The Divorce Party (3 page)

“How have you never mentioned that?” she asks.

He shrugs. “Would you want to mention that?”

It isn’t a bad point. But, inadvertently, she must make a face because Nate looks pretty nervous.

“Wow,” he says, “you’re never going to have sex with me again, are you? Who would? Who would have sex with someone named Champ?”

She starts to laugh, and grabs the back of his neck, holds him. He is blushing—Nate, Champ, whoever—really blushing. And it makes Maggie feel bad that she mentioned the envelopes.

“It has nothing to do with you. I just don’t think it was very nice of your parents, that’s all,” she says, making him meet her eyes. “Or your grandfather’s parents . . .”

Nate nods, putting the envelopes down. “No kidding,” he says. He looks at Maggie in a way she does recognize—in a way that tells her he needs to say something that is hard for him to say. “But I think that’s why I couldn’t really sleep.”

“What?” she says. “You thought someone would call you Champ and blow your cover?”

But he isn’t laughing. “Truthfully? I’m a little nervous for you to meet my family.”

“Why? Because of the divorce?”

She looks at him carefully, his sweet and handsome face. She reaches out to touch it with the back of her fingers. She would understand if he was nervous for her to meet his parents because of their impending divorce, but he keeps insisting that he is okay with it. He keeps insisting that his parents have just had
a partingof ways
since his father decided he wanted to convert to Buddhism and started moving his life in that direction. He keeps insisting that his parents, together, decided this meant their lives were going in very different directions. After thirty-five years together.
How can Nate be so okay with that?
Maggie’s wondered to herself more than once. Isn’t it the point of marriage— Maggie can’t make herself ask out loud—that you figure out how to make the different directions meet?

“There are just things,” he says, “important things that you should know before we go. Things that I probably should have told you before now.”

She tries to figure out how to say it so he hears her. “Nate, they could have three heads, and it wouldn’t change anything. I don’t care,” she says.

And she doesn’t. Historically, she would have. But historically she has been the one in any relationship looking for the way out. It used to take less than half a reason for her to look for an exit: someone’s parents, someone’s use of cologne, someone’s affection for Sting. But with Nate it is different, has been different from the beginning.

“Like what?” she says. “Your parents are actually going to stay married?” She is joking around, but he isn’t biting.

“I’m not sure you’re ready to hear.”

“I’m ready to hear,” she says. “Of course I’m ready to hear. Do I need to remind you that my childhood was not
Leave It to Beaver
?”

And it wasn’t. Unless you consider being raised alone by a less-than-fully-grown-up bar and grill owner in Asheville, North Carolina,
Leave It to Beaver.
Unless you consider Eli Mackenzie’s well-intentioned, but ill-advised choices—like having his fifteen-year-old daughter help with midnight shifts at the bar so they could have more time together—idyllic.

Nate smiles. “Wasn’t
Leave It to Beaver
a little before your time?”

Nate is four years older than Maggie is. He likes to pretend he is ten years older. Or, when it serves his purposes, a hundred. “Just tell me,” she says.

“You sure?”

“No time like the present.”

But then she puts her nose to his neck—and a heavy smell, like a swirling heat, like a combination of salmon and bad milk, comes back at her. “Jeez. What on earth is that smell? Do I even want to know?”

“Not good?” he says.

“No.” She shakes her head. “Not good.”

“That is Johnson the Contractor’s homemade one-hundred-herb gel. Complete with garlic extract and dried fish flakes from a sorcerer in Chinatown. He carries around a huge jelly jar of the stuff, and swears that it will relieve any residual pain I feel from last night’s labor.”

“Well, I hope it does, but . . . yuck,” she says, and for some reason, moves in closer to get a more pungent whiff. “That is one of the worst things I’ve ever smelled. You are maybe one of the worst things I’ve ever smelled.”

“That may be good news.”

“How do you figure?”

“Because when you move away from me when I tell you this next thing I’m going to tell you, I can blame it on the gel.”

“I’m ready,” she says, covering her eyes, in an exaggerated fashion, pretending that she is bracing herself, as if for a doctor’s needle shot, flinching in anticipation.

“It’s about my family’s money situation. It’s about what you would have found out if you opened those envelopes.”

She uncovers her eyes, meets his. She feels herself breathe out, feeling terrible that this is what he’s worried about. She has already made the assumption that while Nate’s family may be fairly comfortable—his father a pediatrician, his mother a former art teacher—they are certainly not very comfortable, considering that even with the restaurant’s silent investor, even with Eli giving them a little help, Maggie and Nate have been scrimping and saving and scrimping more, and taking out loans from three banks starting with the letter
W
and two different ones starting with
C
. Apparently, actually, three banks that start with
C
.

But maybe she was wrong to assume that Gwyn and Thomas were even fairly comfortable. Even if Nate did grow up out in Montauk. Maybe she was wrong to assume.

“I don’t care about that, Nate,” she says. “How can you think I’d care about that? Your family’s money situation . . . it makes no difference to me.”

“Really?”

She nods. “I promise you.”

“Good,” he says, putting his mouth on her forehead. “Because my family has close to half a billion dollars.”

Gwyn

There are rumors, you know. There are always rumors. Rumors that people take as truth without ever getting to it.

You know, what the actual story is.

This bothers Gwyn. Rumors, half-truths. Like: with the cake, just as an example. The red velvet cake. The rumor with the red velvet cake is that it was invented—that the first one was made—at the restaurant in the Waldorf-Astoria Hotel in New York City in the early 1900s. The story goes that the pastry chef there made a cake one night using red dye, and a hotel guest liked the cake so much that she asked for the recipe, only to find out at checkout that she had been billed several hundred dollars for it. When she tried to complain, the hotel refused to remove the charge. Looking to get even, she spread the recipe to all her friends, all over the country. And all her friends forwarded it on to all of their friends. . . .

The point is that it’s a charming story, but it’s crap. Gwyn knows this. She knows the real story of the red velvet cake, its real history, is less like a fun rumor and more like a warning. The real story, about anything, in Gwyn’s recent experience, is often more like a warning.

Of how things go wrong.

Of how they go.

She sighs—she is not normally a sigher, but she sighs— thinking about it. Then she checks the car clock: 9:15 A.M. Gwyn has been sitting here for a half hour already, in the small parking lot at the East Hampton airport, in her red Volvo wagon. Thomas was supposed to have landed by now. But, of course, he hasn’t. At these small airports, you can’t count on things to go as planned. And besides, Gwyn should be blaming herself, if anyone. She is the one who organized it so that Thomas would get back from his medical conference the morning of their party. It took quite a bit of finagling, in fact, to orchestrate it this way: an overnight flight from LAX to JFK; a second private flight out here. She wanted—no, she needed—Thomas to get back now, this late in the game, so she would know what to do with him, how to keep him busy, so that her plans for tonight stayed in motion, without disruption, exactly as she planned them.

She isn’t confident, though. Not about any of it going the way she needs it to. Except for the cake. She is confident about the cake. Because she is good at making it, and because it is Thomas’s favorite. It is his favorite thing that she makes for him. It was the first thing she ever made for him: their first date, the two of them sitting on the roof of her building in New York City. The only building she ever lived in in the city, on Riverside Drive. The best thing that it had going for it was its proximity to Columbia (where she had been enrolled at the Teachers College), and its roof—the piece of the river that the roof looked out over. Thomas brought a bottle of wine with him—a 1945 Château Mouton-Rothschild. And they sat on the roof until 2 A.M., eating the red velvet cake, sharing sips of the wine straight from the bottle.

Of course, the wine could have been from the corner deli for all she knew. She didn’t have any idea then that the wine was worth thousands and thousands of dollars. (Thomas didn’t either. He just grabbed a bottle from his father’s wine cellar before heading in to the city to see her.) Especially, at twenty-two, she wouldn’t have agreed to drink it if she had known.

But Gwyn knew the most important thing that first night, even if she hadn’t wanted to. Thomas got the last piece of cake. There was the sweet arguing back and forth—
you take it, no you take it
—but Thomas got it. It makes it fitting, then, that he will get the last piece now too.

Her phone rings, loud, too loud, even from the bottom of her bag. She searches for it, hoping it is Eve. Let it be Eve. This is the woman Gwyn has hired to cater tonight’s party. Eve Stone of Eve’s Kitchen. Quogue, New York.

Gwyn has been trying to reach her, all morning, to no avail, and all she can think is that she has no idea how to do this.

She has no idea how to plan this divorce party tonight. She has been to a few divorce parties. And there are plenty of books she’s found that encourage the idea of having a healing divorce, of celebrating it—
Filing Is Not Failing; The Last Dance You Can Dance; Good-bye Can Be Another Word for Hello!
But they are for people who aren’t secretly laughing at the idea of a divorce party, people who buy into something Gwyn is only pretending to buy into.

That things can end well.

That things can—just—end.

She flips open her phone right after the fourth ring. “Eve?” she says. “Is that you?”

“Who’s Eve? No, Mom. It’s me.”

Me is Georgia. Gwyn’s daughter. Gwyn’s daughter who has no idea what is really happening with her parents. Not her daughter, not her son. Yes, they know their parents are getting divorced. She has been trying to shield them from the rest. Or, at least, this is what she’s told herself. But maybe her motives aren’t as pure as that. Maybe she hasn’t told them everything because, once she does, there is no going back. Once she’s said the words out loud, about what’s really going on, she can’t decide to believe something else.

“What’s going on, sweetheart?” Gwyn asks, adjusting the phone in her hand. “Is everything okay?”

"Defiine ‘okay.’ ”

“Are you in labor?”

“Not that I’m aware of.”

“Good.” Gwyn nods. “That’s good.”

That is good. Even if Gwyn knows that Georgia gets annoyed every time she asks, it is a relief to her. Georgia has been in from L.A., staying with Gwyn for the last couple of weeks while her French boyfriend, Denis (pronounced, as Georgia loved to remind them, as if they’ve ever gotten it wrong, Den-
ee
), has been making a record with his band in Omaha, Nebraska. Twenty-five-year-old Georgia, who is eight and a half months pregnant. Eight and a half months pregnant with the baby of a man she has known for ten and a half months. Not the wisest course of action, if anyone asked Gwyn’s opinion on the matter. But no one did.

No one asked her opinion on Maggie either. Maggie, who Gwyn has only talked to on the phone, but who has a laugh that Gwyn likes, a laugh that Gwyn trusts, especially because she has learned, over time, that the way someone laughs often mirrors who they are. How they are. Maggie’s laugh is empathetic, giving. She’ll take either of those qualities for Nate. She’ll gladly take both.

“Mom.”

“Georgia.”

“Did Dad’s plane land yet? I need to talk to him. Denis cut his hand on a corkscrew and he doesn’t want to get on a plane to come here if there is something really wrong with it. If he needs to go to a hospital in Omaha or something. It’s his left hand. He needs it to work properly. He is the bass player.”

“What if he was the drummer? Would it not matter then?”

“Mom, please be serious. I need Daddy to tell Denis what to do.”

Daddy. Georgia still looks to him to tell her what to do, still finds it easy to be his child. Will it be the same with Denis and Georgia’s kid—the love with the father easier, longer? Why does it always seem to go that way? The love going to the one who is around a little less, and therefore seems to deserve it a little more?

“I’ll have him call you.”

“Thank you,” she says. And then, as if something occurred to her, her voice gets louder. “Oh, and will you also tell him that that woman from the meditation center called the house again? I couldn’t understand exactly what she was saying, but she wants Dad to call her. She said his cell phone isn’t working. She said that he would know what she was calling about.”

Gwyn feels her heart seize. Another call for Thomas. From the meditation center. How on earth did they get here? Gwyn is the daughter of a southern minister—a southern minister who heads a congregation near Savannah, Georgia, of twenty-five hundred people. And for the first several years of their marriage she could barely get Thomas to go home with her for Easter, for Christmas. He would agree, grudgingly, only after saying that it made him feel like a hypocrite. To pretend to believe. He is a doctor, a man of science. This is where he is placing his bets.
It doesn’t have to be one or the other,
she used to tell him.

Yes,
he would say.
It does.