The Darkness to Come (2 page)

Then she noticed a slip of paper in his hand.

The bus schedule.

It must have fallen out of her carry-on bag when she’d lost her balance.
Oh, God.

He glanced at the schedule, and then turned an icy glare on her.

“You mind telling me where you were planning to go?”

He didn’t give her time to answer. He moved on her fast, and when she opened her mouth to plead, all she could do was scream . . . .

Part One

Chapter 1

“No . . . no!”

Snatched to alertness by his wife’s desperate cry, Joshua Moore bolted upright in bed. He’d never heard Rachel scream like that, and he was half-convinced that he was dreaming. He quickly realized that he wasn’t—his heart was knocking too hard.

Joshua grabbed his glasses from the nightstand, fumbled them on. The dark bedroom came into sharp focus. They were alone. Rachel was having a bad dream.

Bed covers pulled up to her chin, face concealed in darkness, Rachel whipped her head back and forth, bed springs creaking as she screeched at her dream assailant.

“
No, please . . .”

Joshua stared, mesmerized. He’d never seen Rachel suffer a nightmare; she normally slept as soundly as the dead. But she was in such a state of turmoil that he was afraid to touch her, worried that any physical contact might drive her into an uncontrollable frenzy.

Maybe he
was
dreaming.

Only a minute ago, he’d been lying on his back in their king-size bed, gazing at the alternating bands of coppery streetlight and shadow sifting through the Levoler blinds. Thinking about nothing in particular, floating on a cloud of quiet bliss, a new state of being for him.

A lifelong underachiever, Joshua had somehow arrived at a destination in his life that he never thought he’d reach: a place where he was genuinely happy. The woman who shared his bed had a lot to do with that.

Rachel was more than he’d ever expected to find in a woman—well, in a woman he’d thought would take a romantic interest in
him
. She was smart, sweet, and beautiful. Easygoing, ambitious, and funny. The kind of woman who could soothe a vicious dog with a smile, the kind of woman other women wanted to have as a best friend, the kind of woman to whom men longed to pledge their lives.

That past June, after only six months of dating, they had married.

Why she’d fallen in love with Joshua often mystified him. He didn’t consider himself particularly handsome, was awkward around women, and at the time they’d met, had earned a decent but unspectacular income as a graphic designer at a firm in downtown Atlanta. When his last girlfriend had dumped him, claiming that he bored her and she needed a man who provided more excitement, he’d resigned himself to the idea that he might be a bachelor for the rest of his life.

The saying was true: nice guys finished last. He definitely had been coming in last place every time he played the dating game.

All of that changed when he’d literally bumped into Rachel at a local museum. Dating her, and then, marrying her, had been an unbelievably smooth experience, as if a magic spell had been cast over their relationship to guarantee harmony. When his married friends spoke of how marriage required hard work, he didn’t know what they were talking about, and figured their complaints stemmed from and cynicism. Being married to Rachel wasn’t work; it was pleasure, each day bringing a deeper appreciation of each other and their love.

And one day soon you’ll leave the land of newlywed bliss, and wake the hell up,
his best friend, married a decade, often told him.
Reality’s gonna come crashing down hard on your ass, man.

Rachel shrieked again: “You bastard!”

Like right then.

Shaken, what Joshua really wanted to know was: who was Rachel fighting? She rarely swore, and he’d never heard her address anyone with a mixture of such rage and terror.

But it had to be a man. A woman would call only a man a bastard.

Although part of him wanted to wake her and put an end to her torment, another part of him was curious, and out of that curiosity, didn’t want to intervene. He wanted to wait and see if she would say something else that would clue him in on her relationship with this guy who, whoever he was, frightened her terribly.

She’d never mentioned a prior relationship with an abusive man. Actually, she never said much at all about her previous relationships. “What’s in the past is over and done with,” she would say with a shrug. “All that matters is that today, we’re together.” And with that, she would promptly change the subject.

He never pushed her for more details. He’d tell himself that she was right. What was done was done. Was the past really that important?

Yet, riveted, he watched her fling away the covers. She flailed her arms and kicked, as though trying to keep someone from climbing on top of her.

“Get off me, dammit!”

Beside the bed, Coco let loose a high-pitched bark. Coco was a cocoa-furred Chihuahua Rachel had acquired three years ago, when she’d relocated to Atlanta from Illinois. At nights, the dog slumbered in a pet kennel atop the nightstand on Rachel’s side of the bed.

Like most Chihuahuas, Coco was protective of the person she regarded as her master. Coco scratched at the bars of her cage, big eyes flashing in the darkness, four pounds of righteous fury.

The little dog shamed Joshua into action. He clicked on the bedside lamp.

Rachel’s caramel-brown face was twisted with her efforts to fight off her attacker, her dark, curly hair disheveled, delicate hands clenched as she shoved at an invisible body.

Joshua touched her shoulder. Her skin was clammy, but she didn’t respond to him.

This is my fault. I never should have let her go on this long
.

“Rachel, wake up.” He shook her gently. “It’s only a dream.”

But she was oblivious to him. She gagged, as if being choked, and her hands went to her neck, trying to pry away an imaginary stranglehold.

A cold finger tapped Joshua’s spine. There were ordinary nightmares that we all experienced sometimes—and then there were rare episodes of pure terror. This was becoming one of those scary, once-in-a-lifetime moments, and the responsibility fell to him, her husband, to help her.

Choking, Rachel kicked wildly, hands grasping at her neck. A thick vein pulsed in stark relief on her throat.

Coco was barking as if she were one of the hounds of hell.

Joshua grabbed Rachel’s wrists and pulled them away from her neck. It wasn’t easy—she had the desperate strength of someone fighting for her life.

“Rachel, wake up.”

“Get off!” Spittle sprayed his face. She thrashed like an angry snake.

Teeth gritted, he pressed her hands down to her sides. He braced his knee across her legs, to keep her from kicking him.

“Rachel, listen to me. It’s only a dream. Wake up.”

She turned to his voice, and finally, her eyes opened.

She had the most beautiful eyes he had ever seen, a light shade of brown flecked with gold that reminded him of autumn days—but at that moment, her eyes glistened with fear and confusion.

“It’s me, Josh. Everything’s okay. You were having a bad dream.”

She blinked, comprehension sinking into her face. She stopped her struggle, and sucked in sharp breaths. Perspiration shone on her brow.

“Just a bad dream,” he said.

“A dream?” Her voice, normally musical and confident, was as soft as a frightened child’s.

“Only a dream.”

A sob burst out of her. She threw herself into his arms. “Hold me.”

Joshua held her and whispered words of comfort. She squeezed him against her, fingernails dug into his back deeply enough to leave scratches.

Gradually, her sobs subsided. Her breaths grew deeper, and within a few minutes, she had drifted back to sleep. Coco, too, had settled down to slumber, the threat to her master vanquished.

Joshua laid Rachel on the bed, pulled the covers up to her chin. Although she had fallen back to sleep, sleep eluded him.

He studied his wife’s face.

When people spoke of beautiful black women, names often mentioned were Halle, Janet, Beyonce. All of them were gorgeous ladies, but Joshua placed his wife in a class of her own. He had married the woman of his dreams and found her far more appealing than some distant, probably airbrushed celebrity.

But there was much he didn’t know about her. He knew the basics, of course: she was thirty years old, two years younger than him, had never been married or had children, drank alcohol socially but didn’t smoke, had grown up in Illinois the only child of parents who’d died when she was in her teens, and had carved out a successful career as a hair stylist. She loved Mexican food, white wine, novels by Alice Walker, museums, comedy films, vacations to the beach, and dogs.

But he’d never met any of her family, or any of her friends that she’d known before she moved to Atlanta. At their wedding, the guest list was composed mostly of his own friends and family, the only people on her side being co-workers and friends from her hair salon. She explained that her family was small, scattered across the country, and didn’t keep in touch. And she’d never been the kind of woman who entertained a large roster of friends. She was a loner, she told him, a symptom of growing up an only child.

Joshua had accepted her explanations about her past. There was no reason for her to lie to him. He loved her, she loved him, and he and took what she told him at face value.

 But . . . as he gazed at her closed eyes, puffy from her tears, anxiety quivered through him. The nightmare had passed, but a question hung over him like sour smoke.

Who had she been fighting in her dream?

* * *

Sleeping fitfully, Joshua awoke at five-thirty, much earlier than usual for him. Rachel was still dozing.

That was good. He wanted to talk to her before she left for work. Because Rachel owned a hair salon, she typically rose early and headed out the door while he was still bleary-eyed.

He put on a t-shirt and sweat pants, padded downstairs, and brewed a pot of coffee.

They lived in a two-story, four-bedroom home on the south side of metro Atlanta. They’d moved into the house five months ago, and Joshua was still getting used to the place. It was far more spacious than the one-bedroom condo he’d lived in for the past few years, and far more luxurious than anything he’d ever aspired to own. At times, Joshua felt as if his life there was temporary, as if he were only house-sitting until the rightful owner returned to reclaim it.

It was the same way he sometimes felt about Rachel. As if his time with her was doomed to be short-lived. At such moments of doubt, he was convinced that something was going to happen that would take her away from him. She was going to get bored with him, like his ex-girlfriend, and file for divorce. She was going to get diagnosed with terminal cancer. She was going to die in a car wreck. Something tragic was fated to occur that would tear them apart.

He had to learn how to let go of his baseless worries, and live in the moment. Seize the day, as Rachel liked to say.

But he kept mulling over her nightmare. His desire to talk to her about it was like an ache in his chest.

He poured a cup of coffee. He’d left one of his laptops on the kitchen’s island yesterday, and he switched on the machine to check his email.

As the computer booted-up, he sipped coffee and looked around, feeling an odd yet compulsive need to reassure himself of the realness of his life.

Although they had lived there for only a short period, Rachel had thrown herself into decorating their home with a passion. She’d had some rooms painted bold colors, deep reds and bright yellows; other areas were soothing shades of beige and green. Framed artwork adorned the walls, striking prints of ebony-hued men and women and photographs of beaches and oceans, and hand-carved, wooden figurines from Ghana decorated the end tables.

In celebration of Christmas, only a week away, a lush, lighted wreath garlanded the fireplace. A seven-foot high artificial Douglas fir towered in the family room, boughs bedecked with glittering ornaments and twinkling lights; a smaller, similarly decorated tree stood in the living room, near the bay window. Collectibles of honey-skinned Santa Clauses, angels, and elves stood here and there, spreading holiday cheer.

Virtually every room featured photos of Rachel and Joshua. Romantic snapshots of their honeymoon in Hawaii. Pictures of them at various restaurants, or attending parties with friends. Tons of photos from their wedding.

Although it was a large home, it was cozy, rich with the warmth of the life they had created together. Looking around took the edge off Joshua’s anxiety. Turning back to the computer, he went online to check his business email.

Four months ago, Joshua had left the graphic design firm where he’d been employed for several years and started a freelance graphic design business. He had long aspired to branch out on his own, but self-doubt had always prevented him from making the move.

Rachel had encouraged him to pursue his dream. She did very well with the hair salon, she said, and she could afford to keep their household running while he got his business up and running. “You’re going to be successful,” she had told him. “You’re talented and hard-working. I know it’s going to work for you. I have a good feeling about it, baby.”

Her confidence in him was all the push he needed. He launched Moore Designs with a few thousand dollars in start-up capital, a couple of computers loaded with design software—and an iron determination to prove that his wife’s faith in him was well-placed.

Business had been going well, better than he had expected. He specialized in book cover designs for small and large publishers, corporate identity packages, brochures, posters, and Web site design.

Although he’d begun as a one-man shop and hadn’t planned on hiring employees anytime soon, due to demand he’d begun farming out certain projects to independent contractors. If business continued to grow at its current rate, he would need to bring on full-time help within a year.