Summer on Kendall Farm (16 page)

This was once Sheldon’s home. But nothing about him remained in it today. He didn’t own the Kendall. Jason didn’t own it. Jason wasn’t even here. And he had a son.

What did Sheldon have other than regrets?

* * *

K
ELLY
HAD
TO
stop and think. Her jaws were clenched so tight, her back teeth ached. Sheldon’s arrival was the last thing she needed today.

With so many people all over the house, his being here only added to the confusion, when a clear mind was essential to deal with the guests and staff.

What was he doing here, showing up unannounced? Had Jace asked him to come?

Forcing herself to relax, Kelly walked slowly down the back stairs, leading to the kitchen. She clutched the handrail due to her wobbly legs. Were the brothers joining together against her? Jace told her he wanted the property for him and Ari. Was Sheldon here to support that goal?

“What’s wrong?” Mira asked.

Her voice drew Kelly’s attention.

“You look like a ghost.”

“Sheldon Kendall is here,” Kelly said.

“Why?”

“I have no idea. I literally found him on the doorstep.”

“What did he say?” Mira asked.

“So far, nothing significant. He wants to talk to Jace.”

“Where is Jace?”

“I don’t know.”

That was her problem. She had no answers for the questions that crowded in on her.

“Where is Sheldon now?”

“Upstairs, in one of the bedrooms. I came to get him something to drink.”

Mira reached for a pitcher of water and a glass. “What happens next?”

Kelly shook her head. “I suppose I’m going to have to ask him and Jace what’s going on.”

* * *

J
ACE
AND
A
RI
came out of the day-care center and Jace strapped his son into his car seat. Whistling, Jace pulled his tie loose and laid his suit jacket on the cab’s seat. He had good news for the boy. He decided to take him to the ice-cream shop to celebrate while he told him.

Walking around Drew and Mira’s truck, he jumped as he recognized Emmett Cruz’s SUV coming straight at him. Emmett drove wildly across the road, roaring to a stop as he blocked him in. The short man jumped out of the vehicle clearly looking for someone.

Jace had heard that Emmett was working at the Kendall. “Emmett, there could be kids out here. Be careful.”

“Sorry,” Emmett said. “I’ve been searching for you for the past half hour.”

Immediately Jace’s mind went to Kelly.

“What’s up?” Jace asked. He stood beside the truck, blocking the door, protecting his son from whatever might be happening.

“Kelly sent me to find you.”

“Why? Is she all right?”

“It’s not her exactly. But she does need you to return to the Kendall as fast as possible.”

“Why?” Jace asked.

“Just come.”

Emmett was a man of few words. He preferred horses to people. He got back in his SUV and pulled away. He drove slowly until he was out of the parking lot, then the truck zoomed up the road as if it was late for something important.

Jace got in his truck and headed in the same direction. What could Kelly want? First, she asked him to leave, now she sent Emmett looking for him and wouldn’t say why. When Jace eventually turned into the Kendall’s long driveway, Ari let out a shout.

“We’re home!” the boy said, with obvious happiness. Jace didn’t have the heart to say a thing.

Out front was a sign for visitors’ parking and the procession of cars told him the open house was well under way. He parked by the stables, away from the flow of visitors and next to Emmett’s SUV. The moment he released Ari from his car seat, the boy took off running for the house and calling Kelly’s name. Jace took a slower route, entering through the garden he’d built under her office window.

Of all the noises in the building, people talking, guides explaining, Jace heard Ari. He followed the boy’s excited voice to Kelly’s office. She turned and looked at him. She’d changed her hair. It was swept up off her neck and coiled around her head. Sunlight poured through the window, forming a red halo around her.

Jace swallowed. He started across the room, coming to a stop so close that he could reach out and easily pull her into his arms.

“I’m going to go on the tour with Amy,” Ari said, scampering away. He slammed the door as he left.

Jace stared at Kelly. He hadn’t realized how much he could miss seeing someone. He wanted to kiss her, long and hard.

“You wanted me,” he said. His voice was several notes lower than usual.

Her eyes opened a little wider. Jace realized what he’d said, but he didn’t take it back.

“I wanted...” She stopped and looked down.

Jace wanted to reassure her, so he waited. He’d wait forever for Kelly.

“You wrote to your brother,” she said.

Jace nodded without thinking. How could she know that? He hadn’t told her.

“He’s here,” Kelly said.

“What? Why?”

“I don’t know. He showed up an hour ago asking for you.”

All the old taunts came back to Jace. The insults and comments on how he wasn’t a true Kendall. How he was an illegitimate child with no home and no one to love him. How their father only let him live there to keep tongues from wagging. But he didn’t want him there, which was why they were always sending him away.

“He’s in his old room,” Kelly told him. She paused a moment, scrutinizing him.

Jace had told her some of the things that happened when he was younger, but no one who hadn’t experienced it could truly understand.

“You don’t have to see him if you don’t want to. I can ask him to leave.”

Jace said nothing. He was trying to think of what to do. He hadn’t been prepared for this. He never thought Sheldon would actually show up when he wrote the letter. Instead, he was here. In person.

“Are you going to see him?”

“I don’t think I have a choice,” Jace said.

“I took him some food. He looks like he could use it.”

Jace gave her a quick nod and turned. Slowly he walked to the door.

“Do you want me to go with you?” Kelly asked, stopping him.

He once more saw her in the brilliant sunlight. Shaking his head, he said, “I’ll be all right.”

Jace maneuvered through the crowds and found Ari with the tour guide he’d befriended at the first open house.

Amy smiled at him. She was holding Ari’s hand. “He’s okay,” she said. “He can stay with me.”

Jace affectionately touched his son’s head and moved around a group of visitors. He’d take the back stairway to avoid the rest of the craziness.

Grabbing a bottle of water from the kitchen, he walked up the back stairs. They opened onto a long, wide hallway that led to a master suite and six other bedrooms. On the next level were storage rooms where he used to hide and cry.

Jace didn’t look at the steps to the third level. His eyes were fixed on the door to Sheldon’s domain. The angle of light from the window behind him made Jace’s shadow appear distorted over the maroon runner and the polished wooden floor. What was he going to say to his half brother? Why had Sheldon made the trip all the way here without any notice?

Jace moved toward the door. There was only one way he could find out. He was no longer the scared little boy. And he wouldn’t be intimidated by a man who wouldn’t give him a drink of water on a hot day. Remembering the bottle of water in his hand, Jace looked at it. Twisting the top off, he took a satisfying drink, replaced the screw cap and knocked on the door.

He didn’t wait for an answer, but opened the door and went inside, closing it behind him. His brother was pacing the room, his back to Jace. Sheldon looked smaller, shorter than Jace remembered. Then he turned to face him.

And Jace saw the image of his father, stern and unforgiving.

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

T
HE
TWO
BROTHERS
faced each other like the Clantons faced the Earps at the OK Corral. Words weren’t called for or necessary. Just draw and shoot, Jace thought. The only question was who would shoot first.

Sheldon’s face was dark and craggy, as if he spent a lot of time in the sun. His hair was a mixture of grey and black, the black was still winning.

“How are you?” Sheldon finally asked. His voice was more raspy than Jace remembered, like a man who’d smoked all his life. But Sheldon didn’t smoke.

Jace ignored the question. His half brother hadn’t traveled four hundred miles to ask about his health.

“More important, why are you here?” Jace asked.

Sheldon cleared his throat and took a step forward. Jace looked at the table where the remnants of his meal sat. His brother stopped near it and lifted a glass of water. Setting it back on the table, he opened and closed his fists like a man who was nervous. Jace wondered what he had to be nervous about.

“I came to apologize,” he said.

“Apologize,” Jace repeated, feeling a little of the tension leave his body. “Apologize for what?”

“For being the person I was.”

“Was? That indicates you’ve changed.”

“I’m different,” he said with a shake of his head. “I understand better now what I said and did to you, not what I should have done and not what you needed.”

Sheldon could have written that in a note. He wanted to know what the real reason was for his coming here. Jace looked at his clothes. They were old and seemed as if he’d worn them for days. His shoes were dusty and he’d lost a lot of weight. Yet he was deeply tanned and appeared to be strong with toned muscles.

“Apology accepted. You can leave now.” Jace turned to open the door, but was halted by a sound that was almost a wail.

“Wait!”

Jace turned back and looked at Sheldon. He wasn’t lord of the manor anymore. Even his presence in this room, under which he used to command, he looked out of place, lost even.

“Could we sit down and talk?” His voice held a pleading quality Jace had never heard.

“Like all those brotherly talks we had in the past?” Sarcasm dripped from his lips, but it tasted sour.

“I know we never had any real talks—arguments, yes, but never talks. Not even when father died.”

“Especially not then.”

The reading of the will took place the day after their father was buried and everything went to Sheldon. Jace was only briefly mentioned—as if his existence meant nothing to his father. And Sheldon was smug and snobbish about the outcome.

“I want to tell you about my life,” Sheldon said.

“Why would I be interested in that?”

“You might not, but I want to tell it to you anyway. I hope it will help you understand me and forgive me.”

“That would have to be some life story,” Jace spat.

Sheldon took a seat and crossed one leg over his knee. When Jace remained where he stood, his brother pushed a chair out and gestured for him to take it.

“Please,” Sheldon said.

That was a word Jace could never remember hearing him utter, not even to the staff who made his life comfortable. Maybe he said it to Laura, but Jace hadn’t stayed around long enough to find out.

Jace grabbed the chair and pulled it a little closer to the table. He set his water bottle in front of him and gave his attention to his half brother.

Sheldon again took a drink of water. He began with their father, telling Jace how he was raised, how the superior attitude he got had been drilled into him. He wanted to please the old man, so he did what he was told, spoke like he was expected to speak. When Jace came to live with them, their father was the only role model he had. He emulated him, did what he did, ridiculed and taunted because that’s what he thought was expected.

“It never occurred to you to do anything else?” Jace interrupted.

“No,” he answered. “You might have thought I should. I was a grown man and you were a child. But by then I’d been so conditioned to my own way of life that it felt right to do and say what I did. The fact that you were a terror in the county made it easier.”

Jace looked away, taking a drink of his own water, before looking back at Sheldon. “So what’s changed your mind?”

Sheldon pointed to the bedroom they were in. “This place.” He looked back at his brother. “I ruined it.”

Jace laughed. This was not the brother he knew. The self-righteous, never-wrong guy who tolerated no human frailties.

“It was my fault,” Sheldon said. “I mismanaged the place. I had no idea how to run it well after father died. Laura helped for a while.” He hung his head, was probably remembering his wife. “But alone, I was a poor excuse for looking after a farm this size or any size for that matter.”

Jace listened to his brother pouring out his soul. He steeled himself to be wary, to not take what Sheldon said as truth. The man he’d grown up with probably had a hidden agenda.

Sheldon went on, telling him how he’d lived after leaving the Kendall, moving from state to state, trying to get work on another farm and how people turned him down or fired him after a short stay. He told Jace he’d been homeless, that he’d sifted through garbage cans looking for food.

Jace listened silently, forcing away any sympathy he had as unworthy of this man who looked so much like thier implacable father.

“Then, when I was in North Carolina, I met a guy who knew of a job,” Sheldon said. “I went to ask about it and I got it. I clean barnacles off the hulls of pleasure boats.”

Jace wasn’t sure he’d heard right. “You do what?”

“I take care of boats at a marina. Repair and repaint them if needed.”

Jace opened his mouth, but said nothing.

“I know. It’s menial work,” Sheldon said. “I live in a bungalow on the beach and I read a lot of library books.”

Jace’s eyes must have betrayed his feelings.

“Don’t feel sorry for me. I’m happy, probably for the first time in my life. Oh, I was happy with Laura, more so than I ever thought I would be, but we were caught up in material things, thought nothing could touch us. Not until she died and I moved away did I understand what both joy and sadness could be.”

“And you came to tell me this?”

Sheldon nodded. “Audrey, she’s a friend in North Carolina, teaches kindergarten, it was her suggestion that I contact you.”

“What do you want me to do?”

“Nothing,” he said. “You’re the main reason I came, but there is another one. It’s for me. I couldn’t go on living with the way I had treated you.”

“So you’re absolved now?” Jason asked, leaning forward in his chair. “A four-hundred-mile trip and a few words negate the years of abuse I took from you and dad?”

Sheldon was shaking his head. “Nothing will absolve that. From me or from father. Neither you nor I can change it. What we can do is choose to understand it. Or not.”

“Suppose I choose not?” Jace asked.

“That’s your right. I hope you don’t. I’d like us to be friends or at least stay in touch with each other. But if that isn’t possible, I will, of course, accept that. Most of what happened to you was my fault. I’m willing to take the blame.”

“You’re going to play the martyr.” Jace chuckled. “That is what you do. You rode around on your horse as if you were king of all you surveyed.”

“And you raced through the countryside on horseback or in a car terrorizing all who came in contact with you.” Sheldon stopped and took a long breath. “I apologize. I’m not here to resurrect old wounds. I only wanted to tell you I’m sorry.”

Sheldon stood up. “I’ll leave now. It was good to see you. Ms. Ashton tells me you have a son. Congratulations.”

Emotions Jace had never known warred inside him. He watched his half brother head for the door. Why should he feel anything but contempt for him? Yet he felt sorry. He wanted to believe Sheldon. He’d always wanted him to change, to accept him. Now it seemed he was offering friendship and Jace was rejecting it. What should he do? What would Kelly think?

Sheldon had his hand on the doorknob when Jace asked, “Do you want to meet him?”

* * *

“T
HE
CHANDELIER
WAS
brought over from Europe during the Victorian period,” Amy, the tour guide, spoke to her group as they looked up at the ballroom ceiling. “It’s made of both straight and a rare curved crystal.”

As soon as Ari saw Jace, he abandoned the tour guide and rushed to his father. Amy looked up and recognized his brother. Jace smiled and she nodded.

“Ladies and gentlemen, this is a rare pleasure.” Amy turned and opened her arm to include the newcomers to the group. “This is Mr. Sheldon Kendall, the former owner of Kendall Farm.”

Jace heard the intake of breath from the group when Sheldon was introduced. “And this is my brother, Jason Kendall,” he said. The fact that Sheldon introduced him as his brother wasn’t lost on Jace. He’d always referred to Sheldon as his half brother.

“Do you guide any of the tours?” a woman in the audience asked.

Sheldon answered before Jace could say anything. “No, ma’am. I live in North Carolina now.”

Jace wondered if Sheldon was saving him from an awkward moment. Their talk earlier had alleviated some of their hostility. Jace no longer hated his brother, but he didn’t love him either, not with the unconditional love that families should have for one another. But a lot of the weight on his shoulders seemed to be gone.

“Go on with the tour,” Jace said. “We’ll take Ari.” Cupping the boy’s hand, the two men walked away from the group.

Jace led Ari through the kitchen where he picked up a small bottle of orange juice and a straw. He handed it to the boy. Then they went out on the back porch. He sat down on a wicker sofa and pulled Ari against him. Ari opened the orange juice and drank. Sheldon sat across from them.

“Ari, this is Sheldon,” Jace began.

Ari looked like a child who didn’t know if he was in trouble or not.

“He’s your uncle.”

“Uncle.” Ari smiled. “I have an uncle.” He studied Sheldon carefully, holding the bottle of orange juice close to him. “How do I get an uncle?”

“I’m your father’s brother,” Sheldon said. He kept his eyes on the boy and didn’t meet Jace’s gaze. Jace thought that was the second time he’d ever referred to him as his brother and not his half brother.

Ari looked at Jace. “You have a brother?”

Jace nodded.

“Wow. Can I have one?”

Both men laughed.

“You live in the North,” Ari told Sheldon. “How can you be my uncle?”

Sheldon shifted in his chair so that he and the four-year-old were close to the same level.

“I live in North Carolina, not the North,” Sheldon clarified. “It’s near the ocean.”

“Wow, can you swim in it?”

Sheldon looked amused. “Of course you can.”

“Ari, Sheldon is my brother. He used to live here at the Kendall. That’s how he’s your uncle.”

“Do you have children?” Ari asked, swinging his attention to Sheldon.

Sheldon shook his head. “No, we never had children.”

Jace knew he was thinking of Laura again. He wondered why the two had not had children. He knew Laura wanted them. She had a couple of sisters who were married and she had wanted a family, too. Jace was unsure what his brother thought about children. Sheldon had never shared those thoughts with him. Sheldon had rarely shared anything with him.

“Oh,” Ari looked down as if he was disappointed.

“But...” Sheldon offered him hope. “I have a friend named Christian. He’s older than you are. He’s nine.”

“I’m going to be nine,” Ari stated.

“You’re going to be five,” Jace corrected.

“I’m sure Christian would love to meet you. He hasn’t been around any horses. Maybe you could show him how to ride.”

Ari’s face lit up. He twisted around and looked at Jace, his top lip coated with orange juice. “Can I, Dad?”

“I think so,” Jace said.

Jace looked at his brother. He was unsure if this was real or a trick. If it was a trick, Sheldon was good, since Jace was falling for his lines. Sheldon had apologized and was ready to walk out the door only hours after he’d arrived. He said nothing about where he was staying or how long he would be in Maryland. Jace wasn’t sure of a lot things, but for now he’d wait and see.

“Can we go get him today?” Ari asked with enthusiasm.

“He lives a long way from here, Ari,” Jace said.

“Can we go tomorrow?”

Jace smiled at him.

Sheldon spoke up. “I’d like it if you would come to see me. I live in a small bungalow with only one bedroom, but I’m sure we could rough it for a few days. It’s right on the beach and there’s an arcade close by.”

“What’s an arc...arc...?”

“Arcade,” Sheldon supplied. “It’s a place with a lot of games that kids like to play.”

“Video games?” Ari’s eyes opened wide. Video games were heaven to him.

Sheldon nodded. “Christian loves video games. He’s got a lot of them at his house. I’m sure he’d let you play with them.”

“Wow,” Ari said.

* * *

T
HE
ORANGE
JUICE
bottle was emptied with a loud gurgle. Ari went inside to recycle the plastic bottle. He ran back to the door and swung it open.

“Dad, can we ride the horses?”

“Not on visitors’ day,” Jace repeated the rule he’d established during their first open house.

“Okay, I’m going to find Kelly,” he announced and tore away before Jace could say anything. “I want to tell her about the arcade.”

“Is he always that fast?” Sheldon asked.

Jace nodded.

“You must be very proud,” Sheldon said. He stood up then and went to the edge of the porch.

“I am,” Jace said, joining him. Jace walked down the steps and across the path that led to the stables. His brother followed.

“Where’s his mother?” Sheldon asked.

“Dead,” Jace replied.

“I’m sorry. I suppose we’ve both lost a wife.”

“We were never married,” Jace said without further explanation. He’d let Sheldon think what he would.