The Bad Boy (30 page)

“
Wrongs would still be made, Jared. They aren’t the only ones
doing wrong in this world. I can promise you that.” I lowered my
eyes to the ground as I felt a lump form in my throat. Why did I
just bring up Conner?

“
I—well… sorry.” He stumbled over his words which only made me
laugh and look him in the eyes.

“
It’s
my fault, I shouldn’t have said anything.”

“
C’mere.” He mumbled pulling me closer to him and capturing my
lips. I felt my stomach flip in butterflies as our lips meet and I
threw my arms around his neck, deepening it. His hands slid down my
sides and his thumbs massaged my hips soothingly.

He licked my
bottom lip and I opened my mouth giving him entrance, smiling into
the kiss. I tangled my hands in his hair and he groaned. His
fingers slipped up my shirt a little touching the bare
skin.

A groan made me
come back to my sense.

We were making
out in a hospital room which held Jared’s younger brother who was
currently unconscious. We really had no values. Then I realized
where that groan came from and pulled away from Jared, who whined,
obviously missing the noise that I clearly heard.

“
I’m
glad you guys are together but really? Making out in front of the
unconscious boy?”

Snapping our
heads in the direction of Austin we saw him staring at us with half
lidded eyes.

“
Well?
Is anyone going to get me a glass of water or are you two just
going to keep making out?”

I jumped out of
my seat without another hesitation and wrapped my arms around
Austin’s neck. He groaned before patting my back awkwardly. “I just
woke up. Please don’t suffocate me Emilie.”

I laughed pulling
back with a smile. I heard a grunt from behind me and then Jared
said, “She’s never that happy to see me.”

Austin raised one
of his eyebrows at his brother. “Really? I’m pretty sure from the
way she was sucking your face, she does.”

I blushed scarlet
while Jared smirked at me and winked.

“
You
guys really are brothers.” I rolled my eyes feeling my blush
lessen.

“
I
mean we both did come out of my mom’s—“ I sent Jared a glare making
it valid that he better not finish that sentence.

“
Speaking of family, where is everyone?” Austin asked looking
around the room as if they would magically appear from behind
something.

“
Shit!
I have to call them!” Jared shot up from his seat and ran to the
door before stopping. He faced us again and walked back to where
Austin was laying in the bed. He pulled Austin into a hug and
mumbled something in his ear. I looked away giving them some
privacy, I only looked back when I heard the door close.

“
Sweet.” I brought my eyes to Austin who had the blankets
pulled down and his shirt pulled up. My eyes dropped to what he was
poking and I gasped.

“
Stop
touching the wound!” I demanded moving over to him and slapping his
hand away. I yanked his shirt back down and covered his lower half
with the blankets again. “I don’t think you should be moving around
too much either.”

“
Yes
mom.” He rolled his eyes letting his head fall back onto the
pillows.

I frowned at him
for his sarcastic attitude but didn’t comment. I was too happy that
he was awake to even care if he was being snippy. Then a thought
hit me. “I should probably tell the doctors, you woke up.” That
should have been my first move.

“
Wait.”

I froze and
turned my head to see Austin pulling himself up into a sitting
position. He patted the spot next to him and with reluctance I went
and sat down. I really should have been getting the
doctor.

Austin stared
down at the blankets with a frown on his face. His eyebrows knitted
together. For some reason, I found the act cute.

“
For
two years now, I have been open about my gayness.” He started off
looking up at me quickly and then dropped his eyes back down to the
blanket. 

I put my hand on
top of his. “Austin, you don’t have too…”

“
I
knew since I was little that I was different.” He gulped. “I was
always looking at guys instead of girls. I found it more appealing
to have a guy kissing me, touching me then a girl. I thought I was
cursed and it scared me. No one knew and I was too terrified to say
anything because all my friends would make fun of homosexuals. I
was trapped and I didn’t know what to do.”

His head picked
up but he stared out the window and I saw his eyes glistening.
“Once I hit thirteen, I knew I was gay. There was no denying it
from myself but I couldn’t tell anyone. I thought my family would
turn against me and my friends would also. It hurt to know that I
was alone.”

I wrapped my
fingers around his hand and squeezed it. Finally, his eyes meet
mine and he lightly smiled at me. I returned it.

“
When
I was fourteen, I meet this guy. We started talking and then became
friends. Before I knew it we were more than friends and I really
liked him. He made me feel special and wanted. I never felt wanted
before. He told me that he was openly gay and that if I really
loved who I was, then I would be open too.”

I could tell
there was a horrible twist in the way his face turned to
disgust.

“
He
persuaded me into it and being the idiot I was, I did. I went to
Jared first and will never regret it because he said he knew and
was waiting for me to say it. He didn’t hate me or find me
disgusting. Then my parents were told and so on.”

He slipped his
hand out from under mine and ran it through his hair a couple of
times, his breath getting heavier.

“
I
transferred to the kid’s school, thinking if I have him by my side,
everything will be fine. Even though my family knew, I still felt
like he was my rock because he got me to be honest with myself and
everyone. My parents thought it was just because I liked the High
School better than the one you and Jared go to.”

That’s why I
never saw him around school and explained his school
uniform.

He shook his head
in disappointment but I think he was doing it at
himself.

“
By
then we were together for a month and I should have saw the signs.
He only let me over his house or we would go out to non-crowded
places. The only time we showed affection was when we were alone.
He said he didn’t like PDA.”

Here was the
twist…

“
Going
to the school for the first day, I surprised him.” He laughed
bitterly shaking his head. “Too bad he had a better surprise for
me.”

“
Austin…”

“
I was
nothing to him. I was his secret!” His fist clenched and he glared
at me. “A fucking secret for his own pleasure!” I put a hand to my
mouth as he punched the bed a couple of times. “He made me look
stupid in front of everyone! Told them that I had been stalking him
for a while now.” His eyes bored into mine. “Want to know the worst
part?”

He didn’t give me
time to answer.

“
The
whole time he was holding hands with his ‘girlfriend’ who he had
been dating for, for three months. Three months!” Tears were
slipping down his cheeks but he ignored them. “It hurt to know that
he lied to me and made me come open about my sexuality when really
he was still hiding it. His so called girlfriend was a cover up and
when he found me later, he said that I better not tell anyone about
him being gay or what we did together.”

He scoffed and
angrily wiped away the tears on his face. “Of course, I told them
because I was pissed that he didn’t actually care about me. Why
should I care about him, if he didn’t care about me? I was full of
revenge and anger. It was the wrong choice though. Everyone turned
against me without hesitation because they believed him more than
me.

I became the
victim of the school. I was the gay stalker and still am. But I
couldn’t tell my parent’s that I wanted to leave the school because
I didn’t want to back down. I wanted to be strong so I stayed and
everything got worse. The beatings, the teasing, the humility but I
didn’t give up.”

“
Why
won’t you tell anyone who stabbed you?” I asked. “Why are you
protecting those guys?”

Austin looked at
me with angry and tear filled eyes.

The answer came
to me right then and I found my heart aching for him.

“
The
one that stabbed you was
him
.” I stated sadly.

“
When
you love someone you will do anything for them.” He shrugged. “You
also can’t help who you love.”

“
He
almost killed you Austin. I think now is the time to finally say
something. Who knows what will happen next?” I know the
McKingsley’s wouldn’t be able to handle something like this
again.

“
I
can’t. I never told my mom and dad that I was seeing him when I
confessed to them. They don’t know exactly how it all started at
school, they just know that it is.”

I shook my head
at him. “Austin it isn’t safe anymore to cover for him. He almost
killed you. He’s not going to play nice.” I bargained locking eyes
with him.

“
So
sending him to jail is a better idea? This way he has more of a
hating for me?” He scoffed.

“
I was
in the same place as you.” I admitted closing my eyes as images of
Conner hurting me came back. “The difference, you have the chance
to stop it before it gets any worse. Don’t make the same stupid
decision I made.”

His eye softened.
“I… just—I can’t.”

“
Yes
you can. Please.” I begged. Conner might have had me scared and
weak but I wasn’t going to let Austin let those guys get away with
attempted murder. I couldn’t.

“
You
aren’t just doing this because of the Conner thing?”

“
No.
I’m doing this for you.” I stated confidently.

There was a
defeated look in his eyes. I couldn’t even tell him how stupid he
was being because then I would just be a hypocrite. All I could do
was help him.

“
I’ll
think about it…”

I went to say
more when the door swung open and Jared stepped in with a doctor
behind him. “Yeah kind of forgot that the doctor should be seeing
him.” He said sheepishly.

“
It’s
fine.” I said rising from my seat and going over towards where
Jared was standing.

“
Want
to wait outside?” He asked tugging on my hand before I could
answer.

“
Sure.” I sent one last look at Austin but he was paying
attention to the doctor and didn’t even notice it. I closed the
door behind me as I entered the hall and sighed.

“
You
guys seemed pretty deep in conversation. Sorry I ruined it but the
doctor was getting impatient with me.” Jared smiled slipping his
hands around my waist and bending his knees to look at me in the
eyes. “Everything’s okay though right?”

I shrugged. “He
told me about his past and what not.” I crossed my arms over my
chest. “He said he will think about telling the cops who did this
to him.” I frowned up at Jared who had his eyebrows
raised.

“
At
least he will be thinking about it. Whenever I asked he would walk
out of the room.” His eyes drifted off to the side as he seemed to
go deep into thought.

“
Well
like I said before, you guys really are brothers. Both good at
keeping secrets.”

Jared’s head
snapped to mine as my eyes went wide a little. Did I just really
say that out loud? I had been thinking about it because even if I
didn’t admit it, I was slightly getting annoyed that Jared wasn’t
telling me what was going on with him and Anna.

I guess trying to
get Austin to admit about his secret brought up the thought of
Jared and Anna.

His lips turned
down into a frown and his hands dropped from my sides. Shit. Did I
just cause a fight to occur? We both opened our mouths at the same
time but were cut off by the doctor stepping out of Austin’s
room.

“
Everything is fine with him. He might be sore for a while and
I suggest he gets bed rest for about two weeks. Limit his movement
to little as possible. The wound can re-open if it doesn’t heal
properly first.”

“
Thanks.” Jared said with his jaw set and I closed my eyes
sighing. He was pissed and at me. But could I blame him? I told him
I would drop it and let him tell me when he was ready and then I
open my mouth and blurt out about him keeping secrets.

The doctor nodded
and headed down the hall. Oblivious to Jared’s anger.

He stepped
towards the door but I held him back by putting my hand on his arm.
He stayed facing the door, not even sending me a glance. “I’m sorry
please don’t be mad.” I pleaded.

I was tired of
getting into fights with Jared. I usually started them but that’s
because I couldn’t keep my big mouth shut.

Without
answering, he pushed the door open and stepped out of my grip. I
didn’t fight him knowing that we could deal with it later. Right
now, Austin was awake and was our main priority.