Stay Where You Are and Then Leave (8 page)

Alfie nodded. He'd finished with the left shoe by now and had started on the right. This was a direct question. It required an answer.

“I would, sir, yes,” he said.

“Well, of course you would. Everyone would. Heavens above, boy, that's a fine shine there on that shoe. You should do this for a living.”

“I already do,” muttered Alfie quietly.

“I tell all my colleagues at the bank about you. I expect you've seen a few of them here? You should have me on commission, you really should. Or at least give me a free shine every now and then.” He laughed when he said this, but Alfie didn't think he was joking. He put his head down and got on with his polishing.

“All done?” asked Mr. Podgett finally when Alfie gave them a last dusting and sat up to admire his work.

“Yes, sir,” said Alfie.

“Very good.” He stood up and threw a penny in Alfie's cap, hesitating for a moment as he looked down at the boy. “I did my best for him, of course,” he said finally, his voice quieter than usual. “Maybe if I could go back … but you can't, can you?” He shook his head, and now he was almost whispering. “Even if you wanted to.” Alfie stared at him, uncertain what he was expected to say, and Mr. Podgett looked back with a sorrowful expression on his face and simply shook his head. “You remind me a little of him, you know,” he said. “When he was a boy. He had an open face, like yours. There was kindness there once. Anyway…” He sighed and shook his head, looking up at the station clock. “I better be getting on. Same time next week, Alfie? You'll be here?”

“Yes, sir,” said Alfie.

“All right then,” said Mr. Podgett, raising a hand in the air in salute as he walked away. “Until then,
auf Wiedersehen
, Alfie, as our Hun friends say.”

Which wasn't very wise of him, for three different heads turned as he departed and a man walked over to a constable and whispered something in his ear; a moment later, the policeman was following Mr. Podgett out of the station and on to the busy streets beyond.

*   *   *

By eleven o'clock, Alfie had shined three sets of shoes and spent a ha'penny on a sausage roll from the tea shop, which left him tuppence ha'penny up on the day so far. He'd seen a man be refused passage on the London-to-Cambridge train on account of drunkenness, and a small girl, only a year or so younger than he was, had stuck her tongue out at him as she walked past, hand in hand with an elderly lady.

A man with a bright-red mustache had put up a series of recruitment posters around the station: one showed a nighttime image of London, with Big Ben and St. Paul's Cathedral to the foreground.
IT IS FAR BETTER TO FACE THE BULLETS THAN TO BE KILLED AT HOME BY A BOMB
, it said. Another showed a smiling Tommy, clean and cheerful, with a rifle on his back.
FOLLOW ME!
it said.
YOUR COUNTRY NEEDS YOU
. Alfie didn't imagine that many of the soldiers looked that happy in real life.

Just after noon, a young man passed by his shoeshine stand, glanced at him, walked on, and then stopped for a moment, looking up at the enormous clock on the wall. He checked his ticket before looking back at Alfie and down at his own shoes. He was about twenty-five years old and carried a cane in his left hand. As he made his way back, his bad leg dragged a little and Alfie tried not to stare. He wore a dark suit, a crisp white shirt, and a black tie, and he didn't seem at all comfortable in any of them.

“I think I could do with a polish,” said the young man, his voice betraying a mixture of refinement and anxiety. A moment later, he laughed a little, and Alfie didn't know why; it was as if he were sharing a joke with himself. He sat down, placed his left shoe on the footrest, and Alfie got to work.

“Busy this morning?” asked the man.

“Not very,” said Alfie, looking up. “Tuesday's always a bit quiet. I don't know why. Monday's the busiest day because everyone wants clean shoes for the start of the week, but I don't work on Mondays.”

“Any special reason?”

“We do history in school on Monday. I don't like to miss it.”

The young man laughed. “Very sensible,” he said. “I was never any good at history. I could never get my head round the kings and queens, the battles and the wars. All those stories about the dukes in the Tower—”

“The princes,” said Alfie.

“Who was it who put them there, Richard the Second?”

“Richard the Third,” said Alfie.

“Names and numbers, that's what it felt like to me, names and numbers. Good for you that you like it. My name's Wilf, by the way,” he said.

“Alfie,” said Alfie, thinking how nothing ever changed; more than four hundred years later, and everything was names and numbers once again.

“Nice to meet you, Alfie. Give them a good buff, will you? There's a good chap. I can't show up with dirty shoes. I took them out of the wardrobe this morning and couldn't believe the condition they were in, even though I haven't worn them in ages.”

Alfie looked up as his hands ran a sponge dauber along the welt of the shoe. It crossed his mind that since he'd started working at King's Cross he'd learned instinctively when someone wanted to talk and when someone wanted to be left in peace. Men like Mr. Podgett enjoyed the sound of their own voices. Others, like Wilf, seemed as if they wanted a bit of a conversation. And as far as Alfie was concerned, that was all part of the job.

“Going somewhere nice, sir?” he asked.

“Cheltenham,” said Wilf. “Nice place; not a nice reason.”

Alfie looked up and understood immediately why the young man was wearing black.

“My brother's funeral,” explained Wilf. “My younger brother, that is. Alistair. They brought his body back this weekend.”

“I'm sorry,” said Alfie.

“Yes,” replied Wilf, the word catching in his throat a little. “Yes, so am I. Only eighteen years old, you see. The youngest of us all. And the brightest. I only saw him about a month ago. He was shipping out of Aldershot on his way to Calais. I went down to Southampton to wish him luck.”

Alfie stopped buffing when he heard that word—
Aldershot
. That was where Georgie had been sent for training. He'd stayed there for a couple of months, learning to fight, learning to kill, before being sent to France, where he'd written to them every week for almost two years before the letters suddenly stopped and Margie said that he couldn't write anymore, on account of the fact that he was on a secret mission for the government.

Which, as far as Alfie was concerned, was an adult way of saying that your father is dead but we don't want to tell you the truth.

“Alistair got himself killed only a couple of weeks after he arrived, poor chap,” continued Wilf. “I don't know if it was a blessing for him or a tragedy. He didn't have to spend years in the trenches like some of the other poor souls over there. He's out of it now, isn't he?”

“What happened to him?” asked Alfie, looking up, knowing he shouldn't ask questions like this, but the words were out of his mouth before he could pull them back.

“Some fool of a sergeant sent him over the top in the middle of the night as a stretcher bearer,” said Wilf. “It's a suicide mission, isn't it? Collecting the dead. No one can survive it. There should be an hour's armistice when both sides can go over and collect their fallen soldiers. I suggested it once, at GHQ, and the way the generals looked at me you would have sworn I was waving the white flag of surrender. All I wanted was a bit of civilized behavior in an uncivilized world. Still, Alistair wouldn't have felt a thing, which is something, I suppose. But by God, it took them long enough to ship the body home. The funeral's later today. The War Office gave me the day off. So it's over and back to Cheltenham for me, and no time to spend with my family. I have to be at my desk again first thing tomorrow morning or there'll be hell to pay.”

Alfie glanced over at Wilf's cane, which was propped up against the chair next to him. His eyes lingered there for a moment before he realized that Wilf was watching him.

“Wondering about this, are you?” he asked. “It's kept me out of it for the last two years. Took a sniper bullet through my femur just outside Mons. Lay in a field hospital for a week or two while they tried to save the leg. Nothing doing, of course. Would have saved a lot of time and energy if they'd just cut the blighter off the day I arrived instead of waiting for two whole months.”

Alfie stopped what he was doing, his hands hovering in the air over Wilf's left shoe.

“Oh yes, that's a false leg, I'm afraid,” he said. “Don't be frightened, boy. There's nothing to fear.”

Alfie shook his head and went back to his shoe shining. “I'm not frightened,” he said quietly.

“We live in strange times when a man needs to shine a shoe for his false leg, don't we?” said Wilf with a half-smile. “Still, one must keep up appearances. That's what they tell us, anyway. A strange thing: I'm damned glad to be out of it and yet I feel like I'm shirking my duty, stuck over here. Ended up with a desk job at the War Office, you see. They took my uniform away from me, told me to wear a suit. They've no idea what it's like for men my age out of uniform. The looks we get. A woman came up to me in the middle of Piccadilly Circus, perhaps she didn't notice my cane. Opened her handbag, and in front of everyone she … she…” He shook his head, his lip curling in a mixture of anger and pain. “Why do they do that?” he muttered. “They don't understand, any of them.”

Alfie felt uncomfortable being confronted by so much pain and anger. He noticed a split in the brown pupil of the man's right eye: a birthmark of some sort.

“Do you have any older brothers over there?” asked Wilf after a moment, and Alfie shook his head. “Your dad, then? Sorry, I shouldn't ask. It's none of my business, really.”

“How do they look?” asked Alfie, nodding at the young man's shoes; he was finished at last. He was glad to be finished.

“Spot on. Couldn't have done better myself.” He took a penny from his pocket and threw it in the center of Alfie's cap. It made a ringing sound as it bounced off the coins from earlier. “Thank you,” he said, standing up now and reaching for his cane. He opened his mouth to say something else, but he seemed to think better of it and simply walked away without another word, heading toward platform six, disappearing into the heart of the crowd as Alfie watched him for a few moments and then reorganized all his shining equipment on the ground beside him, waiting for his next customer.

*   *   *

Alfie didn't eat much for lunch. All that bending over the shoeshine box seemed to kill his appetite a little. The smell of the polish and the fact that the steam from the engines was catching in his throat didn't help either. But he knew that he wouldn't be able to work as hard in the afternoon if he didn't have something, so he managed a small steak-and-kidney pie from the food stall. The pastry was heavy and dry and there was more gravy than meat inside—he was sure there had only been one bite of steak and two gristly pieces of kidney—but it filled him up for now.

Business was slow in the afternoon, and the day had grown colder. A strong breeze was pouring through from the exit on Euston Road and rattling around the platform, forcing the commuters to wrap their coats tighter around themselves. Between two and four o'clock there were never many customers, which meant that Alfie could spend more time on the Island of Despair with
Robinson Crusoe
, but he knew that the early evening crowds would start pouring through soon, and when they did he might get a customer or two.

A little after half past three, a thin, middle-aged man wearing a brown military uniform that looked as if it had been freshly pressed about ten minutes earlier sat down without a word and placed his right foot on the footrest. Alfie said nothing and simply got to work as the man pulled a document folder from his briefcase and gave his full attention to the thick file in his hands, shaking his head every so often and muttering rude words under his breath. When he said one that was
very
rude, Alfie sniggered a little and dropped his polish jar. Immediately the man put his folder down and stared at the boy.

“What was that?” he said after a moment.

“Sorry, sir,” said Alfie.

The man shook his head. “No,
I'm
sorry,” he said. “Was I talking to myself again?”

Alfie nodded, and the man laughed. “It's a habit of mine,” he said. “My wife's always telling me off about it.” He put the folder aside for a moment and watched as Alfie picked up a cloth and ran it across his left heel. “You're very good at that,” he said finally. “Been at it awhile, have you?”

“More than a year, sir,” said Alfie.

“Good Lord. How old are you, boy?”

“Nine, sir.”

“Nine years old and already earning a living. It's like being back in Dickens's time. Ever read Dickens?”

“No, sir.”

“Ever read anything?”

“Yes, sir.”

“What?”

“
Robinson Crusoe
.”

“I haven't read that since I was a boy. Read
Oliver Twist
. Or
Nicholas Nickleby
. I promise you'll enjoy them. I'm reading this new chap, Lawrence, but I don't think he'd be right for you just yet. Shouldn't you be in school anyway?”

Alfie looked up but said nothing, and the man simply shrugged his shoulders and looked away. “None of my business, I suppose,” he said. “I have enough to concern myself with as it is without worrying about the well-being of every waif and stray I run into.”

Some of the polish was clogging up the bristles on Alfie's brush, and he shook it out, rubbing it against the floor to remove the grit, leaving a grimy residue on the tiles beside him. The man didn't say anything else as Alfie worked but returned to his folders instead, turning the pages quickly, making notes on some of them with an expensive-looking pen, drawing great lines through others. The breeze from the street outside picked up, sending a rush of air through the station, and just as the man turned a page, he lost hold of his folder and all his documents were swept out of his hands, scattering loose pages all around the concourse.