Outlander Novella [01] The Space Between (12 page)

“And ye did tell her that?”

“Yes. I didna say how I knew, but I must have sounded like I
did
know, because her poor face got bright all of a sudden, and she grabbed on to my hands and said, ‘Oh! From your lips to God’s ear!’ ”

“And was she safely delivered of a son?”

“Aye—and a daughter, too.” Joan smiled, remembering the glow on Annie’s face.

Michael glanced aside at Sister Eustacia, who was bidding farewell to the new postulant’s family. The girl was white-faced and tears ran down her cheeks, but she clung to Sister Eustacia’s sleeve as though it were a lifeline.

“I see,” he said slowly, and looked back at Joan. “Is that why—is it the voices told ye to be a nun, then?”

She blinked, surprised by his apparent acceptance of what she’d told him but more so by the question.

“Well … no. They never did. Ye’d think they would have, wouldn’t ye?”

He smiled a little.

“Maybe so.” He coughed, then looked up, a little shyly. “It’s no my business, but what
did
make ye want to be a nun?”

She hesitated, but why not? She’d already told him the hardest bit.

“Because of the voices. I thought maybe—maybe I wouldna hear them in here. Or … if I still did, maybe somebody—a priest, maybe?—could tell me what they were and what I should do about them.”

Sister Eustacia was comforting the new girl, half-sunk on one knee to bring her big, homely, sweet face close to the girl’s. Michael glanced at them, then back at Joan, one eyebrow raised.

“I’m guessing ye havena told anyone yet,” he said. “Did ye reckon ye’d practice on me first?”

Her own mouth twitched.

“Maybe.” His eyes were dark but had a sort of warmth to them, as if they drew it from the heat of his hair. She looked down; her hands were pleating the edge of her blouse, which had come untucked. “It’s no just that, though.”

He made the sort of noise in his throat that meant,
“Aye, then, go on.”
Why didn’t French people do like that? she wondered. So much easier. But she pushed the thought aside; she’d made up her mind to tell him, and now was the time to do it.

“I told ye because—that man,” she blurted. “The Comte.” He squinted at her. “The Comte St. Germain?”

“Well, I dinna ken his name, now, do I?” she snapped. “But when I saw him, one of the voices pops up and says to me, ‘
Tell him not to do it. Tell him he must not.
’ ”

“It did?”

“Aye, and it was verra firm about it. I mean—they are, usually. It’s no just an opinion, take it or leave it. But this one truly meant it.” She spread her hands, helpless to explain the feeling of dread and urgency. She swallowed.

“And then … your friend. Monsieur Pépin. The first time I saw him, one o’ the voices said ‘
Tell him not to do it.
’ ”

Michael’s thick red eyebrows drew together.

“D’ye think it’s the same thing they’re not supposed to do?” He sounded startled. “Well, I don’t know, now, do I?” she said, a little exasperated. “The voices didn’t say. But I saw that the man on the ship was going to die, and I didna say anything, because I couldn’t think what to say. And then he
did
die, and maybe he wouldn’t have if I’d spoken … so I—well, I thought I’d best say something to
someone
.”

He thought about that for a moment, then nodded uncertainly.

“Aye. All right. I’ll—well, I dinna ken what to do about it, either, to be honest. But I’ll talk to them both and I’ll have that in my mind, so maybe I’ll think of something. D’ye want me to tell them, ‘
Don’t do it
’?”

She grimaced and looked at Sister Eustacia. There wasn’t much time.

“I already told the comte. Just … maybe. If ye think it might help. Now—” Her hand darted under her apron and she passed him the slip of paper, fast. “We’re only allowed to write to our families twice a year,” she said, lowering her voice. “But I wanted Mam to know I was all right. Could ye see she gets that, please? And … and maybe tell her a bit, yourself, that I’m weel and—and happy. Tell her I’m happy,” she repeated, more firmly.

Sister Eustacia was now standing by the door, emanating an intent to come and tell them it was time for Michael to leave.

“I will,” he said. He couldn’t touch her, he knew that, so bowed instead and bowed deeply to Sister Eustacia, who came toward them, looking benevolent.

“I’ll come to Mass at the chapel on Sundays, how’s that?” he said rapidly. “If I’ve a letter from your mam, or ye have to speak to me, gie me a wee roll of the eyes or something—I’ll figure something out.”

* * *

Twenty-four hours later, Sister Gregory, postulant in the Convent of Angels, regarded the bum of a large cow. The cow in question was named Mirabeau and was of uncertain temper, as evidenced by the nervously lashing tail.

“She’s kicked three of us this week,” said Sister Anne-Joseph, eyeing the cow resentfully. “
And
spilt the milk twice. Sister Jeanne-Marie was most upset.”

“Well, we canna have that, now, can we?” Joan murmured in English.
“N’inquiétez-vous pas,”
she added in French, hoping that was at least somewhat grammatical. “Let me do it.”

“Better you than me,” Sister Anne-Joseph said, crossing herself, and vanished before Sister Joan might think better of the offer.

A week spent working in the cowshed was intended as punishment for her flighty behavior in the marketplace, but Joan was grateful for it. There was nothing better for steadying the nerves than cows.

Granted, the convent’s cows were not quite like her mother’s sweet-tempered, shaggy red Hieland coos, but if you came right down to it, a cow was a cow, and even a French-speaking wee besom like the present Mirabeau was no match for Joan MacKimmie, who’d driven kine to and from the shielings for years and fed her mother’s kine in the byre beside the house with
sweet hay and the leavings from supper.

With that in mind, she circled Mirabeau thoughtfully, eyeing the steadily champing jaws and the long slick of blackish-green drool that hung down from slack pink lips. She nodded once, slipped out of the cowshed, and made her way down the allée behind it, picking what she could find. Mirabeau, presented with a bouquet of fresh grasses, tiny daisies, and—delicacy of all delicacies—fresh sorrel, bulged her eyes half out of her head, opened her massive jaw, and inhaled the sweet stuff. The ominous tail ceased its lashing and the massive creature stood as if turned to stone, aside from the ecstatically grinding jaws.

Joan sighed in satisfaction, sat down, and, resting her head on Mirabeau’s monstrous flank, got down to business. Her mind, released, took up the next worry of the day.

Had Michael spoken to his friend Pépin? And if so, had he told him what she’d said, or just asked whether he kent the Comte St. Germain? Because if
“tell him not to do it”
referred to the same thing, then plainly the two men must be acquent with each other.

She had got thus far in her own ruminations when Mirabeau’s tail began to switch again. She hurriedly stripped the last of the milk from Mirabeau’s teats and snatched the bucket out of the way, standing up in a hurry. Then she saw what had disturbed the cow.

The man in the dove-gray coat was standing in the door to the shed, watching her. She hadn’t noticed before, in the market, but he had a handsome dark face, though rather hard about the eyes, and with a chin that brooked no opposition. He smiled pleasantly at her, though, and bowed.

“Mademoiselle. I must ask you, please, to come with me.”

* * *

Michael was in the warehouse, stripped to his shirtsleeves and sweating in the hot, wine-heady atmosphere, when Jared appeared, looking disturbed.

“What is it, cousin?” Michael wiped his face on a towel, leaving black streaks; the crew was clearing the racks on the southeast wall, and there were years of filth and cobwebs behind the most ancient casks.

“Ye haven’t got that wee nun in your bed, have ye, Michael?” Jared lifted a beetling gray brow at him.

“Have I what?”

“I’ve just had a message from the Mother Superior of le Couvent des Anges, saying that one Sister Gregory appears to have been abducted from their cowshed, and wanting to know whether you might possibly have anything to do with the matter.”

Michael stared at his cousin for a moment, unable to take this in.

“Abducted?” he said stupidly. “Who would be kidnapping a nun? What for?”

“Well, now, there ye have me.” Jared was carrying Michael’s coat over his arm and at this point handed it to him. “But maybe best ye go to the convent and find out.”

* * *

“Forgive me, Mother,” Michael said carefully. Mother Hildegarde looked as though a breath would make her roll across the floor, wizened as a winter apple. “Did ye think … is it possible that Sister J—Sister Gregory might have … left of her own accord?”

The old nun gave him a look that revised his opinion of her state of health instantly.

“We did,” she said dryly. “It happens. However”—she raised a sticklike finger—“one: there were signs of a considerable struggle in the cowshed. A full bucket of milk not merely spilt but apparently
thrown
at something, the manger overturned, the door left open, and two of the cows escaped into the herb garden.” Another finger. “Two: had Sister Gregory experienced doubt regarding her vocation, she was quite free to leave the convent after speaking with me, and she knew that.”

One more finger, and the old nun’s black eyes bored into his. “And three: had she felt it necessary to leave suddenly and without informing us, where would she go? To you, Monsieur Murray. She knows no one else in Paris, does she?”

“I—well, no, not really.” He was flustered, almost stammering, confusion and a burgeoning alarm for Joan making it difficult to think.

“But you have not seen her since you brought us the chalice and paten—and I thank you and your cousin with the deepest sentiments of gratitude, monsieur—which would be yesterday afternoon?”

“No.” He shook his head, trying to clear it. “No, Mother.”

Mother Hildegarde nodded, her lips nearly invisible, pressed together amid the lines of her face.

“Did she say anything to you on that occasion? Anything that might assist us in discovering her?”

“I—well …” Jesus, should he tell her what Joan had said about the voices she heard? It couldn’t have anything to do with this, surely, and it wasna his secret to share. On the other hand, Joan
had
said she meant to tell Mother Hildegarde about them …

“You’d better tell me, my son.” The reverend mother’s voice was somewhere between resignation and command. “I see she told you
something
.”

“Well, she did, then, Mother,” he said, rubbing a hand over his face in distraction. “But I canna see how it has anything to do—she hears voices,” he blurted, seeing Mother Hildegarde’s eyes narrow dangerously.

The eyes went round.

“She what?”

“Voices,” he said helplessly. “They come and say things to her. She thinks maybe they’re angels, but she doesn’t know. And she can see when folk are going to die. Sometimes,” he added dubiously. “I don’t know whether she can always say.”

“Par le sang sacré de Jésus Christ,”
the old nun said, sitting up straight as an oak sapling. “Why did she not—well, never mind about that. Does anyone else know this?”

He shook his head. “She was afraid to tell anyone. That’s why—well, one reason why—she came to the convent. She thought you might believe her.”

“I might,” Mother Hildegarde said dryly. She shook her head rapidly, making her veil flap. “
Nom de Dieu!
Why did her mother not tell me this?”

“Her mother?” Michael said stupidly.

“Yes! She brought me a letter from her mother, very kind, asking after my health and recommending Joan to me—but surely her mother would have known!”

“I don’t think she—wait.” He remembered Joan fishing out the carefully folded note from her pocket. “The letter she brought—it was from Claire Fraser. That’s the one you mean?”

“Of course!”

He took a deep breath, a dozen disconnected pieces falling suddenly into a pattern. He cleared his throat and raised a tentative finger.

“One, Mother: Claire Fraser is the wife of Joan’s stepfather. But she’s not Joan’s mother.”

The sharp black eyes blinked once.

“And two: my cousin Jared tells me that Claire Fraser was known as a—a White Lady, when she lived in Paris many years ago.”

Mother Hildegarde clicked her tongue angrily.

“She was no such thing. Stuff! But it is true that there was a common rumor to that effect,” she admitted grudgingly. She drummed her fingers on the desk; they were knobbed with age but surprisingly nimble, and he remembered that Mother Hildegarde was a musician.

“Mother …”

“Yes?”

“I don’t know if it has anything to do—do you know of a man called the Comte St. Germain?”

The old nun was already the color of parchment; at this, she went white as bone and her
fingers gripped the edge of the desk.

“I do,” she said. “Tell me—and quickly—what he has to do with Sister Gregory.”

* * *

Joan gave the very solid door one last kick, for form’s sake, then turned and collapsed with her back against it, panting. The room was huge, extending across the entire top floor of the house, though pillars and joists here and there showed where walls had been knocked down. It smelled peculiar and looked even more peculiar.

“Blessed Michael, protect me,” she whispered to herself, reverting to the Gaelic in her agitation. There was a very fancy bed in one corner, piled with feather pillows and bolsters, with writhing corner posts and heavy swags and curtains of cloth embroidered in what looked like gold and silver thread. Did the comte—he’d told her his name, or at least his title, when she asked—haul young women up here for wicked ends on a regular basis? For surely he hadn’t set up this establishment solely in anticipation of her arrival—the area near the bed was equipped with all kinds of solid, shiny furniture with marble tops and alarming gilt feet that looked like they’d come off some kind of beast or bird with great curving claws.