The Beach Book Bundle: 3 Novels for Summer Reading: Breathing Lessons, The Alphabet Sisters, Firefly Summer (37 page)

“Work?”

“Did I learn to say ‘Daddy’?”

“Well, no, actually,” Ira said. “You were way too little to be talking yet.”

“Oh.”

Leroy seemed to be digesting that. Then she sat forward so she was practically nose to nose with Maggie. Her eyes had darker blue specks in them, as if even they were freckled. “I am going to get to see him, aren’t I?” she said. “He’s not giving a concert or anything, is he?”

“Who?” Maggie asked, although of course she knew.

“My … Jesse.”

“Well, certainly you are. You’ll see him at supper after he gets off work. He loves fried chicken, just like you. It must be genetic.”

“The thing of it is—” Ira began.

Maggie said, “What do you like for dessert, Leroy?”

“The thing of it is,” Ira said, “this is Saturday night. What if Jesse has other plans and he can’t make supper?”

“But he
can
make supper, Ira; I already told you that.”

“Or if he has to leave right after. I mean what are we doing here, Maggie? We don’t have any toys anymore or any sports equipment and our TV is on the blink. We don’t have anything to keep a child occupied. And would you please face forward and fasten your seat belt? You’re making me nervous.”

“I’m just trying to figure out what to buy for dessert,” Maggie said. But she turned around and reached for her seat belt. “Your daddy’s favorite dessert is mint chocolate chip ice cream,” she told Leroy.

“Oh, mine too,” Leroy said.

Fiona said, “What are you talking about? You hate mint chocolate chip.”

“I love it,” Leroy told her.

“You absolutely do not!”

“Yes, I do, Ma. It was only when I was little I didn’t like it.”

“Well, you must have been little just last week, then, missy.”

Maggie said hastily, “What other flavors do you like, Leroy?”

“Well, fudge ripple, for instance,” Leroy said.

“Oh, what a coincidence! Jesse is crazy about fudge ripple.”

Fiona rolled her eyes. Leroy said, “Really? I think fudge ripple is just excellent.”

“I have seen you go without any dessert whatsoever if the only choice was mint chocolate chip ice cream,” Fiona told Leroy.

“You don’t know every little thing about me!” Leroy cried.

Fiona said, “Geeze, Leroy,” and slumped down low in her seat with her arms tightly folded.

They were in Maryland now, and Maggie imagined that the country here looked different—more luxurious. The hillsides, emptied of livestock, had turned a deep, perfect green, and in the faded light the long white fences gave off a moony glimmer. Ira was whistling “Sleepytime Gal.” Maggie couldn’t think why, for a second. Did it signify he was tired, or what? But then she realized he must still have his mind on Leroy’s baby days. That was the song they used to sing her to sleep with—he and Maggie, harmonizing. Maggie leaned her head against the back of the seat and silently followed the lyrics as he whistled.

All at once she looked down at her wrist and saw that she wore two watches. One was her regular watch, a little Timex, and the other was a big old chunky man’s watch with a wide leather band. In fact, it belonged to her father, but it had been lost or broken years ago. The face was a rectangle, pinkish, and the numerals were a pale blue that would glow in the dark. She cupped her hand over her wrist and bent close, making a little cave of darkness so she could see the numbers light up. Her fingers smelled of bubble gum. Beside her, Serena said, “Just another five minutes, that’s all I ask. If nothing happens by then, I promise we can go.”

Maggie raised her head and stared through the leaves at the two stone lions across the street. Between them lay a white sidewalk, curving across an immaculate lawn and arriving finally at a stately brick colonial house, and within the house lived the man who was Serena’s father. The front door was the kind without a window, without even those tiny glass panes that are placed too high to be useful. Maggie wondered how Serena could stare so intently at something so blank and ungiving. They were crouched uncomfortably among the twisted branches of a rhododendron bush. Maggie said, “That’s what you told me half an hour ago. No one’s going to come.”

Serena laid a hand on her arm, hushing her. The door was swinging open. Mr. Barrett stepped out and then turned back to say something. His wife appeared, tugging at her gloves. She wore a slim brown dress with long sleeves, and Mr. Barrett’s suit was almost the same shade of brown. Neither Maggie nor Serena had even seen him in anything but a suit, not even on weekends. He was like a dollhouse doll, Maggie thought—one of those jointed plastic figures with the clothes painted on, nonremovable, and a clean-cut, anonymous face. He shut the door
and took his wife’s elbow and they moved down the sidewalk, their heels gritty-sounding. When they passed between the stone lions they seemed to be looking directly at Maggie and Serena; Maggie could see the needles of silver in Mr. Barrett’s crew cut. But his expression told her nothing, and neither did his wife’s. They turned sharply to their left and headed toward a long blue Cadillac parked at the curb. Serena let her breath out. Maggie felt a sense of frustration that was almost suffocating. How sealed off these people were! You could study them all day and still not know them. (Or any other married couple either, maybe.) There were moments—the first time they had made love, say, or say a conversation they’d once had when one of them woke up frightened in the middle of the night—that nobody else in the world had any inkling of.

Maggie turned to Serena and said, “Oh, Serena, I’m so sorry for your loss.” Serena wore her red funeral dress and she was blotting her tears on the fringe of her black shawl. “Dear heart, I am so sorry,” Maggie said, and when she woke up, she was crying too. She thought she was home in bed and Ira was asleep beside her, his breath as steady as tires hissing past on a pavement and his warm bare arm supporting her head, but that was the back of the car seat she felt. She sat up and brushed at her eyes with her fingertips.

The light had slipped yet another notch downward into dusk and they had reached that long, tangled commercial stretch just above Baltimore. Blazing signs streaked by,
HI-Q PLUMBING SUPPLIES
and
CECIL
’
S GRILL
and
EAT EAT EAT
. Ira was just a gray profile, and when Maggie turned to see Leroy and Fiona she found all the color washed out of them except for what flashed across their faces from the neon. “I must have been
asleep,” she told them, and they nodded. She asked Ira, “How much further?”

“Oh, another fifteen minutes or so. We’re already inside the Beltway.”

“Don’t forget we need to stop at a grocery store.”

She was cross with herself for missing out on part of the conversation. (Or hadn’t there been any? That would be worse.) Her head felt cottony and nothing seemed completely real. They passed a house with a lighted, glassed-in porch on which drum sets were displayed, smaller drums stacked on top of larger, some gold-spangled like a woman’s lamé evening gown and all of them glittering with chrome, and she wondered if she were dreaming again. She turned to follow the house with her eyes. The drums grew smaller but stayed eerily bright, like fish in an aquarium.

“I had the weirdest dream,” she said after a moment.

“Was I in it?” Leroy wanted to know.

“Not that I can remember. But you might have been.”

“Last week my friend Valerie dreamed I had died,” Leroy said.

“Ooh, don’t even say such a thing!”

“She dreamed I got run over by a tractor trailer,” Leroy said with satisfaction.

Maggie swiveled to catch Fiona’s eye. She wanted to assure her that such a dream meant nothing, or maybe she wanted the assurance for herself. But Fiona wasn’t listening. She was gazing at the clutter of convenience stores and pizza parlors.

“Mighty Value Supermarket,” Ira said. He flicked his left turn signal on.

Maggie said, “Mighty what? I never heard of it.”

“It’s handy, is what counts,” Ira told her. He was delayed by a stream of oncoming traffic, but finally he
found an opening and darted across the street and into a lot littered with abandoned shopping carts. He parked beside a panel truck and switched off the engine.

Leroy said she wanted to come too. Maggie said, “Well, of course,” and then Ira, who had just started to slouch down behind the wheel, straightened and opened his door as if he’d been planning to go with them all along. This made Maggie smile. (Don’t try and tell
her
he didn’t care about his grandchild!) Fiona said, “Well, I certainly don’t want to sit here by myself,” and she stepped out of the car to follow them. She had never been fond of grocery shopping, as Maggie recalled.

The Mighty Value turned out to be one of those vast, cold, white, shiny places with rank upon rank of checkout counters, most of them closed. Some syrupy love song was playing over the loudspeaker. Against her will, Maggie slowed down, keeping time with the music. She drifted past the fruits and vegetables, dreamily swinging her pocketbook, while the others went ahead. Leroy took a run with an empty cart and then hopped on the back and coasted until she caught up with Ira, who had already reached the poultry counter. He turned and smiled at her. From Maggie’s angle his profile looked sharp and wolfish—hungry, really. It was something about the way he jutted his face toward Leroy. Maggie bypassed Fiona and arrived next to him. She slipped her arm through his and lightly brushed her cheek against his shoulder.

“Dark meat or white?” Ira was asking Leroy.

“Dark,” Leroy said promptly. “Me and Ma like drumsticks.”

“Us too,” Ira told her, and he picked out a pack and dropped it into her cart.

“And sometimes me and Ma eat thighs, but we don’t think wings are worth the bother,” Leroy said.

“Me and Ma” this, “me and Ma” that—how long had it been since Maggie herself was so central to anyone’s world? And this “Ma” was only Fiona, fragile-boned Fiona sashaying up the aisle in her cutoff shorts.

Humming along with the loudspeaker music, Ira placed a pack of thighs on top of the drumsticks in the cart. “Now for the ice cream,” he said. Leroy coasted away on the cart and Maggie and Ira followed. Maggie still had her arm linked through Ira’s. Fiona trailed behind.

In the freezer section they had no trouble deciding on fudge ripple, but then there were so many different fudge ripples to choose from: Mighty Value’s house brand and the standard brands and then the fancy, foreign-sounding brands that Ira called “designer desserts.” He was opposed to designer desserts on principle; he wanted to get the Mighty Value. Fiona, who had discovered the Hair Care section, offered no opinion, but Leroy said that she and Ma had always favored Breyers. And Maggie voted to go all out and choose something foreign. They could have discussed it forever, except that by now the loudspeaker was playing “Tonight You Belong to Me,” and halfway through the song Ira began muttering along with it. “ ‘Way down,’ ” he rumbled absently, “ ‘by the stream …’ ” So then Maggie couldn’t resist chiming in on that airy little soprano part: “ ‘How sweet, it will seem …’ ”

It started as a spoof, but it developed into a real production. “ ‘Once more, just to dream, in the moonlight!’ ” Their voices braided together on the chorus and then sailed apart, only to reunite and twine around each other once again. Fiona forgot the box of hair dye she was studying; Leroy clasped her hands admiringly under her chin; an old woman paused in the aisle to smile at them.
It was the old woman who brought Maggie back to earth. All at once she imagined some deception in this scene, some lie that she and Ira were collaborating in with their compliant harmonizing and the romantic gaze they trained upon each other. She broke off in the middle of a solo line. “Patience and Prudence,” she informed Leroy briskly. “Nineteen fifty-seven.”

“Fifty-six,” Ira said.

Maggie said, “Whatever.”

They turned their attention back to the ice cream.

In the end they decided on Breyers, with chocolate sauce from the shelf above the freezer. “Hershey’s chocolate sauce, or Nestlé’s?” Ira asked.

“I’ll leave it up to you two.”

“Or here’s a Mighty Value brand. What do you say we go for that?”

“Just not Brown Cow,” Leroy told him. “I can’t abide Brown Cow.”

“Definitely not Brown Cow,” Ira said.

“Brown Cow smells like candle wax,” Leroy told Maggie.

Maggie said, “Ah.” She looked down at Leroy’s pointy little face and smiled.

Fiona asked Maggie, “Have you ever considered using a mousse?”

“A what?”

“A styling mousse. On your hair.”

“Oh, on my hair,” Maggie said. She had thought they were talking about some kind of ice-cream sauce. “Why, no, I don’t believe I have.”

“A lot of our beauticians recommend it.”

Was Fiona recommending it to Maggie? Or maybe she was only speaking generally. “Just what would it do for a person?” Maggie asked.

“Well, in your case it would give your hair a little, I
don’t know, a little shape or something. It would kind of organize it.”

“I’ll buy some,” Maggie decided.

She picked up a silvery container, along with a bottle of Affinity shampoo since she still had that coupon. (
Brings back that fullness that time has taken away
, a display card promised.) Then they all went to the express lane, rushed along by Maggie because it was after six, according to her watch, and she had told Jesse six-thirty. Ira said, “Do you have enough money? I could go get the car while you’re paying.”

She nodded, and he left them. Leroy laid their purchases neatly on the counter. The customer in front of them was buying nothing but breads. Rye bread, white bread, biscuits, whole wheat rolls. Maybe he was trying to fatten up his wife. Say he was the jealous type, and his wife was very thin and beautiful. The customer departed, taking his breads with him. Leroy said, “Double bags, please,” in a bossy, experienced voice. The boy at the cash register grunted without looking. He was muscular and good-looking, deeply tanned, and he wore a gold razor blade on a chain inside the open collar of his shirt. What on earth could that mean? He rang up their items swiftly, his fingers stabbing the keys. Last came the shampoo. Maggie dug through her purse for the coupon and handed it to him. “Here,” she said, “this is for you.”