The After Party (31 page)

Sissy caught up with me. Her brown hair was cut in a fashionable bob. I touched my own hair, which fell well over my shoulders. I'd wanted a bob, but Mother hadn't wanted me to cut it.

“You're a quick walker,” she said.

I slowed my pace. “Yes.”

“It's hot in Florida.” Her voice was husky; it contrasted sharply with her delicate features.

“Where are you from?” I asked.

“Monroeville.”

She acted as if I must know where that was. I pretended that I did.

“What does your father do?” she asked.

“He's a doctor. And he owns orange groves.” The last part wasn't technically true—the citrus was in my mother's family—but I assumed owning land gave you currency here.

“I love oranges!” she said, smiling her crooked smile, and I smiled back at her enthusiasm. Oranges weren't a treat to me. They were a given.

“What does your father do?” I asked.

“He manages my grandfather's affairs. And rides horses. That's why he sent me here, to learn how to ride. But I'm afraid I haven't taken to it.”

“No?”

“It's too dirty,” she said. Then added quickly, “But don't think I'm like that,” and glanced at me sideways. “I just like other things better.”

I was surprised by the sound of my laughter. I hadn't laughed in weeks.

The other girls swarmed around us as we entered the dining hall. Clustered at tables draped with toile cloths, they spoke among themselves, and I could see they liked it here, felt at home.

Sissy pointed out my table, where Mary Abbott, Victoria, and Henny sat amid others. Mary Abbott grinned excitedly when she saw me, and I gave a small smile in return, then chose the seat farthest from her.

“Hello, Theodora,” Henny said. I started to tell her about my name, but Mary Abbott piped in.

“She goes by Thea.” Henny didn't acknowledge that Mary Abbott had spoken, went on and introduced the others at the table, a mix of younger and older girls and a teacher, Miss Metcalfe, who had very smooth skin and small, pearly teeth.

There were steaming platters of food—eggs, bacon
and
ham, raspberry muffins, grits—but I had no appetite. Mostly, everyone ignored me, and I was grateful. I thought that Sam would have loved all this food; he had started to eat like a horse the past few months. I knew exactly where he was right now: out back, tending to one of his injured animals, or feeding the insects in one of his terrariums, rearranging a branch so a lizard had a better place to sun himself. He didn't always have an injured animal to tend to, but he'd been raising a nest of baby squirrels for a few weeks. Their mother had vanished.

“Can I ask you a question?” Molly said, halfway through the meal. She had buckteeth, which made her seem younger than she was. Her thin brown hair hung loose, an inch past her waist. It needed to be cut.

“May I . . .” Henny corrected. She was chubby, with a double chin and an unfortunately placed mole on her left temple. She wasn't homely, exactly, but there was the mole. I did not like Henny but I was relieved by her presence, that there was a near-adult here along with Miss Metcalfe to keep order.

Molly continued. “Why are you here so late?”

“Pardon?”

“Why didn't you come at the beginning like the rest of us?”

I waited for Henny to intervene, but she sat quietly, like the others at the table, watching me. Alice Hunt Morgan, from Memphis, Tennessee, traced the rim of her glass. I'd called her Alice and she'd corrected me: Alice Hunt, she'd said, that's my full name. Now everyone waited for my answer. They were all curious, and I couldn't blame them: I was an interloper.

“It was a late birthday present,” I said, “we were in Europe on holiday because it gets so hot in Florida during the summer.” I paused. The girls waited, heads tilted. Molly rolled a piece of her ratty hair between her fingers. “We go every year and I didn't want to miss it, but my father wanted me to come to camp, too. So he arranged it.” I shrugged my shoulders, as if to say it was all in the hands of generous and capable adults.

“Where in Europe?” Molly asked, but by then the other girls were tired of me, had returned to one another.

“Paris,” I said. “I love Paris in the summer.”

Molly nodded and looked away, satisfied. I felt the back of my head for a tender spot from this morning, but there was nothing. I looked across the room and found Sissy, who smiled at me. I smiled back.

“Thea,” Henny said. So she had heard Mary Abbott; Mary Abbott was a girl one didn't have to acknowledge. “Drink up.” She nodded at my milk. I contemplated the glass, which I had barely touched. At home we drank orange or grapefruit juice, depending on the season. Never milk. Mother had an aversion to it. We stirred milk into our tea sometimes, or Sam and I had it with dessert. For lunch at Yonahlossee, I'd soon learn, a glass pitcher of sweet iced tea, a chunk of ice floating in the amber, would rest next to Henny's plate, and she would dole it out among us carefully. This iced tea was thick and syrupy, and, I had to admit, delicious. Years later I'd crave this iced tea, its cool weight on my tongue, the bitterness of the strong tea offset by the copious amounts of sugar; I'd learn that to miss the Yonahlossee sweet tea was something of a tradition among us.

But that would be later. For now I stared at my glass of pale milk and tried not to cry.

“Thea,” Henny said again, her voice low, but I knew I would cry if I looked up. Then I could feel her gaze lift; everyone turned their seats around in the same direction and I thought this was some strange way of leaving until I heard his voice.

“Good morning, girls,” Mr. Holmes said.

“Good morning, Mr. Holmes,” everyone chorused but me, and Mr. Holmes seemed quietly delighted at this response, even though he must hear it every morning.

After he had delivered morning announcements and led us in worship, a woman approached me, too old to be a house mistress. She was plump and short, with a pretty face.

“I'm Mrs. Holmes, the headmistress. Follow me,” she said, and gestured toward the stairwell at the edge of the room. I tried to keep the surprise from my face, but she saw anyway, looked at me for a second too long so I would know I had erred. But I also knew I could not be the first person who had been surprised that she was married to Mr. Holmes. When I'd seen her this morning, I'd thought she was head housekeeper, or some other staff person; even from across the room she had a matronly, interfering way about her. She struck me as impatient. I followed her obediently, slowed down so that I would not overtake her. Her waist seemed unnaturally small, as if she were cinched in, and I realized she must be wearing a corset. Even Mother didn't wear those. But Mother was so slim she didn't need one.

Mrs. Holmes's office was on the third floor, and by the time we reached it she was out of breath. As she opened the door, I stood close enough so that I could see how tightly her brown hair was bound into a bun; her hair was graying, which you could not see from a distance.

Her office was elegantly appointed, the settee upon which she gestured for me to sit upholstered in a modern plaid.

“Theodora Atwell,” she began. “You're at Henny's table?” Before I could answer, she continued. “I've known Henny for a very long time. She's exceptionally capable.” This seemed like a warning. She looked down at the papers in front of her. “From Emathla, Florida. I've always thought that to live in Florida as a gardener would be sublime. You could grow anything.”

Mother said that very same thing. But I didn't want to think about Mother. “Everyone calls me Thea.”

“Oh, I know,” Mrs. Holmes said, and smiled at me. I wondered if Mr. Holmes had already told her what to call me, if they spoke often about the girls here. They must.

“Tell me, Thea,” she said, as she lowered herself into her shiny wooden chair and gazed at me from across her desk, hewn from the same wood, also polished to a sheen, “how are you liking it so far?”

“Very much,” I said, because there was nothing else I could say.

“The founders of Yonahlossee were very progressive individuals. They started this camp in 1876, eleven years after the War Between the States. Why, Thea, was this such an important time in our nation's history?”

I knew this, at least. My own great-grandfather had fled the War Between the States. “Because the South was poor almost beyond belief. Because it was a terrible time for this part of the country. Everything was changing, rapidly, and no one was sure what would happen to the South.”

I had impressed her. “Yes.” She nodded. Then she told me about Louisa and Hanes Bell, who had never had children of their own but who had made it their mission to provide a summer respite for females in this rapidly changing—she used my words—world. Places like this already existed in the North, for girls and boys, and in the South, for boys, but the Bells had seen a lack and filled it.

“And then the camp became a school, as demand for the place grew.” Before, she had sounded like she was rattling off a speech, one she had given before many times. Now she looked at me intently, but I didn't know why. “So now Yonahlossee is a camp for certain girls and a school for others. But in both cases it is a place for young women to learn how to become ladies. Because, Thea, becoming a lady is not simply a thing which happens, like magic.” She snapped her fingers, then shook her head. “No, quite the opposite: becoming a lady is a lesson you must learn.

“In this world of uncertainty,” she finished, “a lady is more important than she ever was.”

She was referring to the financial crisis, of course. It seemed sad that the Bells had never had children, especially since they'd devoted their lives to the young. Something must have been wrong with Louisa's organs. I had very little idea of what Mrs. Holmes meant: she might as well have been speaking Greek. A lady was now more important than she ever was?

“And the name?” I asked, because Mrs. Holmes was looking at me expectantly. “Yonahlossee?”

“Oh,” Mrs. Holmes said, and made a small, flinging gesture. “An old Indian name. It has nothing to do with the camp, really. The name of Mrs. Bell's horse.”

I waited for her to continue, to say something about equestrienne pursuits. I smiled to myself; Sasi was an old Indian name, too. Mother had named him after I couldn't think of anything. Sasi was an old Muskogee word, meaning “is there.” As in, the flower is there. Mother had said that, exactly. I remembered her voice so clearly.

“I hope you'll like it here,” she said, and put her elbows on the table, and stared at me frankly, her small hands folded in front of her.

“I feel sure I will.” And I had liked it, a moment ago, liked hearing about Louisa Bell; Yonahlossee seemed like a kinder place now that I knew it was named after a horse. But remembering Mother, and Sasi, had turned me gray again.

“Your mother was sure you would.”

I was so confused for a second—had she read my mind?

“Your mother is a friend of mine. An old friend.”

This was impossible. My mother didn't have any old friends; we were all she needed. How many times had I heard her say that she and Father had stumbled into their private utopia out here in the Florida wilderness?

“You have her hair,” Mrs. Holmes said, and then I knew it was true, she had known Mother.

“We went to finishing school together,” she continued, “in Raleigh. Miss Petit's.”

My eyes blurred, and I thought for an instant that I was having an allergic reaction, like one of Father's patients; to a bee sting, a berry.

I bit my lip, and it was hard to breathe; then I started to cry.

“Oh, Thea, I didn't mean to upset you. Did your mother not tell you that we knew each other?”

I shook my head.

“Yes, I know all about you. She entrusted you to me, in a way. Another place might not have been suitable for you.

“Do we understand each other, Thea?” Mrs. Holmes asked, after a moment.

I nodded.

“Please look at me.”

I did as she asked. Her eyes were almond-shaped. That I was looking into the same eyes my mother had once looked into seemed impossible.

“And there's another thing: if you notice anything unusual, anything . . . bodily, please come and see me at once.”

“Bodily?” I repeated.

“Bodily. I'll expect you know what I mean if it happens.”

I told her I understood, even though I didn't.

—

A
s I walked alone to the stables for my evaluation, I thought she must mean my monthly cycle. But I already had that, and knew what to do myself.

I was glad no girl could see my red eyes; I was grateful that I had the walk to compose myself. My understanding had been that Yonahlossee was a place arrived at by accident, by circumstance.

The path past the privies narrowed into a lane wide enough for two people; trees rose on either side, blocking out most of the sunlight. I shivered, and was relieved when I emerged suddenly into a large circle of flat space, bordered by mountains.

I gasped, in spite of myself; I had told myself I would try not to be surprised by everything new at Yonahlossee. But I had never seen anything like this; I hadn't even known something like this existed. There were three stone barns, all in a row, and they were massive compared to my barn at home, as if they housed an army of horses. My barn at home was barely a barn at all, I realized, compared to this. Horses hung their heads out of their stall windows, and I saw an Appaloosa with a spotted head, a breed I'd only read about, never seen.

Grooms milled about the grounds, pushing wheelbarrows or leading horses. One man caught me staring, and I turned away, blushing; he looked like Docey's male counterpart, skinny and wiry, capable.

There were five riding rings, two with jumps. Everything looked perfect and new, the rings freshly raked, the fences newly painted. I wondered where Yonahlossee got all its money. The few towns we had driven through on the way here had looked very poor—the buildings falling down, the people dirty—but I knew we were entering Appalachia, which was poor anyway, aside from the financial crisis. Father mentioned a terrible drought. Another reference to unpleasantness, uncharacteristic, but I was quickly learning that my life was turning into a series of surprises.