Authors: Derek Walcott
clouds plump as dough grew fragrant as the long ovals
of crusting bread drawn out of a Creole oven
by spatulas longer than oars. The sunlight stuck
to his cheek, then ran down like salt butter
in the mouths of the loaves. Hunger gnawed his stomach
as he marched back to the gate. It was shut, but the
guard opened it again for him. He had to make
the bakery before they went, the wicker-woven
baskets emptied quickly; sometimes they’d be gone
before he and Maud got there. His Bread of Heaven
laced with salt butter, his private communion.
She was at the church door. He honked, hurrying her in.
III
Maud held the warm bag against her stomach and she
slapped his hand when it fumbled towards the package
of pointed loaves. “Pig.” She smiled and stung his raw knee
with a slap, turning away in pretended rage
when he squeezed her thigh. “Dennis! I’ve just come from
church! Here. Why don’t you squeeze one of these tits instead?”
By the time they crossed the wickered road to the farm
he had devoured two loaves of the fragrant bread
sunlit by the butter which he always carried.
Despite that morning’s near-accident, the old Rover
sailed under the surf of threshing palms and his heart
hummed like its old engine, his wanderings over,
like the freighter rusting on its capstans. The heat
was wide now and the shadows blacker in the rows
of Maud’s garden beds. Their fragrance did not draw her.
She smelt mortality in the oleanders
as well as the orchids; in the funeral-parlour
reek of stale water in vases. She went upstairs.
She didn’t garden that morning. Sick of flowers.
Their common example of bodily decay,
from the brown old age of bridal magnolias
to the sunflower’s empire that lasted a day.
By Bendemeer’s stream. Nature had not betrayed her,
she smiled, lying in her bed. On the sun-streaked floor
the sunflower’s dish, tracking the sun like radar,
altered the jalousies’ shadows till they meant more
than the rays they let in. The gold wheel frightened her.
Chapter LII
I
The morning Maud died he sat in the bay window,
watching the angel-hair blow gently from her face.
That wax rose pillowed there was his crown and wonder,
a breeze lifting the curtains like her bridal lace.
Seashells. Seychelles. The empire of cancer spread
across the wrinkled sheets. Loosened from their ribbon,
his fleet of letters sailed their mahogany bed
close to a Macaulay and a calf-bound Gibbon,
an empire’s bookends. His locket and his queen,
her golden knot his sovereign, and the covered keys
of the shawled piano she’d never play again.
She was his orb and sceptre, the shire of his peace,
the hedges aisling England, lanes ending in spires,
rooks that lift and scatter from oaks threshing like seas,
the black notes of sparrows on telegraph wires,
all these were in his letters, in the small brass-barred
chest next to her fingers, his voice was in each word.
She had been reading them in their carved double-bed.
That broke his grief. The Major stood, then staggered
to clutch the linen, burying his face inside her.
He rubbed their names against her stomach. “Maud, Maud,
it’s Dennis, love, Maud.” Then he stretched beside her,
as if they were statues on a stone tomb, so still
he heard the groan of a sun-expanded board
on the hot verandah, and from the roofs downhill
a bucket rattling for water, then the dry cardboard
rattle of breadfruit leaves on the bay-window sill.
II
Provinces, Protectorates, Colonies, Dominions,
Governors-General, black Knights, ostrich-plumed Viceroys,
deserts, jungles, hill-stations, all an empire’s zones,
lay spilled from a small tea-chest; felt-footed houseboys
on fern-soft verandahs, hearty Toby-jugged Chiefs
of Police, Girl-Guide Commissioners, Secretaries,
poppies on cenotaphs, green-spined Remembrance wreaths,
cornets, kettledrums, gum-chewing dromedaries
under Lawrence, parasols, palm-striped pavilions,
dhows and feluccas, native-draped paddle-ferries
on tea-brown rivers, statue-rehearsing lions,
sandstorms seaming their eyes, horizontal monsoons,
rank odour of a sea-chest, mimosa memories
touched by a finger, lead soldiers, clopping Dragoons.
Breadfruit hands on a wall. The statues close their eyes.
Mosquito nets, palm-fronds, scrolled Royal Carriages,
dacoits, gun-bearers, snarling apes on Gibraltar,
sermons to sweat-soaked kerchiefs, the Rock of Ages
pumped by a Zouave band, lilies light the altar,
soldiers and doxies by a splashing esplanade,
waves turning their sheet music, the yellowing teeth
of the parlour piano,
Airs from Erin
played
to the whistling kettle, and on the teapot’s head
the cozy’s bearskin shako, biscuits break with grief,
gold-braid laburnums, lilac whiff of lavender,
columned poplars marching to Mafeking’s relief.
Naughty seaside cards, the sepia surrender
of Gordon on the mantel, the steps of Khartoum,
The World’s Classics
condensed, Clive as brown as India,
bathers in Benares, an empire in costume.
His will be done, O Maud, His kingdom come,
as the sunflower turns, and the white eyes widen
in the ebony faces, the sloe-eyes, the bent smoke
where a pig totters across a village midden
over the sunset’s shambles, Rangoon to Malta,
the regimental button of the evening star.
Solace of laudanum, menstrual cramps, the runnings,
tinkles in the jordan, at dusk the zebra shade
of louvres on the quilt, the maps spread their warnings
and the tribal odour of the second chambermaid.
And every fortnight, ten sharp on Sunday mornings,
shouts and wheeling patterns from our Cadet Brigade.
All spilt from a tea-chest, a studded souvenir,
props for an opera, Victoria Regina,
for a bolster-plump Queen the pillbox sentries stamp,
piss, straw and saddle-soap, heaume and crimson feather,
post-red double-deckers, spit-and-polished leather,
and iron dolphins leaping round an Embankment lamp.
III
There was Plunkett in my father, much as there was
my mother in Maud. Not just the morning-glories
or our own verandah’s lilac bougainvilleas,
or the splayed hands of grape-leaves, of classic stories
on the barber’s wooden shelf, the closest, of course,
was Helen’s, but there in that khaki Ulysses
there was a changing shadow of Telemachus
in me, in his absent war, and an empire’s guilt
stitched in the one pattern of Maud’s fabulous quilt.
Chapter LIII
I
The Major stood straight as a mast without a sail
in the wooden waves of the pews. I turned my head
slowly, as we do at funerals, and saw the veil
that netted Helen’s beauty. Then I tried to read
from the gilt hymnal with its ribbon, but felt the mesh
of her veil brushing my nape, and its black hairs stirred
with the legend behind my back, the smoke made flesh,
the phantom singed by a beach-fire. All I had heard
flamed in that look, galleys drowned in its wake.
This was the seduction of quicksand, my deep fear
of vertiginous irises that could not help their work
any more than the earth’s fascination with fire
as it left the earth. An amen enclosed a hymn
and Plunkett’s amen steadied the wavering choir
in the echoing stone. Fans, like moths, stirred the air.
And in that gap before the Father’s injunction,
a smooth black priest with a smoother voice that pleased him
more than his listeners in its serene unction,
I felt the chasm that widened at Glen-da-Lough,
deep as a daisied trench, over the quilted bier,
the disenfranchisement no hyphenating rook
could connect between two religions, the one here
and that of our chapel. I turned around to look
at the black faces seized by faith and heard the whirr
of larches turning their missals, the Xeroxed sheets
that the Major had asked the priest to use in her
memory, for the midshipman, and the war’s fading fleets.
I recognized Achille. He stood next to Philoctete
in a rusted black suit, his eyes anchored to the pew;
then he lifted them and I saw that the eyes were wet
as those of a boy, and my eyes were watering too.
Why should he be here, why should they have come at all,
none of them following the words, but he had such grace
that I couldn’t bear it. I could leave the funeral,
but his wet ebony mask and her fishnetted face
were shrouded with Hector’s death. Could he, in that small
suit too tight at the shoulders, who shovelled the pens
in the rain at Plunkett’s, love him? Where was it from,
this charity of soul, more piercing than Helen’s
beauty? runnelling his face like the road to the farm?
We sang behind Plunkett, and I saw Achille perspire
over the words, his lips following after the sound.
II
I knew little about Maud Plunkett. I knew I was here
because the Major had trained us all as cadets.
What I shared with his wife we shared as gardeners.
I had wanted large green words to lie waxen on
the page’s skin, floating but rooted in its lymph as
her lilies in the pond’s cool mud, every ivory prong
spreading the Japanese peace of
Les Nympheas
in the tongue-still noon, the heat, where a wooden bridge
with narrow planks arched over the calligraphic
bamboo, their reflections rewritten when a midge
wrinkled the smoothness, and from them, the clear concentric
rings from a pebble, from the right noun on a page.
I was both there and not there. I was attending
the funeral of a character I’d created;
the fiction of her life needed a good ending
as much as mine; that night by the tasselled shade
with its oblong halo over her bowed hair sewing,
I had looked up from the green baize with the Major’s
face from the ornate desk to see light going
from her image, and that image was my mother’s,
whose death would be real, real as our knowing.
Join, interchangeable phantoms, expected pain
moves me towards ghosts, through this page’s scrim,
and the ghosts I will make of you with my scratching pen,
like a needle piercing the ring’s embroidery
with a swift’s beak, or where, like a nib from the rim
of an inkwell, a martin flickers a wing dry.
Plunkett’s falsetto soared like a black frigate-bird,
and shifted to a bass-cannon from his wattled throat,
Achille lowered his head for the way it circled
high over our pews, and I heard the brass bugle-note
of his khaki orders as we circled the Parade Ground,
and then the hymn ended. We watched the Major lift
his wife’s coffin hung with orchids, many she had found
in the blue smoke of Saltibus. Then Achille saw the swift
pinned to the orchids, but it was the image of a swift
which Maud had sewn into the silk draping her bier,
and not only the African swift but all the horned island’s
birds, bitterns and herons, silently screeching there.
III
When Plunkett passed, Achille looked at his red hands,
and the Major widened his eyes at him and Philoctete,
and nodded at Helen, who turned her black veil away,
and he saw her head shaking under the covering net.
Then the big shots passed, and every brown dignitary,
some with medals and ribbons, gave them a short smile
of gracious detachment, but with no special surprise
at their devotion. Achille waited till the aisle
emptied, the gilt missals were replaced in their pews,
then stood outside at the church door as the filled hearse
opened for the orchids and the bird-choked tapestry
straightened. I saw Helen, in that slow walk of hers,
come and lean next to him. She lifted the eyed veil,
and said: “I coming home.” Then he and Philoctete
walked with her to the transports near the Coal Market.
Chapter LIV
I
I saw him at the bank next day, moustache bristling,
white, irascible cockatoo hair, the red hands,
the mouth puckered forward, inaudibly whistling.
The man behind me said: “Collecting insurance.
So fast, boy?”
I turned and said, “Dat ain’t so funny.”
He stood behind the banana-farmers in line.
They smelt of wet earth, they smelt green as their money.
I thought of his own deposits, stinking of swine,
as he stood in his flaccid shorts, his khaki shirt
carrying a black armband, and I saw that he was
one with the farmers, transplanted to the rich dirt
of their valleys, a ginger-lily from the moss
of Troumasse River, a white, red-knuckled heron
in the reeds, who never wanted the privilege
that peasants, from habit, paid to his complexion.
He stood his turn in the queue, then at the cage
he bent to the teller’s bars, and I heard the old voice