The Complete Malazan Book of the Fallen (1229 page)

‘Oh gods, Sergeant—'

‘Aye, they came out of its head. Ate right through the stuffing, and then out through the eyes and the mouth and everywhere else. And there I was: food. It was my half-brother who came in and found me. My head was swollen to twice its size – couldn't even see my eyes – and I was choking. Counted two hundred bites, maybe more, since they were mostly in my hair. Now, as far as prey goes, I was too big even for a thousand redback babies. But they tried damned hard.'

‘And that story made him laugh? What kind of fucked-up—'

‘Watch it, that's my father you're talking about there. Or uncle, or stepfather, or the guy down the lane.'

‘Now I see it, Sergeant,' said Touchy. ‘It's all right. I see it. That'd scar anyone for life.'

‘The story ain't finished, Corporal. I ain't got to the whole point of it. Y'see, I was eating them damned spiders. Eating 'em like candy. They said my belly was more swollen than my head, and that's why I was choking so bad – they were biting me all the way down.

‘So they brought in the healer, and she conjured up big chunks of ice. Into my mouth. Back of the throat. And all around my neck, too. Story goes that I had a stroke, from all that ice. Killed the part of my brain that knows when it's time to stop.' She stared up at the brightening sky. ‘They say I stole my first jug from my father's stash when I was six. Got so drunk they needed to bring the healer back a second time. And that's when she scried me inside and said I was in for a life of trouble.'

A hand brushed her upper arm. ‘That's a heartbreaking tale, Sergeant.'

‘Is it?'
I suppose it is. Of course, I just made it up. Tug those heartstrings, see all that sweet sympathy in their sweet little faces. They'll forgive me anything now.

Why do I hate spiders? Gods, who doesn't? What a stupid question.

‘Faces in the Rock,' said Urugal the Woven, crouching to scrape patterns in the hard ground. ‘Seven of the Dying Fires. The Unbound. These are our titles – we T'lan Imass cast out from our clans. We who failed in the wars. We who were cursed to witness.'

Nom Kala shifted to look back upon the human camp – a dissolute column forming a jagged line across the hardpan. All motion was dying away there, the growing heat stealing all that was left. The humps of prostrate bodies stretched long shadows.

‘We chose a Knight of Chains,' Urugal went on, ‘and by his will we were freed from our prison, and by his will the chains shall one day shatter. Then we awaited the sanctification of the House of Chains.'

‘This knight,' rumbled Kalt Urmanal, ‘is he among us now?'

‘No, but he awaits us,' replied Urugal. ‘Long has been his journey, and soon the fate of us all will fall at his feet. But, alas, the Fallen One does not command him, and the King in Chains has turned his back on our cause – for the King of the House is cursed, and his chains will never break. It is our belief that he will not sit long upon that throne. Thus, we discard him.'

Beroke Soft Voice said, ‘The Knight is a despiser of chains, but understanding eludes him still. Many are the chains that cut cruel, that enslave with malice. Yet other chains also exist, and these are the ones we each choose to wear – not out of fear, or ignorance. These are the noblest of chains. Honour. Virtue. Loyalty. Many will approach the House of Chains, only to falter upon its threshold, for it demands within us strengths rarely used. When suffering awaits, it takes great courage to stride forward, to enter this unrelenting, unforgiving realm.'

Urugal had scraped seven symbols on the ground. He now pointed to each in turn and said, ‘The Consort. She who is known to us. The Reaver – there are two faces. One man. One woman. Knight, we have spoken of. The Seven of the Dead Fires, the Unbound – we T'lan Imass, for now, but that will change. Cripple, he whose mind must crawl to serve the sacred life within him. Leper, that which is both living and dead. Fool, the threat from within. All, then, but the Knight walk among the mortals in our keeping. Here. Now.'

Nom Kala studied the symbols. ‘But Urugal, they are all dying.'

‘And there is no wind to carry us,' Beroke said. ‘We cannot travel to what lies ahead.'

‘Thus, we cannot give them hope.'

Kalt Urmanal grunted at Urugal's conclusion. ‘We are T'lan Imass, what know we of hope?'

‘Are we then lost?' Nom Kala asked.

The others were silent.

‘I have a thought,' she said. ‘It is as Kalt says – we are not creatures of hope. We cannot give them what we surrendered so long ago. These mortal humans will die, if we cannot save them. Do any of you dispute that?'

‘We do not,' said Urugal.

‘And so' – Nom Kala stepped forward and with one skeletal foot broke the patterns in the dirt – ‘the House of Chains will die.'

‘In another age, it will awaken once more.'

‘If it must be us – and we do wish it to be us, do we not? If it must be us, Unbound, then we have no choice. We must go to the Adjunct.'

‘And say what?' Urugal demanded.

‘Why, we must lie to her.'

None spoke for a time.

Nom Kala studied the camp, the stretched shadows. ‘Let us seek to steal one more day.'

‘To what end is one more day?'

‘I cannot say, Urugal the Woven. Sometimes, hope is born from a lie. So be it. To her, we shall lie.'

 

Ruthan Gudd's eyes tracked Lostara Yil as she approached the Adjunct. The two women stood studying the east as if to defy the savage dawn. He wondered what kept Tavore on her feet. Each night she set out, marching without rest, and by her will alone she dragged an entire army in her wake. If she would not stumble, then neither would the soldiers behind her. It had become a battle, a silent war.
And she's winning it. Every body left behind is testament to that.

But how much longer can she keep this up? Look at that rising run, Adjunct, and the emptiness beneath it. Sometimes, when people speak of forbidding, deadly places, it's not just a story. Sometimes, it's all true, and the warnings are honest warnings. There are places that will kill you. And we have found one.

‘What are they saying, do you think?' Skanarow asked.

He looked down at her, eyes tightening. ‘Sleep, my love.' He watched her settle her head back on the hard ground, her eyes closing.

Not much longer. And now it's too late – I can't save you. I can't just steal you away, because you won't make it.
He wondered if he would walk out of this desert alone. One survivor left, leaving behind six thousand corpses. A damned Otataral sword in one hand, for the day when he'd need it.
Aye, Ruthan Gudd, he's been a one man army before, after all. Here he goes again.
Lifting his gaze, he studied the two women standing twenty paces away, and frowned.
Lostara – she's been possessed by a god. Does that make her tougher than she used to be? Who knows? But she's looking in better shape than Skanarow. Better than the Adjunct, too.

‘Please, lie beside me.'

Ruthan flinched. He combed through his beard. ‘I will. In a moment.'

‘Beloved?'

‘A moment.' He walked over to Tavore and Lostara.

If they were in a conversation, it wasn't one using words. The Adjunct heard him approaching and turned to regard him. ‘Captain. The ice armour you conjured—'

‘Not here, Adjunct. Nothing works here.'

Her eyes flattened. ‘But you will…persevere.'

Lostara Yil coughed, and then said, ‘Ruthan, the T'lan Imass bow to you. They title you
Elder
.'

‘I am not a god, Elder or otherwise, Lostara. I'm sorry. Wouldn't it be nice to be one, though? For each and every one of us. Just to be…outside all this. The T'lan Imass will manage, when—'

‘So will you,' the Adjunct cut in. ‘Yet you are not a god.'

‘We do not choose to whom we are born.'

‘Indeed not. Who, then, are your parents?'

He scratched his beard vigorously. ‘Adjunct, does it matter? It may be that this desert doesn't kill me. It's equally likely that it will.'

‘You will reach the city with the wells.'

‘Will I?' Ruthan shook his head. ‘Let me be honest with you – I cannot fathom how those children got as far as they did. What did Badalle say? Ten days away? But Icarias is two, even three weeks' march from here.'

‘How do you know this?'

He grimaced. ‘I was once a guest of the Jaghut who dwelt in Icarias along with a refugee enclave of K'Chain Che'Malle. The simple fact remains, the only way those children could have come as far as they have, Adjunct, is by
warren
.'

Tavore turned to Lostara. ‘Get the girl. Bring her to me.'

‘Aye, Adjunct.'

When she'd departed, Tavore fixed Ruthan with a hard stare. ‘A warren.'

‘Which is impossible. I know.' He saw a glitter of hope in her eyes and shook his head. ‘Do not, Adjunct. The desert is sucked dry, and if you're not careful things are likely to get much worse.'

‘Worse? Explain to me how this could get worse, Captain.'

He looked away, back to where Skanarow slept, and sighed. ‘Draw your sword, Adjunct.'

‘What?'

‘Unsheathe your Otataral blade.'

She had the sword half out of the scabbard before Ruthan reached out and grasped her wrist. And then, retching, he fell to his knees, turning his head away.

Tavore slammed the weapon back down and staggered back a step. ‘
Gods!
' she gasped.

Ruthan spat, and then used the back of his wrist to wipe at his beard. ‘It's what none of you ever understood,' he said, staring down at his trembling hands, studying the smears of blood in what he'd coughed up. ‘It's not just some damned metal that just happens to devour magic. Otataral is
aspected.
' He pushed himself back on to his feet. ‘The next time you draw that weapon, Adjunct, the act will
summon.
She is loose upon the world now, the dragon that is the source of all Otataral – the living heart of that which takes life. She has been freed.'

Tavore took another step back, shaking her head. ‘What has been done?' she demanded, her voice breaking.

He saw panic rising within her – vast cracks in her armour – and held out a hand. ‘Wait – listen to me. Tavore Paran, listen! It will be answered – everything is answered. Everything!'

And now, all at once, it was as if a child was standing before him. Lost, frightened. The sight tore at his heart. ‘They're not interested in the Crippled God. Do you understand me? The ones who did this – they don't care what happens to him. They're reaching for something bigger – and they think they will sweep all this aside. You, the Fallen One, the Forkrul Assail – all of it, swept away!

‘But they're fools. Do you understand me? Anomander Rake is gone, but Draconus now walks the world. Do you see?
Everything is answered.
'
And that is the true madness of this – the Otataral Dragon cannot remain unchained. Draconus will have to kill it – him or the Eleint – and by killing it they will end all magic. They will cast us all out into a world devoid of sorcery.

She had turned away from him, was now staring into the east. ‘This is what he meant,' she murmured.

‘Adjunct?'

‘He said my sword would not be enough – we argued that, again and again. He said…he said—' She faced him, eyes suddenly shining, and Ruthan was struck by a sudden beauty in her face, a thing that seemed to rise as if from nowhere. ‘He said…“
it will be answered.”
His words, the same as yours.'

‘Who are you talking about?' he demanded.
Who's been scheming this nightmare all along? What raving, lunatic idiot—

‘Ben Adaephon Delat.'

He stared, disbelieving, thunderstruck at his own stupidity. ‘That name…'

‘High Mage Quick Ben, Captain. He vowed he would save Burn, and that was one vow he would not surrender. He said the cancer needed cutting out – Ruthan? What is wrong?'

But he had turned away, struggling to hold it all in. Struggling – and then failing. Laughter burst from him. Disbelieving, wondrous laughter. ‘Delat? Adaephon Delat?
Quick
Ben – oh, by the Abyss! The bloody nerve of him! Was it a glamour, that made me so thick? No wonder he stayed away from me!'

‘Captain?'

He stared at her, and he could feel his mouth stretched wide in a manic, helpless grin. ‘And down he went, in the battle with the Short-Tails? Like Hood he did!'

Her lips thinned into a straight line. ‘Captain Ruthan Gudd, even you could not be so dense. Of course he isn't dead.' She pointed to a nearby figure perched atop an outcrop of rock. ‘Ask our resident Septarch of D'rek. He will tell you, since he at last has figured it out.'