Reckless Mind (25 page)

I leaned down, laying every inch of my body flat on his so it touched every inch of his it could. My tongue ran over his lips and he thrust his tongue in my mouth in response. I'd never get sick of how Cole tasted, and I broke the kiss to trail my tongue down his neck biting lightly across the sensitive skin.

He took my face in his hands, “Kahlen,” he said questioningly. I knew he was wondering what I'd almost said, his eyes searching mine. Instead of responding and putting myself out there so indefinitely, I turned my head and placed a chaste kiss on his palm before moving my lips to his chest. Moving down the center of his body with my mouth and tongue, I trailed my fingers across the top of his sweatpants and then followed the motion with my mouth.

I wanted him in such an all consuming way, I wanted every single piece of him. Feeling Cole inside me was the only way to relieve the constant tension I felt low in my belly. Moving his pants lower, there was one thing I knew for a fact I could do well that would definitely meet any expectations he may have.

“Baby, no,” he whispered it gently as he pulled me back up his aroused body, catching my mouth with his. There was so much want and passion behind his kiss, he deepened it, not letting my mouth go until I was almost unable to breathe. He looked deep in my eyes, concern pooled there. “Don't go there, don't put yourself in that frame of mind.”

My eyes dropped from his and I felt so ashamed, he had known what I was going to do to him, and he'd stopped me. “Look at me, Kahlen.” I didn't want to, it was so horrible what I was thinking, the place I went to in my mind. Cole rolled me over so we were both on our sides facing each other, telling me to look at him again. Reluctantly I opened my eyes. “You are everything I need.
You.
Not some version of yourself you think you are or need to use to satisfy me. Do I want to feel my dick in your mouth? Hell yes, just thinking about it gets me fucking hard as hell.” To prove his point he gently took my hand and placed it on his hard arousal. “But we aren't doing it like that, okay? The first time it happens, if it ever happens at all, will not be because you think you have something to prove to me and that's the only way you think you know how.”

Tears fell onto Cole's pillow even though I tried to wipe them as quickly as they fell. “All I want is you, Kahlen. Every single thing about you I love, you're smart, kind, I love how you are a little bit awkward and shy, all of it.” He kissed me deeply, pulling my body into his. “Pretty girl,” he murmured under his breath as his fingers ran down the side of my face. “I love you. I love you so much it hurts when I'm not with you. After what I grew up with I never wanted anything like this, I was scared of it so I never let myself think I could have it. Then you came in to my life and the second I laid eyes on you all bets were off. It was like everything became more intense, more clear, more everything when I was with you. I've been falling in love with you since that first night, Kahlen. I'm in love with you.”

If someone would have told me this man would say these things to me I would have told them they were crazy. “I can't believe how lucky I am to have you, Cole. It scares the hell out of me, but I know I love you. I'm so head over heels crazy in love with you.”

There was a frenzied passion between us now as our mouths came together hard and fast. Cole pulled my shirt off and moved his tongue down my neck and settled his mouth over my nipple that only grew harder the moment he sucked it into his mouth. As his teeth pulled on it gently his hand moved to push my underwear down my legs, his fingers finding me more than ready for him.

Feeling him slip his fingers inside me was better than the first time, just like he said every time would be better than the last. Lying naked beside him I moved against his hand, moaning loudly as his teeth closed and pulled harder on my hard sensitive peak. Cole brushed his thumb over the most sensitive part of me while his fingers moved quickly in and out of me and I thought I was going to lose it right then, but he withdrew his hand and left my nipple with a soft circular lick.

“I'm going to make you come so hard, I want to taste you when you do.” His lips were already moving down my stomach, and he moved himself in between my legs. Shifting until I was at the edge of the bed and he was on his knees on the floor in front of me, never taking his lips off of somewhere on my skin, Cole moved one of my legs so it was hanging over his shoulder.

I yelled out in pleasure as his mouth came down on me. Slowly he started his advance on my body, his tongue licking me delicately, and I heard a loud moan come from him as he tasted me for the first time. “Oh, pretty girl, you taste so fucking good.” Cole moved his tongue over my swollen bud as his fingers moved back inside me.

Threading my fingers in his hair I pulled him to me a little more. “That's right, tell me what you want. Anything you want, Kahlen, forever.” I groaned from his touch but also his words.

“Your tongue, Cole. Please.” I felt him pushing my body higher and closer to release.

“My tongue what?” But he knew what I wanted and he gave it to me. Cole's fingers moved out of me as his tongue slid in. I pulled his head against me as I arched into him, and within seconds I was screaming his name, begging him not to stop, not to ever stop. Cole languidly licked over my oversensitive area, moaning every time he sucked my taste into his mouth.

Pulling my naked body back up the bed, he curled his arms around me. “Best oral ever, pretty girl.” I knew he had a huge smile on his face, his dimple showing, proud that he'd been the first man ever to go down on me. But maybe even more proud that he got me to scream his name as loud as I did. “I love you.”

“I love you too, Cole, so much. But I really need to go to the bathroom and I want the sheet.” I started tugging on the sheet because I had no idea where he'd thrown my shirt to and I seriously felt like I was going to pee myself. He laughed loudly telling me there was no way, and to walk my sexy naked ass over to the bathroom. Worried I would pee on the floor like a new puppy, I quickly hopped out of bed and ran over to the bathroom, Cole's deep laugh filling the room.

I took deep breaths at the door telling myself I did not need to run and dive into the bed. Cole was my boyfriend, I should be able to be naked in front of him, especially if I was letting him do the things to my body that he was. Slowly I opened the door, and peeked around to find him staring right at me.

“Okay, okay.” Shaking my head, I stepped out and walked toward the bed not breaking his gaze. Surprisingly looking deep in his eyes helped, it made me feel confident to see the want, the love, and the passion he felt for me reflected there.

“You're so sexy,” he almost groaned out, and I felt bad. I knew what guys went through, not personally obviously but I had heard, when they were turned on with no release. He pulled my naked body down to his, kissing me lightly on the tip of my nose. “We get to lay here for about another, oh five minutes or so, then you'll have like two minutes to throw clothes on before Emma and Becca show up here.”

“What?” I shot straight up in the bed, not even giving my naked chest a second thought. Cole chuckled at me, telling me Emma had called while I was in the bathroom and told him he wasn't playing nice because he didn't know how to share. That definitely sounded like Emma, I had to laugh. “Wait, no cussing? Or are you leaving that out on purpose?”

“Oh there was definitely cussing. Went something like, 'I don't care if you have her tied to your bed getting ready to fuck her ten ways til Sunday asshole. She's my best friend and you're going to let her come out to play today since everything yesterday went to shit with our girls' day. You have ten minutes to give her the best O of her life or I'm breaking down the fucking door.', and then she hung up on me.” He laughed so loud, but I was picking my jaw up off the floor.

“Shit,” I exclaimed as I threw my hands up over my mouth.

“What?” He asked somewhat leery.

“Shit,” I shook my head. “Cole, I was so excited to get over here and see you last night that I forgot to tell you,” my voice trailed off. I had officially ruined our time together, I knew it. He was going to think I didn't tell him because I was trying to keep something from him.

“I know, Brandon's back. Jax called me the second he went into his room and told me you were at their place with Brandon. And don't be mad at Jax either, I would have beat the shit out of him if I found out you were in that situation and he didn't call me to tell me.”

“You're not mad then?”

“No, pretty girl, I'm not mad. You came to me, right? I knew if he ever showed back up that you'd have to talk to him. I was always unsure of whether or not you'd come back to me.” He pulled me to him kissing me with every ounce of passion and love he felt for me, and I relished in it. “Now get your clothes on. I might be willing to share time, but I'm not willing to let anyone else see you naked, not even another girl.

I laughed at him and pulled my underwear, bra, and shorts on. “Can I,” I pointed to his dresser, and he nodded. I picked one of the shirts that looked the smallest and pulled it over my head. Sweeping my long hair up into a messy bun, I slipped my sandals on. “Um, you better put something on too, I share your sentiment about anyone other than me getting to ogle your nakedness. Girls already undress you with their eyes, I don't need to help them along.

Jumping out of bed he smacked my ass and grabbed a shirt just as a knock that sounded more like a sledgehammer sounded on his door. Cole opened the door and Emma and Becca stood there, Emma's eyes locked on mine a knowing look in her eyes as she smirked. “You, bitch! You did not give up your vcard that fast did you? Because you sure as shit look worked the hell over in the best way, you're all glowing and shit.”

My face heated a hundred times hotter than the sun I swear. “Emma,” I yelled. My best friend had no filter, and while usually that was a good thing, well, it just embarrassed me today. She smacked Cole on the chest telling him good job as she grabbed my hand pulling me out the front door.

“I'll return your wife around dinner time. Thanks for sharing,” she called over her shoulder as we made our way down the steps and around the side of the building. I pouted a little as we got into the car. “What's wrong with you?”

“You didn't even let her kiss him goodbye, Emma. If I was her and I had
that
to kiss on, I'd sure be upset if I didn't take advantage.” Becca seemed more reserved than Emma, but I liked her already. She could tell how much Cole meant to me, and I knew I wouldn't have to worry about her trying to make a play for my boyfriend.

“Whatever, you'll both live. Now, let's go pick Kay out some sexy crotch less panties to put to good use!” She said laughing loudly, knowing exactly what to say to embarrass the hell out of me. “And just for the record, you really do look like he.”

“Emma! Oh my gosh, we did not have sex, okay!” Emma and Becca laughed so hard they were almost crying. We pulled up to a lingerie store and I shook my head in protest, I really thought she was joking when she had made that comment, but she wasn't taking no for an answer. Inside the store she picked out all sorts of things telling me Cole would be eating out of the palm of my hand when he saw me in these.

My stomach growled so loud the cashier laughed. I told Emma she needed to feed me as soon as we were done checking out, and she obliged. Sitting in the most loved Mexican food restaurant on campus, I inhaled the chips and salsa I was so hungry.

As we waited for our food I noticed a guy sitting at the bar who kept glancing our way. He looked a little like a creeper, but as long as he stayed where he was it didn't matter. Our food came out quickly, and I forgot all about the guy until all of a sudden he came and stood next to the table.

“You girls from around here?” He stumbled over his words glancing between the three of us, but his eyes pausing on me a little longer than the others. I knew the signs, had seen them over and over again over the last few years, he was on something.

Becca who was too nice for her own good, and who also had no idea of my past let alone the importance of keeping it quiet, told the man that she and Emma were, but I'd moved here a few months ago from Arizona or something. She laughed because she didn't really know where I'd moved from, just that it was on the other side of the continental United States. Unfortunately she was closer than she might think.

The guy's eyes flicked to mine briefly before turning back to Becca and asking if either her or Emma knew where this one building on campus was because he was supposed to be meeting someone there who owed him money. Now that story I believed.

Becca told him how to get where he needed to go, and he thanked her and walked down the hallway that would take him to the bathroom. “Well, that was weird,” Emma started. “Did you see the way he was looking at you?” She asked me and I nodded slowly. “Do you know him?” Part of me thought I did, but there was just no way. Everyone I would know did not live here, I made sure of that in moving so far away. I told her I didn't and we shrugged it off as he walked out from the hallway bathroom and out the front door.

“So I heard you and Brandon had a heart to heart. He said you told him you guys could only be friends before he ever brought up how he felt about it all. I'm proud of you, Kahlen.” She gave a big smile, Becca had a look on her face that let us know she was clearly confused, but she wasn't the type to butt into someone's conversation. I also didn't feel close enough to her to go into detail about everything yet, so we just left it at that.