Protector (28 page)
Authors: Laurel Dewey
Tags: #Police Procedural, #Denver (Colo.), #Mystery & Detective, #Psychic ability, #Women detectives, #Crime, #Suspense, #Women Sleuths, #Children of murder victims, #Fiction, #Occult & Supernatural, #Espionage
Jane stopped at the front porch, gathering her reserves and turned the doorknob. The door was unlocked. She walked into the house, slamming the door behind her. Emily and Martha were seated at the coffee table. They turned around quickly in surprise. “The door is unlocked!” Jane yelled.
“Oh,” Martha uttered, half-startled from Jane’s sudden entrance. “I went outside to pick some flowers to brighten up the room and I must have left it unlocked.”
“Is that your story?” Jane said, moving into the living room toward Martha. “Because if that’s your story, I could get your ass fired for doing that!”
“Detective! Your language!”
“Fuck my language!” Jane countered. Her head spun in a disorienting haze.
“Detective!”
“Look, Jane,” Emily said, trying to break the tension. “I drew some pictures.” She held up a piece of art paper. “Martha told me to draw a picture of my feelings.”
“A picture of your feelings? What the hell is that supposed to mean?” Jane dropped the sandwich bag onto the coffee table. “I picked up sandwiches.” She turned to Martha. “Two sandwiches. One for her and one for me.”
“Lunch!” Emily exclaimed.
Jane walked into the kitchen and came to a sudden halt. The back door was wide open. She walked into the living room, hell-bent for action. “Who left this door open?”
Martha stepped forward. “I did! We needed some cross ventilation!”
Jane looked down at Emily who was busily opening up one of the sandwiches. “Did you go outside?”
“No,” Emily said offhandedly.
“Why are you causing such a scene, Detective?”
Jane stormed into the kitchen, slammed the back door and locked it. Martha followed, irritated that she was being ignored. “Detective! I asked you a question!”
Jane could feel herself slipping. She was seconds away from cold-cocking Martha across the floor. “Listen to me very carefully,” she said pointedly. “You know nothing about law enforcement and you know nothing about this case. I’m not sure what your job is, but as far as I’m concerned, you are a glorified babysitter and you’re not even good at that. Now, I’m back. That means you go!”
“Detective, I do not know what has made you so upset or why you are demonstrating aggressive postures—”
“Don’t analyze me!”
“All I am saying is you need to get ahold of yourself and not project your anger onto that innocent child.”
Jane leaned in close to Martha and spoke quietly but directly. “Martha, if you don’t get your fat ass out of here in the next five seconds—”
“I will not be moved by threats!”
Jane jerked forward and Martha quickly jumped back. “Get out!” Jane ordered.
Martha turned around, slightly shaken, and walked into the living room. She gathered her belongings and crossed to Emily who was eating her sandwich. Martha leaned down and touched the flashlight that was still attached to Emily’s jumper strap. “Remember, Emily. Four quick flashes of light are our little signal.”
Emily, her mouth full of bread and meat, could only nod her head and offer a slight smile to acknowledge Martha’s statement. Martha patted Emily on the head and left the house. Jane crossed toward the front door and locked it. She stood still, feeling trapped like a rat in a maze.
Emily spoke up cheerfully. “You picked a good sandwich!” Jane didn’t move. Emily put down her sandwich. “Is everything okay?”
Jane turned to Emily and stared at her. “This is not a game, Emily,” she said quietly. “We’re not here to have fun. We’re not here to get to know each other. They put you back in this house for one reason only. They want you to remember what happened the night your parents were killed so they can catch whoever did it. They know that you know some things based on certain evidence that was found in this house. I was put here to find out what you know. I’m not here to bond with you or tell you stories or play board games. Now, if any of that upsets you, that’s too damn bad. I’m here to do a job. So, I suggest you start thinking real hard so I can tell my boss something that will impress him so much that he’ll give the all clear and get us the hell out of here. There it is. Deal with it.” With that, Jane walked down the hall and into the kitchen, leaving Emily alone in gritty silence.
The hours dragged on that Saturday afternoon. Shifts changed outside and the Memorial Day holiday weekend patrol went on duty. Two cars stayed out front and the police cruiser made its rounds down the back alley every thirty minutes. The whole thing was monotonous for Jane. With every hour that went by, she could feel herself sinking deeper into a dark pit. By sunset, a slow rain fell outside. It quickly turned into a steady downpour that pelted the windows and added an extra dose of misery to the scene.
There had been few words exchanged between Emily and Jane after Jane’s abrupt statement to the child. Emily busied herself drawing pictures and later, taking a nap on the living room couch. It was when Emily lay fast asleep that Jane found herself staring with greater interest at the living room liquor cabinet. The longer she went without a drink, the more she couldn’t shut out her father’s berating voice. “You are nothing! You understand me?” There was no escape for Jane and it was driving her into a primal place of existence.
By 7 p.m., the house felt cold and lifeless. A strong wind whipped the treetops outside the back door. Emily sat quietly on the living room couch, playing with the mini-flashlight Martha gave her. At one point, she was able to get the flashlight halfway into her mouth. She delighted in squeezing it with her teeth and making her cheeks glow red.
“Stop it,” Jane said tiredly.
Emily popped the flashlight out of her mouth. She turned on her side and looked at Jane’s bandaged hand. “Do you ever change that bandage?”
“Of course I do.”
“It looks real dirty—”
“I change it, Emily.” Jane lit yet another cigarette. After taking a long drag, she nervously rubbed her fingers across the scar on her right temple.
“Does your scar hurt?” Emily asked.
“What?” Jane said, unaware of her actions.
“The scar on the side of your head. You’re rubbing it.” Jane jerked her hand away from her head and let out an exasperated breath. “You think if you rub it hard enough it’ll disappear?”
“Emily, stop it!” Jane was at her wit’s end. Emily watched Jane with renewed intensity. Jane stared straight ahead, all too aware of the child’s prying eyes. “And stop watching me.”
“You’re the only other person in the room. Who am I—”
“Don’t be a smart-ass, Emily!” Jane’s voice raised an octave. “I said to stop watching me and I mean it!”
Emily sat up, confused by Jane’s confrontational behavior. She directed her glance across the room and spoke, “Why are you so nervous?”
Jane turned to Emily. “What are you looking at?”
“You said not to watch you,” Emily said, her eyes pinned across the room.
“Hey!” Jane slapped her hand across the couch. Emily slightly jumped and turned to face Jane. “I also said don’t be a smart-ass.”
Emily felt cornered. “I’m sorry. I’m not trying to be a—”
“Don’t argue with me!” Jane felt the walls closing in on her.
“Okay,” Emily said almost inaudibly. “How come you’re scared?” she whispered.
“I am not scared! Stop asking me that!”
“But your hands are shaking . . .”
Jane looked down and saw that, indeed, her hands were trembling. She stood up and walked across the room, taking hard drags on her cigarette and stealing a peek at the liquor cabinet. “I’m fine!”
“Maybe you should change that bandage. Maybe your hand got infected—”
“My hand is not infected!”
“Tell me how you got hurt.”
“You want to know?!” Jane screamed. “I fucked up! Okay?! I tried to save her and I fucked up!” Jane felt light-headed.
“Who were you trying to save?” Emily said in a hushed tone.
“It doesn’t matter. I didn’t save her.”
A wave of fear hit the child. “But you can save somebody, right? I mean, if you had to—”
“She died, Emily! She burned to death in a fucking car! And it’s all my fault!” Emily froze. “And this,” Jane held up her bandaged hand, “is what I’ve got to show for it!”
Emily stared at the living room floor. She wanted desperately to explain what she felt inside but she knew Jane was too angry to hear it.
Her mind drifted to her best friend, A.J. She wished A.J. was still in town so they could talk. No matter what the problem was, Emily felt she could always share her troubles with her. It wasn’t fair. Emily thought. A.J. and her family quickly moved away and didn’t even say good-bye. For a moment, Emily felt anger toward her chum but that soon dissipated into sadness and a longing to know why she left so suddenly. Emily fell back against the couch, fighting the loneliness that tugged at her heart. “I wish my mommy was here right now.”
“You and me both, kid!” Jane nervously adjusted her shoulder holster.
“Everybody is going away. Are you going to go away and not come back?”
“Well, yes. This is not a permanent situation!”
“Right,” Emily said dejected. “You want me to remember something big so we can get out of here—”
“Exactly!”
“So I can go live with my aunt and uncle in Cheyenne—”
“When did you hear that?”
“When you were on the phone this morning with your boss.”
“So, you were eavesdropping?”
“I go live with my aunt and uncle and then you can have a drink.”
Jane stopped dead in her tracks. She turned to Emily, rage boiling underneath her skin. “What in the hell is that supposed to mean?”
“You keep looking at Daddy’s liquor cabinet—”
“So what!”
“I saw you open it up this morning—”
“Now you’re spying on me, too!”
“I smelled it on you the first day I saw you. You’re just like my Daddy.”
“Who in the hell do you think you are? Where do you get off judging me?”
“Mommy said she could smell Daddy across the room when he drank—”
“You think you’re so smart? Well, you’re not! You think you know people? Well, you don’t! You are way out of line! You hear me?”
“I just know—”
“You don’t know anything!” Jane screamed, her voice vibrating against the living room walls. “Get away from me!”
“Why?”
“Go upstairs!”
Emily got off the couch. “I’m sorry,” she pleaded.
“I don’t give a shit!” With that, Jane kicked over the coffee table, sending all of Emily’s art pictures scattering. “Go upstairs!”
Fear gripped Emily. “Please, don’t. You’re the only one who can—”
Jane cut her off. “Upstairs! You hear me?”
Emily skirted the periphery of the living room and scooted up the stairs to her bedroom, slamming the door behind her.
Jane’s pulse raced. She ran her fingers through her hair and let out a loud grunt of anger mixed with frustration. She plopped down onto the couch, sucking the last bit of life out of her cigarette. Jane briefly turned toward the liquor cabinet. Her head pounded in punishing syncopation. If she could sleep, maybe the pain would subside. Sleep. What a wonderful concept. To sleep with no dreams, no nightmares . . . if that were only possible. Jane felt herself slipping away as the couch embraced her body. Within less a minute, she was fast asleep.
Upstairs, Emily stood in her perfectly pink bedroom, not sure what to do. If she could only talk to Jane. Really talk to her. If there was a way to make her understand . . . She wished she had her Starlight Starbright projector to keep her company. She half-considered walking back downstairs to retrieve it but decided against the idea. To make do, she flicked off the ceiling light and turned on the tiny lamp next to her bed that sported the star cut outs across its shade. The splash of projected stars momentarily warmed her heart before she lost interest. Emily turned to her bedroom window. The occasional pitter-pat of rain could be heard against the glass. It sounded like the last sputtering of action before the storm moved toward the east. If the clouds were parting just right, there was a great possibility that the quarter moon could be seen shimmering against the night sky.
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