SAVAGE LOVE (A Back Down Devil MC Romance Novel) (14 page)

“
It
’
s okay,
”
Ella said with a smile.
“
I
’
m
used to being alone so much this is a nice change.
”

“
I
don
’
t think anyone is ever
alone around here,
”
Mia
said.
“
The guys love their
women and aren
’
t afraid to
take hold. Trust me.
”

Love their women.

“
Well,
with me and Miller, it
’
s
different. There
’
s a past
there.
”

“
Hey,
Nate caught me following him,
”
Mia said.
“
I was held
captive in a room. Nate was my guard. And we ended up
…”

“
My
best friend was killed the night I met Gaige,
”
Emily said.
“
There is some
crazy stuff that goes on around here all the time.
”

Beck made a noise and Ella welcomed
the distraction. She didn
’
t
need to walk down memory lane with these women. Because she didn
’
t feel like talking about
herself and Miller.

After burping the baby, Ella
offered Beck some more milk and he was more than happy to indulge.

“
Hungry
this morning,
”
Ella said,
staring down at Beck.

She smiled, forgetting for a few
seconds that she wasn
’
t
alone in the room. Reality was a cruel friend to have sometimes, especially
right then when Ella reminded herself of the hell she had stepped into.

Beck continued to feed and Ella
looked at Emily and Mia, wanting to say something to them. Before she could
muster up something to say, the door exploded open.

“
Miller,
brother
…”

It was Blaine.

He stood with the door opened and
made the connection of what was happening.

To Ella, any half decent human
would apologize and shut the door. Any asshole would at least look away or
shield their face. But this was Blaine. And while Ella didn
’
t know much about him, she sat
there, a baby to her breast, and watched as Blaine stared and then a few
seconds later licked his lips.

“
Do
you mind?
”
Ella finally
asked.

“
Jesus
Christ, not at all,
”
Blaine said.
“
Am I next?
”

“
Are
you kidding me?
”
Emily
yelled. She rushed to the bed and grabbed a blanket.

Ella turned and Emily put the
blanket to her shoulders, shielding Ella.

“
Whoa,
whoa, I
’
m sorry,
”
Blaine said.
“
I just
…
I mean
…
damn
…
tits
…
milk
…”

“
Blaine!
”
Mia said.
“
She
’
s feeding her baby.
”

“
And
feeding my freaking mind,
”
Blaine said.
“
I
’
m looking for
…”

“
What
in the hell is this?
”
a
voice boomed.

Ella looked back and saw Miller put
a hand to Blaine
’
s
shoulder.

“
I
was looking for you,
”
Blaine said.
“
But I walked in and your
girl
’
s got her tit
…”

Miller slapped Blaine across the
face. Blaine fell out of the room, tripped over the cot, and ended up on the
floor.

“
Fuck,
bro,
”
Blaine said.

“
You
two,
”
Miller said, pointing
to Emily and Mia.
“
Get the
fuck out. Right now.
”

The two women left without saying a
word. Mia shut the door and Miller stood there, staring at Ella.

“
What
the hell is going on?
”
Miller asked.

Ella wiggled her shoulder and let
the blanket fall from her. She turned just enough to show Miller what exactly
was going on.

“
I
’
m feeding my son,
”
Ella said.

“
Blaine saw?
”

“
A
little.
”

“
He
said something stupid?
”

“
Yeah.
”

“
I
’
ll kill him.
”

“
Don
’
t bother,
”
Ella said. Beck became unlatched and his eyes were
heavy, starting to fall asleep already again. Ella balanced the sleeping baby
with one hand and tried to adjust herself but was having no luck. She finally
looked up to Miller and sighed.
“
Can
you help?
”

“
Sure,
”
Miller said. He crouched down
before Ella.

She saw him battling his own will
not to stare at her exposed breast. But his eyes kept moving from her eyes to
her breast. Over and over.

“
Can
you take Beck?
”
Ella asked.

“
Yeah.
”

Miller reached forward to take the
baby. As his fingers scooped around the back of the baby
’
s head, Miller
’
s
fingertips touched Ella
’
s
breast, making her jump. Her breasts were always extra tender, sometimes sore,
after feeding Beck. But the fact that it was Miller touching her - accidentally
or not - it made it ten times worse.
Or better.

As Miller stood up, holding Beck,
the baby looked so tiny in his large hands.

Ella hurried to tuck her breast
away and then stood up too.

“
I
woke up and you weren't out there,
”
Ella said.
“
I grabbed
something to eat and Emily and Mia introduced themselves. Then Beck needed to
eat so I came back here
…”

“
You
don
’
t need to explain
yourself to me, darling,
”
Miller said.
“
I had to take
care of something this morning. It
’
s
all good. You
’
re still
safe. Nothing to worry about.
”

Ella watched as Miller started to
bring Beck closer to his chest. He wasn
’
t
afraid of holding the baby and wasn
’
t
afraid to care.

“
You
can put him down on the bed,
”
Ella said.
“
I
’
m going to get him changed.
”

“
Okay,
”
Miller said. He bent and put
the baby on the bed.
“
Christ,
I wish I could sleep like that.
”

“
Me
too,
”
Ella said.
“
He
’
s
innocent, that
’
s why.
”

Miller looked at Ella.
“
Not a chance, darling. That baby
is far from innocent.
”

Ella nodded and felt her throat
tighten.
“
Yeah. You
’
re right.
”

Miller touched her back and pulled
her toward him.
“
Hey, that
’
s okay though. He
’
s in good hands. Those women, I
trust them. They
’
re with
patched in members, okay? They
’
re
good women. Mia
’
s uncle was
the judge.
”

“
What?
”
Ella asked.

“
Yeah.
So she knows what it
’
s all
about. I
’
m telling you this
because if you need a woman
…
I don
’
t know, for anything,
just know you can trust them.
”

“
Thank
you. For all of this again, Miller. I can figure out what to do from here
though.
”

“
No
you can
’
t,
”
Miller said.
“
You
’
re here and staying here. I have someone coming in
to help with all this.
”

“
Who?
”

“
Club
business. It
’
s a table
thing. I shouldn
’
t even be
saying this to you.
”

“
But
you are. Why?
”

“
To
make you feel a little at ease maybe,
”
Miller said.
“
I just want
you to be able to exhale. Like you did last night.
”

Ella felt the color rush to her
face.
“
Miller
…
what happened
…”

“
I
get it,
”
Miller said.
“
I slept on the cot. I
’
ll sleep there again, too. No
worries, darling. That was just
…”

“
Something
waiting to happen,
”
Ella
said.
“
Because of how it
ended with us.
”

“
Ended,
”
Miller said and grinned.
“
I don
’
t remember anything ending. Just pausing.
”

Miller pulled at Ella again and
planted a kiss to her head. He then moved away from her, leaving her reaching
for him, her jaw dropped.

I don
’
t remember anything
ending. Just pausing.

Ella felt her body tingling and
aching, again.

thirteen.

Miller put a hand out and lifted Blaine to his feet. He then put a hand to Blaine
’
s
throat and pushed him against the wall. He held there, gritting his teeth,
wanting to kill the son of a bitch once and for all.

Blaine didn
’
t fight back. He knew what he did was sick and
wrong.

But it was Blaine. If he caught
some woman breastfeeding and didn
’
t
do his best to make everyone feel uncomfortable that meant something was wrong
with him.

“
I
should kill you,
”
Miller
said and pushed away.

“
For
what? That was fucking amazing.
”

“
Christ,
man. What is wrong with you?
”

“
I
’
m amazing. Milk from a tit.
”

“
If
you say something about Ella one more time I
’
m
going to drop you.
”

Blaine put his hands up.
“
Fair enough. Change of subject
then.
”

“
First
up, what did you want?
”
Miller asked.
“
You don
’
t just get to barge into my room
anymore, for the obvious reason.
”

“
I
apologize for that, Miller. I
’
m
not used to you having a woman in your room that matters. And I swear I didn
’
t see much of anything. Just the
idea of it
…”

“
Blaine.
”

“
Right,
right. Stay on track.
”
Blaine rubbed his forehead.

Miller couldn
’
t believe the sight of Ella
breastfeeding got to Blaine so much.

Then again, why the fuck not?

Her breasts were beautiful. Thick
and full. Providing.

Miller made fists and shook his
head.
“
Goddammit, man, now
you
’
ve got me thinking
about it.
”

“
You
get to get those things though,
”
Blaine said.
“
You could
suck on them, Miller. You could dri..
”

“
Hell
no,
”
Miller said.
“
What the fuck do you want right
now?
”

“
You
took prospects on a secret run,
”
Blaine said.
“
Not my
business, but come on
…”

“
For
the table,
”
Miller said.
“
Leave it at that.
”

“
Okay.
I
’
ve got a friend. She
works in the department.
”

“
Frelen
PD?
”

“
Yeah.
”

“
You
’
re fucking cops now?
”

“
Hey,
”
Blaine said.
“
She
’
s tall, strong as hell, and I don
’
t mind being cuffed once in a
while.
”

Miller shook his head again.
“
Sick, man, sick.
”

“
What
’
s sick is what she lets me do
with her nightstick,
”
Blaine said.
“
Fucking wild.
”

“
Get
to the point.
”

“
She
was looking for a fuck,
”
Blaine said.
“
She gave me a call today
and wanted to make plans. Told her I was already hard and waiting. She couldn
’
t come this morning because she
said Jerry had everyone running around like crazy, working on warrants.
Something big going down.
”

“
Fuck.
”

“
Yeah.
Fuck. I didn
’
t get my dick
sucked.
”

“
I
don
’
t give a shit about
your dick,
”
Miller said.

“
I
do,
”
Blaine said.

“
Get
Gaige right now.
”

“
He
’
s going to suck my dick?
”

“
Seriously?
You
’
re a fuck, brother. A
true fuck. We need to figure out what Jerry is after.
”

“
Is
it not obvious?
”
Blaine asked. He then pointed behind Miller.

Miller looked back at the door.

He was coming for his wife -
ex-wife
- and kid.

“
Not
going to happen,
”
Miller
said.
“
You saw Ella
’
s face, right?
”

“
Not
going to lie,
”
Blaine said.
“
I wasn
’
t looking at her face at all.
”

“
Asshole,
”
Miller growled.
“
Jerry beat her up. That
’
s why she came running to us. To
me. This is on me, man. I don
’
t
want to put the club in danger but I have no choice. I can
’
t let Ella and that baby go back
with him.
”

“
Now
she
’
s a prize,
”
Blaine said.
“
He
’
ll
use it all against us. It
’
s
baggage.
”

“
I
know. We
’
re not supposed to
have baggage either. But at this point, Blaine, if it costs me the patch, so be
it.
”
Miller grabbed the
edge of the President
’
s
patch and tugged at it.
“
I
’
ll rip this off right now.
”

“
Christ,
brother,
”
Blaine said.
“
She means something to you, huh?
”

“
You
have no idea. I have to do this the right way this time.
”

“
Okay,
”
Blaine said.
“
I
’
m
on your side. Not because I believe in love and all that shit, but because I
want you to get to suck on those tits. You need it.
”

“
I
hate you,
”
Miller said and
started to move.

“
No,
you don
’
t,
”
Blaine said.

“
Listen
to me. Get Gaige and the table. Outside right now. I want five prospects in the
hallway, with guns. If Jerry comes and tries any muscle to get Ella or Beck, we
’
re firing back at him right now.
”

Blaine nodded.
“
Shit. Okay.
”

Miller opened the door and caught
Ella turning, standing topless.

“
Dammit,
”
Miller groaned. He turned his
head.
“
Sorry.
”

“
I
am,
”
Ella said.
“
I should have locked the door.
”

Beck was nowhere to be found.

“
Where
’
s the kid?
”

“
Sleeping
in the bed you made. He
’
s
crashed hard now.
”

Ella looked over her shoulder. She
was so fucking beautiful. She still had those innocent touches of young woman
lingering but goddamn she was all woman. Her skinny shoulders down to her wide
hips.

Miller felt his cock readying, as
though he could just walk up behind her and fuck her. What his body and heart
wanted his mind refused to let happen.

“
I
need to talk to you for a second,
”
Miller said.

Ella snatched a bra off the bed and
started to put it on. Seeing but not really seeing was damn torture for Miller.
When Ella reached back and tried to clasp the bra, Miller came forward.

“
Let
me,
”
he said.

He grabbed the bra and hooked it.
Definitely not a thing Miller was used to at all. He put his hands to Ella
’
s shoulders and pulled, bringing
her back to his chest. She turned her head and looked at him. Now Miller couldn
’
t take it anymore.

He kissed Ella. His lips, his
tongue, he needed to taste her, explore her, savor her. Ella reached back with
her left hand, grabbing at the back of Miller
’
s
head. Her fingers dug at his head, wanting more. Fuck, she always wanted more.

Miller felt his hands slide down
her back and around.

He broke the kiss and sucked in a
breath.

“
Goddammit,
”
he said.
“
We can
’
t. We fucking can
’
t,
darling.
”

“
I
know,
”
Ella said.
“
But I can
’
t help it.
”

“
Listen.
Jerry might be coming here right now.
”

Ella jumped away from Miller. She
spun around, standing in a bra and PJ bottoms.

Everything about her screamed
perfect. She was the calming force that could make the world seem right all the
while destroying everything Miller knew. He never experienced love or cared
about it since Ella. And now she was back.

“
What
are you talking about?
”
Ella asked.

“
Blaine got some information. That
’
s why
he came looking for me. What I need you to do is stay here. Right in this room
no matter what. I
’
m lining
the hallway with prospects. They
’
ll
be armed. Nothing will happen to you.
”

Ella shook her head.
“
No. No. No way. I have to go. I
can
’
t be here and wait for
him to attack me again.
”

“
Nobody
is going to attack you, darling.
”

“
You
don
’
t know that.
”
Ella ran a hand through her
hair.
“
I
’
m leaving. I
’
ll take my car or I
’
ll call a cab.
”

She made a move and Miller grabbed
her arm.
“
Hey.
”

Ella turned and a hand came across
Miller
’
s face. It stung for
a few seconds and he let Ella go. She then stumbled back and put her hands to
the wall.

“
Don
’
t hit me,
”
Ella said.

Miller looked at Ella. He touched
his cheek.
“
You think I
’
d hit you?
”

“
I
don
’
t know. I
’
m
…
I
’
m so scared right now.
”

Miller approached Ella with
caution.
“
Scared? I
understand that. You have every right to be scared. To be angry. You have every
right to want to swing at me even. I
’
ll
take it. You
’
re worth it.
But if you ever think for a second I
’
d
raise my hand to you
…
no.
Never. Goddammit, darling, never.
”

“
Miller
…”

“
No,
”
he growled.

He came forward and kissed Ella
again. He couldn
’
t help
himself, again. Their mouths opened and they went at it hard and fast. The kiss
was hot, sloppy, perfect. Better than any wake up Miller could possibly have in
the morning.

He put his hands to her waist and
held her tight against the wall. He broke the kiss and went right for her neck.
Her smooth skin tasted delicious, the tip of Miller
’
s tongue slicing down her neck to her chest. The
smell of her hair, her skin, it was driving him crazy.

As he kissed to her breasts, he
hungered for so much more. His hands then turned, sliding along her hips,
moving her pants down.

Ella put her hands to Miller
’
s head and hair but she did not
dare stop him now. It was far too late, just like last night. When the moment
hit, it hit bad. And with each sensual kiss down Ella
’
s body, Miller knew he was traveling into more and
more dangerous territory.

But it was too good to pass up.

At her belly button, he flickered
his tongue, feeling her wiggle and groan. Then he kept going. He saw and felt
small lines in her skin, the remembrance of being pregnant. Ella tried to put
her hand between his mouth and her belly, obviously self conscious of the lingering
small stretch marks.

Miller wasn
’
t going to allow that to happen. He nibbled at her
fingers, chasing her hand away.

“
Everything
is beautiful,
”
he
whispered, staring up.
“
I
promise you, darling. Never fear a thing with me, Ella. No matter what.
”