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“You’re telling me you’ve broken away from your mother?” I said. Emotion made my voice harsh, raw. “Give me one good reason I should believe you.”
Wordlessly Cal opened his jacket. Underneath he wore a flannel shirt, and he unbuttoned the top three buttons and pulled it open so that I could see his chest. Instantly Hunter’s naked chest flashed into my mind. Oh God, I thought with a tinge of hysteria.
Then I saw the blackened, burned-looking patch of skin directly over Cal’s heart. I focused my magesight on it so that I could see clearly, despite the darkness. It was in the shape of a hand.
“Selene did that to me,” Cal said, and remembered pain thrummed in his voice. “When I told her I chose you over her.”
Goddess. I swallowed hard. And then, without allowing myself to think about what I was risking, I put out my hand and touched my fingers to his cheek. I had to know the truth.
His eyes flared open as he realized what I was doing, but he stood still. I pushed through the outer layers of his consciousness, feeling his resistance, feeling him will himself to accept my invasion. For the first time with Cal, I was controlling the joining of our minds. I would see what I wanted to see, not simply what he wanted to show me.
Then I was inside, and Cal was all around me. I saw my face, but the way he saw it, with a sort of glow around it that made me beautiful, unearthly. I was shaken to sense how much he wanted me.
I saw Hunter striding down the street in Red Kill, and felt an ugly burst of hatred and violence from Cal that rocked me.
I saw a steep hillside below me, dotted with small stucco houses with red roofs, that stretched down to a sparkling blue bay. I felt a breeze blowing against my cheeks. In the distance a red bridge stretched from one headland to another, and I realized I was seeing San Francisco, where I’d never been. It was beautiful, but it wasn’t what I needed to see, so I kept searching.
Then I saw Selene.
She was looking directly at me, and I had to fight a strong impulse to hide my face, though I knew I was only seeing Cal’s memory. She wasn’t looking at me but at him. The expression in her eyes was cold fury.
“You can’t go,” she said. “I won’t allow it.”
“I am going,” Cal said, and I felt his defiance, his fear, his resolve.
Selene’s beautiful face twisted into a snarl of rage. “You idiot,” she said. Then her hand was snaking toward him, so fast, it was just a blur, and I felt a searing pain as she touched Cal’s flesh. Her hand felt deathly cold, as if it were made of liquid nitrogen, but then a wisp of smoke rose up in front of my eyes, and I smelled charred flesh. I cringed and gasped, twisting with Cal as he sought to escape the agony.
Then she took her hand away, and it was over, except for the memory of the pain.
“That was just the barest taste of what I can do,” she said in a voice like iron. “I could have taken your heart as easily as plucking a cherry out of a bowl. I didn’t because you are my son, and I know this foolishness will pass. But now you’ve experienced what I can do to those who cross me.”
And she turned and strode away.
I let my hand drop, shaken, but Cal grabbed it. “Morgan, I need you. I need your love and your strength. Together we’re strong enough to fight Selene, to win against her.”
“No, we’re not!” I cried. I snatched my hand away. “Are you insane? Selene could crush both of us and five other witches besides. I don’t even know if she
can
be stopped.”
“She can!” Cal said, coming closer still. He looked thinner than when I had seen him last, and his perpetual golden tan had faded slightly. I wondered if he had been eating, where he had been staying, and then told myself I didn’t give a damn. “Selene can be stopped. The two of us, and your mother’s coven tools, will be enough to stop her cold. I’m sure of it. Just tell me you’ll work with me. Morgan, tell me you still love me.” His voice dropped to a raspy whisper. “Tell me I haven’t killed your love for me.”
With a sense of shame I recognized that I cared for him, cared about him, that despite everything I didn’t, couldn’t hate him. But I couldn’t say I still loved him, either, and there was no way I would agree to help him go up against Selene.
“There’s no way we can be together now,” I said, and the image of myself pressed against Hunter, kissing him fiercely, flashed into my mind.
“I know what I did to you was terrible,” Cal said. “At first I was just trying to get next to your power. I admit that. But then I fell for you. Fell for your strength and beauty, your honesty and humility. Every time I saw you was a revelation, and now I can’t live without you. I don’t want to live without you. I want to be with you forever.”
He looked so sincere, his face contorted with pain. I didn’t know what to say: a thousand thoughts flew through my head like sparks flying upward from a fire. I recoiled from his presence even as part of me ached for his words to be true. I was scared of him and also afraid that what he was saying was real, that no one would ever love me so much again.
“All I ask is that you give me another chance,” he pleaded in a tone that threatened to break my heart. “I was so horribly wrong—I thought I could have you and give Selene what she wanted, too, but I couldn’t. Please give me a chance to make it up to you, a chance to redeem myself. Morgan, please. I love you.” He stepped closer still, and I could feel his breath, as cold as the night air, brushing against my cheek. “I don’t want Selene to hurt you. Morgan, she wants to kill you. Now that she knows you’ll never join her, she needs you dead so she can have your tools.” He shook his head. “I can’t let her do that.”
“Where is she?” I asked shakily.
“I don’t know,” he said. “We were in San Francisco, but she’s not there anymore. She’s not far. I pick up on her sometimes. At least four members of her coven are with her. They’re coming for you, Morgan. You have to let me protect you.”
“Why should I trust you?” I demanded, trying to shut out the pain that seared my heart. “You tried to kill me once—why should I believe you won’t just do it again?”
“Do you remember how good we were together?” Cal whispered, and I shivered. “Do you remember how we touched, how we kissed, how we joined our minds? It was so good, so right. You know it was real; you know I’m telling you the truth now. Please, Morgan . . .”
Part of me was no longer listening, my senses attuned to another vibration, another image. I looked down the road. “Hunter,” I said before I thought.
Cal wheeled and looked down the road. I thought I could see the faintest stripe of light on the tree trunks. Headlights.
For an endless moment Cal and I looked at each other. He was just as breathtaking as he’d always been, with a new layer of vulnerability that he’d never had but that made him even more appealing. He was Cal, my first love, the one who’d opened new worlds to me.
“If you call me, I’ll come,” he said so softly, I could barely hear him.
“Wait!” I said. “Where are you staying? Where can I find you?”
He just smiled, and then he was running easily toward the woods that lined the road, and he faded between the trees like a wraith. I blinked, and he was completely gone, with no trace of ever having been there.
The headlights caught me in their glare, and I understood how a deer or rabbit could be pinned by them in terror. I stood by Das Boot, waiting for Hunter to stop.
“Morgan,” he said, getting out of his car. Illogically, even after the scene in the bathroom, I felt almost like weeping with relief to see him. “Are you all right? Did something happen?”
My tongue pressed against my lips. Hunter was a Seeker. He had gone ballistic at the thought that Cal had even contacted me. If I told him I had just
seen
Cal, that Cal was nearby somewhere, Hunter wouldn’t stop until he found Cal. And when he found him . . .
Hunter and Cal hated each other, had tried to kill each other. It was only luck that they
hadn’t
killed each other. If Hunter found Cal now, one of them would die. That thought was completely unacceptable to me. I didn’t know what to do about Cal, didn’t know what to do about the knowledge that Selene was coming. All I knew was that I had to keep Hunter and Cal apart until I figured something out.
“I’m okay,” I said, making my voice strong and sure. I chose my words carefully, knowing that he’d sense it if I lied outright. “I thought I almost hit a deer just now and stopped, but it’s gone.”
Hunter glanced at the woods, then he frowned slightly. “I sense something. . . .” he said, half to himself. He stood still for a moment, a listening expression on his face. Then he shook his head. “Whatever it was, it’s gone now.”
I kept my face blank.
He looked back at me. “I got an odd feeling about you,” he said. “Like . . . panic.”
I nodded, hoping he couldn’t tell I was lying. “I thought I was going to crash. It’s been kind of . . . an eventful day. I guess I freaked.”
Hunter’s frown cleared, and he looked contrite. “Are you sure you’re okay?” he asked.
“Yeah.” I started to get back in my car and prayed desperately that it would start, that Cal hadn’t permanently disabled the engine. I couldn’t believe I was lying so blithely to Hunter, Hunter who I had acknowledged was just about the only person I could trust. But I wasn’t lying for me—I was trying to save Cal. And Hunter. I had to save them from each other.
Hunter leaned in the open doorway, bending to be at eye level with me. “Morgan—I’m sorry about the way I behaved earlier, in the bathroom. It’s just—I’m upset about my father. I want to reach him and I can’t. And I’m afraid for you. I feel that I need to protect you, and it kills me that I can’t be with you all the time, making sure you’re safe.”
I nodded. “And that’s why you want me to do the
tàth meànma brach
,” I said.
“Yes.” He paused. “Are you sore from the fall?”
“Yeah. I bet we’ll both feel awful tomorrow. Especially you.”
He laughed, and I turned my key. Das Boot’s engine turned over at once.
“I’m going to get home now,” I said unnecessarily. Quickly Hunter leaned in and kissed me, and then he stood back and shut my car door.
Had Cal seen that? I thought in panic. Oh Goddess, I hoped not. It would only infuriate him more. I drove off, looking back at Hunter in the mirror until I went around the next bend and I couldn’t see him anymore. All I wanted to do was go home, curl up, and cry.
10
Open
December 13, 1977
 
The mysteries of Amyranth can’t hold a candle to the
mysteries of love. What is it about Daniel Niall that makes me so crazy? Has he spelled me to love him? No—that’s ludi
crous. Noble, honest Daniel would never do such a thing. No, I love him for himself, and it’s so out of character for me that
I can’t stop questioning it.
Why is he so compelling? How is he different from other men I’ve had? Like every other man, he’s given in to me—no
one has ever told me no, and Daniel is no exception. Yet I sense an inner wall that I can’t breach. There’s something within him that my love, my power, my beauty hasn’t touched. What
is it?
I know he loves me, and I know he wishes he didn’t. I enjoy making him realize how much he wants me. I take pleasure in watching him try to resist and being unable to. And then I make his compliance worth his while. But what is he holding back?
At any rate, Daniel is here and there working on various studies—he’s very academic; he wants to understand everything, know the history of everything. A real book witch. It takes him away from me often. Which is a good thing, because his presence severely curtails my Amyranth activities. I’m now
doing more and more within the group and less with Turneval. The Unnamed Elders have begun teaching me the deeper magick of Amyranth, and it’s more draining and exciting
than anything I’ve imagined. I’m lost within it, drunk with
it, immersed in it—and the only thing that pulls me out
is the chance of spending time with Daniel. This makes me laugh.
—SB
 
That night I dreamed that Selene took on the form of a giant bird and snatched me off the school playing field, where, ludicrously, I was playing hockey with Hunter and Bree and Robbie. They stood on the grass, waving their hockey sticks helplessly, and I watched them get smaller and smaller as Selene bore me away. She took me to a giant nest perched on top of a mountain, and I looked down and saw Cal in the nest, and before my eyes he turned into a baby bird and gazed up at me with his sharp predator’s beak gaping wide to engulf me. Then I woke up, drenched with sweat, and it was morning.
I spent the morning trying not to think about Cal. Three times I found myself picking up the phone to call Hunter, and three times I put the cordless handset back in its cradle. I felt too conflicted about what I would say.
“What’s the matter, Morgan?” my mom asked as I prowled through the kitchen for the fourth time. “You seem so restless.”
I forced myself to smile. “I don’t know. Maybe I just need to go for a drive or something.”
I grabbed my coat and car keys and headed out to Das Boot, not sure what my destination was. Then my senses tingled, and I knew Hunter was nearby. I felt a surge of elation and alarm as I saw him pull up in front of the house.
I walked over to his car, willing myself to seem calm, normal. He rolled down his window and peered out at me.
“We need to talk. Can I drive you somewhere?” he asked.
“Uh—I was just going for a drive,” I mumbled. “I’m not really sure where.”
“How about Red Kill?” he suggested. “I need to pick up some essential oils at Practical Magick. And you need to talk to Alyce.”
So I climbed into his car and off we went.
“This morning Sky and I examined the porch supports more carefully,” Hunter said as he drove. “They’d definitely been sawed, and we couldn’t find any trace of magick.”
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