Authors: Faith Baldwin
“Sure, he suggested it,” Tom said, astonished, “in the first place.”
Sarah was remembering. Dwight's question. Her answer, abstractedly given. She had seen Dwight and Bob Rawlson talking one day, on the main banking floor in a corner apart.
Dwight had done very well lately. She had heard he was going abroad, was, for a little space, retiring, on a long vacation. He had even said it to her carelessly, “I rate a vacation, do I not?”
But how on earth had Dwight first stumbled across Rawlson's path?
She asked Tom suddenly, “Do you know where Bob Rawlson livesâat home, I mean?”
“Why, yes,” he answered, “it isn't far from here. Why?”
“Go there,” ordered Sarah, “now, this instant! Never mind how late it is. Make him tell you to whom he has talkedârecently. Force him to. You won't have to use much persuasion. After all, he approached you first. But find out.”
“ButâLynn?” he asked. “Sarah, I'm nearly crazy. If you could have seen themâIâI damned near went in there and dragged her away from him. Iâyou know how I feel about her. I've been a fool, keeping away out of pride, stubbornness, call it anything you want. If only I'd come back, made her listen to
me, brought Bob to see her, if necessary! But I couldn't understandâit seemed an awfully small thing to come between us. Even,” he said defiantly, “even if I
had
done it.”
“It wouldn't be small to Lynn. But you didn't do it. I'll talk to Lynn. Go now and see if you can find Rawlson, tonight. Leave it to me,” said Sarah, and rose, tall, erect, a little white.
Somehow he knew he could trust her. He left and went out to find Bob Rawlson.
Sarah went downstairs and spoke to the superintendent, who knew her close intimacy with Lynn. She had, she told him, an urgent message to give to the younger woman. She would rather not telephone it but would prefer to wait in Lynn's room until she came in. Incurious, the superintendent admitted her.
She waited there, through the longest hours of her life. No, not the longest; she recalled those others; she had to.
Would Lynn come in alone?
As it happened, she did not. The car drew up at the door, shortly after one o'clock. The longest night had not been, after all, so long. They had dined late, lingered to danceâand talk. Tom had been in the inn from 8:30 until 9:15 and had come directly to Sarah's apartment.
“May I come in, just for a moment?” Dwight asked outside the door. “You know, I've never seen your place.”
Lynn had her hand on the knob. “Why, it's open,” she exclaimed in astonishment. “No, of course you can't come in,” she answered.
“If it's open, I must,” he answered. “Suppose the place has been broken into or something?”
“But that's nonsense! Still, I'm sure I shut the door.”
Sarah listened, waiting.
Dwight turned the knob, the door swung. He stepped into the room, saying, over his shoulder, “Wait out there a moment, darlingâ”
Thenâ“Sarah!” he said, on the heels of that betraying endearment.
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HIS ARMS, HIS KISS
I WAS WAITING FOR LYNN,” SARAH TOLD HIM. “I didn't expect you, too.”
But, inevitably, she had.
Lynn, close on Dwight's heels, exclaimed, “Oh, it's you! When I found the door open I didn't know what to thinkâwe were afraid someone had broken in.”
She was flushed, but her eyes were tired. Sarah said evenly, “Shut the door, Lynn, and come inside. This is a curious hour for me to be calling.” She tried to smile, failed, and went on, “But I had something to speak to you about, something important. McHiggin let me inâ”
“I'll go,” Dwight offered hastily, conscious of a growing discomfort. “I'll call you tomorrow, Lynn.” Easier to let him go; easier to say what she had to say, to Lynn's ears alone. Butâ
“I'd rather you stayed,” she said steadily, “for it concerns you, David.”
He raised his eyebrows. “My dear Sarah, what can possibly concern me?”
“Sarah, dear, what is it?” She asked. For a moment her heart had missed a beatâ
something important
ânews from home? Bad news? But now she was at rest again, for if it had been news from home it could not have concerned Dwight.
She touched Sarah's cheek with her small, cool hand.
“Sarahâyou look so tragicâ” she began, ready to be frightened again.
Dwight stood leaning against the little bookcase. “May I smoke?” he asked, and without waiting for permission, lighted a cigarette. He speculated, his eyes expressionless.
It was to Dwight that Sarah addressed herself now.
“Do you remember our conversation this summer, at your house?” she asked directly.
Indiscretion seemed the better part of valor.
“Perfectly,” he admitted coolly.
“Then you must recall that you gave me you wordâwhich you have broken.”
“Dear Sarah, you embarrass me! Lynn is looking wide-eyed
from one to the other of us. It is past one in the morning. Cannot we postpone this interesting chat until another more seasonableâor reasonableâhour?” he inquired.
“NoâLynn,” she said, turning her white face to the girl beside her, “last summer when we were at David's I went to him and asked himâ”
“If my intentions towards you were honorable, darling,” Dwight interrupted lightly.
Lynn colored. “Oh Sarahâ” she began, distressed.
Sarah ignored both interruptions.
“I asked him what he meant by his attitude toward you. I reminded him that you were engaged to Tom Shepard. He promised me that as long as you remained so he wouldâ”
“Fade from the picture,” Dwight explained. “And I did. But Lynn's no longer engaged to young Shepard,” he reminded them both.
“How do you
know
?” Sarah asked him simply.
“She told me so,” he answered, and smiled, a little.
“But you knewâbefore she told you. Or else you broke your promise first,” Sarah persisted.
“Oh, I knewâor guessed.”
“Howâ?”
“One hears these things,” he admitted vaguely.
“FromâRobert Rawlson?”
Blank amazement. Too well done. A picture flashed into Lynn's mind: Dwight's car at the curb, Bob Rawlson walking away from it, into the bankâ
“It was from Bob Rawlson, was it not, that you also obtained information of the probable Seacoast merger with the First Citizens' organization?” asked Sarah.
“I don't know what you're talking about,” he answered shortly.
Sarah said quietly, “It doesn't matter, except to Lynn. Lynn quarreled with Tom because she thought that against her express wishes he had sold his confidential information to outsiders. That's neither here nor there. You know quite well what I'm talking about. Lynn confided in you last summer. You yourself
told me so. It would have been singularly easy for you to find and approach the person who had made the original suggestion to Tom, and to learn from him the exact moment when it would be wiseâand cleverâto buy what stock you could through various investment houses and in small lots.”
“Then Tom didn'tâ” began Lynn. Her face was colorless.
“No, Tom didn't. I'm certain of that,” Sarah told her briefly, and turned to Dwight again. “You'll deny any complicity, of course. Although it was, I supposed, my fault. I haven't forgotten that you asked me with whom Tom was intimate in the bank; or that I told you, not thinking, young Rawlson.”
“You're out of your mind,” he said sharply. “I know Rawlson casually, as Norton's secretary. That is all.”
“It doesn't matter,” said Sarah again, “although I congratulate you upon your sagacity. It isn't everyone who does a little business on the side, while managing to separate two young people who care for each other, for his own purposes.”
“Sarah,” he asked, in a magnificent bewilderment, “what on earth has come over you lately? It's not like you to take to melodrama.”
She said shortly, “Never mind that. The fact remains that you're a married man. And that both of you and Lynn should know better.”
“I shan't,” Dwight informed her, “be a married man very long. Or rather, not married to the present Mrs. Dwight.” He waited a moment, and then drove home. He wanted to hurt the woman sitting there, facing him, cool eyes and steady mouth and quiet hands, wanted to hurt her so that she would cry out. “Mrs. Dwight has done me the honor to consent to a divorce,” he said with facetious formality, “and so I have asked Lynn to marry me when my freedom is obtained.”
“Ahâ” said Sarah, very low. She turned to Lynn, after a moment. “Is this true? She asked.
Lynn spoke, for the first time in several minutes. “Yes, it's true, Sarah, he did ask me to marry him. ButâI don't understandâabout Bob Rawlson and Tom andâ”
“That can wait. Do you loveâhim?” Sarah urged her, and
indicated Dwight.
“Please, Sarah, this is excessively embarrassing and unnecessary,” Dwight said. He was no longer smiling.
“No. He knows that. Butâoh, Sarah!” Lynn bowed her dark head against the older woman's shoulder and wept, from bewilderment and fatigue. The broken words she uttered were not clear but one or two of them came, muffled, to Sarah's earsâ“so lonelyâso unhappy.” Sarah put her arm around the girl.
“Because you thought Tom had failed you, you were going to marry David perhaps and beâmore lonely, more unhappy?” she asked.
Lynn replied, “Yes,” faintly. Then she drew away from Sarah and spoke, strongly, distinctly. “Oh,” she said with violence, “I'm so ashamed. It's been my fault, Sarah, all my fault. You'll never trust me again. You see, that time in the country, I spokeâtoâhim”âshe indicated Dwightâ“about Tom. I told him the whole situation, and asked him ifâif what Tom was considering was unethical, dishonest. I felt that it was.” She added, “I ought to lose my job for that, Sarah. I was out of my head, worried about Tom, about the whole business, andâa little drunk, too,” she said defiantly, “not realizing what I was sayingâ”
Sarah took her eyes from Dwight's altered face. She asked, “Lynn, did you mention Bob Rawlson on that occasion?”
“No. Not by name. I said Tom had an acquaintance who'd advised him.” Her little face was drawn, the black arrow on her forehead was clear against her pallor. For the first time in several crowded moments of realization she looked at Dwight, spoke directly to him, “Why did you do it?” she asked. “Why did you let me think, cause me to think, that Tomâ”
He answered, smiling dimly, “My dear, when I advised you to forget the whole stupid matter didn't I tell you all's fair in love and business?”
She was silent, her lips shaking. Sarah answered for her.
“Perhaps. But it's hardly a basis for a happy marriage. Youâhave never had the ghost of a chance to make Lynn happy, David. You've much less now. Even if she had not learned
what she's learning tonight, she would have married you with another man in her heart. You”âshe spoke regretfullyâ“you couldn't make any woman happy, David, not any more. You've lost so much.”
“What right have you to say that?” he asked violently. “I love Lynn. I
can
make her happyâI will make her happy. I have never,” he said deliberately, not forgetting to stab, “cared for any woman as I do for her. She'll forget about this. I'll make her forget. I tell you I love her, I'd give her the world, if I could!”
Sarah said, “I suppose so. Yet you told me that onceâI remember.”
There was a deep silence. Lynn cried, raising her face from Sarah's shoulderâ“Sarah?” and Dwight repeated it. “Sarah!” he said, but on a note of warning.
Sarah said, “Not that that matters any more, either. Why you have mattered to me, David, for twenty years, is beyond my comprehension. But Lynn must know. It may explain things to her, when later she thinks it is all over; may explain why I was so blind, so gullibleâ”
“Youâand David?” asked Lynn. It was the first time she had spoken Dwight's Christian name. He heard it, echoing sweetly, and was able to look toward her with a little, secret gratitude in his brief glance.
“YesâI and David.”
“Twenty years ago,” Dwight reminded Lynn smoothly.
“You were going to marry him?” asked Lynn of Sarah. “Iâwhy didn't you tell me? I didn't knowâor dream.”
“No, there was no question of marriage between us. Dwight couldn't afford to marryâa nobody,” Sarah told her evenly. “We wereâlovers.”
“An elastic term,” Dwight remarked, hunting for his cigarette case. He was fighting, and he knew it, with his back to the wall.
“Not very. Not in this case. Shall I tell her about Maryland, David, and the place called Heartsease? Shall I tell her about the apartment, here in New York? â”