Rockstar's Girl (Decoy Series book 2) (11 page)

Before I can explode into her mouth I pull her free.She puts on her serious face.

"Are you clean?"

I don't blame her for asking me.

"I'm clean babe, I always use protection."

The only girl I've ever gone bareback with is Kendal.

"I'm on the pill."

I haven't had sex for so long I'll probably come within minutes.

~Kendal~

I watch as Jax decides on what to do. He's really killing me here. I push him off me and pull down his jeans chucking them on the floor. He doesn't put up a fight
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but when I slide down his boxers he starts to protest. I don't listen
;
I need him inside me now. Even if that means in my mouth, I need him.

With his boxes now down I get a look at my enormously big friend. Oh how I've missed you. It twitches and I look up to Jax's face to see him smiling down at me. I wrap my hand around his thick shaft and hold eye contact with him as I take Jax in my mouth. I watch as his eyes roll back in bliss and hear his groan of satisfaction.

I take him as far as I can go without gagging and work the rest of his cock with my hand because Jax is a very big boy. I've always marveled at how big his cock is. That's probably why I had such a good friendship with it.

I've only had him in my mouth for about a minute when he pulls out of my mouth. Before I can complain Jax rolls on top of me again.

"I think you have too many clothes on."

He pulls off my little shorts and cheekily swipes his tongue along my outer folds. He covers my body with his, settling himself in between my open legs. Jax's hard, defined body makes me feel soft and feminine. He looks me straight in the eye as he slips his hard shaft inside of me. I groan in delight and I see Jax's jaw tense. When he's all the way in he gives me a little peck on my forehead.

"I love you baby."

I feel like I could cry but I manage to hold my tears back.

"I love you too."

I love him so fucking much it hurts. As he pumps his delicious cock in and out it feels like he's reconnecting us. I look at his beautiful face, but Jax stops me from doing that as he kisses me again
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I'm glad he does because as he kisses me he picks up the pase. I'm so pleased because I would be screaming louder if he wasn't. Jax grabs my legs and places them over his shoulders, which makes him slide in even deeper.

"Oh God Jax!"

"Feel me baby."

Yes I can feel him alright. He's making my whole body quiver as he plays me like his guitar. Now that Jax isn't kissing me, my passionate sounds fill the room. Jax slams himself into me again and again. I start to feel the burn inside, it's coming but I don't want it to end. It feels so damn good
,
I thrust against him and meet him pound after pound. With every pump, slam and growl Jax brings my body closer to the edge.

"Come Kendal."

"Oh God."

He reaches down in between our connected bodies and rubs my clit which makes me scream into orgasm. As I'm floating in pleasure I feel Jax fill me with his fluid, which adds to the sensation. His legs are down and on top of my legs; he doesn't attempt to move from being on top of me. We come back down from our high together. I run my hand through Jax's hair and he breaths heavily on top of me. I immediately miss his heat when he lifts up off me.

I open my eyes to see him looking down at me. He's smiling that sexy charming smile that makes me horny all over again.

"I missed you princess."

"I missed you too."

We lay in bed together side by side. We decide to let our friends know that we're back together but not our parents or Finley yet.

Chapter 14

~Kendal~

Today is Wednesday, the first time Finley is going to sleep over at Jax's house. I made sure Jax told Max and Leo that he was over because I don't want any random women hanging around while my innocent young son is there. Not that I think they would do that while Finley's staying over.

Before Jax will take him over to his house, he has a surprise for him
;
an early birthday present. With what we have bought him already he has plenty but I let Jax have his way.

He found a music store out of town that sells child size acoustic guitars. There was no way I was letting him buy an electric one. Jax wants to teach Finley to play and I can't wait to watch.

This is the first time Jax and Finley will be together all day and overnight without me. From what I can tell they're both really excited. Finley has chosen what he wants to pack in his overnight bag and I can't help but feel a little nervous. The way he can be picky with his clothes can be a nightmare in situations like this. He packs a bag to my parents and he still changes his mind in the morning. That's why he has a selection of clothes over there. I just hope for Jax's sake Finley sticks with the clothes he has packed.

Over the last four days Jax and I have taken our new relationship slowly and I'm really enjoying every minute of it. Nothing has really changed, apart from the kisses we steal when we think Finley's not looking and the passionate nights he stays over in my bed until midnight. It's horrible when he has to leave me but until we tell Finley, he has to.

Our friends are really pleased for us. Even Sam, Mark and James seem happy for me and I'm so relieved that they are. I am so proud that they have finally managed to put their differences behind them, they are able to see Jax for who he really is and that he makes me very happy.

I think this happened when they all saw just how amazing Jax is with Finley and they can see how much Finley loves Jax. This has helped them to get over whatever it was they held against Jax and the band.

At 11:00am I know Jax has pulled up because I can hear Finley banging on the living room window and shouting at him. I am so thankful he is finally here to pick him up. Finley woke up at 6:45 this morning and since then; every couple of minutes he has asked me "is it time for Jax to come"

Finlay is so over excited it's giving me a headache!

Normally Jax would have been here earlier but today the band had to attend to some radio interviews. When Jax enters the front door I have a clear view of him
,
he’s standing in front of the sink having just washed the dishes. When he sends me a cheeky wink I can't help but blush. All images of last night rush through my mind.

We have spent every night since Wednesday together and we have enjoyed the bed, floor, wall and my shower very, very much.

Jax and Finley have their cuddle in the hallway and when he comes over to give me a welcome hug he whispers straight into my ear.

"I'm going to miss you so much tonight baby."

Those sweet words make my body tingle with need. I squeeze him hard and whisper that I love him. Jax gives me a kiss that seems way too short for my liking
,
but that's all I can get with two innocent little eyes here watching us.

When we break apart Finley is looking up at us with a big smile. Why does it feel so weird that our nearly four year old son really wants us to be together? I think we should tell him soon, it's obvious he would be happy about the news. As cheesy as this may sound, I know that this time it is forever. I know I don't want to leave Jax
;
I only just managed to leave last time because I thought I was doing what was right by him. I can't ever do that again. Not to me, not to Jax and most importantly
;
I can't do that to Finley.

Maybe as an extra birthday present we should let him know his mummy and daddy are boyfriend and girlfriend. Jax picks Finley up in his arms.

"Right little man, are you ready for an early birthday present?"

Finley's face lights up.

"Yes! What is it?"

"You'll have to wait and see. Go and say bye to mummy."

Finley gets down and runs over to me. While he's hugging me he cheekily whispers.

"Do you know what my present is mummy?"

"Yes."

I whisper back.

"Tell me. I won't tell daddy."

I laugh and hold him back at arm
’
s length.

"It's a surprise Finley. Now go and have a good time with daddy."

I give him a big kiss. I'm always sad when we separate.

"Be a good boy."

"OK mummy."

I smile as I watch him go and collect his overnight bag.

"I wish you could come with us."

I look over at Jax.

"Even if I wasn't at work today I still wouldn't come. You two need your father and son time together without me. You've missed out on enough because of me."

Jax quickly walks over to me and softly wraps his hand around the back of my neck.

"You need to stop thinking like that. We're all together now."

I look away from his face.

"I can't forget Jax. What I did to you-"

Jax cuts me off.

"I don't want to hear anymore Kendal. I don't think like that
,
so neither should you."

He gives me a deep kiss before I can speak again.

"Oooooooo! You're kissing!"

We quickly step apart and Finley is right there, wide smile and looking straight at us. Jax and I look at each other then break into laughter.

Be

I wave them off as they drive away in Jax's car
,
I can't help but think about what I have done to Jax. What I have stopped him from experiencing. How can he be OK with what I did? I know that he thinks about it because I sometimes catch him staring at old pictures of me and Finley. I really want to make it up to him. Maybe Finley's idea of a baby isn't so bad. I know I want to be with Jax for the rest of my life, I know I can't live without him. I won't say anything to him though because that topic of conversation is way too soon.

~Jax~

I wish Kendal were here to see this right now. Finley is looking at the row of child size guitars with a look of awe. As soon as I told him where we were he was bouncing in the car seat. I just had to buy him a guitar, the way he looked at me with amazement when he watched me play was priceless. A moment I won't ever forget. I knew he would love one of his own and as soon as I found the perfect shop
,
I had to bring Finley.

The shop was a little out of town but for what I wanted for Finley, it was perfect. Here Finley can get an acoustic guitar that's perfect for his size and it can be personalized however he likes.

Finley points to a black guitar that has red down the sides and under the strings. It's by far the best one here.

"I like that one daddy."

"Are you sure that's the one you want?"

"Yeah. It looks like a rock star one."

He makes me so proud. I let the owner know that it's the one. We're the only three people in here. I didn't tell Kendal that I closed the shop down for me and Finley. She didn't take it well when I did the same for his birthday. The thing is, sometimes it's just easier this way. I didn't want to risk being approached by fans while I'm here shopping with my son for his birthday.

When the owner brings out Finley's choice in guitar it's time to personalize it. He wants his name '
Finley Parker'
scrolled on the red side panel. Not long after I found out about Finley, Kendal and I had changed his surname from Kendal's to mine.

It was Kendal who wanted to change it as quick as possible, of course I wanted Finley to have my last name but I didn't want to anger or hurt Kendal. There was no need to tell Finley about this, because I don't think he would understand what we were telling him.

In white writing on the black front he wants
'Rock Star.'
surrounded by white stars. It's going to look awesome, it would usually take a couple of weeks to complete but I want it finished in time for Finley's birthday on Friday. It's amazing what flashing a little cash can do.

When that's all done
,
we make our way through the crowd of paparazzi to my car and go to the McDonald's drive through before we head home. While we are at McDonald's Finley turns to look at me all serious looking.

"Are Uncle Max and Uncle Leo at your house?"

"Yes."

"What about their dinner?"

"They'll be fine."

"No daddy, that's not nice."

Admitting defeat I ring Max and ask if they want anything. Of course they say yes and it's not exactly a small order.

"Wow! A lot of food."

"That is because they're pigs."

That makes Finley throw his head back and laugh loudly.

"You are funny daddy."

My heart doubles in size. This little boy. My son, he is bringing me so much joy to my life. Along with his mother these two are giving me more happiness than I ever thought possible. Everybody says that Finley is my double
,
but at times all I can see is Kendal reflected in Finley. He has her caring nature and her laugh. Just then when he exploded into laughter, he was all Kendal.

When I drive up the private road that leads to the house that I share with Max and Leo, I feel a little nervous. This is the second time Finley has come over
;
the first time was when Kendal and Finley came to see where I live. It's just beginning to hit me that I have Finley to myself until 4:00pm tomorrow when Kendal finishes work. I know that Max and Leo are also here, but it's different without Kendal. I don't have her to lean on with the parental side of things. This will be good for me. I understand why Kendal wanted to give us some alone time now.

I haven't even parked the car when Max and Leo come running out of the front door. Leo opens the door near Finley and picks him up. I'm very happy that these two get on so great with Finley. I'm glad to finally see a genuine smile on Leo's face for once. I don't know what happened on the night I had a fight with Harley
,
but ever since then Leo has been in a worse mood than before.

"Hey buddy! What are you doing here?"

Finley chuckles.

"Uncle Leo, I'm sleeping here!"

"Really?"

Finley nods his head quickly.