The Complete Malazan Book of the Fallen (1256 page)

‘Nothing he said made light of that,' she responded. ‘And by his gesture alone, you must know that he worries for you. This resupply gives us a fighting chance.'

‘I know. And of course I'm grateful – how could I not be?'

‘Idist did warn you.'

Brys shook his head. ‘It's not the letter, Aranict.'

‘It isn't?'

‘What just happened back there played out in Tehol's mind even as he dictated the lines to his wife. He knew I would want his words read out loud – my brother is diabolical and thoroughly shameless. I have spent my whole life walking wide-eyed into his snares, and none of it bothers me. In fact, I cannot help but admire his genius. Every time.'

Aranict was baffled. ‘Brys, what is it then?'

‘I cannot recall, Aranict – and I have been trying – I cannot recall Tehol ever saying that he loved me. And that alone is the measure of his concern, and it's shaken me to the core.'

‘Brys—'

‘Tehol fears we will not see each other again. For all its mundane silliness, he came as close to saying goodbye as anyone could without using the word itself. And so, as you perhaps can now imagine, I miss him. I miss him dearly.'

She held tight on to his hand. As if that could help, when she knew that it could not. But she had nothing to say to him – her mind was blank, echoing in the wake of what had just rushed through it.
He expects to die. My love expects to die.

 

The relief wagons rolled into the camp, and for the first time, Shield Anvil Tanakalian set eyes upon a Forkrul Assail – or so he thought, only to subsequently discover that the man was but a half-blood, a Watered. No matter, there was something of a nightmare about him – the skin white as papyrus, the way he moved, his arms crooking like snakes, the sinuous flow of his strides, and the ghastly coldness in his pallid eyes.

These are the deadliest of allies. I am not blind to the contempt you have for us, when you look upon our beleaguered, battered condition. But we shall recover, and swiftly, and when the time comes to do what is necessary, we shall be ready.

He saw Setoc standing apart, ignoring the Watered and his officers, ignoring everyone and everything. Was she caught in the grip of the Wolves? Did they stare out now from her mismatched eyes?
She is a liability. But it's not her fault – the Wolves have taken her, they use her – she is nothing more than a portal, and when the gods choose to manifest in this world they will tear right through her. I doubt she will even survive.

If necessary, I will seal that portal. I will stop the Wolves from coming. I will do this to save their lives.

So his prayers went unanswered. By her words she had made plain that the priests of the Grey Helms were all fools, self-deluded in believing they could touch the mind of the Wild. And generations of Perish who gave their lives to the Wolves…
a waste. All that blood spilled. And the struggles for power, those precious titles of Mortal Sword, Shield Anvil, Destriant, they all meant nothing.

And therein lurks the cruellest truth of all. In the end, we are no different from every other cult, every other religion. Convincing ourselves of the righteousness of our path. Convincing ourselves that we alone hold to an immutable truth. Secure in the belief that everyone else is damned.

But it was all a game, the sacred a playground for secular power struggles, venal ambition.

What's left to believe in?

His thoughts swirled, spun in a vortex, taking him down and down…to Krughava.
Did you see through it all? Did you decide that personal glory was all there was, the only thing worthy of aspiration? Are you, Krughava, the reduction of the argument?

Make your last stand. Die neck-deep in integrity and honour and duty – those words are borne on a flag, in three shades of red, and you will rally to that standard and once there you will happily die. Very well, Krughava, I can make sense of you now. It does not help, because still I will not follow you. But at least I understand.

They didn't need Setoc. The Grey Helms would be the wrath of the Wolves, the fury of the Wild, but without risk to the Wolves.
Yes, this is war, but do not come here. Not to this one. If you do, they will take you. If you do, gods will die on that day.

I will not have it.

He realized that he stood between the two – between Krughava and Setoc, between the profane and the sacred, and yet to neither would he give his embrace.
Poised on the knife edge indeed. I am the Shield Anvil, and the virtue of blessing is my one and my only virtue, yet here I stand, trapped, unwilling to reach out to either one.

It seems that the glorious death shall be mine, after all.

‘Shield Anvil.'

He turned, found himself facing the Watered commander. ‘Yes?'

‘I suggest you rest and feed for this night. Come the dawn we can begin our march to Blessed Gift—'

‘Excuse me, where?'

‘Blessed Gift is the old name for the plain where awaits the Kolanse army. It was a land once rich with wheat.'

Tanakalian smiled, looked away. ‘Very well.'

‘Shield Anvil.'

He glanced back. ‘What is it?'

The Watered tilted his head. ‘I was about to comment on the impressive courtesy in the manners of your soldiers.'

‘Forgive me,' said Tanakalian, voice tight, ‘I am…distracted.'

‘Of course. Brother Diligence wishes to know, are those pursuing you the only threat we should expect?'

Those pursuing…but I say nothing of the K'Chain Che'Malle. Not to you, not to any of you.
‘I believe so. However…'

‘Shield Anvil?'

‘There was an army of foreigners – but they attempted to cross the Glass Desert. It is probably safe to assume that they have failed.'

‘I agree. We have sensed nothing impinging upon us from that direction.'

Tanakalian nodded. ‘Well, I doubt you would have anyway, but it pleases me to hear your certainty in your assessment that the Glass Desert cannot be crossed.'

‘A moment, Shield Anvil – you say to me that you do not think we would sense their appearance. Why is that?'

Tanakalian's eyes wandered past, settled once more on Setoc. He shrugged. ‘Their commander wields an Otataral sword. Not that it could save—' He stopped then, for the Watered was marching back to his entourage, shouting commands in the Kolansii language. In moments, three riders wheeled their mounts and set out at a gallop northward.

When he glanced back at Setoc, he found her staring at him.

The Shield Anvil realized that he was sweating, his heart beating fast in his chest. ‘It's just an Otataral sword,' he muttered, baffled at the Watered's obvious alarm, unnerved by Setoc's sudden attention.

Calm yourself. Hold to the knife's edge. Breathe deeply…breathe…

CALM STOOD MOTIONLESS, FACING SOUTHWEST. THE SKY WAS EMPTY,
cloudless, the blue washed out and tinged green by the Strangers. Empty, and yet…
Death comes. I see a road built from bones and dust, a road slashing the flesh of the earth. It comes with the speed of the wind. It comes in the shadow of…gods below!
Confusion erupted within her. Then terror and dread.
Korabas! Unchained! But why? Who would do such a thing? Who has summoned this power? It is madness!
For an instant, she felt once more the unyielding weight of the stone that had once imprisoned her – suffocating, the horror of limbs she could not move, the darkness and the terrible, terrible solitude. And she knew what this was; she knew this sensation, this animal terror. Panic
. No! No one will take me again!

Trembling, she struggled to regain control.

Korabas. You are freed – I feel your bitter exultation. Perhaps I alone can truly understand it.

But they will come for you. Can you not feel them? The Eleint are upon this world. They will kill you.

Do not seek us. Do not pierce the skin of Akhrast Korvalain. We must not be wounded – not now, Korabas, I beg you.

But she knew that there would be no reasoning with such a creature. From the moment of its creation, the Otataral Dragon had been doomed to an eternity of anguish and rage. Unmatched in power, yet that power was abnegation. Its only food was sorcery, but life itself was a manifestation of magic, and so all it touched it killed. Only the Eleint possessed the will to withstand that.

Such…loneliness. The ordeal of existence…so unrelenting in its refutation. Yes, Korabas, I could look into your eyes. Without flinching. For I know the truth of your turmoil.

She knew she could not alter the dragon's deadly path. Her brothers and sisters had no idea what was now winging towards them, and against the Otataral Dragon…
they might all die. Reverence, Diligence, Serenity…all my pure kin. And all that we sought to achieve will be destroyed.
No, she could not stop Korabas.

But I can avenge the deaths of my brothers and sisters.

She was camped three days from the bound body of Lifestealer. Three days from the one weapon capable of matching the Otataral Dragon.
Icarium. I will awaken you. If the Eleint fail – if they do not come in time – I leave Korabas to you.

The two would seek each other out – they could do naught else.
The dragon is negation. But Icarium is an open wound into Chaos itself. When his self shatters, when his so-called rage is unleashed, he is but a conduit, a portalway. This is why he cannot be stopped – he is not even there. Shall you do battle against chaos itself? Impossible.

They will clash, and that battle shall destroy the world.

Good.

Even Sister Reverence does not understand: there is more than one path to justice.

She set out.

Beneath her feet, the earth's screaming now reached her senses – she could feel the tremors of the assault being inflicted upon it. The sudden blighting, the eruptions of dust, the vast fissures opening below Korabas.
Where she passes, there shall be no life. Where she passes, all that is living shall die.

Eleint, find Korabas. Kill the Otataral Dragon. That is all I ask. And then we can bargain, for I shall have Icarium – I shall have a force of chaos to match your own. We can strike a perfect balance, in a world scoured empty of meddling gods…imagine what can be achieved!

We can give the inheritors true freedom, and by their each and every deed we can watch them hang themselves. No gods to blame, no excuses to build up, no lies to hide behind. Such a glorious world it will be! Such a righteous place – a place where justice never blinks.

We can share such a world, Eleint.

Climbing a slope to a ridgeline, she found two figures standing in her path.

T'lan Imass.

Ancient rage flared incandescent in Calm, and once more panic rattled through her, just as quickly crushed down. ‘You would dare this?'

In answer they readied their stone weapons.

‘
He is mine!
'

‘He is no one's, Forkrul Assail,' said the female. ‘Turn back.'

Calm barked a laugh as she quested with her power. ‘I sense no others in this soil, on the winds – there are just the two of you. You must be fools to think you can stop me. I held the Stone Stairs against hundreds of your kind. I
ended
their war.'

The two T'lan Imass stepped out to the sides, the huge male hefting a flint-studded bone mace, the female shifting her grip on a stone spear.

Calm moved with stunning speed, lunging at the female, her torso writhing to evade the thrusting weapon. Her hands snapped out, one plunging into the undead warrior's chest amidst shattering ribs, the other lashing at her face – catching the lower jaw and tearing it off.

She twisted past, evading the downward swing of the male's weapon, and with one hand now gripping the spine, she spun the female round, lifting her off her feet and flinging her into the male's path. Even as he stumbled, he swung the mace in a diagonal slash. The Forkrul Assail stepped inside the attack, blocking the bone shaft with her wrists, turned to face him and thrust upward with the heels of her hands, catching each side of the warrior's lower jaw. The strength of the blow exploded the vertebrae of his neck, launching the skull into the air.

As the huge, headless warrior toppled, Calm closed once more on the female, who was feebly trying to regain her feet. Grasping her right arm, the Forkrul Assail tore it from the shoulder socket. Using the arm as a weapon, she swung it hard into the side of the female's head. The ball of the humerus punched a hole in the warrior's temple.

The T'lan Imass staggered to one side.

Calm struck again. Plates of the skull splintered, broke away. A third blow crushed the woman's face. She fell. The Forkrul Assail stepped forward and with one booted foot rolled the T'lan Imass on to her back. Then she swung the arm down repeatedly on what was left of the face and skull. The ninth blow split the arm bone. Calm flung it away in disgust and used the heel of her boot.

Long after the wretched spirit of the female warrior had left the remains on the ground, Calm continued battering at that hated face.

Some time later, she resumed her journey.

Such a glorious world it will be.

 

Kilmandaros fled. She could not even remember when she had begun running, or when she had breached her way into the first of innumerable warrens. The landscape she now crossed was bleak, colourless, the ground underfoot hard uneven clay that had been chopped up by thousands of hoofs. Two small moons tracked the night sky.

Half a league ahead, she saw hills of red sand, rippling as they climbed to the horizon. No places in which to hide – no caves, no forests – she would have to leave this realm soon. And yet – Kilmandaros glanced back over one shoulder.

A storm of darkness, boiling to consume half the sky.

Close! Close!
Her breath tore at her throat. Her hearts pounded like the thunder of clashing stormclouds. She stumbled on torn, bloodied feet, her muscles burning like acid.

Where? Where to hide?

‘I've done a terrible thing. And now I will pay – it was all Errastas! All his fault, not mine! I did not want her freed – I swear it!'

The slope of the nearest hill loomed before her, a sweep of red sand – how she hated this place!

‘A terrible thing.
A terrible thing!
'

Darkness foamed up on either side. Crying out, Kilmandaros staggered to a halt, wheeled round, lifting her hands—

He struck from the sky.

Wings like flames of night. The blaze of argent reptilian eyes. Talons lunging down, impaling her shoulders, snatching her from the ground.

Kilmandaros shrieked, fists closing to smash upward into the dragon's ridged chest. The sound the impacts made was thunder.

And then, trailing ropes of blood, she was falling.

His shadow passed over her, a wheeling, plummeting presence, looming huge – jaws snapping out from a head above a lashing neck. Fangs sank into one thigh and she was thrown upward once more. Spinning, she saw gleaming bone where the muscles of her left thigh had been – saw blood spraying out from her leg. Howling, she fell earthward once more.

This time, he left her to strike the ground. She landed on her feet with the sound of exploding trees. Bones snapped, splinters driving up into her pelvis and torso. The impact threw her forward. On to her chest, and then over. Lying stunned, helpless, Kilmandaros stared upward to see Draconus descending.

Not fair.

A soft hand settled against her cheek. Blinking, she found herself looking up into her son's face. ‘No! Leave here! Beloved son –
flee!
'

Instead, he straightened, drawing a sword.

Kilmandaros heard Draconus speak from only a few paces distant. ‘Where is Errastas, Sechul?'

‘Gone,' her son replied.

‘Where?'

‘I don't know. Into hiding, of course. You won't find him, not any time soon. Shall I caution you against uttering any vows, Draconus, or would the sting of that prove too much?'

‘You always were chained to his ankle, Sechul Lath, but if you are determined to oppose me here, I will kill you.'

‘I will defend my mother.'

‘Then you will die with her.'

She saw his sad smile, his lopsided shrug. ‘Draconus, I have nothing left. No one but her. If you will kill her this day, then…there is no reason for me to go on. Do you understand?'

‘Pathetic,' growled Draconus. ‘You would spend an eternity under your mother's wing? Step away, find some light – some light of your own, Sechul.'

‘Ah, I see, so this is my opportunity, is it? This is what you are offering me, Draconus? You never did understand acts of generosity, did you?'

There was a long pause, and Kilmandaros knew that their gazes had locked, and then Draconus said, ‘Ready your weapon.'

She would have cried out then, would have begged for the life of her son – but when she opened her mouth her throat filled with blood, and she was suddenly drowning.

She heard the
whish
of a blade, a scuffling of boots on the hard scrabble, and then a terrible, grinding sound. A sword fell to the ground, and someone made a small, childish sound.

Footsteps, drawing closer.

She couldn't breathe, felt herself dying. Her eyes, glaring upward – seeing those damned moons so puny in that vast night sky – and then that vision was blocked out and Draconus stared down on her.
He left you no choice, yes…but you do not say it. What need is there to say it?

His eyes shone like silvered pools at midnight, and there was, she realized with a start, such beauty in them –
with the darkness flowing round, falling like tears, but you can see how they could turn. You can see it. Such a terrible thing…

Errastas, you have killed us.

Was it mercy when he set the sharp tip of his sword into the hollow of her neck? She looked again into his eyes, but saw nothing.
Yes. Let us call it that. Mercy.

When he thrust the blade through her throat, it was cold as ice and hot as fire, and all that she saw suddenly faded, from the inside out.

I – I'm leaving.

My son. Even at the last, you disappoint me.

 

Draconus pulled free the sword, and then turned. A knot of shadows, vaguely human in form, stood opposite him. To either side was a Hound, and he caught a motion off to his right and then on his left – more of the beasts, encircling him.

Eyes narrowing on the apparition, Draconus leaned on his sword. ‘Usurper, does Tulas know you stole his dogs?'

The silver head of a walking cane flashed briefly before the shadows hid it again, like a fisherman's lure in dark water. The apparition spoke in a thin, wavering voice, ‘There is little civility in you, Old One.' A sudden giggle. ‘Your…inheritor…once stood before me, just as you are doing now. He too held an infernal sword – oh, was it yours? How careless of you.'

‘If you force me,' Draconus said, ‘I will kill these Hounds.'

‘How goes the poem? “The child and his dog…”'

Draconus stepped forward, blade lifting. ‘Who in the name of the Azathanai are you?'

A frail, wispy hand gestured vaguely. ‘Your pardon, did I offend?'

‘What do you want?'

‘Only a question for you, Old One.' The cane reappeared, bobbing in the direction of Kilmandaros's corpse. ‘Where next? Or,' and he giggled again, ‘
who next?
'

‘Why should it matter to you?'

‘Only this…leave Korabas. Leave the Forkrul Assail – in fact, leave that whole mess. Even the Eleint. If you show up, it'll only complicate matters.'

‘You are the one, then,' Draconus said, lowering the sword and stepping back.

‘I am? Why, yes, I am.'

‘The spider at the centre of this web. Hood. Rake—'

‘And they were true to their words – now
that
was a rarity. Perhaps of greater relevance is this. Anomander Rake spoke well of you, Draconus. Can you imagine such a thing? But it goes even beyond that, for he also said that you would be true to your word. Will you, Draconus? Be true to your word?'

‘I do not recall giving it to you on any matter here,' Draconus replied.

The cane's heel thumped on the ground. ‘Excellent! Now, as to that…'