Sacrifice (13 page)

69

O
utside, in the air. Luke had gone off with Terry Happy kid, fascinated with the secrets the older boy was going to show him. I handed Doc my pack of smokes without him asking.

"You ever see it before?" I asked him.

"Multiple Personality Disorder? Sure. I did a stint in a mental hospital while I was interning. You see it in women much more than men. Never saw a kid before, but it's supposed to always start in childhood…we're just not around to pick it up."

"You're sure?"

"The personalities have names. Different voices. The last one…you felt his strength?"

"Yeah. I could barely hold him."

"The big thing…he's amnesic. He loses time. You ask him what happened down there, he won't know. Push him hard enough, and he'll make it up…fill in the gaps."

"Lily says he does that. Fakes it."

"He's not faking, Burke. What he does, it's called confabulation. He can't account for the lost time, doesn't know what happened. But he knows
something
did. He's not ready to let anybody see his secret."

"Does he know we know?"

"No…I don't think so. Maybe some small part of him, some observer–personality. Sometimes, one of the personalities can listen in on what the others are doing. I don't know how distinct the splits are…there may be more of them inside."

A dog howled in the distance.

"He killed those babies," I said.

"Luke didn't…it was the other one. They're as separate and distinct as you and me."

"Tell it to the judge."

"I know."

"How'd he…?"

"Get like that? Take a highly intelligent, sensitive child, subject him to intense, inescapable trauma …and he learns to dissociate. Escape inside his head. Splitting, it starts as. Some kids, it gets real. Child abuse, especially sexual abuse, that's the key predisposing factor."

"It's not genetic?"

"Not a chance. Two multiples could mate, and you wouldn't get another one from the union. Unless…"

I looked across at him, waiting. "Unless they did the same things to him."

"You think…?"

"I don't know what I think. This much you can take to the bank: you don't get a multiple personality without some severe, chronic trauma. Intense deprivation, torture…you know the game, how they play it. It'll take a while to sort it out. Lots of sessions. He's a good hypnotic subject…but he's got to feel safe before we can do anything."

"Is there a program?"

"The way you treat multiples is with individual psychotherapy. Outpatient, generally. They save the closed facilities for the dangerous ones. When one of the personalities is homicidal. Or an arsonist, a rapist, whatever."

"You know a place?" I asked him.

"None that would take a kid."

70

I
knew places that would take Luke. The same places that took me when I was a kid. They got different names for them, but they're all the same.

When I got my growth, I found other places. Places where Luke had already paid the price of admission. Places where they'd never look for him.

71

"Y
ou can never leave him alone," I told Immaculata. "Never, you understand?"

Luke was in the armchair across from us, the baby Flower balanced carefully on one small knee, a picture book opened flat on the other. Talking quietly to the baby, his spindly arm around her back, pointing at the pictures. He felt our eyes.

"I'm teaching her to read," he said. Luke's voice.

"That's very sweet, Luke," Immaculata said. "Could you read when you were so little?"

"Oh yes."

"And who taught you?"

"They did. They taught me…" Rapid eye blinks, bead of sweat on the bridge of his nose.

"You love the baby, Luke?" I asked, moving close to him like I wanted to talk, hands ready. "She's a beautiful baby, isn't she, Luke?" Saying his name, anchoring the peg in the slot.

"Everyone loves Flower," he said, himself.

"It's time for her nap," Immaculata said.

"I'll put her to bed."

Max stepped into the room. Bowed to Luke, then to me, then to Mac. He reached down, took the baby from Luke, his scarred hands armor plate around the delicate skin. Flower gurgled happily, safe.

"Go with Max, see if he needs help," Immaculata told Luke. "Make sure he's careful."

"I'll watch him," Luke said.

I lit a smoke. "You have it worked out?" I asked her.

"Yes. Teresa, the psychiatrist…do you know her?"

I shook my head no.

"Well, she says Luke has to have a routine, something he can trust. So she's going to see him every day, six days a week, one day off. Some days we'll take him to her office, some days she'll come to him. Mornings, I'll drop him off at Mama's—if somebody comes in there, there's a dozen places he can hide."

"After dark?"

"Luke will sleep here. With us. Flower's crib is in our room, between the window and the bed."

"He may try anyway…Max understands?"

Her sculptured face turned up to mine. "Better than I do," she said.

72

I
went back to earning my living. Pulled the Plymouth into a spot on Central Park West, got out, sniffed the air. A large, frizzy–haired woman in an orange muumuu was trying to wedge her old Toyota into a spot between a white Honda Prelude and a beige Mercedes sedan using the park–by–Braille technique. She left them both worse for wear, stepped out, patted her hands together in satisfaction. I snapped the lead on Pansy. The woman noted the lack of a pooper–scooper in my hand, made a face like she smelled something bad. I stepped into the park.

Ten–thirty in the morning, most of the citizens already at work. A man and a woman came up the path, wearing matching shorts and jogging jerseys. Even had the same numbers on the back. Cute. Pansy sat next to me as I lit a cigarette. The woman grimaced disapproval as they pranced by.

A white stretch limo purred past, the back windows blacked out. "Very subtle, Carlos," I thought to myself, dragging on the cigarette, watching like I'd been taught. By now, I knew what was in the limo. One of the Prof's pack worked in the detailing shop where Carlos' driver brought the car in every week for sweetening. Cellular phone, color TV with VCR, fax machine, hand–rubbed teak bar with cut–crystal decanters, cashmere throw rugs on the blue leather seats, a pullout mirror so
el jefe's
girlfriends could check their makeup before they hit the clubs. A hidden compartment in a hollowed–out door panel. Not for drugs: Carlos didn't touch the extra–strength dreamdust he peddled. No tiny rocks of crack for this boy—he dealt in weight. You want to cut it yourself, step on it, bake it, fry it, that's up to you.

It always worked the same way. The limo would glide to a stop—a man on a bike would pedal up alongside, a nylon gym bag slung over his left shoulder. The window would whisper down as the biker held the bag open. Something would drop in and off he'd go.

By now, we knew where the transfer–man went. Steaming along the bicycle path like he was leading the Tour de Chump, he'd leave the park and merge with the street traffic. A car would pull up alongside him. Sometimes a sedan, sometimes a wagon. Once it was a panel truck. A hand would reach out from the passenger side, pluck the bag from his shoulder.

Once we had it down just right, it would be our hand reaching for the cash.

The Prof was somewhere in the park, his pack scattered around. Hard–souled homeboys, paying their tuition to the master, OJT on the highwire. One slip and it's Attica.

I patted Pansy's sleek head, sitting next to her on the grass, back to myself.

73

W
hat kind of dog is that?"

She was a chunky, freckle–faced woman, reddish–brown hair bursting in all directions from under the sweatband around her head, wearing a plain gray sweatshirt over blue bicycle pants, slate–colored running shoes. Little pug nose, china–blue eyes.

"A Neapolitan mastiff," I said.

"I never saw one before. Are they rare?"

"She
is. The world's finest dog, aren't you, girl?" Pansy grinned happily, probably thinking of a marrow bone, how they cracked in her jaws before she got to the sweet center.

"What're you doing here?"

I looked hard into her innocent eyes, wondering how old she was.

"Exercising my dog—she needs room to run."

"You let that big dog off the leash?"

"Meaning I don't look like I run with her?"

"You're not dressed for it." She chuckled.

"I'm on my way to work."

"What do you do?" Hands on hips, tip of her tongue just poking past her lips.

I looked up at her, face flat. "What do
you
do?"

"I'm a hit–woman," smile slashing across her broad face. "Trying to kill this cellulite." Smacking the back of one thigh.

"I hope you don't overdo it."

"Why?"

"Women do that. You all have a mass psychosis about weight."

"If we do, it's men who gave it to us."

"Not guilty," I said, trying a smile.

"That's what they all say," she shot back, pulling her sweatshirt over her head, tying it around her waist. Her breasts flared under a white T–shirt as she arched her back.

I lit a cigarette. Her nose didn't wrinkle.

"Could I pat your dog?" she asked.

"Only if she likes you," I told her.

"How would I know?"

"If she likes you, she'll…Wow! Look at that," I said, marveling at how Pansy lay down in response to my hand signal.

"That means she likes me?"

"Sure."

She dropped to her knees on the grass, stroking Pansy expertly, talking to her.

"You have a dog?"

"I had a dog. Blackie. When I was a kid. I still miss him."

Pansy's slab of a tongue lolled from her wide mouth, enjoying the attention.

"Would you like to have dinner with me sometime?" she asked.

"Yes."

"I'm Belinda Roberts."

I held out my hand for her to shake, told her one of my names.

"I'll write down my number. Do you have a piece of paper?"

"I'll remember it," I told her.

She pulled my eyes with hers, seeking the truth. Finally nodded.

"Okay," she said.

Got to her feet, tied the sweatshirt around her neck, jogged off. Very fine.

74

T
he white limo whispered by again. Empty now.

Done for the day, I got to my feet, unsnapped Pansy's lead, told her to heel. She took the point on my left side, shoulder against my thigh.

I cut through the trees to where I'd parked. A black man in a black suit sitting on a tree stump stood up as I approached, a dull silver automatic in his hand.

"Just stand still, mahn."

I stopped, Pansy next to me.

"I don't have any money," I said, letting fear snake its way into my voice to settle him down.

"This is no robbery, mahn. Just come along with me. Somebody wants to talk with you."

"Who?"

"Don't be stalling now, mahn. Just come along, take a nice ride."

"I'm not going anywhere, pal."

"Yes, you're coming, Mr. Burke. See, we know you. Don't be stupid, now."

"You won't hurt me?"

"No, mahn, we don't hurt you."

"What about my dog?…I can't leave her here."

"Just tie her to a tree, mahn. You be back very soon. Nobody take a big dog like that."

"But…"

"Last chance, mahn."

"Okay, okay," I said, reassuring him, reaching over to snap the leash on my dog, talking to her. Just as I was about to fasten the leash, I said, "Pansy, sit!," watching the gunman almost imperceptibly relax at the words just as Pansy launched herself without a sound, clamping her vise–grip jaws on his arm. I picked his gun off the grass, snapped "Out!" at Pansy, and she backed off. The gunman was down, moaning, left hand gripping his right forearm, blood bubbling between his fingers.

"My arm! She crushed the bone, mahn! It's all water in there."

"Who wants me?" I asked him, bending close, patting his body, looking for another gun—came up empty. "You need a doctor, need one bad," I said. "Tell me and you can go."

Creamy dots on his dark–skinned face, pain in his eyes.

"You want the dog again?" I asked.

His eyes shot around the clearing. It was empty, nobody around. I felt ice in my spine—was Clarence in on this?

"Thana," he muttered.

"What?"

"Queen Esther Thana, mahn. The Mamaloi." His eyes sweeping the area again, looking for something.

"You know my name. Tell her to call me. On the phone, understand?"

He grunted something, sounded like yes. The gunman could walk himself into the Emergency Room. Where the triage nurse would ask him if he had Blue Cross.

I turned away, pocketed his gun, slapped my thigh for Pansy to come along.

Clarence was sitting on a bench near my car. "Better let me hold the gun, mahn," he said.

I palmed it to him.

"There was another one with him," Clarence said. "They have a car waiting for you. One block down," indicating with his eyes. "Better come with me."

He got up and started in the other direction. I walked next to him, Pansy right alongside.

"What happened to the other one?" I asked him.

The cobalt eyes were calm. "He's still there," Clarence said.

75

C
larence opened the back door of his Rover. I gave the signal and Pansy clambered inside. Clarence threw a smooth U–turn on CPW, heading back downtown.

"Where shall I drop you, mahn?"

"How come you were around today, Clarence?"

He shrugged his slim shoulders, face expressionless. "I'm just a soldier, mahn."

"Then take me to the general," I told him.

76

C
larence turned east on Fifty–seventh, working his way to the FDR, then south to the Brooklyn Bridge.

"That's some dog you got, mahn. Never saw something so big move so fast."

"She's the best," I said, reaching back to pat my pal.

"Pretty woman you got there too, mahn."

"Pretty woman?"

"Yes, mahn. In the park. Pretty woman. Nice big butt on her. Never trust a woman with one of those little–boy butts, it's a sure sign."

"Who told you that?"

"Everybody knows, mahn. Big butt, big heart."

I thought of my Blue Belle, gone now. The fire–scar on Flood's rump. Blossom walking away. Maybe it was true.

I rolled down my window, lit a smoke. "You saw the woman in the park?"

"Yes, mahn. Like I said. Good age on her too. Not like some of those flighty young girls. Just right for an old man like you."

"Yeah. You were there a long time, huh?"

"All the time, mahn. Ever since you call Jacques."

"How'd you pick me up?"

"Easy enough, mahn. Your car, the places you go, all like that."

"Where else?"

"The shelter–place. The one for kids. The restaurant. I'm a shadow, mahn. Thin and dark. Nobody sees."

"I appreciate what you did, Clarence."

"You have been our friend, mahn. Jacques said."

"Here's some friendly advice for you, Clarence. Don't go into that restaurant."

"I know, mahn."

"Who told you…Jacques?"

"Everybody knows, mahn."