Peony in Love (34 page)

“Look at him, Ze. Do you really want to hurt him again?”

Her shoulders slumped. “I let our husband take credit for what we did with
The Peony Pavilion,
” she admitted, “because I wanted him to love me.”

“He did love you. You should have seen the way he mourned.”

But she wasn’t listening to me. “I thought I could beat you in death. My husband and our new sister-wife made offerings to me, but you know this family has always been insignificant.” I waited, knowing the word she would use next. “Mediocre. Fortunately, I had my father to buy me out of the Blood-Gathering Lake, but once I was free, what did I find?” She pulled at her hair. “A new wife!”

“And look what she did for you—for both of us. She heard our words. You were in the margins of
The Peony Pavilion
as much as I was. And you helped Yi with part two. Don’t deny it.” I moved closer to Ze. “Our sister-wife helped Ren to see he could love us all—differently but completely. Our project is going to be published. Isn’t it a miracle? We’re
all
going to be remembered and honored.”

As Ze’s tears began to flow, the ugliness of years spent in the Blood-Gathering Lake washed away, as did her anger, bitterness, spite, and selfishness. Those emotions—so persistent and strong—had followed her into death. They’d covered her terrible unhappiness. Now defeat, sadness, and loneliness oozed out of her like worms from the ground after a spring rain until Ze’s true essence—the pretty girl who inhabited her dreams and longed to be loved—appeared. She was not a demon or a ghost at all. She was at once a brokenhearted ancestor and, at last, a true lovesick maiden.

I called on the inner strength of my mother and grandmother, reached out, and put my arm around Ze. I didn’t let her argue. I just pulled her with me, skirting around Willow’s sweeping, avoiding the mirrors, and slipping past the sieve. Ze and I went outside, and then I released her. She floated above me for a few seconds; then she turned her face skyward and slowly disappeared.

I went back inside and watched with great joy as Yi’s lungs emptied of fluids, she gasped for breath, and Ren sobbed in gratitude.

Shimmering

THE THREE WIVES’ COMMENTARY
WAS PUBLISHED AT THE
end of winter in the thirty-second year of Emperor Kangxi’s reign in what would have been my forty-fifth year in the earthly realm. It was an immediate and enormous success. To my amazement and unabashed delight, my name—and those of my sister-wives—became known across the country. Collectors like my father sought out my book as something unique and special. Libraries purchased it for their shelves. It went into elite homes, where women read it again and again. They cried at my loneliness and my insights. They wept over their own lost, burned, or forgotten words. They sighed for the things they wished they’d written, about spring love and autumn regrets.

Pretty soon their husbands, brothers, and sons picked up the book and read it too. Their interpretation and experience of it was completely different. What could make a man feel more like a man than the idea that another man’s work had attracted and mesmerized women—not just the three of us, but all the lovesick maidens—to such an extent that we’d stopped eating, pined away, and died? It made them feel strong and superior and helped restore to them more of their lost manliness.

When New Year’s Eve arrived, Yi joined the family to clean, make offerings, and pay debts, but I could see her mind was elsewhere. As soon as those duties were done, she scurried through the compound to the room where my dummy bride was kept. She entered the room, hesitated for a minute, and then she reached into her skirt, pulled out a knife—a forbidden object in the days leading up to the New Year—and knelt next to the dummy. I watched in shock as she cut off the dummy’s face. She removed the clothes, put them in a neat pile, and then carefully sliced open the dummy’s stomach.

My emotions were thrown into tumult: I had no idea why she wanted to harm my dummy, and Ren would be furious if he found out, but if she pulled out my ancestor tablet she would see what was missing. I hovered next to her, with hope surging through me. Yi reached into the body and extracted the tablet. She quickly brushed away the straw and left the room with my tablet and the painted face. But she hadn’t really
looked
at the tablet.

She stepped down from the corridor and into the garden, and then made her way to the plum tree where I lived. She set the tablet on the ground and then went back to her room. She returned with a small table. She went away again. This time she came back with one of the commercially produced copies of
The Three Wives’ Commentary,
a vase, and some other items. She put my tablet and portrait on the table, lit candles, and then made offerings of
The Commentary,
fruit, and wine. And then she worshipped me as an ancestor.

What I mean is, I
thought
she worshipped me as an ancestor.

Ren stepped out onto a balcony and saw his wife making supplication.

“What are you doing?” he called down to her.

“It’s the New Year. We’ve made offerings to others in your family. I wanted to give thanks to Liniang. Think how she has inspired me…and your other wives.”

He laughed at her simple ways. “You can’t worship an imaginary character!”

She bristled. “The spirit of the cosmos dwells in everything. Even a stone may serve as the home of a creature; even a tree may serve as the dwelling of a spirit.”

“But Tang Xianzu himself said Liniang never existed. So why do you make offerings to her?”

“How can you or I judge whether Liniang existed or not?”

It was New Year’s Eve, a time when no arguing should occur for fear it will upset the ancestors, so he gave in. “You’re right. I’m wrong. Now come up here and join me for tea. I’d like to read to you what I wrote today.”

He was too far away to see the face painted on the piece of paper or what was inscribed on my tablet, and he didn’t ask where she’d found these objects to substitute for Liniang.

Later, Yi returned to the plum tree to put away the things she’d brought out. I watched sadly as she carefully sewed my tablet back inside the dummy, dressed it, and arranged the paper face so it looked exactly as it had before the ceremony. I tried to fight my disappointment, but I was devastated…again.

It was time for her to know about me. I was the one who’d helped her, not Liniang. I remembered what Yi had written in the margins of the opera:
A ghost is merely a dream and a dream is nothing but a ghost.
This sentiment convinced me that the only way I was certain not to frighten her was to meet her in a dream.

That night, as soon as Yi fell asleep and began roaming, I stepped into her dream garden, which I instantly recognized as the one from Liniang’s dream. Peonies bloomed all around me. I walked to the Peony Pavilion and waited. When Yi arrived and I revealed myself, she did not scream or run away. In her eyes, I was dazzlingly beautiful.

“Are you Liniang?” she asked.

I smiled at her, but before I could tell her who I was a new figure appeared. It was Ren. We had not met this way since I first died. We stared at each other, unable to speak, overcome by emotion. It was as if no time had passed. My love for him permeated the air around us, but Yi was there and I was afraid to speak. He glanced at my sister-wife and then back to me. He too was hesitant to say anything, but his eyes were filled with love.

I picked a sprig from the plum tree and handed it to him. Remembering how Liniang’s dream had ended, I whirled away in a whoosh, scooping up all the petals from the garden and then letting them cascade on Ren and Yi. Tomorrow night, I would enter Yi’s dream again. I’d be ready if and when Ren came. I would find my voice and tell him…

In the earthly realm, Ren woke up. Next to him, Yi’s breathing caught and then caught again. He shook her shoulder.

“Wake up! Wake up!”

Yi opened her eyes, but before he could say anything she hurriedly told him of her dream.

“I told you Liniang existed,” she said happily.

“I just had the same dream,” he said. “But that wasn’t Liniang.” He grasped her hands and asked urgently, “Where did you get the tablet to use in your ceremony yesterday?”

She shook her head and tried to pull away her hands, but he held them tight.

“I won’t be angry,” he said. “Tell me.”

“I didn’t take it from your family altar,” she admitted softly. “It wasn’t one of your aunts or—”

“Yi, please! Tell me!”

“I wanted to use a tablet for someone whom I thought best represented Liniang and her lovesickness.” Seeing his intensity, Yi bit her lip. Then finally she confessed. “I took the tablet from your Peony, but I put it back. Don’t be angry with me.”

“That was Peony in your dream,” he said, quickly getting out of bed and grabbing a robe. “You called her to you.”

“Husband—”

“I’m telling you it was her. She couldn’t visit you like that if she were an ancestor. She has to be…”

Yi started to get up.

“Stay here,” he ordered.

Without another word, he left the bedchamber and ran down the corridor to the room that housed my dummy. He knelt beside it and put his hand over where my heart would have been. He stayed that way for a long time and then slowly—as slowly as a groom on his wedding night—he unbuttoned the frogs that held closed my wedding tunic. Never once did he take his eyes away from the dummy’s eyes, and never once did I look away from him. He was older now. Gray hair salted his temples and permanent creases etched the skin near his eyes, but to me he would always be man-beautiful. His hands were still long and thin. His movements were still languid and graceful. I loved him for the joy and happiness he’d brought me as a girl living in the Chen Family Villa and for the love and loyalty he’d shown Ze and Yi.

When the dummy’s muslin body was exposed, he sat back on his heels, scanned the room, but didn’t see what he needed. He felt his pockets and found nothing. He took a breath, reached down, and ripped open the dummy’s stomach. He pulled out my tablet, held it before him for a moment, and then wet his thumb with his tongue and used the moistness to wipe away the dirt. When he saw no dot, he clutched the tablet to his chest and hung his head. I knelt before him. I’d suffered twenty-nine years as a hungry ghost, and now looking up at him, I saw those years play out across his features in seconds as he guessed at the tortures of my existence.

He rose, took the tablet with him to his library, and called for Willow.

“Tell Cook to slaughter a rooster,” he ordered brusquely. “When she’s done, bring me the blood immediately.”

Willow didn’t question this. As she passed me on her way out of the room, I began to weep in relief and gratitude. I’d waited so long to have my ancestor tablet dotted, I’d given up believing that it would ever happen.

Willow returned ten minutes later with a bowl of warm blood. Ren took it from her and dismissed her, and then he went to the table, set the bowl down, and made obeisance to my tablet. As he did this, something began to stir in me and a heavenly fragrance infused the room. Tears filled his eyes as he stood and dipped his brush in the blood. His hand was steady as he reached out and dotted my tablet just as Mengmei had done to prove his love for Liniang.

Instantly, I was no longer a hungry ghost. The soul that had been harbored in my ghostly form split in two. One part found its proper place in the tablet. From there I would be able to watch over my family from close proximity. The other part was once again free to continue on to the afterworld. I’d been resurrected—not to life, but
finally
and
fully
to Ren’s first wife. I’d returned to my rightful place in society, in my family, and in the cosmos.

I glowed—and with me the whole compound shimmered with happiness. And then I was floating away to complete my journey to become an ancestor. I looked back at Ren one last time. It would still be many years before my beautiful poet joined me in the plains of the afterworld. Until then, I would live for him in my writings.

Author’s Note

IN 2000, I WROTE A SHORT PIECE FOR
VOGUE
MAGAZINE ABOUT
Lincoln Center’s full-length production of
The Peony Pavilion.
While doing research for that article, I came across the lovesick maidens. They intrigued me, and long after I wrote the article I kept thinking about them. We usually hear that in the past there were no women writers, no women artists, no women historians, no women chefs, but of course women did these things. It’s just that too often what they did was lost, forgotten, or deliberately covered up. So when I had a moment here or there, I looked up whatever I could find about the lovesick maidens and came to learn that they were part of a much larger phenomenon.

In the mid-seventeenth century, more women writers were being published in China’s Yangzi delta than in all the rest of the world at that time. By that I mean there were
thousands
of women—bound-footed, often living in seclusion, from wealthy families—who were being published. Some families published a single poem written by a mother or daughter whom they wanted to commemorate or honor, but there were other women—professional women writers—who not only wrote for large public audiences but also supported their families with their written words. How could so many women have done something so extraordinary and I didn’t know about it? Why didn’t we
all
know? Then I came across
The Three Wives’ Commentary
—the first book of its kind to have been published anywhere in the world to have been written by women—three wives, no less. With that, my interest turned into an obsession.

There are several elements here—Tang Xianzu’s opera, the lovesick maidens, the history of
The Three Wives’ Commentary,
and the societal changes that allowed it to be written. I know they’re rather complicated and overlap a bit, so please bear with me.

TANG XIANZU SET
The Peony Pavilion
in the Song dynasty (960–1127), but he was writing about the Ming dynasty (1368–1644), a time of artistic ferment as well as political turmoil and corruption.

In 1598, with the completion of the opera, Tang became one of the most important promoters of
qing
—deep emotions and sentimental love. Like all good writers, Tang wrote what he knew, but that didn’t mean the government necessarily wanted to hear it. Almost immediately, different groups advocated for the opera’s censorship, because it was considered too political and too lascivious. New versions appeared in quick succession, until eventually only a paltry eight out of the original fifty-five scenes were performed. The text suffered even worse treatment. Some versions were abridged, while others were revised or totally rewritten to fit society’s changing mores.

In 1780, during the Qianlong reign, opposition to the opera escalated and it was blacklisted as “profane.” But it wasn’t until 1868 that the Tongzhi emperor issued the first official ban, labeling
The Peony Pavilion
debauched and ordering all copies burned and all productions forbidden.

Censorship of the opera has continued right up to today. The Lincoln Center production was temporarily delayed when the Chinese government discovered the content of the restored scenes and barred the actors, costumes, and sets from leaving the country, showing once again that the more things change, the more they remain the same.

Apart from sexual liaisons between two unmarried people and criticism of the government—both serious in their own ways, I suppose—why has the opera been so upsetting?
The Peony Pavilion
was the first piece of fiction in the history of China in which the heroine—a girl of sixteen—chose her own destiny, and that was both shocking and thrilling. It entranced and fascinated women, who, with rare exceptions, were allowed to read the opera but never see or hear it. The passion this work aroused has been compared to the fanaticism for Goethe’s
Werther
in eighteenth-century Europe or more recently, in the United States, for
Gone With the Wind.
In China, young educated women from wealthy families—typically between the ages of thirteen and sixteen and with their marriages already arranged—were particularly susceptible to the story. Believing that life imitates art, they copied Liniang: They gave up food, wasted away, and died, all in hopes that somehow in death they might be able to choose their destinies, just as the ghost of Liniang had.

No one knows for sure what killed the lovesick maidens, but it may have been self-starvation. We tend to think of anorexia as a modern problem, but it isn’t. Whether it was female saints in the Middle Ages, lovesick maidens in seventeenth-century China, or adolescent girls today, women have had a need for some small measure of autonomy. As scholar Rudolph Bell has explained, by starving themselves young women are able to shift the contest from the outer world—in which they have no control over their fates and face seemingly sure defeat—to an inner struggle to achieve mastery over themselves and their bodily urges. As the lovesick maidens were dying, many of them—including Xiaoqing and Yu Niang, who appear in this story—wrote poems that were published after their deaths.

But these writing women—whether lovesick maidens or members of the Banana Garden Five—didn’t just appear, and later disappear, in a vacuum. China underwent a dynastic change in the mid-seventeenth century, when the Ming dynasty fell and Manchu invaders from the north established the Qing dynasty. For about thirty years, the country was in chaos. The old regime had been corrupt. The war had been brutal. (In Yangzhou, where Peony’s grandmother died, 80,000 people were reputed to have been killed.) Many people lost their homes. Men were humiliated and forced to shave their foreheads as a symbol of subservience to the new emperor. Under the new regime, the imperial scholar system faltered, so that the way men had traditionally gained prestige, riches, and power suddenly had no value. Men from the highest levels of society retreated from the government and from scholarly life to take up rock collecting, poetry writing, tea tasting, and incense burning.

Women, who were pretty low on the totem pole to begin with, suffered greater hardship. Some were traded and sold “by weight, like fish,” and pound for pound had less value than salt. Many—like the real Xiaoqing or like Willow in the novel—became “thin horses” and were sold as concubines. But some women had very different and much better destinies. With so much else to worry about, men left the front gate open and women, who had long lived in seclusion, went out. They became professional writers, artists, archers, historians, and adventurers. Other women—in what might be considered an early form of the book group—gathered together to write poetry, read books, and discuss ideas. The members of the Banana Garden Five (and later Seven), for example, went on excursions, wrote what they saw and experienced, and were still considered fine, noble, proud, and upstanding women. Their success couldn’t have happened without the growth in female literacy, a healthy economy, mass printing facilities, and a male populace that was, for the most part, distracted.

But not all this writing was happy or celebratory. Some women, like Peony’s mother, left poems on walls that then became popular among the literati for their sadness and for the voyeuristic curiosity of reading someone’s thoughts near the moment of death. These, along with the writings of the lovesick maidens, carried with them a kind of romanticism that combined the ideals of
qing
with the allure of a woman wasting away from disease or childbed fever, being martyred, or dying alone in an empty room longing for her lover.

Chen Tong, Tan Ze, and Qian Yi were real women. (Chen Tong’s name was changed because it matched that of her future mother-in-law; their given name has not survived.) I have tried to remain as true to their story as possible—so true that often I was constrained by facts that seemed too fabulous and coincidental to be real. For example, Qian Yi used an ancestor tablet from the household to conduct a ceremony under a plum tree to honor the fictional character of Du Liniang, who then visited her and Wu Ren in a dream. But as far as I know, Chen Tong never met her husband-to-be, nor did she come back to earth as a hungry ghost.

Wu Ren wanted all three of his wives to be acknowledged, but he was also mindful of protecting them, so the cover of the book read
Wu Wushan’s Three Wives’ Collaborative Commentary of The Peony Pavilion.
Wushan was one of the style names he used when writing. The names Tan Ze, Qian Yi, and Chen Tong did not appear except on the title page and in the supplementary material.

The book was published to great acclaim and was widely read. In time, however, the tide turned and praise was replaced by bitter and often biting criticism. Wu Ren was accused of being a simpleton so eager to promote his wives that he lost sight of propriety. Moralists, who’d been against
The Peony Pavilion
for years, advocated for censorship of the opera through familial admonishment, religious tenets, and official bans. They proposed burning all copies of
The Peony Pavilion
—along with all complementary works such as
The Commentary
—as the most efficacious way of eliminating the offending words once and for all. Reading such books, they reasoned, could cause women—who were silly and unsophisticated by nature—to become dissolute and heart-dead. Mostly, though, they remembered that only an ignorant woman could be considered a good woman. The moralists told men to remind their mothers, wives, sisters, and daughters that there was no “writing” or “self” in the Four Virtues. The very things that had inspired women to write, paint, and go on excursions were turned against them. The return to ritual meant only one thing: a return to silence.

Then the arguments shifted again, zeroing back in on
The Three Wives’ Commentary.
How could three women—
wives,
no less—have had such insights about love? How could they have endeavored to write something so learned? How was it that they’d gathered together all the editions of the opera for comparison? Why had the original manuscripts written by Chen Tong and Tan Ze been lost to fires? This seemed awfully convenient, since the three wives’ calligraphic styles could not be compared. In the supplementary materials, Qian Yi wrote that she had made an offering to her two predecessors under a plum tree. She and her husband also described a dream where they’d encountered Du Liniang. Could these two not separate fact from fiction, the living from the dead, or waking from dreaming? People could come to only one conclusion: Wu Ren wrote the commentary himself. His response: “Let those who believe, believe. Let those who doubt, doubt.”

In the meantime, order had to be restored across the realm. The emperor made several proclamations, all aimed at bringing society back under control. Clouds and rain, it was announced, should occur only between man and wife and the basis for it could come only from
li
and not
qing.
No more confidential women’s books would be produced, so that when a girl went to her husband’s home at marriage she would have no knowledge about what would happen on her wedding night. The emperor also awarded fathers complete control over their female offspring: If a daughter brought shame on her ancestors, he had the right to hack her to pieces. Very quickly, women were pushed back inside behind closed doors, and there they more or less remained until the Qing dynasty fell and the Republic of China was formed in 1912.

IN MAY
2005, ten days before I went to Hangzhou to research the three wives, I got a call from
More
magazine, asking if I would write a piece for them about China. The timing was perfect. In addition to going to Hangzhou, I visited small water towns in the Yangzi delta (many of which seem to have been frozen in time a hundred or more years ago), sites that are referred to in the novel (Longjing’s tea farms and various temples), and to Suzhou (to be inspired by the great garden estates).

The thrust of that article had to do with finding my inner lovesick maiden. I have to admit it wasn’t very hard, because I’m obsessed most of the time, but the assignment forced me to look inward and examine what I felt about writing and the desire women have to be heard—by their husbands, their children, their employers. At the same time, I thought a lot about love. All women on earth—and men too, for that matter—hope for the kind of love that transforms us, raises us up out of the everyday, and gives us the courage to survive our little deaths: the heartache of unfulfilled dreams, of career and personal disappointments, of broken love affairs.