Swept (7 page)

“That’s the problem, I do care.” She says looking into my eyes.

“Yeah, you cared so much that last night, when I was lying in a pool of my own vomit; you decided to fuck the lead singer back stage.” I still can’t believe she did that.

“That’s not fair, Ryan. You know we have an agreement.” She glares at me.

“Just take me to my dorm.”

“Gladly.”

The air around of is tense as we both sit in silence. The only sound is the tires on the pavement as Kelly drives. I’m not really mad at Kelly; she’s not the one I care about or the problem. I am however upset that once again Crystal looks right through me and sees some other guy. One she can’t even have. Some guy with a stupid name, Gabriel, what the hell kind of gay name is that anyway? I bet he’s just like every other asshole she’s been with.

“Ryan, really, what’s wrong?” Kelly asks me, the car is parked and her hand is on my shoulder.

“I’m sure you already know.” I say as I stare out the window, I don’t even want to look at her when I’m thinking of Crystal. How could she just sit there and talk about someone else when I’m right there, practically with a neon sign flashing, “I Love you.”

“Crystal.” Kelly sighs. “It’s always Crystal. How many times as you going to let her get to you like this?”

“I can’t help it.” I say glancing at her. And I really can’t I’ve been crazy about Crystal since grade school, I just wish she felt the same way about me, it’s a fact that is so agonizing that it keeps me awake at night.

“Can’t help it? You can help it by manning up and telling her!” She practically yells at me.

“It’s not about manning up.” I can’t remember how many times I’ve tried to tell her, I can’t even count how many times I’ve called her, only to hang up. I’m worried about what will happen if I do tell her. I wonder how things will change, if she’ll not want to be around me anymore because things will be too weird, and that’s one thing I can’t stand, the thought of losing her. At least as her friend I’m guaranteed a place in her life, even if it’s not the one I want.

“Yes it is; why won’t you tell her?”

“If I tell her how I feel she’ll be with me because she feels sorry for me. I can’t have her date me out of pity. She’ll be scared she’s going to hurt my feelings if she lets me down. I just can’t tell her. I want her to be with me because she wants to be with me, not because she’s afraid of hurting me.” Which is just as true too, one thing I can’t stand is pity.

“So you’re going to mope around and be miserable instead?”

“No.” I tell her, but she’s right. She knows me too well.

“But that’s what you’re doing. Either you man up and tell her or you let her go, and I suggest you do it soon before she falls for someone else.”

“Maybe I can get her to see me; maybe I can get her to fall for me.” I give Kelly the same excuse I always do. I’ve been trying to get Crystal to notice me for a while, but it hasn’t worked, but it doesn’t stop me from being hopeful.

“Stop, just stop. You’ve been trying to get her to notice you for years, and she never has. She’s never going to until you tell her. You’re in the friend zone. The only way out of this is to tell her.”

“Always the friend never the boyfriend.” I mumble, she’s right again.

“You will be if you don’t say anything.”

“Thank for the ride,” I say turning to her and reaching for the door handle.

“Running away won’t change the fact that you need to speak up.” Kelly says her hand on my arm.

I jerk my arm away, “Yeah, whatever.” I get out of the car and slam the door. Kelly was right. I didn’t want to admit it, but I knew she was and it made me angry. I know Crystal too well. I know what will happen if I walk up to her and spill my guts. She’ll just feel sorry for me and I just can’t have that. I’ve tried so hard to get her to really see me. Sure she knows I exist, but I’m just her best friend. I’m stuck as her damned friend. I punch the door to my room as I walk in. Why does Kelly always have to be right? My phone goes off and I check it.

Kelly: I hope this cheers you up ;-) attached is a picture of her tits.

Me: Thanks, but it doesn’t help.

Kelly: You suck.

Me: Not as much as you.

Kelly: Dick

Me: Whore

Kelly: Fine. Don’t ever expect me to do anything nice for you again.

Me: I didn’t ask.

Kelly: I know.

I don’t respond. It was sweet of her to try and cheer me up, but if she could magically morph into Crystal, it’s not going to happen. Kelly is my friend but she’s also my fuck buddy. She wants me, but I’m in love with Crystal. Kelly knows she can’t have me, and she knows I can’t have Crystal. Not right now anyway, so we made an agreement, we would be with each other physically, but nothing else. No dates, no expectations, just sex. It’s not a bad arrangement. My only problem is I’m thinking about Crystal the whole time I’m screwing Kelly. I’ve even called out Crystal’s name while in bed with Kelly.

Kelly has never let on that it bothers her. She knows exactly where she sits and that’s on my dick. Yeah, she wants me, but she settled for this because she knew this was as close as she was going to get to actually having me. She’s always been free to be with whoever else she wants to be with. I guess that person now is Nick; like I really care who he is. For all I care she could be banging the whole football team, she’ll still come back and wind up in my bed. She always does.

Kelly has never cared who she is with as long as she gets what she wants. I think about her text; she really was trying to make me feel better and maybe I was being unfair. I pull my pants down, wait for my dick to get hard and send her a pic.

Me: I’m sorry I was so mean

Kelly: Nice! Is that for me?

Me: All for you, baby. Enjoy!

Kelly: What are you doing later?

Me: You. ;-)

Kelly: I like the way you think.

I may not be able to have Crystal, but I can have Kelly any time any place. Besides, sex with Kelly will get my mind off of Crystal. Maybe someday she’ll be mine. I can only hope, but until then a guy has needs and he has to fill them somehow. My phone goes off again. It’s my roommate, Zack.

Zack: There’s a party tonight

Me: Where?

Zack: Off campus, I can take you there.

Me: I could use some time out.

Zack: I’ll be there soon.

Me: Sweet.

Nice. Now that the idea of alcohol and half naked girls is part of the plans I don’t need Kelly to stop by. Who knows, maybe I’ll meet the girl who will surpass Crystal. Or maybe I’ll find a new pussy to fuck. Whichever was fine for me. I pull out my phone.

Me: Plans are off.

Kelly: Why

Me: Something came up

Kelly: Boo!

Me: Sorry.

Kelly: You suck, you get a girl excited only to let her down.

Me: I said I was sorry.

Kelly: Yeah I know.

I shove my phone in my pocket as Zach enters the room, “You ready, bro?”

“Hell yes!” I answer.

“Let’s do this!” He says and fist pumps. I follow him out the door and into his car; we ride off into the evening. All I can think about is hot babes and beer. What more can a man ask for?

Chapter Nine

Party

W
e pull up to a fraternity house, just a few miles away from campus. The house is huge and it’s filled with a lot of people. I can hear music pumping as it blares through the stereo. Zack and I jump out of the car and walk into the house. I look around the room. The house is packed, hot girls are everywhere. I find a table full of beer and grab a cup. I chug it and grab another cup. I chug that one and grab another cup. I walk into the living room; people are dancing. I take a drink and a girl is dancing on me. She rubs her body against mine. I check her out; her skirt is so short I can see her butt when she leans over. She’s not wearing a bra and her shirt is low cut that when she sways her body I can see her tits. This right here is what I need. I chug my drink, crumple the cup and toss it to the floor and dance with this sexy blond in front of me. I grind my hips with her; she dips to the floor and rubs up the length of my body as she stands again. She turns rubbing her breasts into me. She looks up at me eyes glazed over obviously drunk, “You’re so fucking hot” she says and pulls me in for a kiss. We continue to dance, she grinds against me and I grind against her. We’re practically having sex in the middle of the room except our clothes are still on. I feel a tap on my shoulder and spin around.

“So this is what was so important you have to leave me?” Kelly says.

“Kelly? How did you find me?” I ask; the blond is still dancing on me.

“I wasn’t looking for you. I was bored and lonely, no thanks to you and I heard about this party so I decided to come and check it out. I never expected to run into you.”

“Well that is typical you, checking out all the parties.” I check Kelly out, she is so sexy, but I’d never tell her that, she’s wearing a dress that’s so tight and so short I wonder if it’s a dress at all, and I can’t wait to see her out of it.

“You know it!” Kelly says raising the cup that’s in her hand and drinks.

Kelly stands back and watches the blond dance on me; she shakes her head and begins dancing next to me. “Honey, if you’re going to dance, you might as well do it right.” Kelly says to her and starts grinding on me.

Kelly is so sexy when she dances and I can’t deny it. We have a chemistry that works; it’s just too bad my heart belongs to someone else. We dance and drink, then Kelly turns to me, “Want to finish this upstairs?” She doesn’t give me a chance to answer, she grabs my hand and we stumble up the stairs and into a dark room. Kelly has me sit in a chair and she dances as she takes her dress off. She shakes her ass in my face, then turns around and unbuttons my pants. I slide them off and sit back down. Kelly straddles me and lets the tip of my dick enter her as she shakes her tits in my face. I reach out to touch them and she slaps my hand away. “Uh uh, don’t touch.” She giggles. She continues to parade around me, and then kneels wrapping her mouth around my cock. “God, Kelly” I say as she sucks me. She pulls me deep into her mouth and then back out swirling her tongue over my tip. She bobs her head, picking up speed. I throw my head back and groan. My cock is throbbing when she pulls away and stands up letting her breast sweep against my body. “Are you ready for me? She asks. I nod and she straddles me, my hard cock enters her wet pussy. She sits on top of me and fucks me, she moans as she picks up speed. “I’m about to come.” I groan and she speeds up again. She starts to moan and I can feel her pussy tighten around my cock. It sends me over and I come with her, moaning as I find my release. She stands up and gathers her clothes. “I guess you didn’t let me down after all,” She smiles.

She gets dressed and I pull up my pants. She walks out of the room, and I try to follow her, but she disappears into the crowd. I occupy myself with the drinks. I keep grabbing cups and chugging. I walk into the middle of the living room and dance and make out with some girls, my vision is blurry when Zack finds me. “Want to get out of here?” He asks

“Why? This party is just getting started.” I yell

“Dude, you’re drunk.” He says

“Hell yes I am.” I take a drink from the cup that’s in my hand, but it’s empty. I throw it on the floor.

“C’mon I have some place else for us to go.” Zack says

“Okay.” I say and follow him to the car.

I don’t know where he’s taking me, but I hope it’s to another party. Maybe I can find some other girl to screw. That would be something. Two pussies one night; I chuckle to myself as I think about it. Zach reaches over and turns up the stereo I holler as we drive off into the night.

Crystal

Chapter Ten

Fight

I
stand with the door wide open, mouth agape, “I’m so sorry, if I’m interrupting you.” I apologize as I feel my face turn bright red. I can’t believe I’ve walked in on them like this. I want to hide, but I’m also intrigued by Gabriel’s amazing body. If only I could be invisible or a fly on the wall, I’d love to see what Gabriel looks like naked, even if it means seeing Emily with him; as much as I can’t stand the idea of those two together.

Gabriel smiles, “You’re fine.” He doesn’t seem shocked at all. Emily grabs at the shirts on the floor and clutches one to her chest.

I close the door and try to divert my eyes away from Gabriel’s ripped chest, “I’ll get out of your way, I’m so sorry to bother you.”

Gabriel stands up and moves towards me, “You’re not bothering us at all, besides this is your place too, you shouldn’t have to apologize for walking into your own dorm.”

Emily stands up her eyes wide and clearly angry, “I thought you were going to be out with your friends,”

I move past Gabriel and towards my room, “I was, but now I’m not.” I mutter, not wanting to make this last any more than it has to. I can’t stand the idea of Gabriel and Emily together. It just seems so wrong.

Emily walks towards me blocking me from my room, “You weren’t out for long,”

Gabriel turns to Emily, his voice calm and quiet, “Does it matter how long she was gone?”

Emily presses her palm to her forehead, “I had plans for us.”

I tip toe around Emily and to the door of my room, “I’m really sorry. I’ll be in my room.”

Gabriel steps close to me and places his hand on my shoulder, then moves my face so I’m looking at him, “Crystal, don’t let her treat you like this. You have just as much right to be here as she does.”

Emily shoves Gabriel’s shoulder, “Excuse me? Do you not care about how I feel?”

Gabriel steps back, “Of course I care about how you feel, but you’re being rude to Crystal and that’s not right.”

I spin around away from my door and take a hesitant step towards the exit, “You know what? I think I’ll go to the Library instead. Will that make everything better, Emily? Let me grab my bag and I’ll be out of here.”

“Crystal, you really don’t have to.” Gabriel objects as I grab my book bag. I look over at Emily her arms are folded and she’s tapping her foot, looking away.