The Causal Angel (Jean le Flambeur) (20 page)

‘No, no, no,’ he whispers. ‘That can’t be, I didn’t plan for this, I don’t understand.’

It is not a breaking, it is a burning, a cleansing. Joséphine closes her eyes.
It is time to go
, she tells the bed. The upload crown descends upon her head. The blades start whirring. The bed pumps optogenetic viruses into her brain. She grabs Jean’s hand as hard as she can.

‘Stay with me,’ she whispers. ‘I’m scared.’

He wrenches his hand away.

‘I can’t. I have to go, Joséphine,’ he whispers. ‘I’m sorry.’

And then he is gone, running footsteps echoing down the hall. How could she not see before that he was weak?

She has no voice left when the upload begins, so she just thinks so that the words will be preserved to all her selves that come after.

You can’t run away forever. You can’t help what you are.

You will come back to me.

11

MIELI AND THE REBIRTH PARTY

There is sunlight filtered through ice. The air is warm and moving in the slow flow of pumptree breath. The horizon is a pair of cupped hands.

A
koto
in bloom, in the Little Summer of passing close to a sun.

Mieli is floating high up, close to the Weightless Eye in the centre of the ice sphere, where the air medusas live. Her wings are open, catching the mellow thermals from below. She is whole again, unhurt, and the sudden absence of the pain is almost like a loss. Something else is different: she can’t feel her systems anymore. Or the pellegrini.

Did she sacrifice herself for me? What would make her do that? It doesn’t make any sense.
But it is difficult to think. Flashes of the battle on Hektor’s surface are stuck in her brain like slivers of glass.

‘How are you feeling?’

Zinda is wearing Oortian garb, a black toga, floating in the middle of a medusa swarm. It does not suit her: she is shorter than native Oortians, and the large fabric is loose, billowing around her, making her look a little medusa-like herself.

Mieli finds herself smiling. It is good to see the zoku girl. Then she shakes her head.
Don’t forget what you are, what you are here for.

‘Confused,’ she says aloud.

‘I hope you don’t mind that I made this Realm! I heard from the Huizinga-zoku that you had asked for a design like this. I was tempted to include some narrative element, but I tried to make it as Simulationist as possible, almost like a vir. What do you think?’

Mieli says nothing.

‘I mean, it’s a local one, only until we get into router network range, then we can just ’port you straight home and get you a new body. Trust me, you would
not
want to be seen dead in the one you had! We barely got you through the Realmgate in time.’

‘What happened?’

‘Well, Mik did some
amazing
flying. The raions chased us, but the
Zweihänder
has a really big antimatter drive: it’s not easy to stay on the tail of something that is shooting a plume of gamma rays at you, if you know what I mean.’ She pauses. ‘But I could ask you the same thing! What was that thing on Hektor?’

Mieli shudders.
I can’t tell her. Not yet. I need to think.

‘A warmind, a new type. It took over my suit, wanted to upload me.’ She shrugs. ‘I dealt with it.’

‘I’ll say you did!’ Zinda grows serious. ‘When you blew the suit’s antimatter, I thought … I thought we lost you, Mieli. I’ve never known anyone who has been near truedeath before.’ She takes Mieli’s hand. ‘You don’t need to lie to me, Mieli. You look at me like I was your jailer. That’s okay. I don’t mind. But I want you to know that I’m glad you made it.’ Her smile is a mixture of sadness and joy. ‘We all are. The others are here, too, if you want to see them.’

Mieli notices her zoku jewels for the first time: they are here with her, only invisible, hidden beneath the blanket of Realm reality. The Liquorice jewel is sending a steady stream of subliminal qupts filled with concern.

Mieli sighs. ‘All right. There are things we need to talk about.’

They wait for Mieli and Zinda on the surface of the
koto
, near a roofless smartcoral house that marks the entrance to the honeycomb beneath the ice.

‘My lady,’ says Mik, in his baseline form. ‘I doubted you. I grieve for the wounds you suffered. Should anyone question your honour ever again, my blade will have a ready answer for them.’ He kneels in front of her, head bowed.

‘Functor: isomorphism,’ says Anti-de-Sitter-times-a-Sphere.

Mieli’s connection to them feels stronger, and there is something new between her and Zinda as well.
Entanglement? Is that what it feels like
? At the thought, her jewels whisper to her: she is now a Level Twelve Badass of the-Liquorice-Zoku, and a Level Seven Existential Risk Manager of the Great Game.

‘But I
failed
,’ she says.

‘No. No, you didn’t,’ Zinda says. ‘You discovered that the Sobornost civil war is a great sham, a cover for something. Anti-de-Sitter worked it out. We have already sent the results to the rest of the zoku. You can’t believe how much entanglement that got us.’

‘Show me,’ Mieli says.

Anti-de-Sitter-times-a-Sphere opens the Great Game intel spime. It looks strange in the Oort-realm, a multicoloured ball of twine floating in the air.

‘Bayesian inference: different prior. Operation: process tomography.’

The spime expands until they stand in the middle of it, threaded orbits and colourful potential fields.

‘If you work from the assumption that the civil war is a distraction,
this
is what the zoku thinks they are really doing,’ Zinda says.

The raion and asset flows shift. Subtle anomalies that can be attributed to metacloaked ships are highlighted and interpolated. Even without her tactical gogols, Mieli can spot the pattern. A new hub forms in the network, a blue knot of activity near the Broken Places of Jupiter-that-was.

‘They are assembling a fleet,’ Mieli says. ‘You could hide it in the topological defect webs in the Broken Places. Even
guberniyas.
Better than a metacloak. Can you tell how many assets they are moving?’

‘As far as we can tell … possibly all of them,’ Zinda says.

I have given them a common enemy, the All-Defector said.

‘Our ancient enemy is moving!’ says Sir Mik, grinning. ‘My blade Soulswallower thirsts for Sobornost blood!’

‘We still don’t know what’s up with the Founders, who or what has managed to get them to cooperate. But it does look like they are getting ready to invade Supra City!’

That’s it
, Mieli thinks.
All-D is also after the Kaminari jewel. But why did it want me?

She stares at Zinda. The zoku girl’s eyes are gleaming. A strange enthusiasm filters through her zoku jewel.

‘I don’t understand. This is war we are talking about! Why are you all smiling?’

Zinda laughs.

‘Oh, Mieli. Because it’s going to be so much fun!’

Mieli’s rebirth party is just getting started when she arrives.

Her transport bubble leaves her at the opening of a cavern of leaves that leads into the depths of a forest. Ahead, there are warm, coloured lights, shouts and faint music. The party zoku jewel – a small robin’s egg blue thing glittering in her complex hairdo – pulls her forward insistently. She straightens her back, unused to walking with open wings and uncomfortable in her elaborate black dress – another detail Zinda insisted on – and clutches the small handbag she brought for her zoku jewels. Then she takes a deep breath and walks in. The warm heady smell of a summer night greets her.

She had a perfect view of the party Circle from the bubble. The Strip has transformed into a vast woodland garden. The hex where Zinda’s house used to be is overgrown with wild forests, meadows and steep ravines. The river is the only familiar feature, and small boats with colourful sails drift along it. Zinda is expecting a lot of guests: a mass stream has been diverted and hangs in the sky like a silver rainbow. Transport bubbles drift drown from it, mixing with the Chinese paper lanterns that float everywhere above the trees. The solettas have been turned away from the Strip, and the sky is almost as vast as outside a
koto
in Oort, full of faint stars and the bright discs of Rhea and the other inner moons.

Mieli sighs. Cypress leaves rustle and tickle her bare feet as she walks. There is a clearing somewhere ahead, and the voices grow louder. She is not looking forward to meeting more zoku strangers, more faces that are just masks for something else, that shift and change between every Realm and Circle faster than she can keep track of.

‘Of course you have to come!’ Zinda said and gave her a shocked look, when she hinted that she was tired. ‘It was my first field mission, and it would not have happened without you! We
have
to celebrate!’

Mieli just wants to pray and meditate in her garden, but it is difficult to sit still when her new body is a chorus of noise. She was remade after the battle on Hektor. The Great Game offered her a trueform – a completely artificial shell of foglets and diamond – but she refused, insisting on a synthbio replica of her biological body, preserving whatever original components survived. It is not baseline, of course: she kept her metacortex, tactical gogols and reflexes, and added a few choice zoku q-tech enhancements. Having a high level of entanglement in the Great Game Zoku turned out to have some advantages, after all. If she ever meets the All-Defector again, she will be ready. But it is taking a while to adjust. Her gogols constantly complain about the unfamiliar interfaces, a subliminal neural chatter that leaves her edgy, and there are phantom tingles in her right leg, in spite of her attempts to filter them out with the metacortex.

Yet it is nothing compared to the thoughts racing through her mind, in circles like horses in the brass-and-neon carousel she glimpsed in the party clearing from above.
The invasion. The pellegrini. The Kaminari jewel. Sydän.
Round and round.

She reaches the edge of the clearing. The carousel is ahead, and a few scattered guests are standing around it. There are small tents and tables, long-legged golden robots in tuxedos serving drinks. The party jewel is urging her on. Others are floating down from the sky, trueforms shimmering into well-dressed baseline party guests. Zinda is clearly trying to make her comfortable: the Circle rules specify human forms only. She blinks when the ground shakes and an angular, robotic kaijuform from the Big Game Zoku that towers above the treetops steps into the party Circle, and instantly evaporates into a shimmer of foglets, leaving behind a small party in evening wear: two girls in twin yellow dresses, laughing, and an elf-man in a tuxedo who reminds her a little of Sir Mik.

Mieli frowns.
How can they be so carefree
? There is an invasion coming, perhaps within days, certainly not much longer – now that the Sobornost ruse has been discovered, the obvious tactical move is to strike immediately. The fleet and the
guberniyas
with their Hawking drives may already be on their way. The zoku must know that with the vast energies of the Inner System under Sobornost control, Supra City is at an enormous disadvantage – yet the Liquorice-zoku talks about the coming battle like it was a difficult level in a game. If the Great Game is doing something about it, she is not included in the effort: that jewel has been silent ever since their return from the Jovian Trojan belt. And in spite of her enormously increased entanglement within the secretive zoku, she has not dared to request any more information.

One problem is that she does not know what questions to ask.

She reaches the carousel and watches the whirling horses, most of them riderless. There are people on the other side of the structure and the party jewel is pulling her there, but she does not want to go just yet. She would rather hide in the tinkling music, the light and the motion: in the small sphere of carousel glow, she can imagine the vastness of Supra City does not exist.

Sydän would love this place.
They could have come here, when they left Oort. But no, she wanted true immortality, the kind that only the Sobornost offers.

The thought pinches her with sharp claws. The cold touch of the jewelled chain around her ankle mingles with the phantom pains of her leg.
I am losing her.
The pellegrini’s constant presence in her mind was a reminder of her mission, a sharp rock she could squeeze in her hand when in doubt; a peach-stone in her mouth.

The pellegrini.
Mieli first met the goddess – or the Prime – in her temple on Venus, jealously guarding the singularity she had made out of Amtor City and the matter of Lakshmi Planum and sacrificed minds. A tiny captive star whose event horizon still holds the soul of Sydän and countless others.
What will you give me, little girl
? She was always a vengeful, hot-tempered taskmaster,
a cold bitch
, as
Perhonen
often put it. Never one for self-sacrifice, as the goddess herself told Mieli.
Why did she save me
? The pellegrini-gogol in her head was one of uncountable billions, but Mieli knows well that it does not make death any less real, sacrifice any easier. She remembers her own copies who died fighting in the wildcode desert of Earth, the pain and sudden nothingness she felt through her metaself.

Remember
, the pellegrini said.

And she does. Invasion or not, Sydän is still trapped in a black hole, and the Kaminari jewel is the only way to get her out. She must stay inside the Great Game, find out what they know about the jewel, and think of a way to get to it – all before the Sobornost invasion comes. Again, she wishes the thief was here: he would know what to do. Or
Perhonen.
Mieli’s song for her is still unfinished. She does not want to think about the ship: she knows too well what it would say.

Mieli is alone, and there is no more time for the past.

She takes a deep breath and walks around the carousel, to the sea of light and conversation.