The Broken Eye (11 page)

“Even if she sees the truth infallibly, which I’m not convinced of, there’s nothing that says the Third Eye must say truthfully what she sees,” the White said. “Perhaps by lying to you, she helped the world avoid a greater tragedy.”

“I believed her,” Karris said simply. She felt so empty. She was trapped. She wanted to hold on to hope because she hadn’t actually seen him die, and because it felt like she was betraying him if she gave up on him. But on the other side, she could see resignation reflected in every face. He was dead, and there was work to do. There was a terrifying power vacuum, and parties eager to fill it, and heretics to fight, and, and, and. She couldn’t grieve until she knew. But she knew she might never know.

“I heard there were portents here, too,” Karris said. “Something about a sea demon fighting a whale?”

“Two weeks ago now. The very day of the battle.” She didn’t expand on it. She knew when Karris was trying to change the subject.

The rain lashed them. It was getting chilly.

“I should take you inside,” Karris said. Avoid it. Put it away. Face it later, alone.

“No.” The White’s one word was a leash. She spoke and expected full obedience. “Let me see your eyes, girl.”

Karris locked gazes with the old woman. Where once she had been proud of her eyes, now she was ashamed. She’d been proud of their beauty, ruby stars blooming on an emerald field, the colors pure and bright and powerful. Now the stars dominated, and her eyes showed her as a woman with only a few years left. A woman who lacked the self-control to make it to forty.

“You’re to stop drafting. Entirely and immediately,” the White said.

It was like being told to stop breathing.

“I know what I’m asking,” the White said. Of course she did: she’d done it herself. But that didn’t make it any easier for Karris. “And I’m not asking. It’s an order.”

“Yes, High Mistress,” Karris said stiffly. She’d thought that the White might give her some sympathy for the death of her husband. Apparently there was no softness to be had here. Karris’s jaw was clamped tight shut, but she kept her face as blank as she could. “If I may be excused,” she said, and turned her back.

“You may not,” the White said sharply.

Karris stopped. She was a Blackguard; she knew all about hard obedience. She kept her back turned, mastering herself.

“You married Gavin Guile, the Prism,” the White said. “You’re hereby relieved of all your duties as a Blackguard. You will return your commission, effective immediately.”

Karris stopped breathing. Her knees weakened. A gust of wind tore the umbrella from her limp fingers and threw it off the roof before she could so much as blink. She stood, accepting the rain’s stinging lash. Cold outside and in. All she was, since she’d put away that fool girl who’d enjoyed boys fighting over her, all she’d made of herself, was a Blackguard. She’d barely been allowed to try to get in to the elite unit, and she’d risen to watch captain, and found that there she was content.

For two days, she’d had everything: the man and the work she loved, a hard purpose and a way to accomplish it, surrounded by those she admired—loved. Sisters and new brothers to replace those who’d died in the fire in her youth. And then she’d lost Gavin, and thought nothing could get worse. And now the White—of all people, the White!—was kicking the last leg out from the stool.

“I’m not sure why this is a shock,” the White said calmly. “A Blackguard, married to a Prism? You had to know that this would be the most likely outcome. Were you so wrapped up in your passions that you didn’t think at all?”

“You said … you said that my case was the exception that proved the rule!” Karris said.

“That was in allowing you to pursue your love and letting you resign honorably, rather than expelling you in disgrace.”

“What’s the difference?!” Karris shouted.

Gill Greyling poked his head out the door, and he and Gavin came outside, but stayed where they were at the White’s gesture. They stood impassively in the rain, but Karris knew that stance, like a leashed hound, ready to attack at a word.

“One is shame, and one is honor, and if you can’t tell the difference, you have greater problems than we can address,” the White said.

“But, but, he’s gone! Dead! It’s a moot point. I … I thought that…” Karris had thought that the rules didn’t apply to Gavin, and that by marrying him, he would stand up for her and the rules would bypass her this once, too. She’d thought perhaps she deserved this slice of happiness, that in the end, Orholam had taken pity on her.

“He’s lost. It’s not the same thing. Not yet, not for my purposes. Some on the Spectrum will want to declare him dead immediately, of course, but we will have other problems in naming a new Prism. But at the least a new Prism-elect must be named by Sun Day. We must find him before then.” She turned back to the rain, enjoying its wetness on her face, seeming to have dismissed Karris already.

“That’s it?” Karris demanded. “Now that I’ve served my purpose, I’m to be cast off?”

“In this life, we are not garments which may be washed and worn again, Karris. We are candles, giving light and heat until we are consumed. You burned more brightly than most. It has a cost. Mediocrities like me? Dim flames burn longer.”

“I’m not
finished
,” Karris said angrily.

“Perhaps then you are not so delicate a flower as you have believed,” the White said.

She said nothing more, and didn’t look at Karris. Karris thought of storming off, of swearing, of crying. Instead, she stood in the rain, letting it cool her anger, tame her wildness as it soaked her hair, pushing strands in front of her eyes. It took her two tries to speak. “For the longest time, I was just going to let it go, but … Why did you send me—
me
—to infiltrate Rask Garadul’s army?”

“Back in Tyrea?”

“It wasn’t
that
long ago,” Karris said. “Rask was in love with me. I had no idea. You sent me into a situation with no warning. I was captured. Could have been killed.”

The White’s eyes weighed Karris. “Have you ever picked up a weapon in the middle of battle? Perhaps after you’d lost your own?”

“A musket once, in Garriston. When I tried to use it, it didn’t fire.”

“Mm. It happens.” The White said no more.

“Me? I was a weapon you picked up? Not knowing how I’d serve? That is … that’s
horseshit
. You know me! I’m hardly an unknown for you. And hardly a battlefield necessity. You could have sent any of the Blackguard, and any of a hundred other soldiers or slaves. Half of them could have done as well as I.”

“My purpose wasn’t to win a fight; it was to test a weapon.”

“What?” Karris demanded.

“You’ve many strengths, Karris Guile, but you return to the same ones over and over again. You’re afraid to stretch yourself. I’d given you chances to accomplish other tasks that could easily have been done through a bit of flattery or bribery, and you always took the direct path, relying on authority and hierarchy. But then, when I would prepare myself to cut you loose, you’d do something brilliant that showed me you were capable of thinking for yourself. You simply
like
to have others give the orders. So I put you in a situation where there was a vital task, but no direction on how to accomplish it. I knew you might die, and I’d have carried your death heavily for misjudging you. Instead you passed, and now I’ve gained something even better than me trusting you.”

Karris scowled. “And that is?”

“You trust yourself. A little more, at least.”

Karris shook her head. “Then why take me out of my position? I understand Andross Guile wanting to take away something I love, but you? Why wouldn’t you fight for me?” And there it was again, the hot tears threatening. Her throat tightened.

The White blinked, and her face transformed in a moment with an intensity that breathed fresh youth into her face. “You listen to me, Karris Guile. I will never
stop
fighting for you!” She sat back, and looked abruptly old once more. “I grow cold in this rain. Take me inside. But before we go, I have a new assignment for you, Karris Guile. One befitting your new status.”

“My new status? As a widow? As a former Blackguard?”

“As a woman with no work and ample time on her hands.”

It was a slap in the face. Karris’s anger flared. “Am I to knit sweaters and darn socks, High Lady?”

“I’ve lost my mobility. It makes it far too easy to track with whom I meet. You, Karris, are to manage my spies.”

Chapter 10

Teia didn’t cross the Lily’s Stem to the Chromeria until she saw a group of young Blackguards heading back. They were from her ship. Had she really been gone so short a time that the other nunks were only reaching the bridge now? She checked the alleys again, and despite the rain, put on her darkened spectacles again for a moment. She opened her eyes wide, wider, until her eyes were all pupil. She looked left and right and deeper into the intersection. She looked behind herself, deeper into the alley, searching for any sign of paryl, or of the assassin. Nothing.

She grabbed her spectacles and tucked them into a pocket and hurried into the main stream of traffic ever flowing across the bridge, past the Chromeria’s guards, standing in mirrored armor in the usually empty sentry boxes. The war. The war was real now, and they were prepared for an attack. Here. Surreal.

“Is it true?” one of the guards asked the Blackguards. “Is the Prism dead?”

“Lost,” one of them said.

“Lost? What? Like he’s a penny? Lost at sea ain’t just lost. I heard you combed the shores for days, looking for him. Ain’t you lot supposed to keep him from being lost?”

One of the Blackguard nunks, Ferkudi, snarled and leapt at the guard. But the others pulled him back and toward the tower.

“You lot let our Prism die!” the guard shouted. “What good are you if you let a Prism drown on your watch? None of you even jumped after him?”

Ferkudi cursed, and Cruxer got right in the guard’s face. He said something Teia couldn’t hear, but made no move. The guard said nothing more, but he had tears streaking down his face.

These people loved Gavin. They barely knew him, and they weep.

No, maybe that wasn’t right. They didn’t know him personally, but Gavin had been everywhere visible for longer than Teia had been alive. And he’d been a good Prism. The rumors had to be flying everywhere on the Jaspers, with the official word being so pitifully incomplete—not a position at all, really. ‘Lost.’

‘Lost.’ Not a word you want to toss around lightly at the beginning of a war whose two battles had both been … setbacks for the Chromeria.

Gavin had been nigh unto a god to these people, and they’d lost two battles despite having him fight on their side. How would they do without him?

It had been a question the Blackguards had been asking themselves for days. And their failure had not passed their notice, either.

Teia said nothing, though, and walked past with her head down.

Despite that the Lily’s Stem was covered in a dome of blue and yellow luxin, translucent and insanely strong, Teia walked for twenty or thirty paces before she took off her hood. The tide was rising, and the wind was causing whitecaps. The Lily’s Stem crossed the waterline, so now the waves were smashing against the bridge, which didn’t so much as shudder. It was a symbol of the Chromeria itself. All the tumult and the roar of the world crested and smashed against it, and it stood, unchanged, unmoved, impervious.

It was always eerie, though, walking through the light-tunnel, watching bursts of water flare high over your head, sometimes crashing all the way over the tube. There had been attempts to blow the bridge before with barrels of black powder. At least three attempts had been stopped. One wagon had made it, the Tellari separatist inside bleeding, dying from his wounds even as he maniacally set fire to his cargo.

The explosion, confined to the tube, had blasted out both sides like a musket firing two directions. Dozens had died, and yet the bridge held. Ahhana the Dextrous had been the superchromat yellow drafter who’d been the lead drafter creating the bridge, more than two hundred years ago. There were engineers even now who claimed succession down a line of tutors to the woman, so famous had she been.

Teia tried to remind herself of that strength when a wave smashed against the side and washed all the way over the top.

She avoided the others: Ferkudi and some of his friends from the earlier Blackguard classes. For a moment as they laughed, though, happy, not two minutes after grieving and being ready to fight, Teia saw them as her instructors must: children, sixteen and seventeen years old, laughing about someone’s awkward attempts at kissing, and yet warriors at the same moment, lethal and lazy, implacable and silly, man and child.

Too much thinking, T.

She somehow made it into the lift without them noticing her among the others. It was a good thing about being slight. Sometimes you wanted to be overlooked. She didn’t feel like talking, but she wondered if they’d think her unfriendly. No, they were too involved with themselves.

Staying on the lift when the inductees got out, Teia left instead at the level of Kip’s room. The clerks had been too busy in the days immediately before the fleet left to do any normal business. That had meant Teia and Kip couldn’t file her paperwork. It meant she was still, technically, a slave. With Kip gone, she needed to file that paperwork immediately. If old Andross Guile remembered her, he would surely seize her as his grandson’s property, if only to spite Kip.

You idiot, Kip, why’d you attack Andross Guile? Of all people, you attack
him
?

And where was Kip now? Would he ever come home?

Come home? To where Andross Guile and a noose are waiting for him?

Kip could be alive, but Teia would still probably never see him again. He’d been her partner for only a few months, but their time together had been intense. They’d been outcasts together, and fought together, both figuratively and literally. Teia’s heart ached.

She tugged on the vial of olive oil she still wore at her neck. She would wear it until she got the confirmation from the secretaries that her manumission papers had gone through fully, irrevocably. Then she would smash it. Soon, she hoped.