Authors: Carole Llewellyn
In the wings Rhiannon hesitated as she waited to hear her surname. Then, realizing it wasn't coming, and prompted by a nudge from Clara, she ventured on stage. As rehearsed, and remembering what Clara had told her, she slowly made her way to centre stage and, facing the auditorium, smiled a confident smile, hoping it masked her inner turmoil.
Although she was aware of its being a packed house she was thankful to find that all she could see saw was the glow of the footlights at the end of the stage and, beyond that, a smoke-filled darkness.
Rhiannon heard the orchestra begin the opening bars of her song. She took a deep breath ... this was it. The cockney song began with a slow tempo. Luckily, on cue, Rhiannon found her voice... .
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Now, all me life I wanted to be a barrow boy
A barrow boy is all I've wanted to be.
I own the title I sticks to it with pride.
I'm a coster, a coster
From over the other side.
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As the music became louder and stronger so did Rhiannon's voice.
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I turned me back on all the ol' society.
I mingle where the big bananas grow.
I buys 'em twenty shilling
That's how I makes me living.
I ought to have been a barrow boy long ago.
Get off me barrow!
I ought to have been a barrow boy long ago.
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Then, as the orchestra played the melody, Rhiannon broke into a jaunty dance, dancing from one end of the stage to the other before returning to centre stage.
It was a slightly breathless Rhiannon who encouraged the audience, with a gesture of her hands, to sing along with her for a final chorus of:
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I buys 'em twenty shilling
That's how I makes me living.
I ought to have been a barrow boy long ago.
Get off me barrow!
I ought to have been a barrow boy long ago.
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At the end of the song, an overwhelmed Rhiannon listened as the audience showed their appreciation with loud applause, whistles and by stamping feet. As she removed her cloth cap, revealing her long unruly chestnut hair, she gave an elaborate bow. She couldn't believe that with just one song, she'd won over the whole house. She soaked up the applause. It was then that she knew â this was what she wanted.
As she left the stage her eyes glanced across at Gus. He smiled and showed his approval by joining in the audience applause.
Off stage Adam Fletcher caught around her. âWell done. You're a natural. I told you you could do it.'
âThank you, Adam. I can't wait to do it again.'
âWell, it seems you'll not have to wait long; the next show starts at ten past eight and, with no news as yet from Sally Webber, it looks as if you'll be going on again.'
Back in the dressing-room, while Clara helped her out of the costume the other girls were full of praise.
âWhat's this? It's addressed to you.' Clara picked Frank's letter off the floor.
âOh, it must have fallen from my skirt pocket.' Rhiannon quickly retrieved it. âIt's a letter from home. It came this morning. With all that been going on I haven't had time to open it. I think I'll save it until I'm back at the hotel.'
âA love letter from an old boyfriend, is it?'
âNo, don't be daft. It's from my neighbour's son; we're just friends.'
âIf that's the case, how come you're blushing, then? Fancy him, did you?'
Rhiannon poked her tongue out. âNow wouldn't you like to know?'
After returning the letter safely to her skirt pocket, she made her way to her aunt's dressing-room.
âWell done, child. I'm really proud of you,' Florrie gushed.
âI'll second that,' Walter piped in.
âOh, Aunt Florrie, Walter, I loved doing it. Do you think the audience liked me?'
âYes, child, I do believe they did.'
There was a tap on the dressing-room door.
âCome in,' Florrie called.
âMiss Grayson, Walter. I came to congratulate your niece on her performance.'
âThank you, Gus. We were just doing the same.'
Gus turned to Rhiannon, and as he did, reached out to take her hand. âCongratulations, Rhi. You did really well. The audience loved you.' He gently brushed the back of her hand with his lips.
The touch of his warm lips on her flesh aroused her. She blushed. The way he looked at her told her that he was fully aware of the effect he was having on her. His piercing eyes stared into hers. âI thought that, with your aunt's permission, and of course if you were agreeable, I might take you out for refreshments during the interval between shows.'
Rhiannon's heart skipped a beat. She was just about to accept his invitation when Florrie interjected.
âWhat a kind thought, Gus. And, once again, we are of the same mind. I was just about to send out for a tray of tea and sandwiches. With Rhiannon having another show in less than an hour, I think it best that she stays put, don't you?'
âOf course â I understand,' he answered. âAnother time, maybe?' With that he headed for the door.
Rhiannon's disappointment was obvious.
âCome, come, child. I assure you it's for the best.'
Aunt Florrie had spoken and Rhiannon knew there would be no further discussion.
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At seven o'clock, just over an hour before the second show performance, Rhiannon, with Clara's help, was just about to get into
the street urchin costume when she heard, âI'll take that, if you don't mind?'
Rhiannon turned and, much to her surprise, saw Sally Webber marching the length of the dressing-room.
âAs you can see, I'm fully recovered. I've spoken to Adam Fletcher and he agrees that I should take over for the next show.'
âAre you sure? I really don't mind doing it,' Rhiannon almost pleaded.
âNo, I bet you don't. But forget it. The spot is mine. By the way, Adam wants to see you.'
Rhiannon left the girls' dressing-room feeling totally dejected. Clara followed her out. âDon't feel too bad, eh? You did really well this afternoon. If the truth be known, Sally got to hear how good you were too. I'm sure there'll be other chances. Adam Fletcher can recognize talent a mile away.'
Rhiannon made her way to the front of the auditorium, where she knew she'd find Adam.
âHi, Rhi, you've obviously seen Sally,' Adam said.
Rhiannon nodded.
âDisappointed, eh?'
Again she nodded.
âI'm afraid there was nothing I could do. After all, it is her slot.'
âI know, but Adam I loved it so much, and now... .'
âSo, why not give the kid a slot of her own?' Gus called from his table at the side of the stage.
Rhiannon hadn't even noticed he was there.
âIf only it were that easy, Gus. You know the show is timed out. Where would I find an extra slot?' Adam asked.
âOne song, a four-minute slot. One less joke from Tom or one less illusion from Jack. An even simpler solution would be to merely shorten the interval by four minutes and your problem is solved.'
Adam rubbed his chin. âI suppose I couldâ'
âOh please, Adam. One song ... my own song? You know I can do it.'
âI'll tell you what I'll do. In three days' time I'm prepared to give you a proper audition. If you pass that, we'll take it from there.'
âThank you, Adam. You'll not regret it,' she said as she planted a kiss on his cheek.
Then, turning to Gus, she called. âThank you. I owe you one.'
He smiled and said, âI'm sure there'll be something you can do for me one day.'
âNow I wonder what that might be,' Adam scoffed.
Adam's sarcasm was lost on Rhiannon. She had already left the auditorium, heading for her Aunt Florrie's dressing-room. If she were to find a suitable song for the all-important audition, who better to advise her?
Rhiannon gave a light tap on the dressing-room door.
âCome in,' Florrie Grayson called.
Rhiannon entered.
As usual Florrie's dressing-room was a blaze of colour and filled with the heady perfume from the dozens of baskets of flowers, regularly sent from her adoring followers. The scent of the beautiful lilies closest to the door caught in Rhiannon's throat and made her cough. Florrie sat at her dressing table, the bright lights surrounding the mirror highlighting her still youthful-looking face.
Walter, relaxed on the
chaise-longue
in front of Florrie's ornately decorated changing screen, peered over
The Stage
newspaper and welcome her with a âHello there, young Rhi.'
Rhiannon, unable to control her excitement for a moment longer, blurted out, âAunt Florrie, Walter, I've such exciting news.'
âHave you dear, now there's a coincidence â so have we. But you first.'
âWell it's all down to Gus â Gus Davenport.'
With a raised gloved hand Florrie interrupted her. âRhiannon, must you be so familiar? Surely, at your age, it would be more appropriate to address him as Mr Davenport?'
âSorry, Aunt, but both Gus Davenport and Adam Fletcher insist I use their Christian names.'
Florrie gave a loud âTut-tut, it would never have happened in my day.' Then, âVery well, carry on.'
âAnyway,' Rhiannon continued, âGus suggested to Adam that I might be given my very own spot in the show and ... wait for it ... Adam is prepared to give me a “proper” audition and, if I pass that, then ... I'm on my way!'
âNow that is good news. How very exciting for you, and how very kind of Gus to interject on your behalf. Don't you agree Walter?'
Rhiannon didn't pick up on the sarcasm in Florrie's voice or the look of disapproval she flashed at Walter.
Walter muffled a cough, âQuite. But I think your good fortune has more to do with the great performance you gave as stand-in for Sally Webber this afternoon. Adam Fletcher is no fool. He, like the rest of us,
couldn't have helped but spot your obvious potential.'
âOh Walter, thank you. I do hope so. It's all happening so fast, I have to pinch myself to make sure that it's not a dream. Adam has given me the chance to prove my worth. All I need now is the right song ... Aunt Florrie? I thought, with your expertise, that you might be able to suggest one.'
âOf course, I'd love to. If this is truly what you want, then Walter and I, at least while we're still here, will do everything we can to steer you in the right direction. But be warned. This career you have chosen can often be a hard road to travel. And you'll do well to remember that only a lucky few ever reach the top of their profession. I've seen many a talented performer fail to achieve their true potential. Success has a lot to do with luck; getting the right breaks and being in the right place at the right time. That said, I can't deny that your good news has helped to ease my conscience.'
âWhy? I don't understand. What do you mean âwhile you're still here?'
âI can't say too much, because it's not settled yet. But Walter and I may soon be leaving for New York.'
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Back at the Angel Hotel an exhausted Rhiannon lay on the bed. What a day it had been: her magical appearance on stage, the disappointment when Sally returned in time for the second show, Gus speaking up for her, Adam agreeing to give her an audition. To think that in just a few days she might actually be given her own spot in the show. And what about the bombshell when her Aunt Florrie announced that she and Walter might be leaving for America? Could this really be? And then there was the letter... .
Rhiannon stared at Frank's letter, glad that she'd resisted the temptation to open it sooner; reading it now would make a fitting end to an almost perfect day.
8, The Terrace,
Ponty,
Near Bridgend,
Glamorgan
S. Wales.
26th March 1909
Dear Rhiannon,
It was so good to hear from you. Fancy you two girls living it up
with the toffs at the Angel Hotel. You won't want anything to do with us valley folk soon.
My mother sends her love, she hopes your aunt Florrie is looking after you and keeping you away from âthe rougher element of theatre life' whatever that means.
Is Mair still behaving herself? I know how difficult she can be. But then, if your mother had walked out on you? She's lucky to have a sister like you looking out for her. Although, having said that, you've been dealt a raw deal too. I often think of your dad and what he did for me and I want you to know that I will always be here for the two of you.
I'm doing my best to arrange a trip to Cardiff but, with my shifts down the pit, it's proving difficult. I'll try and wangle it somehow. It would be so good to see you.
Regards,
Frank
Rhiannon slowly folded the letter, wondering what Frank would say if he knew the truth about Mair. She'd thought the letter would be a great end to a great day. Instead it had made her realize how selfish and full of her own success she had been. She vowed to make things right with Mair. So that when Frank eventually made it to Cardiff the three of them would be together again.
May 1909
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Mair Parsons, alone in the Westgate Street apartment she shared with Harry and Nellie, lay on their crumpled double bed in the main room. Her own bedroom, although it had a double bed, was smaller, darker and much colder. She hated being here with Harry and Nellie and longed to be back at the theatre with Rhiannon and her friends. Since her arrival she hadn't even been out through the door.
Most mornings Harry left the digs early for work, leaving Nellie and Mair in their beds. Mair had taken an instant dislike to Harry. She didn't like the way he looked at her, the way his eyes almost undressed her, or the liberties he took, throwing his arms around her at every opportunity. This way his hands always managed to brush her chest area made her skin crawl.
Every morning, and only when she was sure that Harry had left for work, Mair would get herself out of bed and, before seeing to her own toilet and mindful not to wake Nellie, would proceed to light the small coal fire in the main room.
At around half past ten Nellie, usually suffering a hangover, surfaced and made a pot of tea while Mair toasted bread on a fork in front of the small open fire. By twelve o'clock Nellie would be all dolled up and ready to go out, leaving Mair to spend another day cooped up in the apartment.
âWhere are you going?' Mair had asked her earlier that day.
âIt's Saturday. There's a matinée at the theatre today, so I'm off to meet some friends in the Theatre Bar. Your being here has made it very awkward for me to bring anyone back. Thank goodness Harry thought to rent me a room at the King's Head,' Nellie mumbled under her breath.
Mair didn't understand what her mother was going on about. âCan I come to the theatre with you?' Mair asked, eager to see Rhiannon.
âNo, you certainly can't! I'll be back around six before Harry gets home from work. I'll bring us some hot pies for tea.'
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Most nights, depending on how much money Nellie handed him, Harry and Nellie went to the King's Head. Tonight was no exception.
âHow'd you do today?' Harry had asked, as he tucked into a huge plate of meat pie and mash.
âI did really well,' Nellie replied, handing him a wad of white five-pound notes.
âThat's my girl. We're in the money and on the way up. There's a lot more where this came from.'
âHarry, how much longer do I have to... ?'
Harry didn't let her finish, âI've been thinking, now that Mair has joined us, we might look for a bigger place. A place with maybe three or four rooms for ... more privacy, eh?'
âCan we afford it?' Nellie asked.
âYes, if all goes to plan.' He chuckled.
âWhat plan? Harry Stone, what are you up to?'
âI'll tell you when we get home.'
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On Saturday, a week later, Mair, with just the small flickering flame of the dwindling coal fire for comfort, covered herself with the coarse blankets.
Alone in the near darkness she felt so vulnerable and ... unloved. With Harry and Nellie even later than usual getting back from the pub, Mair's mind began to play tricks. Where were they? What if they never came back? Every day, to no avail, she had waited and hoped that Rhiannon would come to look for her.
âThat little madam's just like her Aunt Florrie â with all her airs and graces, she thinks she's too good for the likes of us,' Nellie had scoffed. âThey begged me to take you away from them. And I, out of the kindness of my heart, did just that. They didn't want you â you'd do well to remember that.'
Was this true? Had Rhiannon really been glad to be rid of her? If so, then maybe Harry and Nellie had just upped and left her too.
At that moment the door burst open and Harry, obviously the worse for drink, almost fell into the room.
Unusually, there was no sign of Nellie.
âThere she is. There's my little hidden treasure ... my own little pot of gold,' Harry slurred. Then, holding the door open, he called out, âCome on in, Jake, don't be shy. Come take a look at your prize.'
In the three days since she'd been there, no one had visited their digs. Who was this man Jake? Through the darkness Mair heard the shuffle of feet coming towards the bed and a terrible feeling of foreboding engulfed her. She lay perfectly still with her eyes closed tight. Maybe if they thought she was asleep they would both leave.
Mair heard a match strike alongside her. She opened her eyes slightly and watched as Harry lit the candle on the small table alongside the bed. As her eyes became accustomed to the light, she caught sight of a large ginger-haired man standing behind Harry.
âMair, are you awake?' Harry gave a loud belch and a strong smell of stale beer wafted over her. âMair, this is Jake ... he's my friend.' He gave a low, sinister chuckle, âAnd if he likes what he sees, soon to be your friend, eh Jake? Come on, girl. Look lively, get yourself out of bed, and let Jake see what a real prize you are.'
âNo â I don't want to,' Mair moaned.
Harry marched over to the bed and, making a grab for her wrist, roughly pulled her towards the edge of the bed. âYou'd better start heeding my every word, my girl, or else.'
Mair, freeing her wrist from his grip, threw him a look of defiance.
This caused the man called Jake to laugh aloud. âShe's a spirited little thing, isn't she?'
âNothing I can't sort out,' Harry assured him.
âNo â no, it was not a complaint, I like it.' He sniggered, his eyes practically undressing her.
Mair, aware of how her winceyette nightdress hugged her naked frame, reached for her woollen shawl, quickly draping it across her shoulder and breast.
âSo, what do you think?' Harry urged.
Jake continued to eye her from top to toe. âShe's lovely ... a virgin you say?'
âIf you find out otherwise, feel free to belt her one ... and me too for that matter,' Harry said. âSo, what do you think?'
âI'd say I'm interested â very interested. How's the bidding going?'
âIt's creeping up nicely. But I'm sure a man of your standing, if he was so inclined, would find it easy to outbid the rest of them,' Harry assured him.
Jake moved closer to Mair and, reaching up, made to stroke the side of her face. Mair responded, frantically snapping her teeth at his hand, only Jake's quick reaction saving a serious nip to his fingers. âWhat a little minx! She's certainly got spirit. I'll give you that.' Jake gave a loud belly-laugh. âHarry, my man, my interest has suddenly increased. Come let's head back to the pub to discuss the finer details.'
Before leaving, Jake leant towards Mair, âGoodnight, you sweet child, until the next time, eh?' He gave a sinister chuckle.
Mair felt sickened. Having overheard Harry and Nellie's many whispered discussions when they thought she was sleeping, concerning their âlittle nest egg', âforthcoming auction' and âyoung virgin', usually fuelled by drink, she was now only too aware of the seriousness of her predicament. As she was locked in from morning to night, she could see no way to escape her fate. If only Rhiannon ... She stopped herself. Who was she fooling? Nellie was right, her stepsister probably never gave her a second thought.