“When you put it that way, it seems a little shallow, to be honest.”
Steven took a moment to reflect. “It is. But I don't mind. I want to take care of you and Cody.”
Kendall looked at the wine. Another glass beckoned. “You're never around, Steven.”
“I'm busy.” This time his tone shifted. She couldn't tell if he was angry, annoyed, or maybe a little resentful. All were good bets. It was, after all, a conversation they'd had before.
Kendall didn't want to be the suspicious wife. She didn't want to be any of those things she despised about the ladies at the gym who found nothing but horrendous things to say about their spousesâeverything from the size of his manhood to the condition of his underwear. Yet, she found herself crossing over into that territory.
“I called earlier in the week and you were at a trade show. You never mentioned you were going to go out of town.”
“Last minute. I tried to call but there was no cell service. You know how bad our carrier isâworks in Port Orchard but nowhere else.”
That was true. The cell towers in Port Orchard seem to have an aversion to T-Mobile.
“Maybe we should go back to Verizon. Maybe a landline,” he said.
“Maybe tin cans and a string,” she said.
Steven laughed and that was good to hear. She missed him so much. She hated that she was being so selfish when he was doing exactly what she would have doneâgone for the big prize. Never settle.
Stay golden.
“I love you, Steven,” she said.
“I miss you and Cody,” he said before hanging up.
Kendall wondered for a split second if missing was the same as loving. She was losing it and she knew it. She was being one of those women who dissected every word in search of a hidden meaning. Never a good one. Just the kind of meaning that was meant to stab and hurt.
Cody was fast asleep, and she turned off his tugboat lamp. The room was still bright from the six nightlights Steven had installed when their son first said he was scared of the dark. His room smelled of rotten bananas and she retrieved the peel of one from under his pillow. There were a million things about her son's world that she'd never understand, how at age six he knew there were 4,021 tiles in the bathroom floor. How he'd fashioned snowmen out of lint from the lint trapper of the dryer and made faces on each one that made the trio resemble his familyâperfectly. The hair on his mother's snowman was the yellow lint from a set of yellow flannel sheets. His dad's dark hair was from a sweatshirt that he'd had since high school. Cody's own curly blond hair was fashioned from his own hair. Not hair that he'd plucked from his head, but strands that he'd collected from his pillowcase every day for six months.
She would never, however, even try to understand how it was that her son found it necessary or even appropriate to stick a nasty Chiquita peel under his pillow. That would never, ever happen.
She kissed his forehead and his eyelids popped open. He didn't say a word, but snapped them closed like the slow shutter on an old camera. A smile on his lips as he wriggled down under the covers.
When Kendall returned to the kitchen, the raccoons were back and she did what she knew she shouldn't do. She gave them a handful of mini-marshmallows. She justified it all by telling herself the animals were hungry and the marshmallows were stale.
The last couple of interviews were shortâand there was no transcript to accompany them. Scott Hilburn said that he and Katy were “taking some time off” by mutual agreement and he had no idea where she'd gone. She didn't have any enemies “except those two bitches that call themselves her best friends” and “some weirdo, a security guard at the school who followed her around like a puppy dog.” In Scott's estimation, his on-and-off-again girlfriend simply split Port Orchard because she had a “decent amount of cash” and a car of her own. Kendall wondered how much cash, where did she get it, and what kind of car, and what became of it. There was no further mention of either in the files.
Lastly she looked at the lab results of the hair sample and blood drops. The blood didn't belong to Katy, but the hair did. It also matched the DNA on her toothbrush, a first-generation Sonicare.
In the morning on her way in to work she thought she'd pay Ms. Frazier a visit at the coffee place. Later, she'd check in with Mr. Frazier. Then the girls, if need be. She probably had enough for
Spirit Hunters
to play her part of the representative from the sheriff's department.
Before she climbed into bed she loaded the DVR player with the DVD that the producers had included in the press kit. It was the story of a supposedly haunted house in Ocean Park, California. Wyatt Ogilvie was his blowhard self, so puffed up with his own importance that he didn't seem to even acknowledge that he was on the show to “uncover” the truth. The poor interview subjects had barely a moment to get a word in edgewise. He prattled on about how he'd solved this and that, how he'd bucked the system, how he was the original phoenix rising from the ashes of a life torched by haters and pointy-headed academics.
“I'm here for one damn reason only,” he told a woman who thought that the hauntings were caused by her father's spirit, a man who'd died in a tragic train accident. “I'm here for the damn truth! I want to put a stop to your father's suffering and the pain that he feels every moment of eternity.”
The woman started to cry.
“I don't know what Pandora is going to find here, but even I feel his presence,” he said. “He's here roaming the halls, looking for justice.”
“He can't roam,” the woman said. “He has no legs. They were severed by the train.”
“Pandora tells me that's a lot of bunk. In the spirit world everyone is young and whole, healthy and beautiful.”
In the next scene Pandora, her mane flowing from what had to be an electric fan, came through the house. Her face contorted and she held her hands up high.
You're under arrest for bad acting
, Kendall thought.
“Damn you!” she said. “I get it! You're pissed. You're angry! You need to leave here and go to the other side. Your legs are there. The rest of you is waiting. Go now!”
Pandora jerked and looked at the cameraman who followed her from room to room. “Did you see that?” she asked, her eyes round and mouth painted in a red slash of lipstick, open to its widest.
The cameraman didn't speak. In the preamble to the show, the producers indicate that he cannot say or do anything that might affect the energy of what is occurring when Pandora is doing her jobâreaching out to the other side.
It occurred to Kendall that if the cameraman was being shown in the clip, then there was another filming him. So much for the control measures promised by the producers.
“I want you to stop it now,” Pandora said, appearing to speak to someone right in front of her. “I don't care what happened to you. You need to get a grip, damn it, and leave your daughter alone. She's in pain here. You are making me really, really mad, sir. I want you gone. I want you gone right now.”
Then she let out a scream and fell to the floor. The camera went black. A beat later, one of the producers appeared outside the house.
“We don't know what just happened in there,” said the young woman, who Kendall guessed was Juliana Robbinsâthe sound of her voice coupled with the slight impatience of a New York accent being her primary clues. “I want our viewers to know that Pandora is going to be all right. She's being checked out by our medical team right now. And from what I'm hearing, she's experienced only some minor scrapes and bumps. She insists that she needs to go on. She needs to fight the entity that she now feels is not the homeowner's father, but someone else. Someone who is consumed by rage and may in fact be holding several spirits prisonerâincluding some children.”
Jeesh. Is this over the top. Way over
, Kendall thought.
Who believes this crap anyway?
Kendall fast-forwarded to the end.
The screen read: The Showdown.
Pandora stood at the top of the stairs holding a candle. The light from its flame flickered on her face as she contorted and spun around in a circle. Her breathing was either very loud, or the sound mixer had amped it up during post-production. It was all very, very dramatic.
“You can kill me, sir. I don't care because if you do, I will come after you with an army of spirits and you will go back into the hellhole from which you came. Take me on. I
bleep
dare you. I
bleep bleep
double dare you. You weren't a real man in the real world and you're a pussy in the afterlife. You don't want me to come after you. Trust me. No one wants that. But I'm
bleep
ready!”
With that the candle went out and there was a scream. A bloodcurdling scream. It was so authentic that it actually sent a chill down Kendall's spine. She hoped Cody didn't hear it.
In the next scene all the principals were seated around the family's kitchen table. Pandora looked like she'd been through hell. Her eyes were bloodshot and her hands shook as she sipped her coffee.
Wyatt Ogilvie spoke first.
“
Spirit Hunters
is about a lot of things, but not this. Not this kind of a war we had here last night. Pandy is lucky to be alive. We're all lucky to be alive.”
Finally Pandora spoke. “Luck has nothing to do with it, Wyatt. We're alive because I was willing to fight to the death to get to the truth of what happened here. I'm convinced now that the evil entity in your house was your father.”
She looked at the woman across the table. Her eyes were raining tears.
“The children were his victims. I'm sorry to say, but your father was a child molester. He raped and murdered those babies over most of his life.”
“I . . . I . . .” The woman didn't know what to say. “I thought he died in a train accident and that he was here because he needed us.”
“No,” she said. “He was here because this is where he kept his victims, trapped for eternity. Trapped for all time. Trapped until someoneâin this case meâcame here to free them all and put him inside the gates of hell where he will rot and burn forever.”
“My dad loved kids,” the woman, now in full-on cry.
“Yes. Loved them for sex and torture,” Pandora said. “Only when you wise up and come to grips with what happened here tonightâand only if you doâwill you ever find peace for yourself and your family.”
Pandora turned to her partner in crime. “Wyatt, let's go. This place sickens me.”
“Me too. Nothing more to be done here.”
Kendall was so appalled by what she saw that she got on her iPad and searched the Internet for the woman's name. There were a lot of hits. Many were from fan sites and, of course, YouTube clips featuring bits of the show. A coupleâone from a newspaper and one from a mom bloggerâcaught Kendall's eye.
âSPIRIT HUNTERS' COURT CASE TOSSED OUT
An Ocean City woman who sued a reality show for portraying her father as a child molester has been left holding the bag. Her contract with the production company for the show “Spirit Hunters” doesn't allow any recourse for the productions they make.
“These people are good,” Richard Button, the lawyer for the woman said. “They know how to write an ironclad contract. We didn't think we had a shot, but my client was so upset by the turn of events and the way the show twisted everything she'd said and done into something very ugly, she wanted to at least try to have her day in court.”
There will be no appeal.
The next one was from a blog called Live & Learn. It was written by a consortium of mommy bloggers who took on the minutiae of life (how to make dryer sheets from scented paper towels, and a recipe for making fat-free tortilla chips with tortillas, cooking spray, and a microwave oven). Moms, Kendall knew, were always busy, and while she didn't need to know how to do either of those things, she didn't feel sorry for or superior to those who did.
The entry that led her there had nothing to do with any of those things at all. It was nothing about household tips, how to fix a daughter's broken heart, or how to ask for a raise from a skinflint boss.
Instead, the piece that provided the hit was written by a woman named Missy Moore Thanever from Nova Scotia, Canada:
I have no one to blame but myself for this debacle. I was stupid enough to believe the producers when they told me they were truth seekers and they believed that the washed-up cop and the psychic were really going to help. Stupid me. I dabbled with the tarot. I've had my palm read a time or two . . . and honestly, the things I learned were spot-on. That's my full disclosure.
Here's what happened. My little boy and his uncle went fishing two years ago. Charlie was six at the time. His uncle was a good guy and my husband and I trusted himâhe's my brother so why wouldn't I trust Mickey? They went at first light to catch the tide out at the lighthouse not far from our house. I got up and gave them both a hug (and a kiss for Charlie), and off they went. Five hours later, my brother turned up on our doorstep. He was a complete wreck, shaking, crying, everything. I didn't have to ask. I knew something was wrong. I knew it. Sometimes I think I'm psychic because I had a little bad feeling that morning too. He told us what happened and, of course, our world was shattered. He said that Charlie was fishing from the bow when a rogue wave looped over the top of him and pulled him into the Atlantic. Mickey dove in and went after him, but he couldn't find him. No one ever did.
If you've lost a baby, then you know how I felt then and how I feel now. It just doesn't go away.
That was six years ago. After Charlie disappeared in the sea, people reported strange goings-on at the lighthouse. The lamp would go off and have to be started over and over. It got so bad that the lighthouse keeper who stayed there for sixteen years, because it was such an easy job with cool living spaces, up and quit. He told friends that he thought the place was haunted and he said all the trouble started a few weeks after Charlie's accident.
Enter
Spirit Hunters
. I wrote to them, so the fault for what followed, I guess, is mine. They make you feel that way, that's for sure. At first they act so nice and so sincere that you really do believe that they have your best interests at heart. I knew the cop on the show had some trouble in the past, but that made me like him even more. It was like he had something to prove and that was going to make him work harder. And about Pandora. What can I say that others who have written to me haven't? Besides, contractually, you can't say much of anything at all. You don't even get to meet her until after the sit-down at the end when they give you the big revealâwhich incidentally was held in the cramped quarters of the lighthouse for what I presume was for maximum drama. Nothing better than a lighthouse in the middle of the nightâor in this case early, early morning.
Okay, so it was me and my husband, my brother, and our eight-year-old daughter. Since I can't say much I hope you can read between the lines here. I'm considering this a warning to any of you. If you watch the clip, I can recap what aired. Basically Pandora told me that my daughter (leaving her name out here, for obvious reasons) was behind everything. She was only a two-year-old at the time, but according to Pandora, her jealousy of her brother getting to go fishing fueled a dark rage inside of her.
My daughter has no dark rage, though now she's in therapy for what happened and how some bloggers have called her the Bad Seed of Nova Scotia. I am crying now as I type this because I hurt so much for her. She didn't deserve any of this. I brought it on because I missed Charlie so much.
On the show, Pandora turned to my daughter and screamed at her that she “knew what evil lives inside” of her. In shock, my eight-year-old ran from the table crying to her bedroom.
Pandora smiled. My husband and I were stunned. But with the cameras rolling, there was some kind of weird control over us. It was like we didn't want to ruin their TV show because the producers had been so nice, the cop seemed to care, and the medium flat out said to me that her abilities at ferreting out the truth were the greatest the world had ever known.
“The girl needs therapy. She has to get help. Her envy manifested itself into that rogue wave.”
We just sat there.
The producer, Juliana, pulled out a drawing that a forensic artist somewhere in town had completed under Pandora's direction. I wondered who that artist was. I didn't know we had any in NS. The drawing was a picture of my boy on the bow of that boat; the wave had morphed into a claw-like hand and was ready to grab him and pull him under.
We didn't say a word. At least my husband and I didn't. Mickey spoke up, saying this was the biggest piece of crap he'd ever been a part of, but they didn't air that bit. Instead they closed the show with Pandora's response.
“The truth is painful sometimes. Now you can go on with your lives. Get your daughter some help, or any one of you could be next.”
I finally found my voice and yelled at them about taking advantage of people, putting something so nasty on the shoulders of a little girl who had done nothing to deserve it, but they cut that out too.
They'll probably look very closely at this site. So I had my lawyer look at it. He says I'm good. Here's the final tidbit and I'll not comment on it but instead link to it. This is a video clip taken by the lighthouse's security camera that night. It shows Pandora, a producer, and the cop Wyatt Ogilvie standing around smoking by the lighthouse door.