Stricken Desire (31 page)

“No Stacy.” Johnathan says. Reaching over and
covering the papers Stacy was just about to write on. “Emily is my
power of attorney.” He states gently.

Stacy eyes me and I shrug. I don’t get it
either.

“Are you sure Johnathan? You two aren’t
getting along well right now.” He asks him forward but nicely.

“I’m sure.” He says and doesn’t look up he
keeps filling out his forms. Stacy slides over the paperwork to me
and I rub my hand over it. This is strange. And not right.

“Are you sure Johnathan? I mean really sure?
I don’t think I’m the right…”

He cuts me off with a glare. “I am going to
get clean Emily. I am going to get my head back on straight and
when I do I am coming after you. You.” He points the end of his pen
at me. “WILL BE MINE by the time this is all said and done with.”
He finishes pointedly.

Cue the butterflies! I might not like him a
lot of the time but god he can be so damn sweet sometimes. Do I
think he means it? Maybe. But I want him to. I want him to be clean
and I want to be able to tell him about the babies. I need him to
know for my sake and for his. As much as it pains me to say it I
need him to be a father. Like my father was to me. A great one, a
loving one and a brilliant one. There’s only so much Stacy can’t do
as their uncle. He will love them and be there but Johnathan is
there dad and he needs to be there dad. It’s the most important
thing in life being a parent and I am going to be the best mom I
can be to them.

I lean over and start filling out the papers
without saying a word. I’m not going to argue with him about this.
If he wants to use me as an excuse to get sober. I will take it
because I won’t be having any drugs around our kids once they
finally grace up with their presence in thirty four more weeks or
less.

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