Authors: William S. Burroughs
And I went to see my amigo who was taking medicina again and he had no money to give me and didn't want to do anything but take more medicina and stood there waiting for me to leave so he could take it after saying he was not going to take any more so I said, “William no me hagas casoâ” And met a Cuban that night in The Mar Chica who told me I could work in his bandâThe next day I said good-bye to William and there was nobody there to listen and I could hear him reaching for his medicina and needles as I closed the doorâWhen I saw the knife I knew Meester William was death disguised as any other personâPues I saw El Hombre Invisible in a hotel room somewhere tried to reach him with the knife and he said: “If you kill me this crate will come apart at the seams like a rotten undervest”âAnd I saw a monster crab with hot claws at the window and Meester William took some white medicina and vomited into the toilet and we escaped to Greece with a boy about my age who kept calling Meester William “The Stupid American”âAnd Meester William looked like a hypnotist I saw once in Tétuan and said: “I have gimmick to beat The Crab but it is very technical”âAnd we couldn't read what he was writing on transparent sheetsâIn Paris he showed me The Man who paints on these sheets pictures in the airâAnd The Invisible Man said:
“These colorless sheets are what flesh is made fromâBecomes flesh when it has color and writingâThat is Word And Image write the message that is you on colorless sheets determine all flesh.”
And I said: “William, tu éres loco.”
NO GOODâNO BUENO
So many yearsâthat imageâgot up and fixed in the sick dawnâ
No me hagas caso
âAgain he touched like thatâsmell of dustâThe tears gatheredâIn Mexico again he touchedâCodeine pills powdered out into the cold Spring airâCigarette holes in the vast Thing ÂPoliceâCould give no information other than wind identity fading outâdwindlingâ“Mr. Martin” couldn't reach is allâBread knife in the heartâShadow turned off the lights and waterâWe intersect on empty wallsâLook anywhereâNo goodâFalling in the dark mutinous doorâDead Hand stretching zeroâFive times of dust we made it all the living and the deadâYoung form went to MadridâDemerol by candlelightâWind handâThe Last Electrician to tap on paneâMigrants arrivalâÂPoison of dead sun went away and sent papersâFerry boat cross flutes of RamadanâDead muttering in the dog's spaceâCigarette hole in the darkâgive no information other than the cold Spring cemeteryâThe Sailor went wrong in corridors of that hospitalâThing Police keep all Board Room Reports is allâBread knife in the heart proffers the disaster accountsâHe just sit down on “Mr. Martin”âCouldn't reach flesh on Nino PerdidoâA long time between flutes of RamadanâNo me hagas caso sliding between light and shadowâ
“The American trailing cross the wounded galaxies con su medicina, William.”
Half your brain slowly fadingâTurned off the lights and waterâCouldn't reach fleshâempty wallsâLook anywhereâDead on tracks see Mr. Bradly Mr. ZeroâAnd being blind may not refuse the maps to my blood whom I createdâ“Mr. Bradly Mr. Martin,” couldn't you write us any better than that?âGone awayâYou can look any placeâNo goodâNo buenoâ
I spit blood under the sliding vulture shadowsâAt The Mercado Mayorista saw a touristâA Meester Merican fruto drinking piscoâand fixed me with the eyes so I sit down and drink and tell him how I live in a shack under the hill with a tin roof held down by rocks and hate my brothers because they eatâHe says something about “malo viento” and laughs and I went with him to a hotel I knowâIn the morning he says I am honest and will I come with him to Pucallpa he is going into the jungle looking for snakes and spiders to take pictures and bring them back to Washington they always carry something away even if it is only a spider monkey spitting blood the way most of us do here in the winter when the mist comes down from the mountains and never leaves your clothes and lungs and everyone coughed and spit blood mist on the mud floor where I sleepâWe start out next day in a Mixto Bus by night we are in the mountains with snow and the Meester brings out a bottle of pisco and the driver gets drunk down into the Selva came to Pucallpa three days laterâThe Meester locates a brujo and pays him to prepare Ayahuasca and I take some too and muy mareadoâThen I was back in Lima and other places I didn't know and saw the Meester as child in a room with rose wallpaper looking at something I couldn't seeâÂTasting roast beef and turkey and ice cream in my throat knowing the thing I couldn't see was always out there in the hallâAnd the Meester was looking at me and I could see the street boy words there in his throatâNext day the police came looking for us at the hotel and the Meester showed letters to the Commandante so they shook hands and went off to lunch and I took a bus back to Lima with money he gave me to buy equipmentâ
SHIFT COORDINATE POINTS
K9 was in combat with the alien mind screenâÂMagnetic claws feeling for virus punch cardsâpulling him into vertiginous spinsâ
“BackâStay out of those clawsâShift coordinate pointsâ” By Town Hall Square long stop for the red lightâA boy stood in front of the hot dog stand and blew water from his faceâPieces of grey vapor drifted back across wine gas and brown hair as hotel faded photo showed a brass bedâUnknown mornings blew rain in ÂcobwebsâSummer evenings feel to a room with rose wallpaperâSick dawn whisper of clock hands and brown hairâMorning blew rain on copper roofs in a slow haze of applesâSummer light on rose ÂwallpaperâIron mesas lit by a pink volcanoâSnow slopes under the Northern shirtâUnknown street stirring sick dawn whispers of junkâFlutes of Ramadan in the distanceâSt. Louis lights wet cobblestones of future lifeâFell through the urinal and the bicycle racesâOn the bar wall the clock handsâMy death across his face faded through
the soccer scoresâsmell of dust on the surplus army blanketsâStiff jeans against one wallâAnd KiKi went away like a catâSome clean shirt and walked outâHe is gone through unknown morning blewâ“No goodâNo buenoâHustling myselfâ” Such wisdom in gustsâ
K9 moved back into the combat areaâStanding now in the Chinese youth sent the resistance message jolting clicking tilting through the pinball machineâEnemy plans exploded in a burst of rapid calculationsâÂClicking in punch cards of redirected ordersâCrackling shortwave staticâBleeeeeeeeeeeeeepâSound of thinking metalâ
“Calling partisans of all nationsâWord fallingâPhoto fallingâBreak through in Grey RoomâPinball led streetsâFree doorwaysâShift coordinate pointsâ”
“The ticket that exploded posed little time so I'll say âgood night'âPieces of grey Spanish Flu wouldn't photoâLight the wind in green neonâYou at the dogâThe street blew rainâIf you wanted a cup of tea with rose wallpaperâThe dog turnsâSo many and soooâ”
“In progress I am mapping a photoâLight verse of wounded galaxies at the dog I didâThe street blew rainâThe dog turnsâÂWarring head intersected PowersâWord fallingâPhoto fallingâBreak through in Grey Roomâ”
He is gone away through invisible mornings leaving a million tape recorders of his voice behind fading into the cold spring air pose a colorless question?
“The silence fell heavy and blue in mountain ÂvillagesâPulsing mineral silence as word dust falls from demagnetized patternsâWalked through an old blue calendar in Weimar youthâFaded photo on rose wallpaper under a copper roofâIn the silent dawn little grey men played in his block house and went away through an invisible doorâClick St. Louis under drifting soot of old newspapersââDaddy Longlegs' looked like Uncle Sam on stilts and he ran this osteopath clinic outside East St. Louis and took in a few junky patients for two notes a week they could stay on the nod in green lawn chairs and look at the oaks and grass stretching down to a little lake in the sun and the nurse moved around the lawn with her silver trays feeding the junk inâWe called her âMother'âWouldn't you?âDoc Benway and me was holed up there after a rumble in Dallas involving this aphrodisiac ointment and Doc goofed on ether and mixed in too much Spanish Fly and burned the prick off the Police Commissioner straight awayâSo we come to âDaddy Longlegs' to cool off and found him cool and casual in a dark room with potted rubber plants and a silver tray on the table where he liked to see a week in advanceâThe nurse showed us to a room with rose wallpaper and we had this bell any hour of the day or night ring and the nurse charged in with a loaded hypoâWell one day we were sitting out in the lawn chairs with lap robes it was a fall day trees turning and the sun cold on the lakeâDoc picks up a piece of grassâ
“Junk turns you on vegetableâIt's green, see?âA green fix should last a long time.”
We checked out of the clinic and rented a house and Doc starts cooking up this green junk and the basement was full of tanks smelled like a compost heap of ÂjunkiesâSo finally he draws off this heavy green fluid and loads it into a hypo big as a bicycle pumpâ
“Now we must find a worthy vessel,” he said and we flush out this old goof ball artist and told him it was pure Chinese H from The Ling Dynasty and Doc shoots the whole pint of green right into the main line and the Yellow Jacket turns fibrous grey green and withered up like an old turnip and I said: “I'm getting out of here, me,” and Doc said: “An unworthy vessel obviouslyâSo I have now decided that junk is not green but blue.”
So he buys a lot of tubes and globes and they are flickering in the basement this battery of tubes metal vapor and quicksilver and pulsing blue spheres and a smell of ozone and a little high-fi blue note fixed you right to metal this junk note tinkling through your crystals and a heavy blue silence fell
klunk
âand all the words turned to cold liquid metal and ran off you man just fixed there in a cool blue mist of vaporized bank notesâWe found out later that the metal junkies were all radioactive and subject to explode if two of them came into contactâAt this point in our researches we intersected The Nova Policeâ
Chinese Laundry
CHINESE LAUNDRY
When young Sutherland asked me to procure him a commission with the nova police, I jokingly answered: “Bring in Winkhorst, technician and chemist for The Lazarus Pharmaceutical Company, and we will discuss the matter.”
“Is this Winkhorst a nova criminal?”
“No just a technical sergeant wanted for interrogation.”
I was thinking of course that he knew nothing of the methods by which such people are brought in for interrogationâIt is a precision operationâFirst we send out a series of agentsâ(usually in the guise of journalists)âto contact Winkhorst and expose him to a battery of stimulus unitsâThe contact agents talk and record the response on all levels to the word units while a photographer takes picturesâThis material is passed along to The Art DepartmentâWriters write “Winkhorst,” painters paint “Winkhorst,” a method actor
becomes
“Winkhorst,” and then “Winkhorst” will answer our questionsâThe processing of Winkhorst was already under wayâ
Some days later there was a knock at my doorâYoung Sutherland was standing there and next to him a man with coat collar turned up so only the eyes were visible spitting indignant protestâI noticed that the overcoat sleeves were empty.
“I have him in a strait jacket,” said Sutherland propelling the man into my roomâ“This is Winkhorst.”
I saw that the collar was turned up to conceal a gagâ“ButâYou misunderstood meâNot on this levelâI mean reallyâ”
“You said bring in Winkhorst didn't you?”
I was thinking fast: “All rightâTake off the gag and the strait jacket.”
“But he'll scream the fuzz inâ”
“No he won't.”
As he removed the strait jacket I was reminded of an old dream pictureâThis process is known as retroactive dreamingâPerformed with precision and authority becomes accomplished factâIf Winkhorst did start screaming no one would hear himâFar side of the world's mirror moving into my pastâWall of glass you knowâÂWinkhorst made no attempt to screamâIron cool he sat downâI asked Sutherland to leave us promising to put his application through channelsâ
“I have come to ask settlement for a laundry bill,” Winkhorst said.
“What laundry do you represent?”
“The Chinese laundry.”
“The bill will be paid through channelsâAs you know nothing is more complicated and time consuming than processing requisition orders for so-called âpersonal expenses'âAnd you know also that it is strictly forbidden to offer currency in settlement.”
“I was empowered to ask a settlementâBeyond that I know ÂnothingâAnd now may I ask why I have been summoned?”
“Let's not say summonedâLet us just say invitedâIt's more humane that way you seeâActually we are taking an opinion poll in regard to someone with whom I believe you have a long and close association, namely Mr. Winkhorst of The Lazarus Pharmaceutical CompanyâWe are interviewing friends, relatives, co-Âworkers to predict his chances for reelection as captain of the chemical executive softball teamâYou must of course realize the importance of this matter in view of the company motto âAlways play
soft
ball' is it not?âNow just to give the interview life let us pretend that you are yourself Winkhorst and I will put the questions directly ketch?âVery well Mr. Winkhorst, let's not waste timeâWe know that you are the chemist responsible for synthesizing the new hallucinogen drugs many of which have not yet been released even for experimental purposesâWe know also that you have effected certain molecular alterations in the known hallucinogens that are being freely distributed in many quartersâÂPrecisely how are these alterations effected?âPlease do not be deterred from making a complete statement by my obvious lack of technical knowledgeâThat is not my jobâYour answers will be recorded and turned over to the Technical Department for processing.”
“The process is known as stress deformationâIt is done or was done with a cyclotronâFor example the mescaline molecule is exposed to cyclotron stress so that the energy field is deformed and some molecules are activated on fissionable levelâMescaline so processed will be liable to produce, in the human subjectâ(known as âcanine preparations')âuh unpleasant and dangerous symptoms and in particular âthe heat syndrome' which is a reflection of nuclear fissionâSubjects complain they are on fire, confined in a suffocating furnace, white hot bees swarming in the bodyâThe hot bees are of course the deformed mescaline moleculesâI am putting it simply of courseâ”
“There are other procedures?”
“Of course but always it is a question of deformation or association on a molecular levelâAnother procedure consists in exposing the mescaline molecule to certain virus culturesâThe virus as you know is a very small particle and can be precisely associated on molecular chainsâThis association gives an additional tune-in with anybody who has suffered from a virus infection such as hepatitis for exampleâMuch easier to produce the heat syndrome in such a preparation.”
“Can this process be reversed? That is can you decontaminate a compound once the deformation has been effected?”
“Not so easyâIt would be simpler to recall our stock from the distributors and replace it.”
“And now I would like to ask you if there could be benign associationsâCould you for example associate mescaline with apomorphine on a molecular level?”
“First we would have to synthesize the apomorphine formulaeâAs you know it is forbidden to do this.”
“And for very good reason is it not, Winkhorst?”
“YesâApomorphine combats parasite invasion by stimulating the regulatory centers to normalize ÂmetabolismâA powerful variation of this drug could deactivate all verbal units and blanket the earth in silence, disconnecting the entire heat syndrome.”
“You could do this, Mr. Winkhorst?”
“It would not be easyâcertain technical details and so little timeâ” He held up his thumb and forefinger a quarter inch apart.
“Difficult but not impossible, Mr. Winkhorst?”
“Of course notâIf I receive the orderâThis is unlikely in view of certain facts known to both of us.”
“You refer to the scheduled nova date?”
“Of course.”
“You are convinced that this is inevitable, Mr. Winkhorst?”
“I have seen the formulaeâI do not believe in miracles.”
“Of what do these formulae consist, Mr. Winkhorst?”
“It is a question of disposalâWhat is known as Uranium and this applies to all such raw material is actually a form of excrementâThe disposal problem of radioactive waste in any time universe is ultimately insoluble.”
“But if we disintegrate verbal units, that is vaporize the containers, then the explosion could not take place in effect would never have existedâ”
“PerhapsâI am a chemist not a prophetâIt is considered axiomatic that the nova formulae can not be broken, that the process is irreversible once set in ÂmotionâAll energy and appropriations is now being channeled into escape plansâIf you are interested I am empowered to make an offer of evacuationâon a time level of course.”
“And in return?”
“You will simply send back a report that there is no evidence of nova activity on planet earth.”
“What you are offering me is a precarious aqualung existence in somebody else's stale movieâSuch people made a wide U turn back to the '20sâBesides the whole thing is ridiculousâLike I send back word from Mercury:: âThe climate is cool and bracingâThe natives are soo friendly'âor âOn Uranus one is conscious of a lightness in the limbs and an exhilarating sense of freedom'âSo Doctor Benway snapped, âYou will simply send back spitting notice on your dirty nova activityâIt is ridiculous like when the egg cracks the climate is cool and bracing'âor âUranus is mushrooming freedom'âThis is the old splintered pink carnival 1917âSad little irrigation ditchâWhere else if they have date twisting paralyzed in the blue movies?âYou are offering me aqualung scrapsâprecarious fleshâsoiled movie, rag on cockâIntestinal street boy smells through the outhouse.
'
”
“I am empowered to make the offer not assess its validity.”
“The offer is declinedâThe so-called officers on this planet have panicked and are rushing the first life boat in dragâSuch behavior is unbecoming an officer and these people have been relieved of a command they evidently experienced as an intolerable burden in any caseâIn all my experience as a police officer I have never seen such a downright stupid conspiracyâThe nova mob operating here are stumble bums who couldn't even crash our police line-up anywhere elseâ”
This is the old needling technique to lure a criminal out into the openâThree thousand years with the force and it still worksâWinkhorst was fading out in hot spirals of the crab nebulaâI experienced a moment of panicâwalked slowly to the tape recorderâ
“Now if you would be so kind, Mr. Winkhorst, I would like you to listen to this music and give me your ÂreactionâWe are using it in a commercial on the apomorphine programâNow if you would listen to this music and give me advantageâWe are thinking of sullen street boy for this spotâ”
I put on some Gnaoua drum music and turned around both guns blazingâSilver needles under tons focus come level on average had opened up still as good as he used to be pounding stabbing to the drum beatsâThe scorpion controller was on screen blue eyes white hot spitting from the molten core of a planet where lead melts at noon, his body half concealed by the portico of a Mayan templeâA stink of torture chambers and burning flesh filled the roomâPrisoners staked out under the white hot skies of Minraud eaten alive by metal antsâI kept distance surrounding him with pounding stabbing light blasts seventy tons to the square inchâThe orders loud and clear now: “BlastâPoundâStrafeâStabâ
Kill
”
âThe screen opened outâI could see Mayan codices and Egyptian hieroglyphsâÂPrisoners screaming in the ovens broken down to insect formsâLife-sized portrait of a pantless corpse hanged to a telegraph pole ejaculating under a white hot skyâStink of torture when the egg cracksâalways to insect formsâStaked out spines gathering mushroom antsâEyes pop out naked hanged to a telegraph pole of adolescent imageâ
The music shifted to Pan Pipes and I moved away to remote mountain villages where blue mist swirled through the slate housesâPlace of the vine people under eternal moonlightâPressure removedâSeventy tons to the square inch suddenly moved outâFrom a calm grey distance I saw the scorpion controller explode in the low pressure areaâGreat winds whipping across a black plain scattered the codices and hieroglyphs to rubbish heaps of the earthâ(A Mexican boy whistling Mambo, drops his pants by a mud wall and wipes his ass with a page from the Madrid codex)âPlace of the dust people who live in sand storms riding the windâ
Wind wind wind
through dusty offices and archivesâWind through the board rooms and torture banks of timeâ
(“A great calm shrouds the green place of the vine people.”)
INFLEXIBLE AUTHORITY
When I handed in my report to The District Supervisor he read it through with a narrow smileâ“They have distracted you with a war film and given false information as usualâYou are inexperienced of courseâTotally green troops in the areaâHowever your unauthorized action will enable us to cut some cornersâNow come along and we will get the real factsâ”
The police patrol pounded into the home office of Lazarus & Coâ
“And now Mr. Winkhorst and you gentlemen of the board, let's have the real story and quickly or would you rather talk to the partisans?”
“You dumb hicks.”
“The information and quicklyâWe have no time to waste with such as you.”
The D.S. stood there translucent silver sending a solid blast of inflexible authority.
“All rightâWe'll talkâThe cyclotron processes imageâIt's the microfilm principleâsmaller and smaller, more and more images in less space pounded down under the cyclotron to crystal image mealâWe can take the whole fucking planet out that way up our ass in a finger stallâImage of both of us good as he used to beâA
stall
you digâJust old showmen packing our ermines you might sayâ”
“Enough of that showâContinue please with your statement.”
“Sure, sure, but you see now why we had to laugh till we pissed watching those dumb rubes playing around with photomontageâLike charging a regiment of tanks with a defective slingshot.”
“For the last time out of meâContinue with your statement.”
“Sure, sure, but you see now why we had such lookout on these dumb rubes playing around with a splintered carnivalâCharging a regiment of tanks with a defective sanitarium 1917âNever could keep his gasâJust an old trouper is all”â(He goes into a song and dance routine dancing off stageâAn 1890 cop picks him up in the wings and brings back a ventriloquist dummy.)
“This, gentlemen, is a death dwarfâAs you can see manipulated by remote controlâCompliments of Mr. & Mrs. D.”
“Give me a shot,” says the dwarf. “And I'll tell you something interesting.”
Hydraulic metal hands proffer a tray of phosphorescent meal yellow brown in color like pulverized amberâThe dwarf takes out a hypo from a silver case and shoots a pinch of the meal in the main line.
“Imagesâmillions of imagesâThat's what I eatâCyclotron shitâEver try kicking
that
habit with Âapomorphine?âNow I got all the images of sex acts and torture ever took place anywhere and I can just blast it out and control you gooks right down to the moleculeâI got orgasmsâI got screamsâI got all the images any hick poet ever shit outâMy Power's comingâMy Power's comingâMy Power's comingâ” He goes into a faith healer routine rolling his eyes and frothing at the mouthâ“And I got millions and millions and millions of images of Me, Me, Me, meee.” (He nods outâHe snaps back into focus screaming and spitting at Uranian Willy.) “You hickâYou ratâCalled the fuzz on meâAll rightâ(Nods out)âI'm finished but you're still a lousy finkâ”