Persuasion (5 page)

than happy to stack the cards against Dorian and in his own favor.

With a faintly bored sigh, Lily took in the glamorous sight of the bustling

theater before her and frankly, wasn't impressed. But then, the myriad

activities she had been forced to attend these weeks past had made her

view London with a cynic's eye. Not that she had needed to be persuaded

into disliking it! She had never hidden her innate disapproval of the capital

and its black heart but a part of her had hoped to have her opinion changed-

it was something she did not believe would happen. It had yet to occur, at

any rate!

On the whole, she found it to be a most unpleasant place. And quite frankly,

that was an understatement. There were parts of London society that

disgusted and were abhorrent to her nature. Therefore, unpleasant wasn't

the word.

Naturally, there were some amusements.

Lily would not be so biased as to fail to admit to that. And there were indeed

diversions that she herself enjoyed. From the lending library to the great

variety of shops that London's streets contained.

But, generally, she found it to be overcrowded with humanity and

shockingly, scandalously outré. Women thrived, as they always did, on

gossip. But with the most malicious of news, came a heightened satisfaction.

The tabbies seemed to long for a deb to fall from her virginal pedestal by

one of the many rake hells that scourged the balls for their next meal or

longed for a husband to discover his wife's affaire du coeur so that they

might watch the repercussions of such a discovery and revel in the

destruction of another's marriage.

The majority of people seemed to be almost scavenger-like in their behavior.

From the ladies to the gentlemen and to one, as gently reared as Lily had

been, it came as a distressing surprise to come to terms with this completely

new world. Which was as shocking to her sensibilities as coming across the

Americas had been to Columbus, she felt sure!

One where, judge not lest ye be judged, did not seem to be universally

understood.

Where people relished and craved the hurt of others. Where charity did not

exist outside of a lady's desire to dispel boredom or to create the right image

and to fit in with her peers . . . .

She did not like to say that London was evil. For where evil could be found,

good also existed, but it saddened Lily that she had yet to discover any of

this innate goodness.

It also perturbed her that Aunt Millie was almost one of these tabbies, that

she was befriended by some of the nastiest matrons of the ton. But Lily

knew that there was no maliciousness in Aunt Millie. Just a general and

hungry appetite to know all of the ton's goings on and Lily could view that

with amusement, for her aunt had a rapacious interest for everything that

was innocuous.

It was simply a shame that Millie's friends were not so innocent.

Only the other day, she had heard Mrs. Jerome declaring the good Lady

Merken an out and out hussy for she had taken a lover - something that Lily

could well understand for Mr. Jerome was four scores had he seen a day and

his dear lady wife was a true beauty! But a day later, her Aunt Millie had

inadvertently declared to Uncle George in hushed tones that Mrs. Jerome

also had a cicisbeo!

Such unbridled hypocrisy was something that Lily could not stand and it

seemed to be everywhere. No matter the destination, there was something

that was shocking to the sensibilities, something that seemed so elementally

wrong to her, but was universally accepted by the rest of the ton.

And to be frank, Lily was growing quite bored of being shocked, of finding

distaste in almost everything.

She had started to long for home and for the countryside, which while it

could be a tad tedious, especially as one had to socialize with the same set

over and over again, there was wholesomeness to the people. An innocence

for they had not been tainted by the black tar that came from living amongst

the ton.

The true beauty of living in the countryside was the copious amount of

fresher than fresh air that was in wonderful abundance no matter the area.

In truth, it was one of the things she missed the most. Lily had taken to

waking early in the morning to simply enjoy the freshness and coolness of

the dawn and then returning to bed to sleep off the night's excesses.

Day and night, the temperature seemed to be hellishly warm, regardless of

the time or the climate. The polluted air seemed to create an unnatural heat

that never seemed to dissipate. Lily could only liken it to the temperature in

her father's greenhouse. Only at dawn, did there seem to be any relief.

It was with regret and fondness that Lily thought of the rolling hills of her

family's estate, Grantlake. They offered a variety of long walks and rambles

that while staid in comparison to the supposed delights London had to offer,

were far more delightful than anything she had yet to experience here.

Aunt Millie, as usual, was entirely blind to Lily's dislike of all things ton and

had simply taken it as read that Lily was simply shy and not as bored as

death. Because of that, she had been dragged from what felt like pillar to

post and in all honesty, she was growing quite tired of it.

Only the fact that Aunt Millie meant well, prevented her from snapping and

arguing that she would prefer to eat burnt toast until her hair started to curl

and sup on laudanum until she was dragged to Bedlam than partake in the

ton's various amusements!

Melodramatic perhaps, but it was how she felt!

Tonight, they were attending the theater. The smells were, quite frankly,

horrific. The Great Unwashed as the peasants of this great country were so

mockingly termed, shared the characteristic with many of Lily's own

contemporaries! But in their case, it was truly unnecessary! These folk were

wealthy and could afford to have an elaborate toilette!

Lily found the lack of which truly disgusting and the scents of so many

unwashed bodies in the heat of the night, the cloistered halls of the theater

seeming to magnify it by ten, had her almost wincing whenever she inhaled.

She had taken to dipping a handkerchief in lavender or rose water before

attending a function such as these, where the ripe scent of sweating and

unclean humanity was truly abhorrent to the nose and to the sensibilities.

In the country, where people were supposedly less au fait than their tonnish

counterparts, the majority of folk in Lily's acquaintance bathed regularly and

her own family were accustomed to cleaning themselves at least once or

even twice a day.

It seemed that they were the unusual ones, if the horrid scent that rose to

the balcony in which she and Aunt Millie and Uncle George were seated, was

anything by which to make her conclusion!

Huffing a slight breath, she dabbed her handkerchief along her upper lip and

sighed with relief as the delicious bouquet of lavender overpowered her

senses.

Her aunt was almost hanging over the balcony as she spoke to their

neighbors and there were faint calls from below as people in her aunt's

acquaintance made their presence known to her. Uncle George, a placid

fellow and rather an amusing and dry-witted one at that, sat back against

his seat with a look of enjoyment on his bullish face.

The differences between her aunt and uncle were great, but it was evident

that both enjoyed that about each other. Uncle George reveled in watching

his wife being diverted by the latest on-dit and Aunt Millie relished dragging

her husband out of his study and into the world at large.

Lily knew that were she to make a marriage such as theirs, she would

indeed be blessed. For love was at its base and what more could one ask for,

but that?

Sighing, she took in the sights that were to be had which included the

surprisingly small stage which had open flames at its edge and was

surrounded by a four floored mass of humanity that had Lily sighing with

discomfort. She had never been anywhere like this before and it would

indeed be her first outing to the theater, but having so many people around

her felt almost entombing and she would be very grateful when Don

Giovanni started and she could at least lose herself in the opera.

Even her dislike of being amongst such a large crowd could not diminish the

beauty she saw within its hallowed walls. The ceiling was so high that it

seemed an almost impossible task to have actually constructed it! It was

painted with a frieze that depicted galloping horses rolling across billowing

cushions of clouds and a rider at the helm of the gilt and golden chariot.

The molded plaster that was in gloriously weaving shapes and ended with a

crest of the Royal family at the hull of the ceiling was a delight to behold.

The creamy yellowed and age patina'd walls were complimented by the

ruddy reds of the stage's curtains.

Uncle George was a rich man and so, their box was on the third floor and

relatively close to the stage. It ensured a fabulous view of the actors as they

plied their trade and despite herself, and the continued apathetic gloom that

had so settled over her, Lily began to feel some excitement that was shared

by the rest of the crowd.

Her opera glasses rested on her knee and she raised them to take in her

peers. Attendance was at a premium tonight and Lily could see a great many

of the guests from her come out and a variety of others she had met during

her jaunts about the ton to which her aunt dragged her.

Spying some of the low-cut dresses and the indecently bare flesh that was

easily visible, Lily felt relieved that she had managed to win the day and had

had her modiste remake her dresses to her exact specifications.

She wore the a la mode empire line dress in a lilac shade that did marvelous

things to her pearly skin, which was enhanced by a deeper shade of purple

in an overlarge masculine cut waistcoat that was gathered at the bust and

trailed pleasantly along the length of her straight skirt. Silver thread was

sewn into the hems and added a glint of light to the otherwise somber

colors. She felt comfortable and attractive, Lily hadn't however thrown away

all of her morals to fit in with the rest of her set!

Replacing the opera glasses, she watched faintly amused as her aunt

excused herself to Uncle George before grabbing him by the forearm and

dragging him with her so that she could speak to a friend of theirs.

“We must go, George! That ball will be the toast of the Season! Lily cannot

miss it!” were her words and they could be heard as Lily's uncle was dragged

to whichever box required!

It was unorthodox to be left alone and in so public a place, but Lily was

hardly a green girl and did have some wiles about her. In fact, it was rather

pleasant to be free from her aunt, who seemed to exude so much energy

that at times it could be faintly exhausting!

Breathing out slowly, Lily tried not to wish that she was with her mama and

papa, for it was grossly unfair to her aunt and uncle who were truly trying

their best for her to make the match of the year. And in all honesty, Lily

could understand Aunt Millie's annoyance with her.

Without any narcissistic beliefs, Lily knew that an unorthodox beauty she

may be, but she was the diamond of this Season's first water and as such,

could make any match she so wished. But in truth, Lily had no desire to play

any part in this Season and had only agreed to take part on her mother's

behest that she needed to make a life of her own and not wither away at

Grantlake for all eternity.

Knowing that she wanted to experience the same depth of love as her

parents and her aunt and uncle had been the prod she had needed to

ultimately agree but as she was faced with the rigorous activities one had to

undertake to even become affianced, Lily found herself feeling fatigued

before the commencement of any and all occasions!

“Do not make even a murmur, Lady Lily.”

Startled as the hissing voice slithered sinuously into her thoughts, she spun

around in her seat and stared into the darkened area at the very rear of the

box. It was swathed with curtains and therefore visibility was extremely

poor.

A faint shudder roiled through her as fear suddenly began to grow in the pit

of her belly. She felt slightly ridiculous for feeling scared, for it could well

have been a practical joke, but nevertheless wished to goodness that her

family had not decided an invitation to the ball of the year was more

important than their niece's protection. Lily licked her lips and nodded

jerkily.

“Good. Answer when required and not a word more!”

Wanting quite desperately to ask if this was someone's idea of a jest, she

managed to close her mouth and await the next words. As she did, her eyes

seemed to spin around the box and the room, hoping to God that someone

would come and save her from whatever the voice wanted.

It could be naught good, that she did know and felt faintly apprehensive as