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V

at the X-Roads

He slowly unfolded the letter, took a deep breath and began to read. “What the hell?’’ He looked stupefied. He looked at me.
“What is this?’’

“I’m leaving you, Roger. It’s over. I’m divorcing you.’’ Oh, the sheer pleasure of finally pronouncing those words!

“But why?’’ he shrieked. “Why?’’

“There are many reasons, Roger. And my attorney will be happy to detail them for you. But the most important reason is a young
girl named Mary.’’

“Who?’’ he asked, as I’d hoped he would.

I started toward the garage. “Don’t move, darling husband. I’ll be right back.’’

’Til next time,

V

“You’ll absolutely love V—in fact, you’ll wish you were her friend. But since that can’t be arranged, you’ll happily settle
for reading her diary and discovering her most private thoughts and all the outrageous things that happen in her life.’’

 

—Kate White, editor-in-chief,
Cosmopolitan

A
LSO BY
D
EBRA
K
ENT

Diary of V: The Affair

Copyright

WARNER BOOKS EDITION

Copyright © 2001 by Women.com LLC

All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced in any form or by any electronic or mechanical means, including
information storage and retrieval systems, without permission in writing from the publisher, except by a reviewer who may
quote brief passages in a review.

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Hachette Book Group

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New York, NY 10017

Visit our website at
www.HachetteBookGroup.com

First eBook Edition: October 2009

ISBN: 978-0-446-56689-6

Contents

V at the X-Roads

Also by Debra Kent

Copyright

Acknowledgments

Begin reading

About the Author

A Preview of
The Diary of V: Happily Ever After?

For Martha Spitzer
and in memory of Chelsea Desdemona

Acknowledgments

This book would not be possible without my agent Sandy Dijkstra, who amazes me with her energy and endurance; Elizabeth James,
who works tirelessly but remains astoundingly patient; Amy Applegate, scrupulous and always supportive; my editor Beth de
Guzman, whose insights and seamless editing I treasure; Jennifer Woodhouse at Hearst, for her assistance with Valerie Ryan’s
online adventures; Andy Mallor, for his astute guidance with legal plotlines; Lisa Kamen, for her hilarious stories; Pam
Nelson, who is a magician, regardless of the sign on her door; Alisa Sutor, who brought the beach back into my life; Cindy
Bailey, who brings sanity to my home.

As always, I owe much to Donna Wilber and Lorraine Rapp for their friendship. I am grateful for the love and support of Adam
and Lisi Kent-Isaac and Poe, Joseph P. Kendicott and Coley Coltrane, who inspire me every day. Finally, Valerie’s adventures
would never have made it to the printed page if not for my most excellent husband, Jeff Isaac.

Dear loyal V fans and new fans alike,

When
Redbook
set out to bring you the fictional
Diary of V
on our Web site, we never knew it would become so successful, with thousands of you logging on each week for your fix of the
suburban exploits of Valerie Ryan. V’s certainly had her ups and downs, but never so much so as during the spring and summer
of 2000, when, on the Web, V faced a life-or-death dilemma, found her husband’s secret love shack, and still managed to attend
her first Overeaters Anonymous meeting. It was during that time that some fans actually wrote alternative versions on their
own Web sites. So we decided to give you here, in the second book of the three-book version of the
Diary of V
, an alternative story line. Consider it a bonus for being such loyal fans. And for new fans, check out the original story
line on the
Redbook
Web site, at
www.redbook mag.com
. Thanks for following V’s adventures, and root for her to soldier on—with or without the
Prozac!

 

Sincerely,

Lesley Jane Seymour

Editor in Chief,
Redbook
magazine

Valerie Ryan’s marriage is in crisis, her career as a psychotherapist is in shambles, and her libido is as voracious as ever.
Over the course of a whirlwind year, Valerie, mother of preschool son Petey, uncovers the pathological infidelity of her playwright/creative
writing professor husband, plunges into an affair of her own with the burly Eddie Bennedetto, flirts with the cute but geeky
Ben Murphy, and fends off sexual advances from former co-worker Diana Pierce, a randy embezzler and recovering alcoholic.
Acting on a tip, Valerie ransacks her house for evidence of husband Roger’s infidelity and his alleged fortune. The hidden
file she discovers—proof of Roger’s disgusting deed—will change her marriage and life forever. But will it force V to abandon
all hope of falling in love again?

December 12

My gut clenched as I scanned the file. There was a deed to Plot 9 NE, 144 Lark’s Way, Lake Merle Condominium Community. Lark’s
Way, like something out of a Disney movie, so innocent, so light, a place for yellow shutters and window box geraniums and
newlyweds and cartoon birds twittering in delight. How could Roger own a condo—an actual house with a kitchen and carpeting
and utility bills—and keep it a secret from me? And why?

I thumbed through the file and found the condo maintenance agreement ($429/mo) and a photocopy of something called “Declaration
of Covenants, Restrictions, and Conditions of the Lake Merle Condominium Community.” Fifteen pages of rules and regulations:
No yard signs. No chain-link fences. No animals or livestock with the exception of dogs, cats, and common household pets.
No exterior antennas or satellite dishes. Clotheslines, garbage pails, woodpiles, and other similar items shall be concealed,
blah, blah, blah. The last page was signed by Glenn McClintock, president of the Lake Merle Condominium Community. Sally Krauss,
notary public. At the bottom of the page was Roger’s pretentiously
outsized signature. I hurriedly flipped through the papers. I found an envelope filled with pale blue standard-issue check
stubs. The checking account was in Roger’s name. The checks were made out to the Lake Merle Development Corporation in the
amount of $429.

I used to think that my biggest problem was Roger’s impulsive affair with a slatternly young protegée. Now I realize that
my husband didn’t merely have a lover, but another life, another household! I started to hyperventilate. My hands tingled.
I felt completely unmoored, and it terrified me.

My mother, who would shoot my husband herself if she possessed the firearms, offered an unusually generous interpretation:
Maybe Roger’s condo isn’t for shacking up. Maybe it’s a real estate investment, another secret asset, like the gold bullions
Diana claims Roger has hidden somewhere in my house.

’Til next time,

V

December 13

Roger has gone downtown, undoubtedly to replace the magnificent wardrobe I’d destroyed in my rage. I hope he gets hit by a
truck. Actually, I hope I get hit by a truck. I can barely drag myself out of bed these days. I feel completely worthless.
I have no appetite;
in fact, I’ve lost four pounds, although four pounds hardly make a difference when you feel like you’re fourteen thousand
pounds overweight. I’m always on the edge of tears. I cried in the supermarket because I couldn’t find Kellogg’s corn flake
crumbs. They weren’t in aisle 9 with the bread crumbs and they weren’t in aisle 11 with corn flakes, and after I’d traversed
every single stupid row of that stupid store I finally asked the assistant manager and he looked at me like I was speaking
in tongues and I felt the tears flood my eyes and I had to turn away.

“You don’t understand,” I heard myself telling him. “Christmas is only two weeks away, my house is a pig sty, I haven’t bought
a single present, my ornaments are still sitting in cardboard boxes in the hallway and it’ll be Easter by the time I get my
lights up. But right now all I care about is making dinner for my little boy, so just tell me where you people are hiding
the goddamn corn flake crumbs, okay?”

Everything Roger says and does drives me to the precipice of despair. It doesn’t matter whether he’s being nice, nasty, or
neutral. I hate everything that comes out of his mouth. I hate everything about him. I hate the way he picks his teeth with
the edge of a business card. I hate how he adjusts his chiropractically correct pillow so it’s just so before going to sleep.
I hate how he never replaces the toilet paper but simply stacks a new roll on top of the old cardboard tube. I hate how he
snores, how he eats, how
he pees in rhythmic spurts. I hate how he always reads the newspaper before I do, then leaves all the pages out of order on
the floor of the downstairs bathroom. I hate his smell, his tassled loafers, his hairless chest, his tiny ass.

But most of all, I hate myself. If it weren’t for Petey, I’d just kill myself—if I could figure out a way to do it painlessly.
I’m too chicken to try to overdose on pills. How would I do it? With four hundred Sudafeds? Even if I had the right pills,
what if it didn’t work? What if I just wound up paralyzed? Roger would parade his girlfriends past me; they’d shove applesauce
into my face and giggle or stick crazy hats on my head and take Polaroid pictures. So I don’t think I’ll try to kill myself.

’Til next time,

V

December 14

Eddie e-mailed me. He wanted me to meet him at the Roundtree. I told him to forget it. Now I know I’m depressed. The snow
has turned to filthy slush. I sobbed my way through
Judge Judy,
a
Matlock
rerun, and
Unsolved Mysteries.
I ate half a roll of frozen Pillsbury chocolate chip cookie dough.

I’ve got to make two appointments tomorrow, one with a divorce lawyer, Omar Sweet, another with
Holly Wilmack, a psychiatrist at the hospital. I’d referred lots of patients to her, always with good results. I think I’m
ready for Prozac. I wonder if she’ll agree.

As if I wasn’t sufficiently demoralized, I stopped by my parents’ house after dropping Pete off at school. My mother had set
Dad up in the living room, propped him up on the couch with an afghan across his lap. He looked like a little old lady. There
was a metal snack table covered with brown plastic pill bottles. Dad roused himself and tried to smile, but his eyes seemed
wild and terrified, like a trapped animal’s. He says he doesn’t know if it’s the chemo or the cancer that’s killing him.

I glanced around the room. This year there would be no Christmas tree, no icicle lights along the porch, no wreath on the
door, no painted wooden snowman in the foyer.

In the kitchen Mom told me she knew it would be Dad’s last Christmas, and she had wanted to make it special, but she didn’t
have the stamina. I yelled at her for being so negative, then apologized for yelling at her.

I know how awful and selfish this must sound, but as I sat there with him, pretending to watch CNN, all I could think was:
I don’t need this now. I don’t want to think about my father dying now.

Mom suggested I stay home, forget about getting another job. “Take it easy for a change, Val,” she said. “Have a little fun.
Bake cookies. Redo the basement.
Learn how to use that espresso machine Dad and I bought you for Christmas five years ago.” The prospect of living off Roger’s
trust fund, or, more likely, his alimony checks, seems illicit, tantalizing, exotic. I’ve worked since I was fifteen years
old and never had the nerve to even imagine myself unemployed. A few times I shyly hinted that I might like staying home with
Pete, but Roger always reacted with horror and disdain. “You can’t be serious,” he would snort. “You? Domesticated? That’s
a laugh.” I used to think Roger wanted me in the office because he didn’t want to lose the income, but now I know that he
simply wanted me out of the house so he could pursue his liaisons.

I think of all the stay-at-home mothers I know, bright and capable women who seem content to live off their husbands’ incomes.
They insisted they would stay at home until their children started school, then admitted they adored their lives of unencumbered
and relatively placid domesticity and had no intention of abandoning it—ever. Carrie Freed was a driven investment counselor.
Now she spends her days learning the flute, cultivating African violets, and managing her kids’ schedules. When I asked her
if it was hard to adjust, she whispered behind her hand, “Are you kidding? I’m having the time of my life.” Bonnie Webb-Wilson
was an architect in Chicago until her husband was transferred here. She could have found another job, but decided to use the
move as her escape hatch from the pressures and demands of a high-powered profession. Now she keeps busy as a room mother
and leader of her son’s Boy Scout troop.

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