The Darkening (11 page)

Nicholas sat rigid beside his mother watching the news. A television reporter described how Winston Teale, second-generation owner of furniture retailer Teale & Nephew, had presented himself at Milton Police Station and told the desk sergeant where they could find the body of the missing Tallong child, Tristram Boye. The television flashed images of a small lump covered in a sheet being wheeled away from a demolition site not a kilometre from the police station, two suburbs from Tallong.

A week later, Katharine Close made Nicholas wear a tie for his court appearance. All through the hearing - including when the prosecutor asked Nicholas to point out the man who had chased him and Tristram on 1 November - Nicholas watched Winston Teale. The man no longer looked terrifying. He seemed smaller. His eyes shifted like caught mice in a cage, as if he couldn’t quite believe that he was in the docks of the Magistrates’ Court. And when Teale looked at Nicholas, there wasn’t a gram of recognition. He seemed even more confused by his own words during questioning.

‘You killed Tristram Boye?’

‘Yes.’ Teale’s voice was that of a smaller man.

‘How?’

‘I . . . I believe I cut his throat.’ He explained that he had used a carpet knife from his warehouse.

‘Why did you kill him?’

Teale blinked, frowning. The courtroom was so silent that Nicholas heard a train horn sound at the distant railway station.

‘Mr Teale?’ urged the magistrate.

‘I don’t remember.’

‘And transported him to the lot on the corner of Myner Road and Currawong Street?’

‘Yes.’ Teale’s voice was unconvincing.

‘How?’

Again, Teale shook his head. ‘My car. The boot of my car, I think. Yes . . .’ Teale shrugged and gave an apologetic smile.

Nicholas felt eyes on his neck, and looked behind.

His mother was watching him, a frown line dividing the brow between her eyes. Her lips smiled, but her eyes kept watching.

Winston Teale was convicted of murder and deprivation of liberty, but hanged himself with his shirt the night before he was due to be sentenced.

Nicholas had no more cause to jump the back fence and run past Mrs Giles on his way to visit the Boyes.

Cyclone season came and its hail-teeth winds blew away newspapers carrying the photo of his murdered friend.

One school year finished. The river flowed brown. The city sighed a mournful puff of car fumes and stale perfume and electric train ozone, then shrugged her steel shoulders and braced for her footpaths to be stamped upon by New Year’s drunks and her spiry hair stained bright by fireworks.

Time ticked on.

Katharine Close forbade her two children from ever again walking past the Carmichael Road woods.

6

2007

N
icholas watched his younger sister alight from the taxi, her chatty, white smile winking at the cabbie unloading her bags. He let the blinds fall and sank on the bed. Suzette hadn’t brought her husband on this trip to see her sad widower brother, nor her children.
I’ll be nice
, he decided.
Answer her questions. Accept her sympathy. Send her home tomorrow.

‘Your sister’s here!’ called Katharine brightly.

‘I know!’ called Nicholas in matching tone.

Rattling of the latch, the birdsong of greetings and compliments, rustling of plastic bags, the friendly thump of footsteps. Then Suzette was in the doorway, arms folded.

‘Get out of my room.’

The last time he’d seen her was at his wedding in Osterley Park. Her hair was longer, but she was still tall and pale and pretty, with a stance like a bouncer.

‘No.’

‘It’s my room.’

‘Not any more.’

‘I’ll tell Mum.’

‘Then you’d be a dirty little dob artist.’

‘MUUUM!’ she yelled, as brutally as a cheated fishwife. ‘Tell Nicholas to get out of my room!’

‘Nicholas, let your sister have her room back,’ called Katharine. The smile in her voice suggested she enjoyed this old game.

Nicholas sighed and got to his feet. He walked up to his sister. She grinned. He kissed her cheek. She grabbed him and squeezed him. He found himself sinking into the hug. She rubbed his back.

‘Dear, oh dear,’ she said.

Suzette felt him gently release himself from her hug, watched him turn his face away and suggest that while she unpacked he might ‘make some fucking tea or some shit?’, then he was down the hall. The room felt hardly emptier without him. She hadn’t expected him to look so . . . gone.

She stood in her old bedroom a moment, trying to reconcile the thin, insubstantial man with the voice she’d heard on the phone just a week ago. He had sounded so fine, so balanced and normal, that no alarm bells had rung. Suzette chastised herself. She prided herself on being sensitive to people, to being good at reading faces, decrypting moods and deciphering subtle expressions - yet this huge lapse had occurred and she’d missed her own brother slipping over that twilit border into a dark and alien place. How? He’d sounded so reasonable on the phone from London.
No, don’t come to the funeral. She’s gone. Thanks, but Nelson and Quincy need you there. Cate’s folks are looking after me. I’ll be fine.
Was he that good a liar? Or did he just say what she wanted to hear, absolving her of the need for that exhausting flight and the eviscerating drain of a funeral?

She lifted her suitcases onto the single bed. The springs let out a familiar squawk, recognising their old sleeping mate. She unzipped the larger case and pulled out her toiletry bag and make-up purse.

She’d failed. She and her mother both. Even before Cate’s accident, he’d had enough death for one lifetime. Now he looked like death himself.

‘Tea’s made!’ called Katharine from the kitchen, amid the staccato ticking of cutlery on china.

‘Okay!’

All this brightness. Pleasant voices and biscuits and tea. No wonder Nicholas was a mess. This was how they’d been taught to deal with grief and heartache: a cup of tea, then back to the washing or into work or on to the bills. Keep busy, don’t worry others, the world’s got enough problems of its own without yours. That was the Lambeth Street motto. Totally fucked.

‘Oy!’ called Nicholas.

‘Coming! Christ . . .’

Maybe it wasn’t too late. She was here, wasn’t she? She must have sensed something was wrong, because . . .

She pulled from her suitcase a small parcel wrapped in tissue paper. This might help. She slipped it into her pocket.

‘I don’t have sugar any more!’ she yelled sunnily, and hurried down the hall.

Katharine let her children wash up the dishes, casting her ear into their conversation like an angler who doesn’t really care if he catches a bite. Nicholas asked about his nephew and niece. Nelson was fine. His sixth birthday had a pirate theme and he got too many presents so Suze and Bryan returned half to the stores. Quincy was enjoying her pre-school and had taken to looking through Bryan’s old telescope at the moon, which pleased Suzette for some reason.

Katharine went and folded laundry. Her family was together again. Well, as much as it could be.

What was she supposed to do now? She was out of practice. Was she supposed to be wise? Was she supposed to explain how she’d coped when Don left? Was it time to tell them how her heart had risen to her throat when she saw two policemen at the door a few nights ago; that she’d had the helpless feeling of being wrenched back through time to a night thirty-odd years ago when two policemen knocked at the same door to tell her that there’d been a car accident and Don had been at the wheel? Was she supposed to make things right?

She folded the last towel, smoothing down a sharp crease. No. Her grief was her own, and Nicholas’s was his. He’d have to cope.

And the dead boy?
A child goes missing the night Nicholas returns. What does that mean?
Nicholas had lost a father, a friend, a wife . . . and now he was back and more death. What sort of a grim harbinger was he? She remembered the night he was born. It was a Sunday. Don’s smiles were peppered with frowns. ‘Funny day,’ he kept saying. Was it her bad luck passed on to him? Was it Don’s? Or was there something darker still?

‘Hey.’

Katharine jumped at Suzette’s voice at her shoulder.

‘Hay makes the bull fat,’ she replied, trying to disguise her racing heart. What had she been thinking? Such nonsense. Old wives’ tales and rubbish. ‘What are you up to?’

‘We’re going for a walk. Need anything?’

Katharine nearly blurted,
I need you to stay here
. She bit her tongue. Where had that come from? ‘Can you pick up some milk?’

A minute later, she was in Suzette’s bedroom, watching her children close the front gate behind them. They walked down towards Myrtle Street, just as they used to twenty-five years ago - her daughter, still with the mop of brown hair she’d had as a child, and her son, tall and fair but with a crane frame so familiar that Katharine could swear it was Donald walking away. The hairs on the back of her neck rose. She had a sudden urge to fling open the window and shout to her little girl, ‘Get away from him! He’ll get himself killed and you with him!’

She smoothed her dress to wipe the stupid thought away, then went to the lounge room and turned the TV on loud.

Nasturtiums blazed cold orange fire on the sloping banks that led down to the train tracks. Two pairs of silver rails curved like giant calligraphy around a far bend. They’d come from the nearby 7-Eleven and let themselves under a rusted chain-link fence to sit on mossy rocks at the top of the bank. From here they could look along to Tallong railway station and its sixty-year-old wooden walkway that crossed above the tracks. Beyond, red roofs and green roofs were peppered among the trees, marching up the suburb’s hills. They reminded Nicholas of pieces in a Monopoly set, playthings in some larger game. He chewed fruit pastilles. Suzette ate caramel corn from a brightly coloured bag. Overhead, clouds the colour of pigeon wings tumbled in loose ranks. Evening was coming.

The small talk was done. Nicholas had asked after Bryan (he was well, recovering from a cold), about the kids’ teachers (capable, but a bit soft with such wilful little blisters), about Suzette’s work as an investment advisor (going very nicely, thank you: two new corporate clients this month). As he finished his last sweet, the conversation fell into quiet and he braced himself for the turn of the tide. Suzette would start asking about him. She’d ask how he was holding up. She’d see if he’d visited a counsellor. She’d tell him it was okay to cry.