the staircase leading to the bathrooms. That’s how they did it, they would interrogate one in one corner, who are you with, where did you meet him, what were you talking about; and the other person in the opposite corner, who introduced you, what were you talking about, when did you see each other last. Oh, there was a contradiction? Well, you’re fucked, you sons of bitches, that means you are subversives and are conspiring, we’re going to bust you open.

The
cana
knew that a lot went on in the cafés and that’s
how they exerted control, techniques learned at the School of the Americas, or tricks learned from the gringo military in Panama.

“And they were right, kiddo,” Lorenza told Mateo. “The cafés of Buenos Aires were the epicenter of the conspiracy; one day they will have to build a monument to them.”

One of the
cana
wore a tiny medal on his lapel, a likeness of the Virgin of Luján. He cornered Aurelia against the wall, and since he was tall, his coat scrubbed against her cheeks, so she had a perfect view, the Virgin of Luján: she wore a mantle and crown emitting rays, a half moon under one foot. She was no different than most Virgins, but the one from Luján had the national coat of arms at her feet. Except for that medal he was a typical
cana
. Lorenza remembered his heavy breath on her face, the dark glasses concealing the eyes, and the coarse leather of his black coat.

“It was actually funny the way that they liked to disguise themselves,” she told Mateo. “Bastards dressed as bastards.”

The first thing he asked her was who she was with. And she told him about Mario, whom she had met a few weeks before in her own country, and she did it with confidence, because she knew that in the opposite corner of the confectionery, Forcás would also respond that he was with a girl he had met in Colombia. Then the
cana
asked her what Mario was doing in Colombia, and while she responded that he had a leather business, she knew that Forcás was saying that exact thing. It was like a symphonic game between them, between Aurelia and Forcás, tossing the ball from one corner of the
confectionery to the other, softly, with precision, not tripping up, not missing each other, he in his corner, she in hers, each in the other’s hands, each answering questions with the certainty that the other would back it up. Who introduced you? My brother-in-law. What is his name? Patrick. Patrick what? Would Forcás remember that it was Ferguson? Aurelia had chosen it, but it could have been any other name just as well. And yet now their lives depended on the fact that both he and she would say exactly that, Ferguson, and no other. They had agreed on it last week during their first meeting, but had not gone over it this time, all they said was, “Same story? Yes, of course, same one.” So of course he would remember. Aurelia was sure he would remember and that over there in his corner, he would be calmly responding, the brother-in-law’s last name is Ferguson. And what are you doing here? We are going to go hear some tangos, she said. I am taking her to go see the city, to hear some tangos, foreigners love that, he said. And what had he been doing in Colombia? I told you, he has a leather business with my brother-in-law. And way on the other corner, like an echo, Aurelia couldn’t hear but she guessed: I traveled to Colombia to set up the export of some leather goods with her brother-in-law. The
cana
who was questioning Aurelia lifted his sunglasses and fixed them on the crown of his head. They were common eyes, nondescript, maybe coffee-colored, undoubtedly myopic, and while he scrutinized her, she tried to look over his shoulder to find Forcás. At first she couldn’t see him, he was hidden behind the thick granite columns, but then she spotted him, he too
was looking for her and he smiled as if nothing was happening. Everything is good, he said with his smile, and she smiled back, yes, yes, everything is good.

The incident with the
cana
had been nothing, a little confrontation, routine, but it had been the ceremony that sealed the alliance between Aurelia and Forcás. She had committed herself to a pact of complicity with that man who went by the name of Forcás, and from then on she knew that her fate would be entwined with his, whatever happened. The
cana
ordered her to stay where she was. He put her passport in his pocket and zipped up his coat, then went to look for his buddies, obviously to compare stories, and he returned less worked up, apparently because they had passed the test. With a tone somewhere between cloying and paternal, he warned her not to mingle with strangers, you are a foreigner, he said, there are a lot of bums who will try to woo you with their stories so you take off with them, and instead of listening to tangos, you end up in a mess with some undesirable. Just go home, you seem like a good girl, go home.

“So the one who questioned you had a leather coat?” Mateo asked.

“I seem to remember that he pulled up the zipper of his coat, yes. But who knows. The only thing I know is that he was wearing something with lapels, the little medal was hanging from a hook on the lapel.”

“Did he keep your passport?”

“No, before he left he gave it back.”

“Then why didn’t you say that?”

“What?”

“That he gave it back. That soon afterward he came back in, walked up to your table, and handed you your passport.”

“Sorry, kiddo, I forgot that detail.”

“You are also forgetting to tell me what happened with those two other guys they interrogated.”

“When the
cana
left, I began to sweat. I felt as if a wave of heat fell over me and soaked my shirt, as if I could no longer hold back whatever involuntary physical reaction. And then your father told me that they had taken the two men, and I saw that indeed their table was now empty.”

“What happened to them?” Mateo asked, yawning.

“They took them in a patrol car. But go to sleep. I’ll tell you about it tomorrow.”

“Just tell me now.”

“That’s it. They took them. We never found out who they were.”

“They didn’t scream their names, like Piper? I am So-and-so, I am being kidnapped, help me!”

“No, they didn’t scream anything. Maybe they figured that the Virgin of Luján would help them—”

“Stop joking around, Lorenza, tell me what you think happened.”

“That’s it, kiddo, go to sleep.”

“Another day and I still haven’t called Ramón.”

“You’ll call him tomorrow.”

“Do you really think the Virgin of Luján saved those two?”

“No, Mateo, I don’t really think so.”

“I
T’S NOW OR
never. I’m going to call him,” Mateo announced as soon as he awoke, and Lorenza thought that this time he was really going through with it. “Where is it!” he screamed, suddenly giving his mother a horrified look.

“Where is what, for God’s sake? Why do you get all worked up like this?”

“The notebook, Lorenza,” Mateo declared in a lugubrious tone. “The notebook where I wrote down what I was going to say.” He fell back on the sofa, defeated, and she started to look for it. In a few minutes, she discovered it, mixed up with some magazines.

“You found it?” he asked surprised, as if a miracle had just occurred. “Ramón Iribarren, I am your son, Mateo Iribarren. I have come to Buenos Aires to meet you,” he read in a loud voice for the thousandth time since they had arrived. He knew the passage by heart, but kept repeating it nevertheless, like a mantra, like a spell. Lorenza had been watching him closely. Her son was readying himself for the encounter with his father as if it were a ceremony. Or a duel.

“Now or never,” Mateo repeated and stared at the phone like a viper hypnotizing its prey before pouncing. But instead of picking up the receiver, he opted for the remote and turned on the television.

“I’ll call in a little while. I swear,” he assured his mother, as if he owed her anything. “Shit, the Rolling Stones! A concert right here in Buenos Aires. I can’t believe it. Look, look,
they’re going to be at the River Plate Stadium. Let’s go, Lorenza. Can we go? Are you even watching? This is historic, the chance of a lifetime. Damn, I love the Stones! I’d rather see the Stones a thousand times more than Ramón. Fuck Ramón, Lolé, let’s go see the Stones. That would be enough for me. I swear that if I get to see them I’ll return in peace to Bogotá and I’ll stop bugging you about my father and Buenos Aires. It’ll be a lot cooler to tell my friends how I saw the Stones than bore them with how I met some bald guy who’s my father.”