Plain Kate (11 page)

Then she saw Stivo, lamp in hand, going out to tend to the stamping, crying horses.

The white woman came to Stivo past the edge of the camp, where the fog swirled. He dropped the lamp and oil splashed into the grass, flaring bright. He said something, one word that Kate didn’t catch, a raw shout of—fear? joy?—and threw his arms open for the creature. When he touched her his whole body twisted like a reed in water. Kate, watching, felt the impossible, horrible twist as if it was happening to her, but still she was frozen, hardly even—

Taggle yowled and bit Kate’s hand.

Kate yelped, and found she could move again. “Stivo! Stivo!” she screamed.

The woman turned toward her voice. She retracted her hand, and Stivo crumpled at her feet. Eyes like pits locked on to Plain Kate.

In naked fear, Kate shouted. She banged at the bars, still caught eye to eye with the thing: skin pale and thin as an onion’s, her hair white and wavering like seaweed, face knife-sharp and starving. “Help me!” Kate screamed. “Help! Let me out!”

Out of the tent and down from the
vardo
, the Roamers were coming toward her, cautious, looking around. All at once Kate found her eyes released; the white creature was fading back toward the river. Kate gasped and leaned forward against the bars, breathing hard. “Katerina…” warned Taggle. She looked up just in time to see Behjet, running up from the horse meadow, fall full length over Stivo’s sprawled body.

Behjet pushed up to his knees, his hands on his brother, his sweet, sad face twisting in fear and grief. “Stivo!” he cried. “God! By the Black Lady, come and help us!” He lifted Stivo, pale and still in his arms.
Just like Wen,
Kate thought.
Just like Wen.

Daj ran up to them, heavy and rolling like a bear running. She fell to her knees, and her low chant became a keening wail. “Oh, no!” she cried. “No, no!”

“Daj!” said Behjet. “What has happened?”

“God save us!” she answered. “This sleep is killing a thing. Wen is dead. My husband! My son!”

Stillness came into Behjet. He picked up Stivo’s sputtering lamp. He stood slow as the tide rising. He walked over to Plain Kate.

She scooted away from the look on his face, until the bars stopped her. Taggle stood up, crooked and dazed. “No closer,” he said. “I bite.” Kate barely heard the gathering crowd gasp. Behjet’s grief-blasted eyes caught like the white creature’s had.

“Witch-child,” said Behjet calmly. “This is too much.” And he threw the lamp at her.

The clay lamp cracked and the tallow splashed. The cage flashed hot. The straw and the horse blanket started smoking. Plain Kate cried out and threw herself at the door, fumbling with the wooden key.

“Katerina!” yowled Taggle. His fur was already frizzled. He backed out between the bars, stumbling. “Katerina!”

“Go, Taggle, go!” But he pressed so close to the hot bars she could smell his smoking fur. Her soaked wool leggings smoldered, her light smock crawled with fire and she slapped at it. She reached through the bars, twisting her wrist backward. Her hair was full of flames. The key went into the lock. Behjet was staring but he didn’t stop her. The key almost turned, then turned. She fell against the door and it swung open. She scooped up Taggle and staggered for the river. She heard Behjet start to cry, and Daj sobbing: “Enough, enough, let her go.” The crowd parted around her. The water was cold, and it took her in.

She rocked like a cradle. There was a
chuck, chuck
like a dove or waves on a dock. Plain Kate woke.

She was dry. She was lying on something soft. She was wrapped in quilts. There was a star of light drifting above her, and a smell like an herb garden. Taggle was a long warmth stretched at one side, his chin in her hand, his tail curled over her neck. She thought they might be in heaven.

Taggle farted.

Plain Kate coughed and sneezed. And then she was really awake.

She was not in heaven, but in a little bunk on a boat. The painted ceiling was close above her. The slap of water thudded through the wall at her ear. Taggle’s tail flip-flipped over her face. She smelled his scorched fur. He squirmed around and soon his face appeared from under the blanket. “Taggle,” she whispered. Her voice was rough with smoke.

He made a little meow. There weren’t any words.

The golden light stirred. A rush lamp of pierced tin swung over her like the night sky. A pale face floated above it. “Fair maid of the wood,” said a familiar voice. “Are you awake?”

“You,” Taggle spat. Because it was Linay.

He barked with surprise and laughter. “This was your wish? A talking cat!”

Taggle’s ears went back. “We don’t like you.”

Linay grinned. “Well, now, I don’t blame you, catkins. But I can heal you, like me or not.” He hung the lantern. “Can you sit, little one?” Plain Kate struggled to sit and he put his arms around her shoulders. He had a little jar in one hand; it smelled of herbs and thunder. Taggle sniffed once, squinted in disgust, and started backing up.

“What—?” Kate tried to say, and coughed. Her throat felt like it had been filed down with a rasp.

“Shhhhh,” he said. “It’s only salve.”

“What do you want?” she whispered.

The salve felt cool as seaweed on her burns. Linay was humming. He put the salve on her forehead and cheekbones. The humming faded into song:

Lenore my sister: she had power

She could bring the bud to flower

Seal the wound or soothe the fever

And so she spent her life

In their fevered year they found her

Drove her mad with whips and fire

Drove her to the freezing river

And there they thought she died

But her wronged soul turned into water

Rusalka, lost ghost of the river

Vampire, siren, doomed to wander

and never find her rest

Lenore, my sister—I would save her

I would pull her up the river

Do to that town what they did to her

and so remake her life

The song was important. Kate tried to hear it and keep it, but she could not. She felt as if she might break into the air as salt breaks into water. “Drink,” Linay said. There was a cup at her lips. The drink was both cool and warm.

She slept.

¶

Kate woke again, and again the boat was rocking. She felt as if she had been asleep for days and days and days, sunk halfway in long bad dreams. The current spoke in the wood by her ear, and she could feel the surge of the boat against it and hear the plosh and clock of a pole. They were moving.

They. Linay.

She sat up. How long had she been asleep? There was dry sourness in her mouth, and the dream stretched out so long behind her. “Taggle,” she whispered, and it came out croaky.

The cat was curled up in a nook by her feet, between a little cauldron and a lumpy bag: three round heaps. She didn’t spot him till he lifted his head and cracked an eye open. “Oh.” He yawned. “Hello.”

“How long—” She rubbed at her eyes and her fingers found patches of numbed slickness on her face. “How long—where are we?”

“A boat,” he said, getting up and leaning into a long stretch. His fur was scorched off on one side, but the bare patches were with new fuzz. “I do not care for it: There’s water. But also, fish, which is nice for me.” He sidled over and rubbed the corner of his mouth on her hand, marking her with his scent.

“How long—I don’t remember anything. How long have I been asleep?”

Taggle shrugged with his whiskers. “It is not a matter for cats,
how long
.” He tilted his chin up and looked at her—he seemed almost concerned. “I have eaten many times,” he offered. “Many fish, many mice, three muskrats, two rabbits, and a small bird that was sleeping. You have had broth.”

She tried to remember broth, but couldn’t. There was only the long dream about burning and drowning and a woman made of fog, hungry and terribly sad. Stivo crumpling to the ground at a single touch. Daj turning away. Drina bleeding. Behjet throwing the lamp. She shook herself.
Broth.
It would have been hot. But she felt cold: In her sleep, Linay had fed her, had dressed her—her skin shuddered and her hair prickled. She got up.

The ceiling was low and hung thick with trinkets and bundles of herbs. They tangled and bumped in her hair. She stooped and inched away from the bunk and into the dim and tiny space.

Her scorched smock that had been her father’s, that she had worn for years, was gone. She was wearing a linen dress, white and embroidered in white, a fine thing edged with lace. It was too big for her and the lace trailed on the floor. She hitched it up.

“I did not catch the fish,” Taggle said, continuing his tale of food as he followed her. “I could, of course, but there is the matter of getting wet. He gave them to me. Though I still do not like him.”

Daylight poured down from the hatch and fell in a square on the decking. The rest of the cabin was shadowy clutter. Bags and coils of ropes and strings of dried sausages hung on the wall. There was a smell of wet wood, river rot, human sweat, sausage, spices, and the musty smell of many herbs. Plain Kate looked around for her boots.

She found them slumped in the shadows. She bent to pick them up. Then she stopped. The boots were sitting beside a box, a crooked little chest of splintered planks. The lid, though, was carved and beautiful: a stag leaping.

She knew that stag. The box was made from pieces of her father’s stall.

And there was something wrong about it.

All of Kate’s hair stood up. The box was darker than it should have been. It looked as if it were breathing. “Taggle?” she whispered. “I’m looking for a hatchet.”

“I wouldn’t,” said a lilting voice behind her.

Plain Kate spun around. Linay was leaning at the ladder, white in the stream of sun.

“That box is not a matter for hatchets. As you love your life, leave it alone.” He smiled at her, that slow, slow smile. “Unless, of course, the hatchet is for me.”

She didn’t answer.

“It’s good to see you up. There’s no one about. Come above.”

She hesitated, squinting at his brightness.

“Don’t worry. It’s safe enough while the day lasts.” He slipped up the ladder.

Plain Kate watched him go, and threw a long look at the huddled, splintery box. Then she went to get her boots. Moving them stirred up a smell of scorched leather and smoke that made her for an instant almost sick with fear. She swallowed it and took a steadying breath. Then she pulled on the boots, checked her knife, and followed Linay through the hatch.

¶

The punt Kate remembered from Samilae was tied up in a slow curve of the river, where the current had cut a straighter channel and left a loop of still water, shielded by a sand spit and hung with willows. Plain Kate stood up out of the hatch and breathed deep.

Big willows surrounded the river, and beyond them was a strip of wheat fields. The air smelled like bread. Beside them in the water, a gray heron was standing above its own reflection. She looked at it and it looked at her and they were still for a moment, until the heron lifted heavily on its huge wings, and was gone.

“Oooo,” said Taggle, springing onto the bench at the punt’s blunt end.

“He’s too big for you, catkins,” said Linay. He sat cross-legged on the roof of the cabin. “Could kill a pike, that beauty.”

“Hmmph,” said Taggle, and closed his eyes in the dappling sun.

Plain Kate stood weak-kneed on the tiny deck and had nowhere to look but at the sky, and at Linay. She looked at Linay. He was wrapping strips of white cloth around his hands, tugging them into place with his teeth. The sleeves of his zupan were hanging down his back; his arms were bare, and the bandages went to his elbows. The insides of his forearms were spotted with fresh blood.

Plain Kate knew knives: A man might cut himself there, but only on purpose.

He looked at her watching, and held up a hand as if to show the blood. She turned away.

Her face floated in the dark water. Kate saw herself and closed her eyes, her hands rising up to cover her burnt face. She felt the bubbled scars. She moved her hands away.

The water below was a pool of dark mirror, showing willow and small gusts of sky. And her face.
Plain Kate she is,
she thought.
Plain as a stick.
One side of her face was splattered with burn scar, mostly pale and slick, but thickened and bubbled where it was worst, a rectangle from ear to eyebrow. Her hair had been singed off on that side too, and was growing back only in patches, ugly as a chick just getting its feathers in.

“It’s as well,” said Linay gently, behind her. “Everyone will turn away from you. Fewer will see.”

That she had no shadow, he meant. Once she looked past the burns she could see that being shadowless too had marked her: Her nose threw no shadow across her face; her eyes had no weight. She looked half washed away, floating in the water like a drowned ghost. She turned away. Linay was still watching her, intense, as if he were hungry.

He was bloody and wild and pale. Pale…He’d been pale when he took her shadow, but pale and strong. Now he looked gray, weak as she was, and wild in his weakness.

He raised a white eyebrow at her. “If you would wash, do it before darkness.”

She hesitated.

“Go on. It will do you good, if your legs will hold you. I shan’t peek.

¶

Plain Kate was working her way toward the pool that was hidden from Linay’s boat by the largest willow. She inched along the bottom of the V made by the steep bank and the willow’s great furrowed trunk, balancing with both hands. The willow’s rough bark made her feel the fragile tightness of the new scars on her hands. Her hands felt as stiff as if gloved.

“I could kill the heron,” said Taggle. “If I wanted. I would lie in wait on one of the willow branches and take him from above.”

“Like a panther,” said Kate, who wasn’t really listening. Her hands. Her hands that held her carving knife. Her skill with that knife was her whole life, the only thing she had left in the world. Her hands felt so strange.

Taggle curled his tail. “Like a panther. Ah. A panther.” He sprang up on a branch and padded along by her ear.

“Taggle,” she began. She wanted to ask him what would happen to her if she couldn’t carve. What would happen—but she could not think of any words. And then she came clear of the willow, and found herself above the edge of a pool set like a jewel into the bank. The willow branched above and green fronds trailed like a curtain, all around.

Taggle stretched himself out on a branch over the pool. “I would wait,” he announced, “like this.”

Plain Kate stood looking down at the green, dappled space. Her skin was sticky and grimed as if she’d been wound up in a spiderweb for months. Her legs trembled with weakness. And her hands felt numb, bigger than they should have, and farther away.

“I will keep watch,” yawned the cat, and closed his eyes.

What will I do?
she had wanted to ask him.
What will I do if I cannot carve?
But it was the wrong question.
What will I do without my shadow? What will I do with no family and no people, no place to belong? What will I do with my life in the hands of this dangerous man?
“Taggle,” she began.

But the cat was so intently keeping watch that he had fallen asleep. He lay on the branch with his dangling feet dream-twitching. Kate laughed. And laughed. And found she couldn’t stop laughing. It tore at her until she doubled up and her eyes streamed. And still she kept laughing, until she threw up with the horror of it.

The physical shock of the sickness calmed her. She washed. Exhausted, she slept. When she woke it was golden afternoon. Linay’s boat was out of sight behind the big willows, but she could hear the river patting its flat sides. She could go back there.

Or she could leave.

Anyone who saw her would take her for a demon. She could not go among people; they would kill her. She could not live on her own; she would die.

When you are carving a narrow point, like the tail of this fish,
her father had said to her, big hands over her little ones, and the carving beneath them,
this is a time of danger. The knife may slip. It may follow a grain and spoil the line. There may be a flaw deep in the wood that will snap your work in two. You will want to leave the tail thick and crude; that is safer. A master carver will be brave, and trust the wood. Things will find their shape. Kate, My Star. Lift your knife.

Plain Kate stood up. Between her and the road was a steep slope, almost a bluff, tangled with the bent roots of the willows and clogged with nettles. She tilted her chin up. “Taggle,” she said, “we’re leaving.”

¶

When Kate finally reached the road she was scratched and netttle stung and shaking with exhaustion. It had only been a little climb, but her body was weak. She tried to hear her father’s voice:
Be brave. Things will find their shape. Lift your knife.

She turned her back on the way Linay had been going, and followed the road upriver. The road went with the grain of the land, cutting between the river bluffs and the strip of farmland won from the forest: fields of wheat and millet, with the wooded hills beyond. It was a narrow road, quiet. Kate walked and Taggle ambled at her heels.

As she walked, the weather changed. Butter sunshine gave way to a light like watered milk, and then to a thick fog, wet as drizzle. The fog caught and twisted the sound of crows in the wheat, hoarse as a mob of voices.