The Dark Reunion (16 page)

Damon was coming after him again. Matt fell back before him, but not all the way. He dropped to his knees beside Stefan, sitting on his heels, one hand upraised.

“Enough, you guys! Enough, all right?” he shouted.

Stefan was trying to get up. Bonnie held on to his arm more firmly. “No! Stefan, don’t! Don’t!” she begged. Meredith grabbed his other arm.

“Damon, leave it alone! Just leave it!” Matt was saying sharply.

We’re all crazy, getting in the middle of this, Bonnie thought. Trying to break up a fight between two angry vampires. They’re going to kill us just to shut us up. Damon’s going to swat Matt like a fly.
his way. For a long moment the scene remained frozen, nobody moving, everybody rigid with strain. Then, slowly, Damon’s stance relaxed.

His hands lowered and unclenched. He drew a slow breath. Bonnie realized she’d been holding her own breath, and she let it out.

Damon’s face was cold as a statue carved in ice. “All right, have it your way,” he said, and his voice was cold too. “But I’m through here. I’m leaving. And this time,
brother
, if you follow me, I’ll kill you. Promise or no promise.”

“I won’t follow you,” Stefan said from where he sat. His voice sounded as if he’d been swallowing ground glass.

Damon hitched up his jacket, straightening it. With a glance at Bonnie that scarcely seemed to see her, he turned to go. Then he turned back and spoke clearly and precisely, each word an arrow aimed at Stefan.

“I warned you,” he said. “About what I am, and about which side would win. You should have listened to
me
, little brother. Maybe you’ll learn something from tonight.”

“I’ve learned what trusting you is worth,” Stefan said. “Get out of here, Damon. I never
want to see you again.”

Without another word, Damon turned and walked away into the darkness.

Bonnie let go of Stefan’s arm and put her head in her hands.

Stefan got up, shaking himself like a cat that had been held against its will. He walked a little distance from the others, his face averted from them. Then he simply stood there. The rage seemed to have left him as quickly as it had come.

What do we say now? Bonnie wondered, looking up. What
can
we say? Stefan was right about one thing: they had warned him about Damon and he hadn’t listened. He’d truly seemed to believe that his brother could be trusted. And then they’d all gotten careless, relying on Damon because it was easy and because they needed the help. No one had argued against letting Damon watch Vickie tonight.

They were all to blame. But it was Stefan who would tear himself apart with guilt over this. She knew that was behind his out-of-control fury at Damon: his own shame and remorse. She wondered if Damon knew that, or
cared. And she wondered what had really happened tonight. Now that Damon had left, they would probably never know.

No matter what, she thought, it was better he was gone.

Outside noises were reasserting themselves: cars being started in the street, the short burst of a siren, doors slamming. They were safe in the little grove of trees for the moment, but they couldn’t stay here.

Meredith had one hand pressed to her forehead, her eyes shut. Bonnie looked from her to Stefan, to the lights of Vickie’s silent home beyond the trees. A wave of sheer exhaustion passed through her body. All the adrenaline that had been supporting her throughout this evening seemed to have drained away. She didn’t even feel angry anymore at Vickie’s death; only depressed and sick and very, very tired. She wished she could crawl into her bed at home and pull the blankets over her head.

“Tyler,” she said aloud. And when they all turned to look at her, she said, “We left him in the ruined church. And he’s our last hope now. We’ve got to make him help us.”

That roused everyone. Stefan turned around silently, not speaking and not meeting anyone’s eyes as he followed them back to the street. The police cars and ambulance were gone, and they drove to the cemetery without incident.

But when they reached the ruined church, Tyler wasn’t there.

“We left his feet untied,” Matt said heavily, with a grimace of self-disgust. “He must have walked away since his car’s still down there.” Or he could have been taken, Bonnie thought. There was no mark on the stone floor to show which.

Meredith went to the knee-high wall and sat down, one hand pinching the bridge of her nose.

Bonnie sagged against the belfry.

They’d failed completely. That was the long and short of it tonight. They’d lost and
he
had won. Everything they’d done today had ended in defeat.

And Stefan, she could tell, was taking the whole responsibility on his own shoulders.

She glanced at the dark, bowed head in the front seat as they drove back to the
boardinghouse. Another thought occurred to her, one that sent thrills of alarm down her nerves. Stefan was all they had to protect them now that Damon was gone. And if Stefan himself was weak and exhausted …

Bonnie bit her lip as Meredith pulled up to the barn. An idea was forming in her mind. It made her uneasy, even frightened, but another look at Stefan put steel in her resolve.

The Ferrari was still parked behind the barn—apparently Damon had abandoned it. Bonnie wondered how he planned to get about the countryside, and then thought of wings. Velvety soft, strong black crow’s wings that reflected rainbows in their feathers. Damon didn’t need a car.

They went into the boardinghouse just long enough for Bonnie to call her parents and say she was spending the night at Meredith’s. This was her idea. But after Stefan had climbed the stairs to his attic room, Bonnie stopped Matt on the front porch.

“Matt? Can I ask you a favor?”

He swung around, blue eyes widening. “That’s a loaded phrase. Every time Elena said
those particular words …”

“No, no, this is nothing terrible. I just want you to take care of Meredith, see she’s okay once she gets home and all.” She gestured toward the other girl, who was already walking toward the car.

“But you’re coming with us.”

Bonnie glanced at the stairs through the open door. “No. I think I’ll stay a few minutes. Stefan can drive me home. I just want to talk to him about something.”

Matt looked bewildered. “Talk to him about what?”

“Just something. I can’t explain now. Will you, Matt?”

“But … oh, all right. I’m too tired to care. Do what you want. I’ll see you tomorrow.” He walked off, seeming baffled and a little angry.

Bonnie was baffled herself at his attitude. Why
should
he care, tired or not, if she talked to Stefan? But there was no time to waste puzzling over it. She faced the stairs and, squaring her shoulders, went up them.

The bulb in the attic ceiling lamp was missing, and Stefan had lighted a candle. He was
lying haphazardly on the bed, one leg off and one leg on, his eyes shut. Maybe asleep. Bonnie tiptoed up and fortified herself with a deep breath.

“Stefan?”

His eyes opened. “I thought you’d left.”

“They did. I didn’t.” God, he’s pale, thought Bonnie. Impulsively, she plunged right in.

“Stefan, I’ve been thinking. With Damon gone, you’re the only thing between us and the killer. That means you’ve got to be strong, as strong as you can be. And, well, it occurred to me that maybe … you know … you might need …” Her voice faltered. Unconsciously she’d begun fiddling with the wad of tissues forming a makeshift bandage on her palm. It was still bleeding sluggishly from where she’d cut it on the glass.

His gaze followed hers down to it. Then his eyes lifted quickly to her face, reading the confirmation there. There was a long moment of silence.

Then he shook his head.

“But why? Stefan, I don’t want to get personal, but frankly you don’t look so good. You’re
not going tobe much help to anybody if you collapse on us. And … I don’t mind, if you only take a little. I mean, I’m never going to miss it, right? And it can’t hurt all that much. And …” Once again her voice trailed off. He was just looking at her, which was very disconcerting. “Well, why
not?”
she demanded, feeling slightly let down.

“Because,” he said softly, “I made a promise. Maybe not in so many words, but—a promise just the same. I won’t take human blood as food, because that means
using
a person, like livestock. And I won’t exchange it with anyone, because that means love, and—” This time he was the one who couldn’t finish. But Bonnie understood.

“There won’t ever be anyone else, will there?” she said.

“No. Not for me.” Stefan was so tired that his control was slipping and Bonnie could see behind the mask. And again she saw that pain and need, so great that she had to look away from him.

A strange little chill of premonition and dismay trickled through her heart. Before, she had
wondered if Matt would ever get over Elena, and he had, it seemed. But Stefan—

Stefan, she realized, the chill deepening, was different. No matter how much time passed, no matter what he did, he would never truly heal. Without Elena he would always be half himself, only half alive.

She had to think of something, do something, to push this awful feeling of dread away. Stefan needed Elena; he couldn’t be whole without her. Tonight he’d started to crack up, swinging between dangerously tight control and violent rage. If only he could see Elena for just a minute and talk to her …

She’d come up here to give Stefan a gift that he didn’t want. But there was something else he did want, she realized, and only she had the power to give it to him.

Without looking at him, her voice husky, she said, “Would you like to see Elena?”

Dead silence from the bed. Bonnie sat, watching the shadows in the room sway and flicker. At last, she chanced a look at him out of the corner of her eye.

He was breathing hard, eyes shut, body taut
as a bowstring. Trying, Bonnie diagnosed, to work up the strength to resist temptation.

And losing. Bonnie saw that.

Elena always had been too much for him.

When his eyes met hers again, they were grim, and his mouth was a tight line. His skin wasn’t pale anymore but flushed with color. His body was still trembling-taut and keyed up with anticipation.

“You might get hurt, Bonnie.”

“I know.”

“You’d be opening yourself up to forces beyond your control. I can’t guarantee that I can protect you from them.”

“I know. How do you want to do it?”

Fiercely, he took her hand. “Thank you, Bonnie,” he whispered.

She felt the blood rise to her face. “That’s all right,” she said. Good
grief
, he was gorgeous. Those eyes … in a minute she was either going to jump him or melt into a puddle on his bed. With a pleasurably agonizing feeling of virtue she removed her hand from his and turned to the candle.

“How about if I go into a trance and try to
reach her, and then, once I make contact, try to find you and draw you in? Do you think that would work?”

“It might, if I’m reaching for you too,” he said, withdrawing that intensity from her and focusing it on the candle. “I can touch your mind … when you’re ready, I’ll feel it.”

“Right.” The candle was white, its wax sides smooth and shining. The flame drew itself up and then fell back. Bonnie stared until she became lost in it, until the rest of the room blacked out around her. There was only the flame, herself and the flame. She was going into the flame.

Unbearable brightness surrounded her. Then she passed through it into the dark.

The funeral home was cold. Bonnie glanced around uneasily, wondering how she had gotten here, trying to gather her thoughts. She was all alone, and for some reason that bothered her. Wasn’t somebody else supposed to be here too? She was looking for someone.

There was light in the next room. Bonnie moved toward it and her heart began pounding. It was a visitation room, and it was filled with
tall candelabras, the white candles glimmering and quivering. In the midst of them was a white coffin with an open lid.

Step by step, as if something were pulling her, Bonnie approached the casket. She didn’t want to look in. She had to. There was something in that coffin waiting for her.

The whole room was suffused with the soft white light of the candles. It was like floating in an island of radiance. But she didn’t want to look….

Moving as if in slow motion, she reached the coffin, stared at the white satin lining inside. It was empty.

Bonnie closed it and leaned against it, sighing.

Then she caught motion in her peripheral vision and whirled.

It was Elena.

“Oh, God, you scared me,” Bonnie said.

“I thought I told you not to come here,” Elena answered.

This time her hair was loose, flowing over her shoulders and down her back, the pale golden white of a flame. She was wearing a thin white
dress that glowed softly in the candlelight. She looked like a candle herself, luminous, radiant. Her feet were bare.

“I came here to …” Bonnie floundered, some concept teasing around the edges of her mind. This was
her
dream, her trance. She had to remember. “I came here to let you see Stefan,” she said.

Elena’s eyes widened, her lips parting. Bonnie recognized the look of yearning, of almost irresistible longing. Not fifteen minutes ago she’d seen it on Stefan’s face.

“Oh,” Elena whispered. She swallowed, her eyes clouding. “Oh, Bonnie … but I
can’t.”

“Why not?”

Tears were shining in Elena’s eyes now, and her lips were trembling. “What if things start to change? What if
he
comes, and …” She put a hand to her mouth and Bonnie remembered the last dream, with teeth falling like rain. Bonnie met Elena’s eyes with understanding horror.

“Don’t you see? I couldn’t stand it if something like that happened,” Elena whispered. “If he saw me like that… And I can’t control things here; I’m not strong enough. Bonnie, please don’t
let him through. Tell him how sorry I am. Tell him—” She shut her eyes, tears spilling.

“All right.” Bonnie felt as if she might cry too, but Elena was right. She reached for Stefan’s mind to explain to him, to help him bear the disappointment. But the instant she touched it she knew she’d made a mistake.